love's not mine .

sunday ~
was stayiing at home tryiing to get people to accompany me go out , but hmmms . no one . really ~~ .. woke up in the afternoon around 1 something and was sitting there wondeering what wil happen in the evening or later ? thinking that todae was gonna be a very bad day , with a very depress mood and everything .. so down .. everything was just not right , and not what i wished for .. around 3 something , just got the mood to go out , but i stil cant find anyone .. joke ehs ? hmmms . feel like shopping and going esplanade so decide to go marina square shopping which is around esplanade , and i can sit at any of the view which can see esplanade .. so i can do many things at one time . =D .. hmmms . was slacking around at home , cant bear to go and bathe .. lols . stil thinking should i go out alone .. den i didn't care anymore cos staying at home wil kill my emotions and me becos i had just finish crying for unvalid reasons .. slack til 4 something .. force myself to bathe and prepare . . calling my father to get 1oo bucks to 2 .. but his fone was like hangiin . and no one can get through him .. was pek chek enuf becos it was late already and i even told myself to get out of the house by 5.3o or 5 .. sat there and was doing my make up .. after 45 mins of calling , i finally get through . my father answered .. becos he was at woodlands and sometimes the damn reception wun get through .. ROAR .. lols . so went down and bought a menthol grape sweet !! lols . and a cute pink lig* tsk , singapore is so shi bai * .. lols . so i asked for a 1oo bucks and he was like " omg , what the hell ue need it for " .. i said , " shopping " . he said " with who , where ? [ normal questions , he always asked ] * i replied " alone . alone . hmmms . [ my tears was wondering around my eyes , damn ] .. " .. he don believe but i say , no , just alone . why ? and he had nothing to say , so diam diam .. whee . was actually going to meet him at mq but he said he was coming to fetch me and asked me to stay at home !! so i was like , omg , omg , i need lighter , later in car how to buy ?! .. den he said he was coming in 2o mins time , so i went down when time was nearly 2o mins .. was so excited nawh , going out alone nehs , shopping somemore .. hter .. lols .. den thinking my father was going to reach , i called him . he said damn 1o mins more . and i was like so lonely downstairr .. sobx ..so after waiting for 1o mins , it was already 6 ! .. i was like , omg ... den he came after 5 mins , he was late for 15 mins . hmmms . when went up to car , he gave me the money and fetch me there . yup . reach there around 6.3o .. so walked alone . den zhu zhu call me oh . find that idert .. but he not with me oh , whakakas . so start my shopping around .. all the way listening to my mp3 .. hehes . first shop i went was the shop which was quite big nawh , dunno what name . was looking at the duan ku .. whee , quite nice oh .. so thinking if i should buy .. den the auntie came .. so kind oh . hehes . talking so good . den i go in try . den she keep take clothes in . hehes . but in the end i only buy one duan ku . hehes . got offer oh . dunno 2o% or 1o% arhs . hehes . so happy . oh ya , that day i go shopping , alot last day offer nehs . hehes . so heng oh . den went to second shop .. ice lemon tea .. wa , buy one get one free oh , if not is offer til si bei kua zhang lar .. hehes . den jiu go see shirt .. whee . see two i like de but very ex ehs . she bu de ~~ whakakas . den buy another de , den the other free de i took the one i always wanted to have .. hehes . want to buy skirt de . but very very damn short , hmms . scared wear le very throw face .. hehes . den walk around .. saw the nice .. damn .. 6 for 2 buck only lar . so pek chek , tsk .. den the acessories , also 6 for $1o .. den i buy . dice i never buy nawh . so many . hang where den waste my $2 .. whakakas . so buy le jiu go out oh .. den walk around jiu walk til one shop .. went in , den all the shirts hang high high de . damn .. jeans all waiwai de . lols .. den saw 2 i like . one black one white . den go try .. hehes . prefer the black de , den buy nor . also got offer oh . 2o% i think . forget le .. whakakas . den buy le jiu go walk walk .. go in few shop but nothing .. den saw one shop de skirt , but very long and short de not really nice ,. the cutting so shucks !! jiu never buy le .. den no where to go le .. hehes . oh ya , nearly buy the press water de , at the cute cute shop .. think is that time that idert say de .. but see le , jiu don wan . so din te .. no where to put in my room . lols .. soon nawh , maybe wil buy .. whakakas . den after that jiu walk walk , go more than words . so big so siians .. hahas . wanna buy the voodo doll de . go pierce die that sylvester lo .. but hao xin de me stil never buy .. hmmms .. fang guo ta .. den i jiu go outdoor .. go smoke ~~ shhh ~~ den that idert say he coming le . den i ask him come fetch me .. very lazy .. cos i wanna go suntec .. hahas . den befer go down taxi stand . walk pass one shop .. 5o% arhs !! den kan zhong one shirt . green shirt . nice nors .. $14.5o nia .. lols . wanted to buy de .. but think think got a feelin that idert wan come le . so never buy . roar . so hou hui . hmmms . all that idert fault .. den rush down cos he call le .. den go suntec nors . hmms . walk walk den saw one necklance . since never buy dao necklance so i buy nors .. hehes . princess de .. so kawaii . lalas . den we walk walk , so siian at suntec .. den we go toy'r's .. whee . go play .. lols . den i go the baby de department .. den got one uncle walk .. den i suddenly thought of something " ehs , why am i walking there arhs ? lols " .. den walk away . whakakas . so obsence nors . lalas . den go arcade .. den very very fast jiu papa come le .. so dui bu qi tat idert .. come le awhile den must go . lols . den i say , " wil bu chang de " .. hehes . den go home .. den papa so surprise i buy so less tings . say why 12o [ 2o is mine ] .. den buy so less things . den i say " uncle arhs . singapore things not cheap arhs . got offer very good le hors .. " lols . den take out the shirt give him see ... rmb the black shirt i last bought ? is the lastest design and the newest design in the shop larhs . !! and he say can buy in thailand easily .. tsk .den i pek chek ask him buy tickets , tmr straight away go thailand .. lols . say i buy hundred of shirts and ku zi give him see . lols . qian ma nawh . .lols .. den reach home aiya . forget what happen le .. hahas . oh ya .try clothes , take photo but i cant upload on blog . tsk .. hehes . i'll try kaes .. den quite early jiu orh orh le .. cos tired .. yawn .. that ends for my nice sunday . i'll hang out every week or when i feel like going out myself le .. no one shall pei me unless people jio me out .. whakakas. some nawh .. some i don wan go out with de , i wun go out de , rather be alone . whhee .. hehes ..

