A short thank you post first.
Thank you dad & aunt for heading down to support.
Thank you Josh,Deep,Trav,Irfan,Shaolun,Daybet,Ken.
Thank you Gf,Wanjing & Bb.
Thanks for the cheers and support.
<3.

Blog tmr or some time soon,tired.
Goodnight.

Dad is super duper lame.
The conver goes like this,i called him,
Me : Helllo,pa ah,where are you?

Him : Huh? You call wrong number? * coughs

Me : Huh,what?

Him : Who are you? You called the wrong number.

Me : WHAT. HUH?! * feeling damn irritated by then.

Him : You called the wrong number lah. WHO ARE YOU?!

Me : TSK,don't play lah,where are you?!!!

Him : * laughing and laughing. Hahahahahaha,i win. You got a shock right?

Me : Ya -.- i thought you got lao ren chi dai zhen or something. Tsk,irritating.

& my love just kept on laughing and laughing. -.-
wth,so random,okay,i am going out now.
Bye:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TH! :D
i called you on my birthday at 12am for you to wish me.
& you messaged me on your birthday at 2.30am for me to wish you!
hahaha,i didn't know you're a may baby too.
Happy 21st!

Thanks to Candy the Awesome,now i can upload pictures.
Which is a very good thing.
But now,i've got problems with editing pictures.
Picnik is giving me lots of problems,whatever!

Well,
i've been staying at home,for days!
I don't know why.
I'm going for Prawn fishing tmr,excited!
I've never been there,hahaha.
But i don't think i'll be prawning,because its not good to kill lives.
Probably just watch the guys do the prawning.

& I'm starting work next month,1st of June.
Very much looking forward to it.
Workplace is very far away from where i stay.
Its like at the other end of Singapore.
It will be very tiring,for me to travel there in the morning and travel back in the NIGHT.
6 days a week.
I wonder how.. hmm. Haha.

& i'll be saving up for my upcoming trip,
so ask me out to chill and not spent money okay! ):
Bet i won't have the time too.
Its my last week.
Oh my.
I cannot imagine i've been a useless bum for months,
and now i start,its gonna be hardcore!
Damn.
One month,i have 4 weeks,but i'm only free for 4 off days.
Wish me luck! :D

Went to Yishun today,had a yummy late lunch/dinner.
Caught the movie " Night At The Museum 2 " at Vivo.
Rated, 3.5/5.
Not as good as the first one. Haha.

Oh, & Yishun to Vivo, $18 for cab fare. Like wtf.
Though i'm not the one paying but damn,its expensive you know?!
Show ended at 11.10pm,home after that.

I joked around alot today. Hahaha.
Quoted from the show,
" Oh,don't touch my hair "
" Lets race to Paris! "
and much much more. Comedy yo! Haha.

Okay,i gotta wake up early tmr.
Goodnight.

Edited.
eh,no leh. But i'm hungry leh. I ate too early for dinner and i ate little.
Serious. So should i reward myself now for eating little just now?
I'm hungry leh.
okay,i should eat,lol.
and watch " Pi Zi Yin Xiong " whoohoo.
Sleep before 2am. My aim,haha.

Its a love ride. But i'm not ready for what future would bring.
For i know,i'll let go now because i'm not ready.
I'm not ready,its not enough.
I remained silent for some answers as it would hurt..some.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!
Love you.
Gave dad a kiss on his lips when the clock stroke 12am just now.

Gonna bring you for a wonderful dinner tmr.
Although your cake and plans after dinner are not planned yet.
But i'm sure i can do it! :D

Rehearsal later on at 11am.
I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo going to bed now.
But i still can't stop listening to 黑裙子.
Its sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good!

My new fav yo.
Her name's 張芸京.
This song's title is 黑裙子.
Its the theme song for 敲敲愛上你.
Good show,good song,good singer.
I've been listening to this song for the whole day. Its stuck in my mind.

Okay,outing today with Ahjie & Fred.
Shopped at bugis again.
Everyone was late. Haha.
Bought a hoodie dress again. Damn. I'm broke.

Oh. Anyway,
i just read Candy & Fred's blog.
I remembered about this indian old man sitting beside Candy.
He was at her left while i'm sitting at her right.
Fred was standing,or was he sitting?

