I shouldn't talk much,my ah boy's making too much noise and i'm breaking the rule by smoking in the room.If suddenly,my dad wakes up,i'm gonna die. I'll soon update,tmr i guess. (: Anw,this is weirong and xinda's b'day.Had a little of fun. (:

alamak,so small,didn't expect it to be so small.I took it from Dasmond Koh's blog.
In case you don't know,let me give you his link,www.dasmondkoh.com (:
Read it from above,not below ok. if not no more joke for you. lalalas~
Click it to en-large honey pies.

where has they exactly gone to.
and i miss you girls so much,that nothing is important to me anymore.
i wonder how,and why,but i couldn't get an answer.
where have you been,my baby girls.
it hurts to see your things get thrown away by dad,
it hurts to sit in your room and wonder where the whining has gone to.
it hurts to take your toy and look at it,remembering the way you played with it.
it hurts to look at your water bottle and thinking of the way you drink it.
it hurts to open the cage,and nothing jumps out of it.
it hurts to sit on the chair,looking that no one is there.
remembering the way i touch you,i couldn't forget the warmth in you.
it hurts for everything,about the both of you.
i still couldn't forget when i thought i had.
its still the pain,the never ever healing wound.
the question is just one,
when will you girls come back in my arms....

REPLIES TO ALL TAGS. anw guys,thanks for those comforting words,but there's nothing i could find to make me happy,apologies for that.But a big hug for all of you (:

by : no,i can't make it (:

pat : its just so difficult to let go. Is it easy for you,if i ask you to let go the ones you love,all of a sudden? )':

passer : (: he knew about the virus,he should tell me beforehand. isn't that the right thing he should do? but anw,thanks.

OWS : (: alrights,thanks bestie.

xin : i miss them,so much.

ahjoycie : (:! Long time no see.

psby : Yes,i bought them from pasir ris farm,and now they're both infected with a fatal disease,that will attack their lungs then brain.and many things that make them suffer are happening to them now. They're currently back at the farm i bought them from.The guy said that its curable.But to all doctors i've seen,its non-curable.Who should i trust?

passer : $900 plus.

JEHM : Hey dear,i don't think i'll be able to make it. No mood and also,i've got something on that day(: miss you so much!

Hannah : try my best too dear(: thanks!

hongling : I'm still in sec 4 darling.Get my number from me on msn , not here ! (: but for you,which poly are you going?

rachel[: : Enjoy your trip(:

tim : no more puppies ):

passerby♥ : they're really damn adorable,right ? (:

I cry in the morning,in the night. Always praying,always missing my babies.
How is that possible,i still don't understand.
Am i really in fault for not taking good care of them? Or just what is it?
I've done my best.
I promise dad not to be out in the night anymore,to go to sch everyday,and to take care of them really well and to go out really less.
I wanted to fulfil my promises,and i was half-way to it.
They were what i want,they were the ones that made me wanna fulfil all these no one thought i could do.
But now they're gone,give me reasons,why should i fulfil these promises.
Its hurting me badly.
I couldn't smile,i couldn't laugh,and as it seems,its just so fake.

The min someone makes me think of them,it just feels like another thousands of needles and kettles of boiling water spills me.
I look at the other puppies on the streets,where had mine gone to.
The bloody bastard told me i could visit them.
I told him the day before ytd that i was going to visit them ytd.
And at first,he said ok.Then he said no.
He said he brought them to the vet,and again,they're isolated in a corner.
Not sure when will they be back,and i only can go next week .
If he ever dare to give the permission to put them to sleep,i really don't know what i'll do to him.

Mood hasn't been good ever since they're gone.I feel like a shit stuck in a asshole.
I just feel its so unfair,till today.
My baby girls just don't deserve what they have to go through.
These heartaches,its staying,its never gonna heal.
Due to the really bad mood nowadays,to all people and especially schoolmates,
just don't step on my tail hanging behind.
Probably i'll just vent all my anger on you,and i don't know what will happen.
Its so crazy,just don't think its a joke and joke about my girls.
I'll bloody smack your face.


