VC

It's Terrible ,, Terrifying ..
I Can't Believe .. I Let Many People Down ..

Goodbye .. My Past .. I'm Ready To Let Go ..
As Of This Moment, I'm A New Human Being .. Reborn To Live ..
As Of This Moment, I Live To Pray .. I Live For My Ending ..
I Live For The Final Judgment Day .. May God Forgive Me For I Have Sinned ..

I'm Sorry ~ ..
To All The People I've Let Down By Being Who I Was In The Past ..
I'm Sorry ~ ..
But I Have Changed .. I'm Not The Same Person I Used To Be ..
Hopefully, God Will Guide Me To What's Best ..

I'm Sorry ~ .. No .. I'm Not ..
Because I'm Leaving My Dark Evil Past Behind .. Gladly ..

I Hope Everyone Who Thought Wrong About Me Would Change Their View ..
Because .. I Changed .. And I Want To Be Better ..
But I Can't Become Anything .. If People Look At Me .. Like Before ..

God, Please Forgive Me And Light My Path ..
I'm Sorry .. I'm Guilty .. I Have Sinned ..
May I Find The Right Way Again .. I Hope You Forgive Me ..

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Please Re-Read This Description Carefully ..
I'm Not The Same Person Anymore ..
Please .. Do Forget Everything I've Done Before ..
Don't Believe Anything Said About Me ..
I've Thrown My Past Behind ..
Thanks To God .. I'm A New Person ..

( Got this from flickr. The website that has got tons of beautiful taken pictures. Damn meaningful,the way this guy is writing,its so meaningful. Like how i'm feeling now,darn sad. )

anw,was sleeping already. then something just got pass my mind. Its been nearly a year,looking back at what i've done & what has happen,may be beautiful,but the way i end it, was painful.Remembering how we use to sit out,talk,puff,play & everything not everybody could have,we did. But as time passes,things changes.Like what i told elisha,its bad,bad past. To others,vionna's strong,vionna's a biatch who can get through anything.That was nothing.If you're thinking a way like this,thats too bad,you don't understand me enough. I still couldn't get up on my own feet,i still haven't got back the confidence i use to have.I still haven't forget what had happen & how he hurt me,so deep. To others,little things they say,they might think it as a joke.But for me,every single little tiny thing that happens,affect me. I get hit down easily,so its actually very easy to beat me down,but ... (: i don't know.

Every single thing people do to please me or to make me happy,actually i do.Just that i don't find a reason to shout,scream to say ahhh,i'm happy for what you've done. I often give a smile,a hug or prolly a kiss. i'm happy. But its the same,i get happy for a single tiny thing easily,but i get sad or angry for any single tiny thing that happen to me.Still,no one understands. I'm still a fool,am i not? If i had the strength,i would really want people to stop talking bout my past,to throw away what i've done and what had happened.To let people forget i've once fell so deep in love with him and that got me in trouble. Prolly if time could turn back,i will not make a stupid choice of going down,i'll not make a stupid choice of missing him. If time could turn back,i would make myself cleverer. But too bad,whats done couldn't be change anymore. This is how people look at me now,they don't give me a chance. I could not trust anyone,anymore. This is the fact,this is life.

I'm a human like you guys. I couldn't choose the way i want to live,just like all of you.i always want to start anew,but no one would let me to.everyone would say " i did give you a chance,but you didn't treasure it " ask yourself deep down,did you really forget bout whats my past about and give me a chance? I always take the wrong steps and can't turn back.. This is life,life...tiring as much as it seems. I'm falling sick,its obvious,no one cares,no one.

Look at me,you may think you see who i really am,but you never know me.
Everyday,its as if i play a part.
Now i see,if i wear a mask,i could fool the world,but i cannot fool my heart.

Who is the girl i see,staring straight back at me.When will my reflection show who i am inside.

I am now,in a world where i have to hide my heart and what i believe in.
But somehow i would show the world whats inside my heart,
and be loved for who i am.

who is that girl i see,staring straight back at me.
Why is my reflection someone i don't know.
Must i pretend that i'm someone else for all time,when will my reflection show,who i am inside..

Why must we all conceal,what we mean,how we feel.
Must there be a secret me i'm force to hide?
i won't pretend that i'm,someone else for all time.
When will my reflection show,who i am inside..
when will my reflection show,who i am inside.....