Okay,well,so Fred walked to this guy,all of a sudden.
& Fred smiled at him saying,

hangzhi: hi.

guy: *smiled at me with his stupid face*

hangzhi: very nice to see huh?

guy: …

hangzhi: mind your own business eh?

guy: *looks away quickly*
(loser)

Haha. So guess what,this guy was looking at us.
& Fred was damn pissed off.
So he did that. So sweet huh!

Bedok has tons of weird people.
There's one where we were at the market sitting,with A too.
But A was smoking,and Fred was in the toilet.
I stood up,got my drink & went back to my seat.
Before i sat down,this guy came to me and asked for $1.
I was in a total shocked - state,that i just shake my head.
Looking at the priceless and shocked expression on Candy & Ahjie's face,
its obvious that they were stunned too.
Looking helplessly at A,he continue his phone conversation with K,
and rmb,fred was in the toilet.
The guy just kept on standing beside me and asked for that dollar.
But i was too shocked to do or say anything.
Then when he was gone,i finally sat down and looked at both of my girls.
Giving the " wtf " look.

Ahem,its not that i'm heartless okay.
Or anything that i refuse to even give $1 to someone.
Its just that,i didn't expect that when i turn my head,back to my seat.

I wonder what would A tell him if that guy just kept on standing there and pestering me. lol.
Yawn. Whatever,its over though.
I am going to play my game now,and head to bed soon.
My phone hasn't been ringing for hours. Damn.


I dreamt of you yesterday,again.
But it was different this time.
We're weren't alone.
There was somebody else,
the one you call your own.
I can feel how i felt in the dream,even if i think back now.
I felt helpless. I felt lost.
I wanted to hold on you,but you just seemed to be a distance away from me,
although we were talking.
I wanted to tell you what and how i've been doing.
I wanted to cry on you like i use to.
I wanted us,just us.

I woke up,and packed my room stuffs.
Like said in my previous post earlier.
I took out the album you got for me,
flipped it open,look at our pictures and smile.
Took out the cranes you folded for me.
The book and pouch i got for you,
kept them in a box.
Cleaned my cupboard and i left everything in there.
I told myself,
i've been faking all along and now i've decided to stop,
i shall end the word i call us too.

So yesterday i totally forgot about accompanying Fred to the hospital.
Forgot to inform Candy about meeting up & forgot about telling Ahjie whether are we meeting up.
So i woke up in the noon at 1.40pm and peep at my phone.
Saw 5 messages,so i opened them.
& i saw Fred's message.
I jump up of bed,replied him,and went to bathe.
Called Candy & Ahjie.

In the end,i did not accompany Fred to the hospital,he went himself.
While i slowly took my time and went down to Bugis to meet Candy first.
Then Fred came along.
Went to shop for my dresses for the upcoming awards show & cousin's wedding.
& i bought cheap and nice dresses!
Phew,luckily,i did not bought the dress i saw at Heeren the previous day with Gf.
It was like $70! I bought 3 dresses there and a belt,they cost less than $50.
HEHE.
I am going back to hunt for more with Ahjie soon.
Because she wasn't with us when i got the dresses.
We were having so much fun lah,like laughing all the way.
& the way i accidentally touched Candy. lol.
& Fred's move, " smack his hand "
Okay,inside joke.

After walking around for an hour or so, we headed to Bedok.
Went to find A at his workplace.
LOL,u should see A's priceless expression when i shocked him with dinner again.
Candy & Fred was guessing which one was A.
Because he totally ignore me when i walked and stood in front of his shop.
Anyway,we were waiting for Ahjie.
She was so " ON " yesterday lah!
It was like 8 plus already,and she still say she will be meeting us at Bedok.
She stays at Jurong,so you know how far isit?

Well,we went to picked her up around the Mrt area.
Then walked to A's shop again.
But too bad,A was in the toilet.
& we wanted to go for dinner already.
But Ahjie says " eh,i want see him leh " or something like that.
So i laughed and ask his friend to get him out of the toilet. Lol.
After " seeing " him,we walked to Blk 85 for our yummy and cheap dinner.
Damn far,i hate walking there. lol.
ITS MY SECOND TIME WALKING THERE WITH CANDY.
Ordered many delicious food. Ate,chilled.

When A finished his work,
we took a bus back to his workplace area,
sat down,ordered drinks,chatted & A finally came.
Then many funny stuffs happen like how he dropped my new dress and belt for 2 times!
K came,ate.
Chilled around.

It was coming to midnight when we all decided to go home.
Ahjie got no way to go home,
so she came to my house to stay overnight!
We took out all my clothes from the cupboard and packed them,
she took a bag of clothes home too. Hahaha!
Then we fold boxes,the ones i bought from Ikea.
Beautiful,i like them.
We only slept at 6am in the morning.
& i guess she left in the early noon.
While i slept till 4pm today.
Continue packing my stuffs,ate dinner.
and now i'm rotting in front of my com.

Alright. Nothing much though.
I can't upload pictures and i'm not happy ):
I gotta figure everything out,soon!

Rehearsal today at RP.
Getting ready for awards show. Love the " Nobody " dance.
Kenneth lied to me,and made me crawl past the camera.
It was so embarrassing but its darn funny.
Imagine yourself wearing glam dress,and then crawling around.
Kenneth and the rest was laughing non-stop lah!
Never again will i trust Kenneth words. Lol.

Anw,went for movie after rehearsal.
Reached GWC at 5 plus but then headed to TBP after that,
not much movies at GWC.
Bought the 9pm tickets & rotted for 3 hours.
Had Thai Express for dinner. Disappointing one.
The food sucks though. Not as good as the one i had with the pinnacle at Jurong Point.
After dinner,sat outdoor and chatted with A lots and lots of random stuffs.
All random conversation like the one i told him i'm irritating. LOL.
Watched " The Uninvited "
Good movie,4/5.
The plot is good leh! So convincing. Damn.

After movie,sat outdoor and rot again.
& home! :D

Wishing for more great days ahead.
OH DAMN FRED,talking about food.
Him having maggie mee.
Now i wanna go cook too.
But i'm fat ):
& A agrees to that which is TSK!
Whatever,i shall consider.

Oh,and i guess i'll receive a durian cake next year,
while A's gonna receive a chilli padi cake.
Cool? then i'll smack it on his face and run as far as possible.

I apologized even though it wasn't my fault.
I've tried giving in for both times when you got pissed off.
I decided not to lie to you. I told you everything,honestly.
You want me,but you're pushing me away.




I am used to being myself.
I am used to being on my own.
For now,till now,i've always been on my own.
I am not ready,neither are you.

Oh. So i can upload pictures from Gf's com.

So is something wrong with my com? 

What to do? Tell me.

Well. Birthday's over. 

Patricia BB came to surprise me with chocolates and a small cake.

First cake for my birthday. Delighted.

But i don't eat chocolates ):

But thanks dear. Second surprise for 2009's birthday.

Had birthday dinner with dad & aunt at No Sign Board.

Yummy,ate alot. Feeling fats now.

Went to find Gf at her workplace and accompanied her till now,

which is 6.34am.

She gave me my 3rd surprise before 12 midnight with a little cake again.

Shocking though. 

For now,She's bathing,preparing for school.

While i can go home & hug ahboy to sleep. 

I bet she's damn jealous that i can sleep.

Thanks to her, she forgot the key for the shop.

And so we waited for her boss till late.

But something happened,Hahahaha,

and the hours i spent with her seemed to be worth it now though.

LOL. 

Okay,whatever.

We should be heading for breakfast later.

and then hommy for me(:

Goodbye,

and thanks all dearest for the wishes. <3.

Happy birthday to me. Happy birthday to me.
Happy birthday to me~~ Happy birthday to me ~.
(:

Okay,so after a late night " smile to myself " sleep ytd,
i woke up early today to Sp for rehearsals.
I woke up at 9,but i was still late. Lol.
I finished my "banmian" in 10 mins. I think i'm cool.

So i messaged him " goodmorning....dot dot dot etc. "
& I get no replies.
So i was thinking " eh,he should have woke up earlier than me. "
then as usual,i started to think from south to east,and all around.
& i thought to myself again " not as if there would be another surprise coming up right? "
Haha!
But anw,he replied in the end. He was sleeping while having his duty.
Best.

I was talking to Fred most of the time,sharing some stuffs.
About me,about you,you know? Understand?
No you don't (:
Haha. So anw,now i think i should becareful and take a look around my surroundings all the time.
But anw dude,i've already sent you what i wanted to say.
You know,i know.

After rehearsal,i cannot imagine myself taking bus with Sean & Ad,then alone when they drop off to " dot dot dot " to wait for him.
I was an hour early,but he was late for 20 mins or so. So that means i waited more than an hour,alone,under the scorching hot sun.
No,i went to walked around the shopping centre and i went to the toilet.
& i spent around 35 mins in the shopping centre & toilet.
10 mins eating sweets,lol.
rest of the time,rotting at the taxi stand.
Luckily i have Fred & Candy to accompany me.
While i was sharing stuffs with Candy,I had Fred scolding him a bastard for making me wait and not even texting me messages.
Which felt damn good when you have these friends with you when you're alone.
Candy was good man. She told me,i know you're listening to your Ipod as well as staring at your phone to look less retarded alone.
Lol,i was exactly doing it.

Well,anw. I stopped my replies when he came,sorry guys.
But then i know you both would understand! Haha!
So we took a cab over to GWC,walked up and down wondering what to eat.
I walked past a Japanese restaurant,and i was like " HMMM UHH. YUMMY "
& he was like, " Huh,don't tell me you wanna have Japanese food " .
Okay,because the prob now is that he's broke,which is damn funny.
After that beautiful bouquet of flowers and the materials he bought for the handmade book.
& some other stuffs.
So we went to foodcourt instead,and i started questioning him while we were eating.
I asked questions like," so when did you started doing the book? "
" so did you really do everything by yourself ? "
" Why were some of the handwritings so nice,like as though i would give a 100 marks if i were a teacher but some were totally hopeless? "
" was it done by others ? "
" where did you get that old picture from? "
" How come some words are so light that i can't see anything? "
etc...
& he avoided my questions. Which was damn funny when someone called and he told his friend " you're my saviour " -.-
But i trust him lah can.
I believe he wrote everything by himself because by reading the stuffs that are inside, i believe he won't let anyone see it.
Not even K leh. LOL.

Okay, so he has a phobia of gays.
He had a bad experience long time ago.
& we were sitting,chatting outside GWC,all of a sudden,
this guy came along and asked for lighter.
Hahaha, you see his shocked & stunned face.
Which is damn funny.
Okay, everything we do is funny.
hahaha.
The guy is not normal lah,the looks and stuffs.
We can accept it lah,just that he'll have goosebumps.
& we sat outside Fish&Co a little while after.
I have cravings for Fish&Co.
The last time i had it was like YEARS ago.
I swear,its years ago.
& when i told him " we shall come to Fish&Co soon. "
& when he said " oh okay. "
I went crazy. I kept on laughing to myself,again.
I think after ytd's surprise,i'm a little mad now.
Or isit i've been mad all along? ^^.

Anw,i had to come home early today.
& lol,okay,nothing.
anw,i reached home around 9pm sharp.
Dozed off around 10 plus,and woke up around 1.
:D I'm full of energy now.
But Kh just made me pissed off.
Okay,whatever.
This post is darn long.
No pictures still ): damn blogger.

Anw,dad said " dot dot dot " still lives in the oldies.
He asked me " what are the flowers for ? "

I replied " erm, birthday? Hahaha "

Dad : huh. Its 2009,why is he still giving flowers? & flowers can't be kept. they'll die after 3 or 4 days. Can't he give you something much better? & these flowers should cost 30-40 bucks right?!

Me : Erm,no lah pa. These flowers cost more than that. LOL. You can only buy shit with 30-40 bucks. & this is romantic okay,what oldies.

Dad : wtf look* looking at me. He siao isit? So expensive?! He should give you something you can keep or use lor.

Me : Got ah. ( & i started laughing to myself non-stop again ) The book lor. hehe. Can you imagine not.....bla bla bla,and my story repeats itself.

Hahahaha,okay.
Goodnight.

I've always admire the girl when i see the guy alone,taking public transport from destination A to B. Looking embarrassed.
I've always wondered, how nice if i would have a guy friend or whoever to be travelling with a bouquet of flowers,alone,for me.
Then it all happened ytd and i'm feeling a little crazy again.
Hahahahaha.
CAN YOU IMAGINE NOT. HE'S A GUY & HE DID THE SCRAPBOOK ALL BY HIMSELF LEH.
& the scrapbook isn't those you see at Popular,that you can just get and write in it okay.
He bought seperately and did it leh. OMG.
I cannot take it alr.
I'm going off to stare at the book and laugh to myself,again.

Oh btw,i still want my presents from others.
I'm greedy ^^

I don't know how to express my feelings.
I've been smiling since the min you appeared and till i'm home.
Now,I've forgotten how to frown.

The person who ignored me.
The person who gave me cold single replies.
The person who refused to meet me.
Gave me a big big big surprise.
That landed me up squatting in front of the busstop shouting.

I shall continue when i can upload pictures,i guess.
The blue roses are beautiful.
The scrapbook you did on your own leaves me speechless.
I'm so fugging happy that i'm gonna smile in my dreams.

i~~~~~~~~mmmmmmm nnnnoooooootttt drrrrruuuuuunnnnkkkk !!! iiiiiii wwwwwwaaaannnn toooooooo ssiiiiinnnnnnng sooooonnnnngg !! hhheeeellllppp meeee ttaaaakkk tttiiiiiissssssuuuueeee !! sounds familliar? lols =.= i realli shld take ur spastic Photos.. !! god then u`ll call me daddy and listen to me already wakakakaa

This is how KH describe how i ended up ytd.
If you don't understand,LOL,here it is,
" I'm not drunk,i want to sing song,help me take tissue. "
But i'm really okay what! I was wearing my killer heels somemore,i still can walk,i still can eat.
LOL.
Cannot imagine how i force someone to eat lemons ytd when he was late. Hahaha.
Okay,whatever. Though i puked the whole night but i enjoyed.
You don't want to know how much i crave to drink in the evening,
but now the smell of Martell can kill me. LOL.

Whatever. I'm hungry now. I want to eat the plate of thing i ate ytd. LOL!
I want to drink soup.
I feel like eating Mcspicy or Kfc's chicken.
I wanna eat potatoes. Hahaha.
I just want to eat,i'm hungry. I'm in need of food.
I cannot wait for dad to come back with my fish porridge & duck.
YUMMY!


& somebody is ignoring me.
His reply goes like this,
" ya "
" morning "
" dunno "
" no "
" yes "

Gf's so much better.
She either reply halfway,or she would MIA right away.
Hello Gf,say hi back!
How can you MIA when i needed you the most ytd?! WHOOOHOOOOO!

FUG IT. I REALLY WANT TO POST PICTURES.
I've got tons and dozens of pictures queuing to be post up. DAMN.

Cannot believe how i spent 2 hours of my time today.
From 8pm to 10pm or so.
I accomplished so many stuffs. Haha!

From surprising someone with dinner,
my dinner,queensway for lens casing & shopping at IKEA.

Thanks to S,i bought random stuffs from IKEA when he was the one who told me he wanted to get towels.
Instead,he got nothing & i got 5 random stuffs.

Anyway.
I still don't know what to do for my birthday. Hahaha.
& all of a sudden,
i crave for HongKong Cafe's milktea.
Slurp Slurp.

p.s,
ahboy just jump and jump,bite my blanket off my bed and he's sleeping on it now.
why can't he sleep on his little cozy bed?! Tsk.
Now i can't switch on my aircon because i'll freeze to death without my blanket.
I can't bare to wake him up.

I WANT TO UPLOAD PICTURES.

Anyway.
i don't know what to update. LOL.
No pictures. I assume nobody is interested in reading.
Haha.

I let us go,for i know i can never be a good girlfriend.
I stopped it,i couldn't let it go any further. I'll hurt you.
For now,i don't deserve anything.

Still, blogger can't upload any pictures from my com.
I don't know why.
Is the reason because of my blogskin or there's something wrong with my com?
Whatever.




13th May's a special day.
& this year wish is special too.
I don't hope for anything.
I just want everybody to get tgt on this day,
every friend, every one i guess.
& a hug from everybody.
Impossible task eh ?
Its already so difficult to meet a bunch of them.
How can all the bunch of people get tgt?
Nothing,i'm just ranting thats all.
I don't expect much either.
Maybe just a simple night hangout at 2dawn or any pubs ? Haha.

I rmb i cried last year on this special day.
I knew there's a surprise coming up and i knew what is it too.
But its just so touching to see the one you love with you,
your classmates planned it and we played like crazy.
I rmb us chasing each other, trying to block each other ways and get everyone wet.
Hahaha.
I'm a emotional person & i love surprises.
I love to surprise people too, thats why i'm always so busy on anyone's birthday.
I think everyone deserves surprises,now and then. Especially on their special day.
I don't think anyone hates surprises,do they?

Its been so long since i last had a surprise.
Hahahahaha.
The last one i guess was...
someday.
somewhere.
someone.
(: