falling in love with my life . everything would always come to a end , no matter how tight u hold it or no matter how hard u try to avoid it . =) .

hmmms . can't sleep . so decide to blog about todae abit .
went to jp around 5 something 6 , i mean reached there . and then was so afraid that i might see them .
because im hangin around with their enemy . jurong sai and boon lay pht .
oh my damn god . call yuan jian " hubbie " [ lols ] , and then the end got scoldinq .
poor thing ehs me . cos hang with the wrong people ! .
then after that went to a bbq at the canal there . jurong west .
took a bus there , quite long distance . oh my tian .
then was talkinq with some of the frens . i mean , sorry , i forgot to say who i hang out with .
BENJAMIN . arghs ~ .
then after that walk to the stupidd bbq pit .
then talk talk talk , den i was tellinq dabudian that we two like vase .
lols . let people come appreciate and see , take photos .
lols . den keep tio suan about ytd de thingi . went to the pub bo half an hour must go home .
then no choice gotta diam diam .
told ben i don wan sit with them lerhs , say i don like the peeps there .
but actually i was sayin about the girls .
so i went to another side , but not far , only few steps to the seat there to sit with dabudian .
then most of the guys came to pei us talk and joke .
then when was takin fotos with them , suddenly got 4 girls came and look .
then walk pass say " er xin larhs , cb , knn . " [ all kinds of shit also say ].
den i was like tellinq myself " ren ! ren ! must tolerate , this friends just know ! must bao chi xin xiang " . lols .
kept tellinq myself they jealous those guys come to us instead of them .
then got one guy very chong dong . go there scold them .
then jiu alot of guys come ask lerhs , den all go scold them .
muahahas . in the end " VIONNA CHAN AND NG XIN HUI STIL WIN !"
lalas . den heard from ben after we go , they go find one guy pprob .
their own fren !!!! oh my tian larhs . they find those kind of xiaodidi .
and i wonder why they don wan find those peeps that scold them lors ?!
ewww , but i don't care .
then i was like tellin xin , imagine we're with shaowei .
do you think anyone dare to kaobei us ??
lols . nvm if you peeps don get my meanin .
i and dabudian know can lerhs . i wun forget that day at coffeeshop .
hahas . cute larhs them .
anws , i 9.15 jiu go lerhs . because in between my yuan jian got come find me marhs .
den we go together nors . hmms . he walk home cause very near .
thats all larhs . thats my night .
just finish talkinq on fone with dabudian and ben . =D .

arghs ~~ my old friend .
tackey ! saw him online and i dared to ask him who was he .
lols . got a little niaming from him . hahas . shhhh .
then got to know a little more friends todae .
yups =D . love my life .
no more probs like last time .
no more what shit thingi , im free now =) .
yup =D . oh ya , show you something below . different colour means different person .
LIM TIAN SHUI"S NICK :
why does everyone starts to treasure something only when they've lost it .
CHAN YI CHING"S REPLY STRAIGHT ON A CHAT LOG :
because no one knows how important the thing or person is , until they're not by side . only the one who truely once lose everything all of a sudden in one time , knows how to treasure deeply .
LIM TIAN SHUI"S REPLY TO CHAN YI CHING :
wa , aiseh arhs , professor chan . lols .
CHAN YI CHING WAS THINKIN :
" damn , i don't even know that my brother is turning so ah gua . how can he say ai seh in such a way that make me thinks he's so ah gua ?! and how can he so look down on me . ? ! roar .

hahas , cute rights ? stupid chat log anws .
to someone arhs : please learn to treasure . remember the mistakes u've made last time , so blame who now ? take care =D . see u this fridae . lalas . hahas . anws , contact me soon , wanna ask u something stupid . lols . quick hors . hahas .
okays . endinq here . gonna rest man .
my head is droppin . this few nights never go out is for me and dabudian to rest . so better rest and bu chong out sleepless nights .
hahas . byes !

darlinq ger ` maybe its right that u have to go . maybe in my love life , i might be happier . even with friends . at least i have my freedom . u have no right to scold me now , cause im alone . =) . let it go , girl . i'am telling myself . its time to let go and start anew . very soon maybe =D . * because no one was born to learn how to treasure and cherish , no one , my reason , my logic . every one in world makes a mistake no matter how perfect they are , so why not accept everyone for who they are ? *

tortured but im willing to let it be .

lalalas . lalalalas . i just love this shirt of mine larhs . nice . whee . you know what im coverinq ? my damn pimple . so big . lols . hai me this few days wan take pics also difficult . and my poor lovely friends gotta suffer with me takinq so many pics . lols .

wheeee , iloved you . lols . nice hands. each hands with scars on it . lols .

so long never update blog lerhs . cos nowadays really tired . just love my thief nightlife . lols . went to xiaoshan's ger chalet that night . so fun . . got to know those peeps . one of the guy stil piggy back me . lols . so oh my tian larhs . hahas . he kana wan fall down don wan fall down like that . lols . anw , memorable day . really fun . took alot of pics larhs . so funny . hahas . they haven send me . send lerhs i wil upload it up derhs .

then the day he left me , i was outside with dabudian and laobudian . and laobudian's friends . we went drinkinq and ktv . wheee . shoo nice . got bikes and sports car . lalas . den i and xin sit the sports car arhs , hahas . den got another sports car , but we dunno the guy inside derhs . den suddenly they racing nehs . oh my tian . shooo kong bu . then the guy so good , race finish lerhs stil wind down the window say good . whakakas . exciting . then around 6 something like that i and dabudian go meet syl , tianlong and syl de cousin . so funny larhs . anw , when he left , they bright up my day . i'am just shock when you said you wanted to go . =) .

wheeee . den ytd benjamin de friends come fetch me and dabudian . bikes oh . woots =D . also very fast . xin sit until sho funny . lols . but i wear the bike the what hors , really funny larhs . lols . then go boat quay there. aiyo . ytd very suey larhs . alot of things happen . hahas . the end also never drink dao . can't imagine ben say " so sad , my laopo come lerhs den must go lerhs . " lols . drunk lerhs larhs him . * BISH* . den he ask me and dabu dian later go one bbq . he siao lerhs . dots . that day ask me dunno go where , i never go . den that school day ask me go escape theme park . i alsho never go . ytd ask me go drinkinq , go lerhs tio catch , must come home . toade ask me go bbq . oh my tian . lols . and yarhs , he got one fren look like " L " arhs . got watch death note , the guy ' LIGHT ' . hahas . shuai shuai ke ai ke ai . lalas .