monday ~
omg , todae's a bad day + a okay day .. hees . same arhs , went to sch early morning .. sing song and everything . home econ lessons and then recess , was messaging with my danbai nearly the whole day . den got music , eng and then science .. so tong ku seh .. hehes . todae whole day didn't even sleep in class , only slept 1o mins in home econ lessons . cos we was at the lab . whaakakas . so shuang , but vvery cold nawh . damn .. so cold so cold ~~ grrrr ~~ .. everything was alright til after sch nawh .. cos patrick they all say wan watch movie , but after that all got daiji , dunno what fight de shit .. i don care . ~~ den all lost .. den i and joey go out find them .. one bunch of guys , so kong bu sitting there and standing nawh . all talking . like no prob nehs . den keep ask patrick he keep give loads of quest . den my papa there le . den tuo quite long den force joey go first .. den we go down great world walk walk .. den they come .. hmms . so pek chek nawh . buy tix le never call us .. den me and joey got to buy ourselves .. den they went in without saying or what . kaos . go in le . cannot find them . cal them , no one ans .. den find find find . den sit down watch .. watch the show what nacho libre or dunno what de nawh .. den after that finish le we go toilet .. fark . patrick stand there scare us . but i never tio scare lar , cos i already saw him standing there . but he scare dao meverick . den meverick jump up . den fan ying so kua zhang lar. he ji tao punch patrick lors . den i xia dao . stand beside shao lun see them fight . so pai seh lar . den cannot tahan , actually don wanna care de .. den shout at meverick at the cinema there , but we stil inside there nawh . den shout like hell den walk away .. so tong ku .. hais . den quarrel til very loud .. now all never talk .. haiis . another reason also i throw my temper on him nawh .. haiis . hmmms . kaes nawh . don talk about this after noon le . talk bout now , hehes . me , gerl [ babymint ; huishan ] , tianlong and sylvester lo jiao jiao .. lols . chao hao xiao nors .. gerl come in jiu talk den take them as invisible .. actually very noisy de , but now all cold le .. den syl wan go down buy cigg but scared , lols .. gerl and me left 4 sticks .. syl no more le .. lols . tianlong dunno lar . pek chek him .. lols .. okays nawh . going to concentrate on talking to them liao . hehes . go do other things le .. bye bye arhs .. whakakas .. gerl so kai xin guo . so LIAN ARHS !! hahas .. hao nawh . see ya arhs .. byeiies .


darling gerl ` i don wanna be her , it hurts .. she hurts people and they hurt her too .. why . she don understand what has she done wrong .. let me goo .. hmmms .. sick and tired of life .