大家好!今天和大哥,J,Kaki 一起去 club yang!
那么久没见,大哥和 kaki 还是一样欠骂.
forever late boys.





我和他,也还是一样,沒话题聊.
冷冷淡淡的,看了都叫人心碎.
一直想找话题聊的我,感觉起來好白痴oh!
只好一人坐一边,安安静静的.
Kaki!
I ordered food! Chicken wings & fries,yum.

刚好也开始玩游戏,大哥就去玩lo!
天啊! 超白痴的好不好! 哈哈!







Here comes Orange orange ! :D
见到Orange,不知道为什么好开心,
但是我们话也沒聊多.
Sigh ):

这是大哥的朋友.
好巧oh,我们都认识Dickson.
哈!
Very random,but yea. (:

Home around 3 plus.
The guys went to geylang,
to meet their friends. (:

晚安!

1st.
Congrats to my friend. ( you know who you are )
Just rmb,take good care of yourself.
Don't over-work yourself,
from today onwards,i'll be nagging to you as often as i can.

2nd.
Shiying,i can feel the concern you have for me.
I'm sorry i didn't reply you,
but thanks, (:

3rd.
I've been going on with life,
i didn't blog thats all.
I've not been cam-whoring.
I'm trying to keep myself busy.
I'm okay,don't worry.

4th.
Though excluding today,
i've been keeping myself home,for days.
I've been thinking,reflecting on alot of stuffs.
No conclusions have been done yet,
but i managed to figure out some stuffs.
People come and go,each & everyone of them,
i can whine,yell,shout,cry for days,
but i've made a promise to myself,
each time this comes to an end,
I just gotta be happier than before,ever.

5th.
Through random thinking,
i realize i'll not stand people who think they're the best,
give me reasons that i think its bullshits,
or talk rubbish when they shouldn't.
I'll entertain you,
but i'll make it obvious that you're making me irritated.
Though i do bullshit at times too,
but do it when its the right time?
Never think too highly of yourself.
You may be good at " A ",but there will be someone else who's better in " B ".
Or you'll never know,
there may be someone around you who's better than you in everything.
Just that the best always keeps to themselves.

6th.
I was at Tiong Bahru just now.
& i saw HK.
We were on the escalators,different sides.
We said " Hi. "
& when i'm home,he came to talk to me on msn,
and guess what he said.
I slimmed down,alot!
Gf says so too.
Though i'm still fat,
but at least i don't look like a fishball walking on the street anymore.

7th.
I'm so looking forward to tmr.
I've been waiting to see all of them,
Yes,all of them,i mean it.
I assume tmr will be a happy and crazy day,
god,
don't disappoint me.

Goodnight.
I still have Oodette stuffs to be done in the noon.
People to see in the night.

I've been thinking too much these days.

& it took me hours to take up that courage to be blogging about it.
i blogged it once, & i got screwed up.

I've been alone these few days. Sitting in front of my laptop, just staring at it,and i would tear.

I've been thinking about north,south,east & west, i mean,all sorts of random stuffs.
From family to friends to ex boyfriends to lovers to flings and everything that anyone could think of.

Always after a breakup,regardless i'm the one who said so,or he's the one that said it,
i always tell myself that i've gotta live better than before.
So that he could see the change in me, and probably, regret ?
Thoughts huh?
Yea,silly thoughts.
Anw,i always fail waking up from memories.

I've been looking through my msn list,friendster & facebook.
I somehow came to an conclusion that i've been lying to myself all along.
Why could people move on but i would never?
This question came to my mind a week plus ago,
and i brought it up to Ahjie & Candy,
one said that its love,
the other said that i've rely too much on that person.

But i couldn't get my ans right.
& now i feel like a retard.
Because people who don't understand will say this ,
" Bitch . "
People who understands,they would say this,
" Take your time. "

Damn,i don't feel like continuing anymore. Too much leads to misunderstandings.

I'm starting to hate myself in fact.
& its time to MIA.
Ha
Ha.

I miss all of you ? Forget about it. It will be gone after a few days.

我越來越不了解自己. (:

后来我总算学会了如何去爱,
可惜你早已远去.
后来在眼泪中明白,
有些人一旦错过就不在. 为什么,
这些永远都不会再重来?

i'm avoiding,
your funeral.

i've been staying home.

till today.

i hate faking that " lol. " that " haha ".

i miss you.

wouldn't stop,tears.
i miss you.

how would i ever bare to say,bye.
there's too much things to say to you.
i never got a chance to.
my last touch on you,
was your head,to your hair.
your hand.
and the way i smiled when you tried moving your head.

everything i do,reminds me of you.
as simple as sitting down to have dinner.
as simple as waking up from my sleep.
as simple as tears that just roll down my cheeks.

you were like my dad,
just that i don't see you everyday.
i don't say goodnight to you everyday.
i don't talk to you every now and then.
i don't joke with you often.
but the memories we both have tgt was sweet.
pa,you were strong.
i was waiting for a miracle.
you gave up,your body gave up on you.
i miss you.
i should have cherish the times you were here,
i should have went up to find you guys often,
and i'm only left with regrets.
pa.

走了,他就这样走了.心也跟着碎了.
开始想你了.

As a child,there were the times,i didn't get it but you kept me in line.
All them grownful things,separation brings,
you never let me know it,
you never let it show it.
Because you love me,
& obviously,there's so much more left to say.,
if you were with me today face to face.

& everyday life goes on like this,
" I wish i could talk to you for awhile. "
" I wish i could find a way not to cry "

I assume you've reached a better place.
Feels like you're gone too soon.
Now the hardest thing to say is, bye.

I remember when you use to tug me in at night,
with the teddy bear you gave me i held so tight.
I thought you were so strong,
you make it through whatever,
its so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever.

We'll never say bye.


Sorry,i never told you,
all i wanted to say.
Now its too late to hold you,
Cause you've flown away,so far away.

Never,had i imagine,
be living without your smile.
Feeling and knowing you hear me,
it keeps me alive,alive.

& i know you're shining down on me from heaven,
like so many friends we've lost along the way.
And i know eventually we'll be together,
one sweet day.

I never showed you,
assume you'll always be there.
I took your presence for granted,
but i always cared,
and i miss the love we share.

Although,the sun will never shine the same.
I'll always look to a brighter day.

I know,you will always listen,as i pray.

Sorry,i never told you,
all i,
wanted to say.

Tears.

I've never been to any ICU before,
neither i wish to be standing in there.
Today i woke up in the evening,
receiving a call from dad,
saying papa ( my god father ) was in hospital.

We went there around 6 plus,
and many people were there.
I went in with dad,
i controlled my tears throughout.
Ran to the toilet,just to get those tears out.
I wouldn't want any to see me cry.
I came out,making sure my eyes weren't swollen.

I went in again,called you,talked to you,
telling you that you gotta wake up,
we'll be heading to " bai nian " next year tgt again.
Want to lie on your bed and talk to you,
asking each other how we've been doing.
I want to hear you tell mama not to rush me,let me eat slowly.
I want to hear you scolding me to be too noisy.
I want to hear you laugh at me.
I want to see you looking at us play mahjong.
I want to see you sing K.
I want to see you doing everything you always do.
Pa,don't give up.
If you could shake your head and move your lips,
i'm sure you can make it through,you can open your eyes and get well soon.

I touched your forehead,
and how i wish i could go beside your ear to whisper,
i love you,i've always do.
As a god daughter,i may not have did much.
But i've always try to give the best to you and mama.

Today made me realise i couldn't lose any of you.
The ones that even aren't blood-related means something to me too.
The ones who've see me grown from young till now.
You made me realise i love all of you,
i do love all of you.
Don't go.
You were healthy all along,won't you?
Its late pa,wake up.
Its been more than a day..

Not at this time,
its not the time for you to go.

A little peek-a-boo on what i've done on Wed. Guess:D
One of the few.
The ones that shocked me .
Beautiful (:
Okay,cut. I'm not going to say anything more.
Its coming up , coming up!
& on Wed night. We went to have dinner at Causeway.
Then cam-whored outside the mrt station.








Look! Finally ahjie has a different face. Hahaha! no,i mean different expression.
& a little of ugly picture.
We took alot of pictures,
but i edited these few,
and i'm here to update my blog.
Wed is done just like that. Long & tiring day.

Stayed home today,
been sleeping the whole day.
Doubt i'll be going out tmr too.

Alright,something to rant about.
I was carrying baby to sleep just now.
Patting him,looking at his eyes,closing slowly.
Cute (:
Then i thought of Inky & Ice-tea,
i wonder,
what if they were still here with me?
Would i be running the whole house,chasing the both of them?
Find one and couldn't find the other because they're so small.
How will they look like now if they're still here?
How big would they be now?
Will i be using both of my hands carrying the both of them,
singing their usual song " twinkle twinkle little star " ?
Will i be shouting the whole day , like
" INKY QUEK/CHAN,STOP POOING HERE,DAMN,COME LAH,tsk "
" ICE TEA AH! STOP RUNNING, aiyo! YOU BETTER COME NOW BEFORE I SMACK YOU "
i don't know,
babies,i miss you girls so much.
that even till today,when night falls,
i'll be thinking,are you girls still here?
Playing with boy when he's alone?
barking at each other for toys?
I still keep your toys with me,do you girls even know,
i miss you.

I remember D calling dad,asking permission to get them.
Then dad came and stuffs.
Then you girls were home with me.
i sat by your cage,using D's laptop,looking at you girls.
Wake up in the morning to prepare breakfast,
night for dinner.
Then i see you girls fell sick,
hospital,
crying,hoping you girls were okay,
whispering to you girls,you both are gonna be okay,
i love you,please be strong.
back to the farm,
and gone.
I remember D & dad arguing with that " fucker ",
i was holding on to Gf,crying.
Then you girls were gone.

Boy came around a month after,
made my days.
Then D went away.
How fast time flies.
Tears,god.
the old days,you see.
becomes a painful memory now.
god,no.

Goodnight.

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心好痛,泪水就是不听话,就是不能停.
你让我更想你,真的好想你.
好痛.....

我答应你,我会试着开心,
我相信我能熬,
但是至少常常要讓我知道,
你 过的好不好 .

也谢谢你讓我知道,
我是最了解你的人.
谢谢你能看得到我的伤心.

Happy Valentine Day !

hahahaha,kidding.
that was last year's valentine day picture. LOL.

Happy Valentine Day ! ( for 2009 )
This was how i spent my Valentine Day,giving free hugs!
It was tiring,walking with my heels on everywhere around town.
But it was worth it ^^,
the hugs i got in total,bright up my valentine day.
but looking at couples on streets really sucks.
my mood changed,i feel so,
lonely.
ha ha.
you see couples holding hands,
smiling,
laughing,
hugging,
taking pictures tgt.
oh god.
Each person gotta hold 10 balloons and give them out.
but the organizer gave us 10 more.
meaning 20 balloons.

& the friendly foreigners! (:
First hug of my day.
Crossing the road.
Surrounded by balloons.
I was so afraid any would burst suddenly,
and i'll probably go deaf.
ha.
Foreigners again.
I rmb we hugged.
Then she said something like some boyfriend stuffs and i said i'm single.
She started saying " good good ! better not find a bf. etc etc etc.... "
I'm like thinking,
" Ya,but its valentine's day today. "

I scare him off didn't i?
he was like raising his voice,
" don't want lah,don't want hug. "
LOL,was it him? or some other kid ?



The deer and
the swan? duck? bird?
LOL.
So cute.haha.
And we see " naked " people walking on the street with boxes on.
Promoting for IKEA sale.
Hahahaha.
Oh ya,thats me hugging people again.

Candy thinks Mr.Ronald Macdonal needs a hug too.
He's like sitting there alone,
so i hugged him (:

Little kid again.
But she's cute.
I'm in love with kids who're shy when they see strangers :D
They're like freaking cute.

Accompanying Candy for her lunch.
After lunch.


Then it was my turn to have my lunch & early dinner.
Ban mian. I miss Cine's ban mian,i swear i do.
The period when i was working,
i always have that for lunch.
Its so nice,so big & soooooooooooo cheap! :D
Candid shot. Cool ?
She's in love with Stitch.
We went to this random shop,and she got this Stitch mirror.
Then to More Than Words,
and she got a toy stitch for like $31?!
Hehheh,but i got myself something too lah.
Then we met Fred up in the night,and we've got no where to go.
So we sat at some random places,like within the bushes.
Lol.
And we played True Or Dare. Ha.
And they made me do this while walking.
Peel banana,peel peel banana.
They made me call Sean and request for a Moooo mooo i saw outside Cine.
They made me hugged malay guys.
They made me hugged some random girl selling balloons.
Lol!
And me & fred made Candy to go to the same group of people for 3 times.
LOL! cool.
& made her write her name using her backside facing people.
Cute! :D
We were heading home soon.
& there were some desperate people trying to sell balloons away.
I didn't had any Valentine Day present. So i asked Fred to buy me one.
Haha! And he reluctantly went to get me one.
And Candy one too. A black bear with a rose on it.
Hahaha,something came to my mind suddenly.
Seany! It looks like you holding onto the rose.
Hahahahahahahaha!

Okay.
Dad came to fetch me after that.
I ended my Valentine Day like this.
Goodnight.