decide to continue with my this busy and lovely life . hahas . even if things happen now and then , but whenever tell myself this is life , everything would be over very soon lerhs . now just made up with some of my enemies , cant imagine from enemies so many years can become friends =D , nvm , really in love with my life jiu shi lerhs . hahas . hen man yi =D . wheees .

die die die , never call xiaozhi ytd , somemore dare dare go out drink . ohmy tian . nvm nvm ~ lols . ehs , u all got see my baobeix laogong , xiaolaogong and gan laogong before marhs ? haha . i got kop their pics put . lols . not flirt arhs , just follow lydia HO ! so many laogongs and baobeis . lols . she more than me hors . hahs . but just playin larhs . so peeps , don't take it so serious . lols . TAKE CARE .

darlinq ger ` can't bear to let my eyes , look at those sweet , romantic , nice couples on the streets . don't wanna hurt my eyes , just to see them .

CHAN ZHI XIAN , LIM TIAN SHUI , NG XIN HUI , VIONNA CHAN YI CHING . LOLS ! the bu dian's family ! muahahas .

lols . i stil have quite a number of pics taken there but not yet updated . cos currently now 1.o5 am and im goin out soon . so put this few up first . hahas . cute right . and i use it to hit my dabudian's head . lols . its painful hors ! wanna try ? ! muahahahas .
i still thinks i look like feng fei fei nehs . hahas . style hors ? muahahas .
i look like from ge tai come back hors . lols . style hors ? but very itchy arhs . hahas .
SPIDER ~~ .. roar . shoo kong bu ~~ muahahas . bite u bite u ..
sorry arhs ~ depression too much . lols. ..
nice fountain behind . but do u realise u can only see her shirt and her shoes ? lols . shhhh . bleahs .
at least u can see me rights ? lols .
iloveyou !

she's too happy larhs . no choice , im here what . lols . lalas .

muahahas . todae never go sch again . muahahas . treat it as a holidae lerhs . hahas . last week promise joyce and roy meet todae oh . go kbox , muahahas . den in the morninq , dabudian come . den she play com i sleep . after that i wake up she play com . hahas . den wake her up . after that prepare lerhs go safra awhile , do things . den go tiong press money . muahahas .xin tong lei . damn . nvm ~ den jiu sit taxi go down suntec meet them lerhs . den go kbox . hehes . reach there jiu like siao siao like that arhs .dunno why todae quite high ! muahahas . den sing alot songs oh . after that finish lerhs jiu must go home lerhs . den papa fetch dabudian and joyce go home . hehes . den i and papa come home nors . sobs larhs . my ciggs finish lerhs . how how ? i now stil goinq chalet lerhs nehs . damn . nvm nvm~ they have . lols . bye . goinq lerhs . late lerhs .muahahas .

darlinq ger ` i love life . but maybe its becos u're around =D . smuacks baby darlinq =) . my budian family is the best lerhs . hehes .

xiaobudian ("v") dabudian & laobudian ! lalas .

finally the last pic man . lols . stupid man . its difficult for me to upload so many . i still have damn loads of pics not yet upload larhs . slowly wait okays ? hahas .
me and joey . my class de stupid innocent bitch . lols .
no choice . i forced her to take two pics with me , if not i'll put up her ugly pics ! lols .
i looked like i have dyed my hair man , weets =D . im waitng for the day when sch ends and holidays comes . ~ lalas .
me and roy ! knew him for quite long larhs , and damn , this is the fisrt pic we took together ! lols .
yeah !! finally i got this shirt lerhs ! fell in love with it when i saw it right away . that day reserve it , todae went to buy ! whee .. nice nice !
my mum's sunglasses . i stole it , lols . no larhs . she gave it to me . hahas . nice rights . dunno larhs , but i love it . lalas .
look so cartoon , don't i ? cute okays ?! lols .

damn it . they said i look like a guinea pig in this pic larhs . damn . but nvm ~ guinea pig is cute ! muahahahas .

oh my tian ~ have not been updatinq my blog for so long larhs . im really lazy larhs , no time , tired , busy . lols . den since i cant sleep but tired todae , now , so i update my blog . start with todae . cos i really forget about past few days . lols . shhh ..

todae , ? late for sch , lols . around 8 something 9 something den go sch . papa fetch me there marhs , so waited for my da bu dian outside sch . den wen she came , papa fetch us in . then see mr.wong not there , we ran in . lols . then hide in the toilet for dunno how long til recess den go back class . was deciding whether to stay or go back toilet . den decide to stay . lalas . see , im so guai ~ lalas . den miss chan didn't came todae . so nian ah lek took over , den he told us he gonna be our next year form teacher . damn it . so suey . den he say say say . after that slept in class till finish sch , tiff woke me up larhs . haas . den went to eat long john with mei , tiff and da bu dian . so funny . lols . den waited for marcus darlinq awhile , pass tiff something . me , da bu dian and mei jiu come back my house . they waited for me to change den papa brought mei to queenstown sec to meet her fren . den i pei mei awhile jiu went down to jurong pass baobeix his jacket den went to fareast take my SHIRT . whee ~ . den went to VIVO city . whao , it was big lrahs . den i and da bu dian went to toy-r-s . den we took loads of photos again . lalas . den went home . hahas . poh meng kor workinq at there arhs , den go find him chou yan talk talk. then that day just heard them say kor being kick out of cresent . den i go ask xiaozhi they all . den damn it , todae kor den tell me say is bluff de . fark fark fakr . he so long never go down never get scoldin . i so long never go down i get scolding . damn damn damn . not scoldin larhs . some kind of niaming . lols . thats all for todae . really don have the mood to blog . =) .