I'm feeling unwell,i vomitted in my dad's car ytd,and everything taste tasteless.
Only when my baby girls gone,everyone's birthday around the corner.
Fuck,tell me where to find the mood to celebrate.
Its Rong and Da birthday later on.
Then comes Judy birthday on sat.
Then my cutest nephew birthday on Sun.
what the? then very soon,comes girlfriend b'dae.
Kc bro birthday. How am i gonna laugh , smile , play .....
Its pure shit,i just feel like god dosen't loves me,anymore )':

Heart aches and breaks. My tears are now dried up,there's no more i could drop.
There was nothing i could do to help,i could only look at them helplessly.
I'll never forget singing to them twinkle twinkle little stars to sleep,from the first day...
Till days when i realise they couldn't sleep,i would sing to them,peacefully.
They would lie and sleep in my arms,soundly.
They looked like angels of mine,making my day,no matter how naughty they were.
I remember worrying for them,sending them to the clinic for check-up.
I only realise then,that there was a virus going on at pasir ris farm.
Puppies are most likely to get them and the virus's fatal.
I pray hard,wishing my girls would fight them off,but none of them did )':
Inky had blood in her poo one morning i woke up finding.
Thought it was nothing because bian bian had it before,too heaty.
Bathe her,and she was shivering hard.thought she was afraid and cold,but it turn out no.
She started vomitting and i started worrying real hard.

I tried calling many clinics,searching their number online,but none was open.
Due to it was a sunday.
I manage to get a number,to the hospital for pets.
I started losing control,i started crying,asking them what to do.
I had to rush them down,it was a emergency.
They just thought Inky was ill like many others,they treated her.
She had fever going up as high as 40.5degree. It was really difficult to see her suffering.
She was my favourite one,but i'm not bias.
She was hospitalised in the end,and i felt really helpless.

Miss Valerie Ng [ my vet for my puppies ],checked Ice-T too,she was really healthy.
She was ok , for the rest of the day,really hyper,really making my day.
I know that she was missing Inky,without her by her side,
because they've been spending 2months and few weeks tgt.
It really hurts but i had sch the next day and i was really tired,
i had to sleep.
I woke up by a dream of them,and i heard a whining outside.
I thought she was afraid of the dark,wanting me to accompany her,it was 4 plus in the morning.
I switched on the light,stayed with her.Then i saw something.
She started shaking her head as though like people with some illness,that they wil bite their tongue and shiver,and have white foam coming out of their mouth.
Her saliva became like bubbles , foam , and it started coming up.I got really a big fright,i had to call baby.
After shivering and everything,she will start to become really hyper ..
I started hugging her and cry,i didn't want something to happen to her.
Baby had to rush here,and we took care of her till 8 plus,i had to go to sch.
And dad fetched Ice-T and baby to the hospital.
It was a emergency again,and it really breaks my heart to see baby's message,saying it 100%,Ice-T's infected with the virus.
Its so fatal that this is only one of the symtoms,then it would affect her lungs,then her brain.
The reason why after shivering , shaking her head real hard and foaming and she become really hyper active,is because the virus is already attacking her brain. That made her became a little crazy that she had no choice but to jump around,shaking her tail,as though she was happy.

After sch,girlfriend and me,plus baby and daddy went to pasir ris farm to confront that guy.
His fox tail just drop out,accidently saying that he knew about the virus.
The first injection was for them to see if they could fight the virus.
It was nonsense,he was just talking nonsense )':
They were two more sisters inside his farm,it was Inky and Ice-T's sisters .
One really look like Ice-T,but the other was black and white but she resembles them too.
I couldn't control these emotions again,i had to cry,real hard.
Dad said that no matter what,Inky and Ice-T will have to be given back to him,
because we couldn't afford their hospital fees,neither we know what will happen to them.
The guy said ok to refund us the money,but we have to bring my girls to him.
I was feeling weak enough,i just didn't want to continue.
We went to the hospital,and it was also close to visiting hours.
So i had the chance to be with other dog lovers to go in.
Ice-T had to be isolated,in a room,all by herself,alone.And i really couldn't stand the pain to see her . I had my tears rolling,fast.
She knew i was there,she stood up,i know she wanted me to go in,to have her in my arms,and so we could feel each other the last time.
But i couldn't go in,they wouldn't allow me to.
I went to look at Inky after that,yes,she was getting better,but it was sure whether she was infected with the virus too,because they're from the same mother,same farm,and they had been playing together.
She regconise me too,but she was better,i could open her door.
I hugged her in my arms,looking at the drip on her.The needle,her blood.
I sang softly to her,twinkle twinkle little stars,how i wonder what you are.Up above the world so high,like a diamond in the sky,twinkle twinkle little star,how i wonder what you are.
She knew my smile,she knew what good girl means.I had to repeat,for so long.
I had her in my arms,as though she was someone closer than anybody else to me.
She started sleeping,so peacefully,so quietly . I had baby to take her picture and it was beautiful.
She wouldn't want to leave my arms when i had to put her back.I knew she cried.
We just didn't know what to do.