VIVO city is nice . next time i wil find time to jio all of you there . especially at night , its romantic. weets =D . and the shoppinq centre is real big . its connected to habour front shoppin centre . damn . u can take whole day to shop there . trust me man , you wil get lost there if u're alone or something . its so spacious that u will be giddy larhs . the food there is damn ex . went to eat kuey chap and those things with it , it cost $9 for two person . den order two milo DINO . cost $5 for two . damn . a meal for $15 . but it was quite alrights larhs . long long one time . hahas . VIVO city's like mix shoppinq centres , like marina mix with bugis mix with paragon . hahas . fun larhs . but don't think there's a arcade there cos i cant see one . if there's one there , weets =D gonna be fun man . sure got loads of youngsters . hahas . den todae me and my da bu dian den realise yuan lai actualy singapore got quite a number of shuai ges . cos we saw a few todae . lols . den lookinq at those couples , we really oh my tian . fat and thin . worst , female fat , guy slim . what the hell , what's happeninq to the world ? but nvm , they're really lovin =) . smoochies to them ! whee .. thats all i can describe about VIVO city . if im goinq again tmr , i will tell more about it alrighst =) . hahahahahas .

whee .. my someone , rmb that someone i wrote on my previous previous blog . ? okays , i shouldn't say mine . is someone . lols . okays , that someone say wanna buy me that press water derhs . action city got sell that one , something to do with the penguin derhs . weets =D . someone say gonna buy for me just for the sake of wanting me to drink more water . lalas . cos someone knows im always lazy to go out take water . lols . so buy that and put in my room ! muahhahas . love yarhs larhs . tsk tsk , i know ni zui teng jiu shi wo lerhs . muacks ! lalas . oh ya , u people might be thinking whose da bu dian rights ? she's my chocolate larhs . hahas . da bu dian her chinese name , xiao bu dian mine . ahahas . we just got a new member , laobudian ! lalas . cute rights ? vanilla xiao bu dian , chocolate da bu dian and STRAWBERRY LAO BU DIAN ! lols . cute rights ? lols . anw , stay tune to my next blog . im goinq ~ bye ~~ lols .

darlinq ger ` u came back , i was surprised . i was surprised that to you we wasn't over . but somehow i was quite glad with what you mistaken . cos i can have you back . but what about baobeix , i just wanna thank him for being there . he cared more than u , loved me more than u , teng me more than u , understand me more than u . but somethinq's wrong with my heart , im just lovin u all the way . i wonder why somehow . but let me continue with what i am now . since u're here once again , never gonna let you go , unless i really cant take it anymore boy . smoochies . =D . hmmms .

gettinq out of hands .

outside long john . hmmms . was zilianing with idiot den decided to take one on my own . whakakas .
this my idiot with his two new frens . lols . but thinks he's more in love with the one he's kissinq , named the elephant . muahahas . .

lols . alrights . marcus and weiliang . two cute guys indeed . nice knowinq them . muahahas . anyway , i think its their name larhs . lols . think so nia . lalas .

[ brb , waiting for my nails to dry . lols . ] okays . back . although my nails are not yet dry but ~ aiya . odn care . anw , im just here to put pics . wil update tonight if im free . nahs , im just busy cum not in the mood to update my blog thats all . =D .

darlinq ` my world .

i remembered how i broke down and got up to start anew . now i just have to start everything over again .

oppx =X . taken by , photographer : ng xin hui .
emmm ? ahahas . lovinq u .

taken quite long ago at tiong . hmmms .

i was right , my prediction was right . if you go , everything's gone too . loads of probs cominq up and everythinq's in a mess . tmr early in the morning straight , gotta some probs with that bitch . and is her , herself say that she wanna come out talk but in sch . we say after sch but she say she gotta rush home . loads of nonsense . xin hui parents came around 12.15 knocking on my door ! and i was sleepinq not sure about her . but she came on bed to tell me . and i just woke up . and then i asked her go open . den really her parents . den she came in the room to pack . dunno for what hell the father came tryinq to destroy my gate . den my father woke up den i blur blur de walk to my father's room sayin its her parents . den he went out i stayed in his room . den the father started shoutinq and yellinq . den i feel so dots . wonderinq if to go out , if i go out , will things get worst . den dunno what happen outside , she went . i wonder how is she doinq now . confirm got cry . and then baobeix kana lost in the woods . take me like invisible , no need contact me . and everything's like crushinq up .. i lost all my contacts and im going crazy now . i can't live without them . and boy , this is because u're gone . and everything i said was right . its cominq to an end . but real thanks to some guys who has been tryinq to bright my days up .. hmmms . =) . and benTOH . u this stupid pai kia , don copy me this guai kia okays . roar u . haas . hmmms . anw , im just tryinq to start my new life . but i have two choices , one : go back to him , find chances . two : start new life . can someone tell me to choose somethinq . and everything's just over for me now .. let me settle with that bitch first den i'll try to make my decision .

and i know if i just have this mental breakdown again , my friends wil just go crazy . i have two person around me breakinq down so soon . and if i ever do , no one could help . i just wanna u guys know im feelinq dead now . hao bu rong yi chong xin kai shi , and im droppinq down again . i wun forget how i get up and start anew with no one by side . the feelinqs sux . and when everybody tells you they wil be there , all lies . and i know the feelinq , i just don wanna have it again .

darlinq ger ` i would rather choose to die , perish then to live on ..

never let you go .

colourless .
gone .
u left a mess for me .

boy , take care , im gonna miss you .

nahs , no mood . will update again .

joyce , im sorry sorry sorry . very sorry .

i noe im suppose to go out with you todae .

but i did not . and worst i didn't even tell you .

are u blaminq me now ? im so sorry . hais .

darlinq ger ` my world . im lost in my own world .

fucked up .

just so vexed up , farked up now . something just spoil my mood , thats all . it got me so fark up that it made me realise what i conclude was cominq true . [ tears rolling ] . u asked if i wanna leave , u asked me things i don't wanna know .u said if i wanna go , you would let me go . and now i feel so helpless , and no one knows what im doing . im starting to make mistakes in everything i do now . and i just wanna get a rest to know whats going on now . i just wanna get a rest to know how im gonna clear up this mess . and now , im just purely weak . can i just leave the mess to wait for someone to take the other step . can i just leave everything alone ? can you stop callinq ? can u stop hurting me . she said " he sound like he had drank alot , why not tell him " . its not i don wanna tell him , im just confuse in makinq my decisions now . he sound so weak . he sound like he really do love me . but why , why only till now , then he's tryinq to show me every love he care . isit too late or can i stil birng it back ? should this sentence that he should be sayinq ? should i let go or continue ? should i not care ? would someone teach me what to do ? can someone ? and the fact is , i'am really getting tired . so tired that i've no where to go , to turn to now . wake me up someone , turn me back like i use to be .. will you ?

i really wanna truely , wholeheartedly loved you . but its you , who made me not too . you told me to learn to be a gf first before lovinq you . and i think i should be the one tellinq u , pls learn to be a bf first before lovinq me , or maybe playin me . becos no matter what you do , it still hurts inside my heart . and im going crazy now , just in a day , and its because u called . u llok like you're drunk because of me . and you don't sound angry , you just wanna know my replies and whereabouts . can someone just tell you , its actually you in the wrong , its actually u who made me did all this .

lantern festival . * gonna leave , let me be =) *

took when i was at jp . lols . when someone was buyinq tix . so long never zi lian lerhs .. thats why never update blog .. use to update blog with lotsa pics , no pics no update blog . lols .
den took in the taxi when that someone was sending us to jurong west to find baobeix baobeix !! whakakas . weets =D .

i look like a lizard , don't i ? lols . and ehs , stil got one more pic take i took that someone . cannot put up . lols .becos since i say someone , without leaving the name . ahahas . xin yang yang bahs ? muahahas .

ahahas . sorry for not updatin blog alrights ? becos being influence by that CHINYI MEI !! ahahas . lets talk about ytd . must be note down becos i love ytd !! whakakas . was asked out by someone becos of some bla bla bla things . den went out after sch , wa , people take mercede cab arhs , kana very rich . den come home first , hahas . so slowly change with chocolate nors . den prepare lerhs jiu go out before papa comes back . lols . den take taxi again , went to jp . that person too rich , nvm . lols . den called baobeix , becos suppose to meet him in the evening , so wondering if he was at jp . kns lors , he at sch . lols . den we went to watch ROB - IN - HOOD . i think its spell like that larhs . lols . nvm .. watch that time i cry 2 - 3 times nehs , like got people die like that . lols .. den the show so long arhs , den i and that someone needa go toilet . but buey gam wan go . lols . so at there ren ren ren . den i keep press that someone stomach . lols . someone look so tong ku arhs . hahas . muahahas , im evil . lalas . but that chocolate nehs ? stupid , only cry one time . so mei xin de lors . must dig her heart out wash and replace new de liao . lols . den watch lerhs we rush to toilet like dunno how many years never go like that . ahahas . shhhh .. den behind us got few guys more worst , run go toilet . lols . i cannot run larhs , later lou come out . lols . bleahs . hahas . den alot people call me lors , sky , bla bla bla , forget lerhs . lols . shooo busy during latern festival . whakkaas . den watch lerhs jiu take taxi go down jurong west find baobeix and his frens . den reach lerhs call him . so we walk quite a distance to that coffee shop . den got so many so many of his frens larhs . den i stand at one corner , say i dun wan go . lols . got a kong ju gan of frens de frens . ahahas . den baobeix hold my hand say nvm larhs , come come . lols . den went lors . den shoo dots larhs .. feeel sho shuang . when baobeix reach hors . all give those surprise look why he holdinq my hand den all forget call him . lols . but after less than one min , all cal shaowei , shaowei , shaowei . wa lan . i wonder when my turn arhs . lols . shooo sak ki larhs . ahahahas . somemore alot of people nehs . ehehes . like that time first time we cresent de peeps , den when xiao zhi come , even yong jie also must call him . weets =D . wonder what kind of rule is this larhs . hahas . den realise all those peeps who call shaowei de is his sun not his ginna . that means ehs , he higher than them 2 ranks larhs . but really high . dots . ahahas . den after that at there talk talk lerhs , den we go buy candle . weets =D . that someone buy for us arhs . lalas . den we take 24 packs . but after buy lerhs ta jiu must go lerhs . den i gave a bao bao and say , bye !! ahahas . had so much fun todae with that someone although we just walk around , smoke and watch movie =) . den after that baobeix jiu suddenly hold me and chocolate de hand den say he strawberry . lols . den we yi hold hands jiu all the way lerhs lors . den he say , wa , got two stead de gan jue so good . lols . den alot people see lors . shoo pai seh . but at that moment jiu no mood lerhs , cos suddenly the thot of whathappen in the afternoon and morning and how im gonna settle it , the feelings really sux . den we walk all the way to the canal . everybody walk behind us . lalas . shooo good . lols . den after that we stop there and play . den got one auntie bring two dogs arhs , den we play with them . the auntie also very cute , stay with us very long den at there shoo noisy , lols . shhh ... den after that play lerhs i and chocolate go sit near the river there , must climb over de . den we go there sit , jiu got two guys follow us . like bao biao like that . faints . den i realise those hei she hui arhs , how tong ku liao . go where also got people follow . wan with someone they bla bla bla de also cannot . lols . no privacy . den ask them why follow , they say SHAOWEI SAY DE . i LL , diam diam . lols . den after that more and more people , turn head also scared . cos no place sit they stand there see . lols . after playing quite long , den get along with them lerhs ! hehs . so er xin larhs , chocolate got two guys interested in her . lols . so funny larhs . den after that baobeix come lerhs !! whee =D .. nice nice ~~ den keep playing nors . burn things burn till got fire . fark ~~ i keep tio the wax and others . so pain lors . ke lian de me larhs . ahahas . den after that suddenly all quiet lerhs den baobeix went down himself sit there cos we all sitting at the most high de stairs . den i dunno he bad mood after chocolate tell me . so i went down nors , den i ask him what happen . ting him su ku .. aiyo .. den tell him nothinq will happen , his frens wil come out de he don believe me . den he say , difficult . but suey suey he this two frens is he right and left hands . [ peeps , only some wil understand what i talking ] . den he say if find people take over them , damn difficult . cos all ginna and somemore is his sun . hais . den after that his bros all come down lerhs . den i leave , cos they guys talk i dun wan stay there . den after that went to find chocolate talk talk . after that i abit tired lerhs marhs . nearly doze off on chocolate's shoulder larhs . but baobeix jiu come up liao , weets =D . den like that he jiu start better lerhs . den chocolate dunno say what den make him laugh =) . thanks qiao ke li . den we jiu went up , like rubber band time at there walk here and there . den we jiu go one block downstairs play true or dare . lols . so funny larhs .kiss here kiss there . ahahas . den lucky i never tio dao larhs , sho heng . but others tio , i bei tou lei . lols . after that 1o something papa jiu come lerhs , den we go nors . actually got come out in the night meet them de , but forget duno why they go back lerhs . so no lors . shit nawh , baobeix wallet with me . faints . den dunno when can see him and return him again . aiyo . shoo careless of us . faints . btw arhs , baobeix one of the right or left hand bo dai ji liao . come out lerhs . den his fone dunno ring how many times larhs , all come bao dao to him . den he sho happy =) . den i told him , see , i told u , nothinq will happen derhs . hehes . den he smile at me . whakakas . after that i and chocolate jiu go lerhs nors . whakakas . den we go mam mam at boon lay there . den when we go toilet that time hors ,i in toilet larhs . but u know coffee shops de toilet is boy and girl together de marhs , get my meaning ? den chocolate outside see mirror , den got one guy beside her also . den that guy say , aiya , don see lerhs larhs , pretty lerhs larhs pretty lerhs larhs . lols . so funny larhs. den xia dao her . hahas . den we both mam mam same things . weets =D . after that jiu come home lerhs nors . den we go pom pom . lie on bed watch tv den she suddenly say wan do mask . den i ask her help me do . cos everytime is i help her do . den i lie on bed , she do lors . den after that she use com i on bed jiu sleep lerhs . den she help me wash . whee . shooo hao , thanks oh . lubb u . whakakas . den dunno what time she sleep . till now also haven wake up . tsk tsk . 2.45 le .. i shoo hungry arhs . but must wait for her . hehes . first time i wake up first nehs . whakakas . don think todae going out nehs . cos TMR IS OUR OUTING WITH JOYCE !! WHEE =D . we going party world oh , sing song . lalas . den must save money lerhs . but i buy from online de things haven give nehs . so hais , no money lerhs . jia you vionna , jia you jia you jia you ! weets =D . okays larhs , thats all lerhs . hehes . long blog hors . slowly read arhs . whakakas . smuacks ..

* for the whole day , after the messages in the morning , im not in the mood for anything . den smiles and laughters for ytd were so fake . and only some could see through . why ? u're just makin up a fuss out of somethinq so small and u wan me to clear the mess up . after sitting at the canal there for a long time , after thinkinq for the whole day , i decide to let you go . the thoughts of me leaving u ; u leavin me and what gonna happen next really hurts me . becos of you not understanding , u made me so fark up . i did not make up a fuss when ur friendster had so many girls or maybe all girls . i swollow it down . i did not make up a fuss when ur testi was all girls and when they said they miss u , love u . i did not make up a fuss when a girl said she really really really miss you like hell . i did not make up a fuss when u took a girl's number in front of me .. i did not make up a fuss no matter how u joke , and that joke hurts my heart . and now , u're just makinq up a fuss becos someone asked me to intro and asked for my msn and its a guy , i confess . the messages hurt me , but my tears kept away from my eyes . crying in the show , and i cried out too . not only becos the movie was sad , i cry urs out too . u told me to learn as a good gf first , i told u in most of my ex eyes , especially those im deeply in love with , im perfect as a gf . so let me tell u , can u learn to be a bf first before lovinq me . or maybe before PLAYING me . ask my friends , they can see . i have none of my ex being like that before . and i think , u should be the one learnin first . no matter how my frens ask me to leave u , i always said no . i always say maybe , i always say nothinq would happen . but its already gone over my limit . i really cant take it anymore , i decide to let you go . decide to clear up the mess made by you . its only the matter of time now .. *

* hey someone , u'll be readin my blog , u'll know who u are . thanks for ytd . although we didn't laugh real much ytd or arhs ~ but i really thank u for ytd . its really fun / since the day u went , i've been lookinq forward to a day goin out with u . but i hadn't the chance too . i kept tellinq myself this gonna be the last time .. so =) . take care . i hope u had lotsa fun too ytd . memories .. =) * .

* ger , i know u meant well for me . i've made my decision . i know you care but its difficult to show it out . u left one period of time , and u made me left in hell . u came back and im well now =) . u said we'll not let history repeat itself . i know it won't . unless u don't go . maybe after letting him go , i'll be single till the day i found someone who really loves me . and we'll concentrate one each other .. sisters are forever , frens are indeed important . thanks for ur everything , thanks for ur memories =) . i evol you too =D . take loads of care for yourself too alrights ? smuackks . hehes . *

darlinq ger ` u asked me if i would choose someone i love or someone who loves me . i told u i would choose someone who loves me . u asked me why , i said becos i can easily someone who really loves me and its so much better being with someone who really loves me . now im addinq in some other reasons . i choose to be with the one who really loves me more becos i wouldn't get hurt . and i love being treated so well =) u once treat me well , but i let it go . nvm i told myself . we have our memories . . and maybe now i met adrian , maybe its retribution . i accept it although im hurt becos i told i made many mistakes last time before i learnt to be better . i know u're happy with life now , im glad too . take care alrights . i gonna miss you much . loves =) . *

can someone slap that slut and ask her not to copy me anymore . or whatever shit ? =) . she really do shux .. =) .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEARIE , TRACY . !
I NEVER FORGET LARHS . JUST FORGET TO WISH U IN SCHOOL .
HEHES . LOVE YOU LOADS YARHS =D .

AND YA , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SOMEONE TOO .
READ UR BLOG AND UNDERSTAND U HAVE ENJOYED UR B'DAE .
TAKE CARE ! LALAS .

replies to tags !! if i reply there , everybody sure blur .
so i reply here ! hehes . bleahs .

christina : i reply in ur tag lerhs . hahas . but nvm , since u tag me , weets =D . yeahs , we all changed . so we gonna meet up soon to see how much we've change alrights . well , come back visit outram soon ! smuacks .

joyce : i know you're here =) . thanks . and hmmms , this sun or sat nawh . we go sing ktv ! whee =D .

chocolate : you always make me wait . sometimes , i get use to it lerhs . hmms . ain't i good as ur best best best fren ? =P .

judy : yarhs yarhs , i love you too ! love your smile too alrights !! but pls don be too farked up .. hehes . lalas .

june : babe darlinq , loving u loads too alrights . thanks for tagging . wun be that sad . i have my friends and u , aren't i right ? =D . take care too alrights . reply me at ur tag larhs , and tag mine too alrights . loves . smoochies . hehes .

chinyi mei : you know why i don let u hug ? hehes . cos ur hands dirty , hug other ppl lerhs den remember me as ur JIE !! arghs ~ roar . hehes .


actually i blogged ytd , but can't . blog spoil larhs . u know ? hehes . so ytd blog de is below that one . this one todae . and todae is a normal day larhs . so not much , i wun blog . =) . might not be going sch tmr again , because of swimming .. yaya .. and maybe going study alrights . if not jiu shi go pei baobeix baobeix lerhs ! hehes . smoochies baby .. weets =D . going lerhs oh . wanna go read my own blog lerhs . cos i've already read the others ! whakakas . take care yarhs . loves . =D .

darlinq ger ` 4 days . nahs , im giving up soon . i hope there's peace if i ever let u go .

ur kisses bright my day , and made me forget totally about him . ain't a bitch , but its the fact . =) .

if you don't know me , don't understand me , dosen't know what situation am i in now , den shudup alrights ? =) . and to those who know me , know what situation am i in now , understand me derhs , surprise by this pic bahs ? don't worry , i've known him for years =) .
pei marhs ? lols . cos allot ppl say we very pei . lols . * blurred * i preferred this pic second . he said first . lols . nvm ~ miss u darlinq . =D .
he said " kiss me larhs " . i said " hurhs , lols . really ? " hahas . did kiss dao ta larhs , but the pic seems like don have right ?? lalas . ni men bei pian lerhs . muahahas .
after she lost her child , she became so depress , nvm , i'll understand . lols .
but for me , i think i look like a auntie larhs , when that tiff say i look like a horse . arghs ~ damn it . .hahas . like a nanny so depress right ? lalas . hahas .
the dress's too bright for her , cos she's black larhs . lols .
a bee or a butterfly ? lols .
being young at age , its only once in a lifetime =P .

rose . i prepare it derhs , scared later got gaga come arhs , i must throw . den it wil vanish . lols . WATCH STAY ALIVE and u'll know what im talking . lols . throw throw throw ~~ weets =D .

ahahas . have already watch STAY ALIVE with joyce ! but watch once again todae . and so qiao that , she watched with her darlinq todae again too . weets =D . hmmms . because was saying with chocolate ytd about the show , den she said she wanted to watch . so i said alrights , don mind watching again . so watch todae . because ytd night saw baobeix online , so asked if he wanna watch . just nice he wanted to watch the same movie too , so i purposely wake up in the middle of the night to check the time and everything and plan where to meet cum bla bla bla . decided to meet and jurong point " his place ! " , was suppose to meet at 6.3o but he said he pon sch because of me . so able to meet early . made me rush there with chocolate , but when i reached , he hasn't . ! and he made us waited for so long , always like that . was standing beside his frens , i didn't even know . den saw him walking here and heard his frens say " ehs , shaowei lei " . den i was like , dots , they know him ~ den he with one of his fren [ idiotic fren ] , den ask us away to go smoke . after smoking , went down to coffeebean , he bought a drink and force me to drink . keep threatening me , ewww , i don like . lols . den sat there quite long , only den he tell me he dosen't want to watch . cos got some urgent prob at boon lay . ask me not to go watch and pei him go down , but must all act . den i was thinking to myself " diiaos , go down boon lay , must be backside itchy . lols . go down later add one more prob , everyone dies . lols " so decided no , ps him i rather . den went to watch movie . before we go , took fotos . weets =D . fun . loads of things larhs . he keep di siaoing by bringing back the past where we use to play and loads of things . den i keep covering my face . lols . so fun larhs , really bright up my day . =) . den he went at 7 but the show was at 6.55 . but don mind cos got advertisment too . hehes . shoo i and chocolate rush up to buy the tix . message baobeix to tell him to take care and not do wrong things at boon lay again . den straight away went in to watch after buying a cup of ice lemon tea . weets . den i slept awhile in the show , because i was tired and i knew what was the show was happening . den woke up in the end , continue to watch . arghs ~ den that chocolate keep fan me , asking me this and that . wanted to bring her there to scare her and not entertain her by telling her the whole story . lols . so i didn't entertain her and watch the movie . lalas . after the movie , went to toy'r's . thats why took loads of photos like idiot . hahas . den papa called , den bring us go mam mam . realise boon lay food actually quite nice . whakakas . den fetch chocolate home lerhs jiu go home . reach home lerhs bath and everything . check friendster and blogs . now finally updating my own . whakakas . yup , thats all for todae . after writing my blog , im going to sleep . real tired . yawns ..

not being a bitch , but just telling you that there's more who treasure me more than u . alot more than u . many peeps been asking me to end with you . but just the thought of you , that was the one who brought back rainbows to my life , i can't let u go . was asking chocolate just now if i should really break and choose another one , she said yes . i gave her three names [ not to be listed out all three ] , den she chose baobeix . indeed i had knew baobeix for long , but we had not be together before . he told me he would wait for me to end with u . he would be the first to ask and blah blah blahs . wondering what would happen if i end with you .. really . would u people blame me for being like that ? but the real fact , who knows ? only me , and two other darlinqs of mine . we've not been contacting for 3 days .. long days .. he only send me a nite message ytd and todae . may i ask if what's the meaning of this ? boy , i'am afraid i might leave ur life soo soon . if you really do love me , would you tell me asap ? like hazel says to thomas , i have you but i cant feel . get the meaning ? can u tell me what to do .. .. .. .. ..

omg larhs , papa bought loads of ice cream again . and this few days , four person have been complaining to me that im fat ! damn it damn it . i ask baobeix watch out , watch out next year . lols . and ya , he ask me to choose what drink derhs . to represent him larhs . den i see got vodka . so among so many drinks , i love vodka the most lerhs . so i chose vodka , at first he say its bad . so i thot , omg , wtf . lols . guess whats the ans . ? its " I WANT YOU ! " . DAMN . lols . i blush right away larhs , and he said fated . lols . den he ask chocolate choose , dunno what she choose . forget lerhs . and it says " just frens " lols . feel so dots larhs . anw , lols .. gonna end my blog . been smoking so much . gotta sleep to stop . love u guys for reading my blog alrights ? loves ~ smoochies . =D .

darlinq ger ` u were once the only one i thot of . but it seems like things are gonna end . hope u guys know what situation am i in , understand pls ..

he says " i treat my gurl well , and u know it cos u have known me for years . i teng the person whose with me and blah blah .. blah . "
i know , but baby , i don't know if i can trust again . you only know i have this "hen" tattoo . and i lazer it . u already warn me not to put anymore . but u don't know about others . u say u know the serangoon uncle . and u gonna tell him that if he sees me goin back , don't do for me . and u ask chocolate to call u straight if she knows im gonna put another one . u say looking at the scar on my hand , it breaks ur heart , so can i ask you , do you know about other tings ? ..

loved .

My dear brother , i've known you for years , but i've never seen u like this before . im crying for her while she's sleeping , after what you said again . yes , its her fault three times , but she's knows now , and u're not caring anymore . if i were her , i would have early given up on u and find someone so much better than you . too bad , her taste is so high , she's doesn't even wan any one , but you . even if there's someone so much better than u in front of her , waiting for her , she won't want , but only you . always at times , i really wanna slap the hell out of her to wake her up , but i know how she feels , and i don't slap . i tried telling her all kinds of ways , to get you back but there was this last thing i always try to keep it from her , i never asked her to talk to yuo herself , open herself to you . i thought you were like other guys , more understanding even , and maybe , would be giving more chances . a year has pass , but everything changed . too bad for her , maybe . too late for her too , maybe . like what you said , if i were really her best friend , i wouldn't clear up things for her , i would not want to pamper and protect her anymore , let her grow up . okays , i will . i will let her clear up her own mess with you . i will let her start anew herself maybe . i will not let her cry over for you again . no more words from you , no more , cause if you can hurt me , you will hurt her more . don't tag her blog anymore , don't , because this time , she will know , you're actually tagging only because you have nothing to do . let it be , let it be , i hope she learns her lesson , i hope she learns not to put her confidence and TASTE so high anymore , i hope she would let bygones be bygones . i wish her luck , i wish you too . yes , you take good care of youself too . don't worry , i'll be able to take good care of myself , yes i will .

this few days really happen alot of things hmms . but i realise something , i lose my night life , i lost my friends too . maybe not lost them , maybe they're still here , but i just can't feel them like i use too anymore . i will , get back my night life asap ! i will ! i will not want myself to lose any more friends like i use to last time . no more last time .


darlinq ger ` i took a risk to accept you , i thot maybe only a week , and i'll let you go . but i never thought you would be so sweet , caring and loving . i never thought i would have fell for you . i don need you to be the perfect guy , im not chiwen , not xin hui . i don need high taste , i don't believe in this kind of nonsense . and im glad i didn't believe =) , if not i wouldn't have found you . baby , its you i've been finding for . i realise . everything you do , everything you say , everything ..... its all i want . thank you for trying to bright up my day everyday . thank you . you tolerate my mood swings , my shoutings , my yelling , my bad moods , yet u did nothing but try to make me smiles . even if you were in a really bad mood , you didn't do anything but smile =) . thanks . loved =) . you really dont have to be perfect baby , you don't have those perfect look , but for me , you're perfect enough to be my loving baby . smoochies .

you said , let bygones be bygones . you do only love me so much now , and this is the only thing you know . hugs . *

lovely lovely loved loved . * lalas . i'am his zhu zhu !! poor me , being forced to eat . he use forced derhs !! bian tai arhs !! poor me gotta gubble the stupid kfc down . roar .
see the height of ours . but ehs . i never stand straight . so add a little more CM * ~~ lols . no choice , he's tall . ~ BOO !

sentosa siao ! lols . *

when i have my rights and freedom to write my things in my blog ! you afraid that don read my blog , thats all . arghs , whatever , im in a very bad mood now . whatever .. .. ..


My dear brother , i've known you for years , but i've never seen u like this before . im crying for her while she's sleeping , after what you said again . yes , its her fault three times , but she's knows now , and u're not caring anymore . if i were her , i would have early given up on u and find someone so much better than you . too bad , her taste is so high , she's doesn't even wan any one , but you . even if there's someone so much better than u in front of her , waiting for her , she won't want , but only you . always at times , i really wanna slap the hell out of her to wake her up , but i know how she feels , and i don't slap . i tried telling her all kinds of ways , to get you back but there was this last thing i always try to keep it from her , i never asked her to talk to yuo herself , open herself to you . i thought you were like other guys , more understanding even , and maybe , would be giving more chances . a year has pass , but everything changed . too bad for her , maybe . too late for her too , maybe . like what you said , if i were really her best friend , i wouldn't clear up things for her , i would not want to pamper and protect her anymore , let her grow up . okays , i will . i will let her clear up her own mess with you . i will let her start anew herself maybe . i will not let her cry over for you again . no more words from you , no more , cause if you can hurt me , you will hurt her more . don't tag her blog anymore , don't , because this time , she will know , you're actually tagging only because you have nothing to do . let it be , let it be , i hope she learns her lesson , i hope she learns not to put her confidence and TASTE so high anymore , i hope she would let bygones be bygones . i wish her luck , i wish you too . yes , you take good care of youself too . don't worry , i'll be able to take good care of myself , yes i will .

this few days really happen alot of things hmms . but i realise something , i lose my night life , i lost my friends too . maybe not lost them , maybe they're still here , but i just can't feel them like i use too anymore . i will , get back my night life asap ! i will ! i will not want myself to lose any more friends like i use to last time . no more last time .

darlinq ger ` i took a risk to accept you , i thot maybe only a week , and i'll let you go . but i never thought you would be so sweet , caring and loving . i never thought i would have fell for you . i don need you to be the perfect guy , im not chiwen , not xin hui . i don need high taste , i don't believe in this kind of nonsense . and im glad i didn't believe =) , if not i wouldn't have found you . baby , its you i've been finding for . i realise . everything you do , everything you say , everything ..... its all i want . thank you for trying to bright up my day everyday . thank you . you tolerate my mood swings , my shoutings , my yelling , my bad moods , yet u did nothing but try to make me smiles . even if you were in a really bad mood , you didn't do anything but smile =) . thanks . loved =) . you really dont have to be perfect baby , you don't have those perfect look , but for me , you're perfect enough to be my loving baby . smoochies .

i would be there , be there just for you .
she said my blog has no pics of her . so i shall put some pics of her .
sitted .
if u think is mine hand , i would want u to open ur eyes damn wide big to see clearly , cos its not mine . mine finger nails ain't that short .
see , more pics of her aagain .
loved you , am i loved by you then ?

never see plaza de ah boy before dui marhs ? and some peeps who wanna see him always , so above this pic is him .. its dark becos its at night , wil take one early afternoon de and then post it up again . stay tune . . . . .

arghs ~ its not that i've not been updating my blog . i've updated last few days , but becos of the bloggy prob again . ITS SAYS " CAN'T BE UPDATED " . damn . and i forget to copy and paste my blog so im lazy to update again . some pics that aren't in my blog is in chocolate derhs . hmms . cos since her blog have , so i update up abit dots . and i've tried updating it that day , and when the whole thing was gone , im damn fed up and don wanna see those pics again . been quite alot of fun this few days , i've just forgotten what happen last few days . so lets start with fridae .

had eng exam on fridae and first paper was alright . second one was difficult and we was grublling like birds . hubby was suppose to wait for me outside sch but the end he said he was stil at home and he told me he hadn't rest for the dae . so i said " den go to sleep , well , anw , even if u come . i cant pei u for too long and i have my frens here , meet u at night " . for dunno what sake , he got angry and bla bla bla . den i aiya , nothing . so after that , pat go home . tiff , joey , chocolate came to my house . den awhile later joey went off to watch movie with other frens of ours . but we didn't go because we was lazy . and the fact is , they're damn damn childish kids . going with them will only make our blood boil . so she went and then tiff use the com . saw chocolate went to my bed and sleep , so i got tired and went to sleep too . didn't know what time tiff went but when we woke up , dad brought dinner for the both of us . yummy yum , nice but isn't saltish enough . hmms . so we ate and then went to bathe . den wait for papa go to sleep , den we ran out . lols . den we wait for hubby larhs . den his fren drive car here . den we go nors . dunno drive go what 99 dunno what larhs . turn 14 rounds derhs , make me so giddy . arghs ~ den we get out of the car , den they go learn car nors . turn round and round . buey sian . lols . den hubby de another few frens come lerhs . another car , den also same nors . turn round and round . lols . saw alot of motor bikes arhs . but they stay awhile den go , den other few come den go . lols . den stay there lerhs jiu go mam mam . den we never eat larhs , pig nehs . follow them sure become pig . enough fat lerhs stil eat . den we went to hubby's house drink . wat rebena + vodka + water + ice . quite nice ehs . cos the " kick ? " [ hahas ] only come after awhile . arghs ~ den after that see hubby play that dota den chocolate sleep . so i sit there watch nors . after that already 7 lerhs marhs . got to go lerhs . den hubby pass me 1o bucks to take taxi go home . he shoo bu gan yuan let me go home . hmmms . hais , sorry hubby , bu shi bu yao pei ni , shi zhen de bu ke yi . den go home lerhs jiu do some things den jiu orh orh lerhs .

sat 5 something 4 something like that den wake up . den we decide to stay at home cos no where to go and lazy . after that i cannot tahan , den say wanna go watch movie . so we see see , check check den decide to watch at great world . so the thought of joyce suddenly , den i asked her . after that prepare hao lerhs , suddenly chocolate say don wanna go . den i say at night must come out . she said okays , that was the farking thing she said . arghs ~ the thot of her not coming out ytd night , not even listening my phone makes my blood boils . i dunch know why , but i cant take this kind of things anymore . i can't tolerate like last time . i don know why . den i said okays lors , u don go . den i went with joyce . meet her at mac outside . den we smoke lerhs jiu go buy tickets den chou yan again den talk talk . weets =D . den realise that hmms , don always trust people's blog . some things they write and not write .. yups . don get my meaning ? nvm , i know can lerhs . hmmms . den we watch STAY ALIVE . nice show yarhs . the sound effect , nearly die of it . hmmms . den after watch finish lerhs we go mac outside sit again den smoke . den i go buy drink den we drink drink . hehes . den papa jiu come lerhs , den we jiu go home nors . she walk home arhs , den papa fetch me . like that nors . the rest of the nigght i don wanna say .

todae gonna be a bored day larhs . hmmms . anw , feeling so damn fark up now . that damn bitch mum of mine came again . with no fail she always scold and nag when i don't do anything wrong . im just siting in my room thats all . den she would start her damn farking nonsense . worst , i cant find that chocolate . don avoid can ? don wan meet just say don wan meet can . u like that u make the people finding u worst u know . i call u also don wan ans . dunno what the hell u all people thinking . im always the wrong one alrights . everything wrong is me okays . my fault larhs , go out also my fault . at night ask u come out also my fault . talking to u again also my fault . dying also my fault larhs okays . hubby have not been contactin me for a day , i also dunno what u thinking . break larhs break larhs . whatever hell . 2 months 4 days just like that go okays . let me lose everything once again larhs . really don care don care already . so damn fark up now larhs hors . shudup shudup .

darlinq ger ` no mood to blog anymore . im damn fark up now alrights . i just wanna cry it out but i cant . my tears just stucked right up my eyes .. who am i losing again . damn , who isit next going ? go larhs , i don care .