Dad and baby had their discharge forms done,we had to bring them back.
Again,in my arms,Inky slept really quietly.
Ice-T in baby's arms,slept really nice too.But she had to wake up now and then,
because of the shivering and foaming thing.It really hurts to see her suffer , so much.
Dad said it wasn't my fault,it wasn't our fault to what they are now.
Because we really did took care of them well,it was the guy's fault for not telling us,
and selling us the both of them.
I believe in fate alot,i believe it was destined for us to spent their days with them before they suffer much. Before,maybe,they're gone.
We brought them back,the guy started changin his words,saying it can be cured.
but doctors already said that it cannot be cured !
And said that he thinks that Ice-T couldn't make it anymore,so he would refund us $400,
and he would take care of Inky till she becomes better.And return us.
Dad insisted,because we do not know what he would give them.

Its painful,i see them in the cage,looking at me walking away.
I told that guy,to better take good care of them,and never ever put them to sleep.
They're my babies,and he don't have the right to do anything to them.
I don't have,financially to take good care of them.So i had to depend on others.
It was really pain to let them go,it was really hard to see them suffer.
I had my eyes swollen,seriously.
Who would understand the pain i'm going through.
To let this baby girls i've took care for days,not even two weeks,to let them go.
Who would rather be in my shoes,to understand my pain,to let them go.
To see because i couldn't afford to take care of them,and i had to let them go.
It wasn't wasy to beg dad to let me have both puppies,it wasn't even easy to beg dad to let me have a dog again,and now this is happening.
They were like my precious daughters,like how your parents treasure and love you now,that was how much i love and cherish them.
I just got them their toys just before everything happen,and this is happening.
Who would really understand my hurt.
Just think,what if one day,you lose someone really close to you.Like your parents.
Or maybe you have your own child,lets say what if one day you lose them...
Its just so unfair to me,to see my baby girls,go.
They were just only getting use to me,and i had to let them go...

I dreamt of them,again.I couldn't forget the smell they had on them.
The little size,the little one i'm carrying.The warmth,the way the look at me.
Tell me what to do,with such a wound in my heart.
Tell me who would be able to comfort me,to heal the wound in my heart.
Tell me the truth about everything.tell me who would be bothered to care.
Its just so unfair.Its pain,its heartbreaks,and heart aches.
Is it just my fault..

I'm disappointed in you,zhong zhong ): i don't want anything to happen to you.
I can't lose anyone,anymore.
How many times have i said,not to do those things.
Since it can't gets into your head,whats more can i say.
Now things have happen,its nothing but hurt.

Here i am presenting my 2months old babies(: Inky & Ice-T. Aren't they adorable.
Don't bother to guess what breed they are cause you'll never know :D
Because,they're mix ! Don't laugh(:
Mix by a Jack russell & a Shit-tzu.
Was deciding whether to take a Schnauzer,pure Shit-tzu,or Hu li guo.
Hahahas,but in the end,we took this two new-born puppies(:
Total nearly a thousand i guess ): No more money.
Still have their clothes,bowl,bla bla bla to buy.
On the verge of going bankrupt soon:D

Must be wondering how come all of a sudden i got both puppies ?
Actually two days ago,means Monday,two really terrible things happen to me.
One had to do with the previous post,the other was that Darryn:) was lost.
Couldn't find him,came online and told me & Kc nonsense.
Made us worry,in the end,thanks to Kc,he went to sleep.
Had to call Edmund.
So in the end,he came online ytd ( Tues ) morning,and then we chatted.
Some family problems(: Its settled now.So i met him at 9 plus for breakfast with daddy.
Then we went to the bank to do is poly things,then off to Queensway to get the contact lenses(:
Luckily,i really got well with the boss and his staffs :D
After Queensway,dad fetched us to Funan for Darryn:) stuffs & to ask about my laptop.
And after walking around,we was deciding to go home to rest,but we don't feel tired.
Imagine,we didn't sleep on Monday night. :D
So randomly,i suggest that we should get to SPCA to look at those poor dogs ):
So took a cab,but then rmbed that Pasir ris got more pet shops and farms,so we asked the taxi uncle whether he knew where was it.
He knew,so we go ahead and went.This taxi uncle was a Indian guy,he was big in size,very very friendly(:
On our way there,the rain suddenly started pouring like cats and dogs-.- Luckily the really good uncle suggest that we should get an umbrella from him,FOC.
Really lucky that we took,because the rain was like heavy,no more,drizzling,heavy,no more......
Then we went around walking all the farms,it was like only 12 or 1 plus ?
Only a few shops was open,so we got in.Chatted with many of the pet shop owners(:
Wheees,got to know alot more about dogs,like finally. :D

So in the end,we randomly decided to get a America Shit-tzu.Guess how much?
$1600 -.- Expect to pay half by today and another half within 2-3 days.HELLO!!!
So we bluff the uncle,saying that we walked out of the place to find POSB machine.
We did walked out,it was really far.
In the end,Darryn:) called daddy here,talked talked,wheees,puppies~ :D
Stayed there till 6 or 7 plus in the night ok!
Imagine we reached there around 12 plus,and go after such long hours.
But nvm,at least i came back with two really cute puppies(:

No,i didn't went Zouk today.Don't ask me why,i even told everybody i was going,
but in the end,girlfriend went to chalet with her sis,while i went to get the dog,
and came home(:

Its been really long since i last saw Girlfriend,urhs,nvm,forget it(:
Very soon,right..ya..

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Sometimes,it just gets so tiring,that i just wish to give up,everything.
Everything happens at a wrong time,in a wrong way.
Tell me what to do...
No ones here to share,no ones here to tell me what to do...
& its tiring,trying to be strong.Do you know?Do all of you know?
Have you ever felt my pain.Has anybody asked or wonder what i actually want.
Its just so clear,that no one understands.

After much thinking,and a little of sadness thoughts,
i guess,i've decided to end these four years of friendships.
What for going through the pain and heart aches ?
The most just keep my mouth shut in sch,finish my N level,and go.
This is just not the right thing that is happening.
Its just so wrong.How would i have met friends like you?
I thought i won them back,but to the thought of it,i've lost.
So its right,i should have stayed with friends that are out of sch,why did i gave up because of wanting you all to love me back the way i am?
Now i've lost everything,and you people want everything,so i give up,and u people take.Is that good enough for everyone ?
While i'll be the one crying upon misery,i'll let you all laugh upon my misery.
Why does it got to hurt so much being with all of you.
why isit in the hearts of all of yours,i'm always in the wrong?
Why isit i'm always the imperfect one and u all seems so nice.
Why isit always whatever that is about me,you people would believe and dislike me,while for others,none of you would believe.
why isit i'm always in the wrong when it isn't me.
You've all pushed me to a corner,where i'll never get to grow again.
Where i'll never trust what true friends are..

i just want to be loved by all of you,yet whatever that happens,its always my fault.
instead of confronting or talking to me,you all turn ur backs on me and just say whatever u think i am to others.
i hate people who assumes something about me,i'm not in the wrong,for these two mistakes i've done,but i've to take the blame.
i'm always the one.
true friends?friends who keep quiet?friends who don't lie to you?friends who wish you were who u are in front of them and accept you?friends who people always say?
No,i've none of them..none..


Anw,Happy Birthday Judy.
Its your birthday that make me realise i've lost.
Its you who made me give up.
Tonight,while you're out playing,
these tears i'm having,i know it isn't worth at all.
Whatever you think i am,whatever you and ur friends think i am,
whatever you all says or discuss about me,whatever you all believe,i've nothing to do with it anymore.
I've chose to give up these four years of friendships,its tired trying to win you guys back.We've been classmates for four years,yet OTHERS could win me for you all.
It feels so pain,but there's nothing i could do..
What i've become today,its because of all of you.
I gave up friends outside,hoping to be the one you all wish i could be.
Yet all of you took what i left outside and left me.
I've lost my balance on feet,i fall . Now i know,these are what friends are for,to hurt you.

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These pictures are so big.Because i accidently press the large button and i didn't realise it ): Anw,these pictures are from Valentine's Day. (:

I hadn't been a good friend to all,and i'm sick of acting like one.
A mistake i did once,swear i wouldn't make the second one.
Now the second one is done.
Whats wrong,i just don't like it.
If you're jealous of what i have,just tell me.
Though i'm not as perfect as some others,but i'm sure i'm better off than you.
You're such a disappointment.
I thought you would be a good friend,we would be a good bunch of friends.
But it seems like,i'm wrong.

Happy Birthday Xiao Dee(:
Happy Birthday Baby Caijing(:
Sorry i didn't attend the both of your birthdays.
I've lost my life,i don't find any reason to be out.
But no worries,presents will be given to the both of you asap.
Loves (: