surprised

To others , it might mean nothing at all .
To guys , you might think its something " bo liao "
To high expectations girls , you might think nothing of it .
But to me , its something that made my night .
Just a call & a normal roll of grape mentos sweet ,

you made my night .

you kept me smiling even after i reached my room .

you made me stare at the mentos for a min blankly .

Even if your messages were so boring {=x} for the whole day ,

this is enough (:
Maybe its because i hadn't got a surprise for such a long time ,
and always wanting for one , thats why this feels so nice .

Guess i'm qutting my job soon ,

my female boss's pissing me off .

she's so effing F up .

Probably its right this way ,

everyone starts anew .

Now , with a simple life & a different group of friends ,

it feels so much better ,

than lingering with the old people that holds more than one memory .

Because everyone of us knows each other too well ,

people tend to start giving F up attitude & showing character ,

that i don't think i would wanna get along with .
Yes , its right this way , this should be it .
Maybe in months time , when we would get to see each other again ,

i guess the way we feel for each other would be much more better than now (:

To the person who used James & my brother's name to tagged .
Don't be childish , i'm not as stupid as you think .
Take a good look at the time you tagged , don't you think you're stupid urself ?
The worst thing is , you don't even know how the way they type ,
and look at the way you type .
You totally give me a feeling that you're someone so young .
What " eu " what " tink " . You think what ? my brother types like this ?
If you wanna spam someone's blog , or maybe using other people's name ,
pls go check on them first .
And to others , if you think just by reading my blog ,
you know everything , then you can jolly well not come then .
If you're here to add salt to my wound , then i would sincerely apologise ,
because i'm sorry , you failed real badly in doing that .
& for my brother , so what he loves wearing short sleeves or whatever ,
you think what ? You expect him to wear long sleeves everyday ?
Yes , i agree to you , its cool , why ?
Are you jealous you can't go through the pain on him like he did ?
Or are you jealous that he's a tattoo artist ?
If you're out here to talk about him , if you ain't happy with what he does ,
then both of us would be glad if you would leave your name down .
What for hide behind the computer using other people's name ?
Your mum didn't named a name for you when you were born ?
Or i think you were borned as a bastard ?
So sad for you , i pity you if you have such a background , poor thing .
Don't brood about yourself being borned as a bastard or a orphrange ok ?
Come find me if you're really one , i get you your mother yea ?
& rmb , don't be stupid no more ,
because there's a thing named PHONE in this world ,
invented by some ulu ulu people .
We can phoned to ask , just don't let my brother knows the real culprit for this ok ? (:
& yea , being inside a gang , they're proud of it ? So ?
You're jealous you're not one ? Aww , sad .
Silly , check on someone first before doing this kind of things (:
take care .

The art of understanding depression & love .

I watch you go , you see me walking aimlessly , away .

I've learnt to smile without you . (: A step at a time , slowly .

I've decided the work for my art for my EOY .
6 catogaries to choose from ,
Flashback , Courage , The battle , Shells , Endangered Animals & Water sports .
I took the choice of Flashback & The battle .
I'll combine`em together .
Pictures , colours , memories , love , heartbreaks , drugs , tears ,
Every thing will be base on you .
I'll draw , slowly , from the day i knew you ,
till the day you put a foolstop on this .
5 pages of each drawing block (:
By the time my exams are done , by the time i've finish this project ,
I guess it will be time for my turn to leave a foolstop to this .
Again , a very sincere thank you for everything .
The way you made me felt what love was , when i knew nothing bout it .
Then the way i felt pain when you left .
Thank you for every bit of time you've spent on me .
Though the previous times , i've never cherished them ,
I could still remember some bits and pieces of it .
For now , its like forever you've been away .
She's right , to see you smile and laugh , to see you live the way you should ,
although it isn't for me ,
i should be happy enough . At least you've got what you want .
Since my hopes & dreams for us have been horribly shattered by ourselves ,
i've nothing to do about it .
I can't find a reason for me to built this love once again ,
I can only see the reason for me to remain calm & strong .
I'll never forget how the way you talked , so cold and strange ,
even if they talk about me , the way you replied them ,
this is how cruel you got this .
Not lovers , nor best friends , you gave me a answer of not even be friends .
You don't bother to think or care about what i feel ,
you left no space in your heart for me .
Everywhere i go , reminds me of you ,
i probably think they're right , i miss you ,
just too tired & bothered by all these stuffs ,
i can only miss you by everything i do .
Time heals , i believe so . Time proves everything ,
let days past by itself , let it be (: i love you but goodbye .

Okays ~ Thanks Mr.Dickson for accomapnying me whole day @ work ytd ok !
Thank you for helping me pack up my store & everything . Laughs .
You always say i'll never blog about you ,
& when last time i do , you always laugh about my posts .
Thanks to your short hair , i nearly laugh my arse out .
You totally got a resemblence of Jody Ong . Laughs .
I was walking my way out with xinhui to meet you at 7 eleven .
Just nice as i turn my head back for something ,
I saw you , i nearly got the shock of my life .
Totally not you . I guess if it was from far ,
I would thought jody came to find me . Laughs .
Ok lahs , you really slim down alot since the last time i saw you .
You see lahs , all thanks to what , AHEMS . lols .
Ok , don't miss me too much ,
I'll end this post here (:

I've lost a part of me ,
who else i'm gonna lean on if time gets rough like this ?
who's gonna talk to me on phone till the sun goes up ?
who's gonna take your place so deep in my heart ?
Are my words that hard to believe ?
You've taken everything real & good in my life .
You've pushed me off a 10th month cliff (: Well done .

Love , rmb the first day we met ?
Rmb the first day you said I love you ?
Rmb the way how much you didn't want me to leave for taiwan ?
Rmb the first kiss you gave ?
Rmb the first hug and our first laughters tgt ?
Rmb how much you've tried to stay by me ?
Rmb the way we quarreled and argue but got our way back in the end ?
Rmb those times we smile and laugh ?
Rmb the movies we've watched ?
Rmb the calls we always made at night ?
Rmb the messages you always sent if you missed me & those night messages ?
Rmb the way you held my hand ?
Rmb the way we slept on the floor and the way we hugged ?
Rmb the first morning i saw you right beside me ?
Rmb the four drinks you bought for us the first time ? the drinks you ordered .
Rmb the way you said sorry ?
Rmb the way you sa jiao and tried to make me smile ?
Rmb those times where we got angry at each other ?
Rmb the places we once went ?
Rmb the way how much you love me ?
Rmb how much you would give me your kisses on phone before putting down ?
Rmb the way you touched my face ?
Rmb the way you peck on my forehead always ?
Do you rmb everything ? Everything we've done this 10 months .
Rmb how much you got angry over guys around me ?
Rmb all your promises you broke ? (:
Thank you , thank you for everything you've gave .
i'll be strong , i will .
although missing you its increasing every day , but (: , whats the use ?
Your nick name isn't for me anymore ,
your misses and loves isn't for me ,
no more hugs and kisses nor pecks , no more you .
I would wait , i promise i will .
I don't believe its over between us , i couldn't bare to let go .
i believe it will start all over again , wouldn't we ?
Time heals , just don't ask me to leave and you don't go too ...
Don't go ..
This time , promise me to take care of yourself .
you always fall sick , pls stay at home and rest if you do .
you always stay out late or either not go home , don't make me worry anymore (:
This time , pls promise you would stay by me ,
no matter how much it has faded , try your way back , will you ?
Two promises , just two .
Time , its all about time ... i miss you .

Everywhere i go , every smile i see , everything i do ,
i always see you and those memories .
we've been to too much places tgt ,
the places that i'll always go .
I've start smiling at them , i believe there would be a miracle , isn't it right ? (:
it will happen , this is just another thing we gotta go through .
i'm sure we will .
I'm tired , i have to rest soon , so soon .
You have to rmb darling , even if there's no one there for you anymore ,
even if your brothers all leave and you feel down and there's no one ,
don't be shy over about giving me a message or a call .
I've been always waiting for you . (:
You're not alone , you're not .
You know i was the one who asked her to call you .
Thanks for entertaining me , its enough lying to myself .
You're not alone ,
i don't want you to find me a nuisance , neither a bother to you ,
let time be , i'll always be here waiting .
Not too long honey , i will fall from love soon , anytime .
don't be too long honey .
I'll let you go your way .
Tell me through message , through msn , through calls , through testi ,
if you really think its over ... and there's no more turning back ...
i love you , i promise i will , more than anyone else you think there are .
Don't make my dreams & hopes shatter , don't make me lose them .
I'll be strong , once more , for the sake of you .
Just don't go , just don't see me through ...

Whats wrong with me .
Didn't have the appetite to eat .
& whatever i took , i just vommited out a few mins ago .
I cry , and cry .
& i'm so weak & tired now .
but i can't get to sleep .
My mind's been telling me to wait for your messages & calls .
I kept on looking at my phone , hoping it would ring anytime & its you .
I can't get to sleep , i'm missing you too much .
I'm doing too much for myself , i've tire myself out .
My face's as pale as a white sheet of paper , i don't feel like myself .
Can't i get you out of my head ?
If this continues , i'll really pass out , i know i will .
You're still playing mind-games with me ,
baby , i'm already mentally tired and physically weak & down .
How long , how long do i have to wait for you to come back .
I can't go on anymore , no more .
I've been tolerating & keeping everything to myself ,
i've been swollowing your every word that hurts ,
i'm being forced to a corner , where i can see no one .
where are you , why won't you be here .
when would i get to see you again ,
i'm use to seeing you 2 days or so a time .
Receiving calls and sms-es , hugs and everything ,
now i have none . i gonna break into pieces soon .
urhs , i can't , can't continue ... i'm realy weak now ,
my eyes just wouldn't listen , they just kept closing .
where are you , love . where are you ...
call me , call me will you ..
say u love me once more and tell me its true .
where's ur promises baby . where are you .....

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apar
tI wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

Chorus:
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone .

There's a thing in your arms named freedom .
That carries me through something in love .
Yes , i know , its truth that will never change .
This love's a disguised , but how could you give your heart away in the night .
Baby , i don't know what i would do . I'll be lost if i lost you .
How do i live without you , i want to know .
how to i breathe without you , if you ever go .
how do i ever , ever survive .
how do i even get on each and every night without you .
If you ever leave , baby you would take away everything real in my life .
baby , don't you know you're everything in me ?
You were the one who light up my life ,
you were my hope to carry on .
But your love drift , drifted apart to someone else's heart .
I regretted not letting you know how much you meant when you were here ,
i see you go now , is this still too late .
10 months , 10 months of ups and downs ,
do you really bare to let everything go .
is it true when you type out , its over ...
I can stand through this obstacles , why couldn't you ?
Love will only be able to be treaured and cherished after many obstacles ,
isn't that true ? but why did you go now .
why didn't you wait for me . . .

Baby , stop my tears . I couldn't stop crying and i don't know why .
I've been keeping myself home .
Close the curtains and off the lights .
I would cry and doze off with my tears rolling , wake up and cry over again & again .
Would you tell me something ? Would you call me & talk to me ?
i miss those nights with you on the phone , i miss you so much .
my phone ain't ringing , where's ur messages and calls .
Would you tell me something , anything ,
but not ask me leave . Don't ask me to go ..
I know i promised not to bother you , but i just couldn't stop this tears and i need to hear your voice .
where are you baby , where are you .
Come back would you come back , i'll promise not to be naughty again .
i promise to be good , i promise not to take you for granted no more .
i would promise you everything you want to .
W0uld you don 't go . Would you not walk away .
Would you stop playing , can you start making your way back to me .
Heart aches , heart pains .
i don't want to close these eyes . They kept reminding me of you .
i miss you , i miss you .

no i can't .

I still can't , i can't do it . i can't let go . . .
He cost everything , everything ..
I'm at a verge of breaking down and i'll soon go bonkers .
Why is everybody telling me everything about you only at this time ?
About clubbing , about the past , about the way you are , everything .
Too late , its too late ..
You still mean everything , i'm still crying over you .
Where are you baby .. where's your love that should have belong to me .
Where have you gone to darling , where are you .
Why couldn't i find you . Is this a game ? A game so long , that all of us , tired .
If i hadn't let you go from the beginning ,
If i didn't take you for granted and disappoint you ,
If you hadn't go around adding girls ,
If you hadn't explain to me about ting ting ,
now i know , its not her , its the other .
Of cas i'm surprise , so shocked till i'm finally tired .
I need you , back with me .
Can we just forget everything that happened ,
can we just leave everything behind .
can we just start anew like from the first day i knew you .
This love is a fairytale isn't it ? I'm not lying to myself isn't it ?
It wil have a happy ending , ain't i right ?
You'll never leave , i'll never go .
You'll always be mine and i'll always be here , isn't it suppose to be like this ?
Isn't it ?! ISN'T IT ?!
Stop STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP , stop telling others your feelings have faded for me .. stop .. stop saying you'll be going , stop saying you don't love me .
Stop saying you love her , stop everything will you .
stop walking away from me ): ..
You're walking to fast baby , walking too fast , i couldn't catch up , why couldn't i .
why do see another shadow with you . Why isit you're gone .
can we forget everything , i can , but you won't want to .
Feelings for me from you won't be back .
Now that you're gone , whats there for me to carry on .
shouldn't i stop too baby ? shouldn't i ?
Let me go if i'm gone . don't cry or neither blame urself . no love ...
i'll always love you , yes i will . very true about it , and i'll never lie .
I'll pretend that you're always here with me ,
i'll pretend that you still love me ,
i'll pretend that you're just busy ,
i'll pretend that nothing happened , you still love me don't you (:
i'll lie , to myself . Will you lie with me .
Can we continue the story . Can you stop saying words that wil hurt .
One more time , i know myself , one more time and i'm gone .
You worth everything , yes you do .
don't go baby ): don't go .
stop your feelings there , stop it fading from me . stop it .. )':
Why couldn't i stop crying , why wouldn't i stop crying .
why are the tears not listening to me , why are they rolling and rolling .

I love you )':
The way you say its over , goodbye lover .............
Do i really don't have the priority not to let you go .
Every love songs , meant everything now .
People states that you're worthless , no love , no , you worth everything to me .

Can someone use something hard to knock me off now ?
so i could forget everything ? everything ..?
No use fighting all rights to love you anymore .
You don't love me no more .

Sobbing real bad .

I take my hat off you .
My hands on your shoulder , saying " thanks for ytd "
Claps hands .
You didn't bother to tell me anything , anything at all .
Whenever i asked , you said you don't know everything .
Now , after ytd , i gave up , and all i can say is ,
i wish you well . You can go with whoever you want , i wash my hands off you .
No matter how much tears i gonna cry , no matter how much i'm gonna hurt ,
i'll never call you again .
I'm pushing you to someone else . Someone who said she won't bare to be with you .
Whatever i'm telling her , its whatever i can't do , no , i can , but i've never done .
Now i've lost the chance , she's the one who could take good care of you .
Every word i type to her , every tear lies on me . Every heart break sound i could here ,
you'll never feel what i feel .
She said you could never forget me , she said you haven't and you won't .
Yes you will isn't it ? Rmb michelle ? Rmb after me making that decision of loving you ?
You totally cut of your contacts with your girls around you and there's only me ?
Rmb the time i given you to forget her ?
Its a turn now , its her turn to make you forget me , baby .
The last time i call you baby , will be the last time you see me honey .
Even if i can't bare to let go , even if i can't bare to see you go ,
there's nothing more i could do .
In other people's eyes , i'm the one in wrong , i'm always the one in wrong .
I'm the 3rd party as what people says now .
You can hug me at one moment , and hug the other one at the other side .
I really take my hats off you . I totally went blurred after ytd .
The thing that happen didn't hurt at all , no , i'm not lying , it didn't hurt at all .
The pain they gave weren't as much as you gave .
The pain i felt won't as much as the previous times i had .
4 to 1 ? isn't it a very funny thing to say right now ?
I've nothing to say about anymore .
In other's mind , i'm a very spoilt child , i've never been like this before .
i've never believed what people always say " the hurt in your heart could numb everything "
Ytd , after listening to what they say , i really turned numb .
i really turned so numb that every hit was nothing , nothing at all .
When i ran and cried , all i think about was you , where were you ?
Happily celebrating your friend's birthday ?
I'm tired of competeting with the girls around you ,
i'm tired of listening " oh no , they're just friends . "
Friends ? *shakes head*
Its not like i'm proud or what , but honey ,
no one , no one has ever touched your heart like i do .
& after 10 months of ups and downs , finally there's someone who do .
She made you fall for her . *clap hands*
I believed what happen ytd wasn't because of dickson .
Blame me for not letting you go . Blame you for not telling me anything .
Thanks for the memories , they were great , they were nice .
You've made me realise the feeling of being loved .
The feeling of what love can do to a person .
Ytd was a disaster . Ytd was a wakening day .
That slap totally woke me up , although i'm stil in a confuse now .
I'll never be able to hold you hands again , you'll never give me the chance to .
I'll never be able to be in your arms again , never be able to feel your kisses once more .
This time , this day , first time i'm speechless .
I have no choice isn't it baby ? I have to let go .
Dickson said " follow your heart , you won't be wrong "
Yes , i will follow if you let me to , but are you sure i'm able to love someone who could stand there and watched every bit of thing that happen ?
Will i be wrong ? is this for others to say ?
I always thought disappointing you for each time , you'll always forgive and come back .
Yes , you forgived , but in the other way , you walked away from me too .
You walked away from my life that always have to be a you .
Now there's no more you , what can i do ?
Been 4 years of love , in and out , up and down , i've never had a phobia of love .
Only until i've met you , this is what you made me feel .
I'm afraid to love again , afraid to get out of my room door . Afraid to everywhere i go .
I was a foolish victim , you've got me sucidal .
I couldn't get to sleep ytd , i was tossing and turning , again and again .
I doze off and i would wake up from nightmares .
I close my eyes every now and then , and what i see is only you and the memories of us .
What i see , is the questions in my mind popping up ,
why didn't you tell me anything . why did i became a bitch now in others eyes ?
Why isit so you're gone .
there's ain't no answers for this , you admitted you love her ,
i'm speechless baby , i am .
I can't be like jes , i can't kneel outside your house to beg for you to come back .
I can't go around with you . because if i do , i guess my brother would kill me .
I'll never have the chance to look in your beautiful eyes anymore ,
all i can do , is baby , i wish you all the best .
i will be still here whenever you need me , come to me if you are now and you need someone to talk to . I'll have your ears , i'll listen .
I'll never want to fall in love again . Don't tell me to take care of myeslf ,
don't tell me to find others . Stop acting brave .
i'll hide in my room , in a corner , i'll think through everything ,
but baby , rmb this , i cried for you , not for what happen , not for them .
I know i should have never set you free , its all me , all my fault ... * smiles





Thanks sister , juensu , calvin and ice (:
thanks for those who cared , i'm ok , i'm alright .
Rmb in all of your eyes , i'm a strong girl isn't it ? (:
I know the 3 guys saw me sob so bad so bad for the first time ,
thanks for caring , i'm really ok (: .
If you ever see me cry in front of you again ,
just leave me alone . Give me time , i'll be okay .
I love you guys so much so much , never leave me anymore .

Drama - stic

Can i be stubborn ? Can i not let you go ?
Will my stubborness help me this time ?
Will my love make you stay ?
i miss you ):
Your messages don't seem to be you .
The way we talked , don't seemed to be us .
Your messages are cold ):
My tears always rolled whenever you are not around ,
and it is coming down again .
I have to please you , isn't it ?
how i wish i could shooo your girls around you , off away ):
i need to scream .. SCREAM SCREAM !!!!!!!!!!
If it continues to be like that , i will die of suffocation of depression one day .
i need you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FCUK FCUK FCUK , fugging out of love .
Fugging confuse , lost way , i lost my way . ARGHS !!!!!!!!!!!!!
blahs . speechless .

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Kind of true , but what i gave , i don't get the full package back .
Yes , i'm a passionate lover , but isit true whoever gets me would feel truely lucky ?
Then why is he letting me go just for the sake of his single life ,
& probably , his girlfriends around him ?
Yes , i'm not selfish when i truely love you , i can be very generous .
But what am i getting ? I just want your love , thats all and nothing else .

Goodbye lover , goodbye baby .

My first day at school this week after the holiday (: I slept the whole day , waiting for his lovely message , yet i got none but tears .

I sobbed , sobbed in class with my head down , while my friends around me thought i was down with a bad flu . I don't know , your every messages changes my mood .

I hear you say " bye " , i see you walk away , i never saw you turn back ever again .

I see you today , will i ever see you again ?

You watched me smile , you see me laugh , but have you ever see the tears i've cried for you ?

I held you in arms , i never felt the same love .

Look at my swollen eyes , those pitiful eyes .

Her depress friend (:

Because when i asked to meet for the last time ,
i would never forget your reply .
I said this would be the last time , and i would never bother you again .
I thought you would reply it wouldn't be the last time ,
i thought you would sweet talk me .
But all i got was disappointment .
You just replied " ohs . okays . "
That cost tons of my tears on bed . I would never forget .
You told her it was strange if we met up ,
You said even if we met up , there was nothing we could do .
I was thinking over if we should meet up ,
then she made a decision of not meeting up her bf , but accomapny me .
I was touched , yes i was .
We met up , yet we talk less than 10 sentences .
What hurt me the most was you kept your whole time messaging .
Whoever it is , i just didn't like the feeling of it .
I lied on your shoulder today in the the theatre , yet i felt different .
Not that love anymore , no more that you .
I went shopping today , again , but everything i know was i just wanted to shop for you .
Ain't for myself , i'm sure she knows this .
I hope you loved those shirts i bought for you ,
it was the last thing i could do to let you know how much you meant to me .
I couldn't say much , since i say it was the last time .
Before i went home , the last hugs , the last peck you gave on my forehead ,
which i always love the pecks you give on me .
I see you wave your hand goodbye , i controlled and held on my tears .
I hear you say " i'll message you later on " .
Your promises were always untrue ,
i kept on waiting , till now .
Will i wake up and see your message on phone ?
I don't know , i'm waiting , thats all ...
This time , its true , you're gone ...... I can never see you again .
My room filled with pictures of you ,
i turn to my left , i see my com , my dp .
i looked in front , i see your pictures with me on my cupboard .
i turn to my right , i see your picture on my phone .
i feel you everywhere , everywhere .
Come back , come back with that love , would you ? Will you ? ):
I miss you love , i miss you so much that i'm going bonkers soon .
You'll never know how i feel , you don't love me , anymore , no more .

I pray to see you later on in the afternoon .
i pray to see your message .
i pray to receive your hugs & kisses once more .
Will my wishes be fulfil ? Because i know it will never ,
why do i give myself hopes ? because i love you , loving you more than ever )':

Crying eyes , he said he love me no more )':

Finally a change on the face (: so cute isn't it .

Don't be rude baby . Or else i'll smack your arse . tsk .

You're tired now . So tired that you can't even make a decision if this should continue .
I'll promise i would never turn back again this time .
Up to you . I'm tired of waiting for your calls and messages .
I'm tired of hoping to see you appear .
I don't want to make my own mistake again ,
then to let the others thought you're the one hurt , i'm the one at fault .
This time , i've learnt my lesson ,
i wouldn't want to make any decision no more , its your turn .
This love been over long ago , just that none of us wanted to admit .
Keeping the facts to ourselves for such a long time ,
its nothing to be surprise that you're tired already .
Anw , i guess no one's at fault . Your love's been fading much ,
i do feel it , you did say it . There's nothing more we could do about it .
I couldn't always call you and cry on the phone ,
while you say nothing at all .
I couldn't wake up every middle of the night to cry ,
i couldn't wake up in the morning and cry .
i couldn't always cry at work like ytd .
You said it has faded , but why do you still say i love you , why do you stil say i miss you .
Why isit that you're the one i'm bothering about .
Not all fairytales have an happy ending , do they ?
Why can't mine be a sweet ending ?
i've been dreaming of you for the past 3 days .
I've been missing you for the past weeks , months .
I've been missing in your heart since a long time ago .....
These tears hurt as much , but why don't you reply me .
You've done too much for me , i'm going crazy soon .
I would laugh , then i would sob , laugh again , and then sob .
I would touch my com for the dp is your face , i would say goodnight baby , i love you then to sleep . Would you ?
You told me its unfair to me , yes , it is ):
But have you ever wondered , how much i'm needing you ?
Heartbreaks , how can someone i thought would love me till the end hurt me the way i never thought he would ?
How could someone i love so much , turn his back at me at this point of time ?
Its more than love , so when it comes to heart breaks , its more than that too .....

Velvet Dragon .

Co.Organiser =x . LOLS .

The golden toilet bowl , wanna have a sit on it ? LOLS .

Before going Velvet , went to bugis to shop for clothes with my liyong (:
Then when we reached there , there was nobody ! So i guess ,
we were the founder of it =x .
Was really bored @ first because there were no one around ,
so we sat at a corner . Then finally Caijing & Kewei came :D .
When all reached , i started to get quite busy .
Then my mood changed , i started feeling fed up .
When everything manage to settle down , i was talking to Nana & Xiaobai .
Then adraino & this guy came , then he OPENLY tell that guy ,
" nor , this one my ex lehs . "
So then i said " omg , you no need say so loud wan right . why go around telling people ?! "
He said " no lahs , my biao ge lehs this one . "
So since that , whereever i see his biao ge , his biao ge wil like talk very loud and say " WHAT , you my biao di ex lehs . " -.0
Don't you feel like bashing the both of them up ? Lols .
Anw , the biao ge's name : Kenneth .
But there's advatage you know ? i can squeeze in my few sisters into guest list ,
although the guest list queue is closed already =x . LOLS .
& i made the chang mian so hun luan .. lalalas .
So the biao ge's abit qian da , he loves taking people number ..
First he took mine , then told me to go under him rather than calvin .
Then , he took jasmine's and xinhui's number .
I don't know if he did took wanxuan's and others number , but WTH . LOLS .
Do business like that also can .
So i guess the next event , i will go around taking people's number too =x . lalas .
Durhs , anw , finally everything settled ! but we lost liyong , xuan , angie , caijing & kewei . tsk .
So me , jasmine and xinhui went in ourselves (: .
I'm very very not interested when the party includes model walk and other stupid shows that will waste my 2 hours of time dancing .
So by the time we went in , it was already 1o + , and the whole dancing party only started at 11.3o . Like what the right ?!
Nvm , so we dance dance dance our way to all the way in front =x .
Because i wanted to get close to my baby to see if he did dance with girls =x .
LOLS . no luhs . kidding , just wanna spent more time . hahahahas !
After that we like those kind of idiots who don't know how to dance like that ,
we stand there . Because there's too many people walking up & down .
& there's this crazy bitch who dance like the whole pole belongs to her .
Then every guy was looking and looking . Including us .
So by making us stand beside her to dance , i guess we felt very uncomfortable .
Because around the pole , there's this few small sofas and small tables ,
totally irritating ! Blocked our way . Waste space .
So i carried the small sofa up to the big sofa . Then everybody start doing that .
There were 4 table . At first adelson and his fren carried both up and stack it on the big sofa .
But singaporeans are kiasu , they see space , they chiong . Shit man .
So in the end adelson told me " why not stand on the table lahs "
Then i was like " HUHS ?! siao ahs , i so heavy , the table so small , later break how ! "
He replied " no lahs , where got fat . Won't de lahs ! "
So he so called like carried me up the table . Not really carry ok ~ don be lame .
Like help me up the table . yeayea .
So the scenery is so good lahs ! I can see everyone dancing .
And EVERYONE can see me dance =x . LOLS ! Joking siol , don't take it too seriously , i'm not trying to be proud =x . lalalas ~
Then xin hui came on top too , so we both dance :D .
Jasmine too tall , cannot come up stand . LOLS . no lahs , is no space .
So i ask her stand on sofa with the other guys =x .
In the end , the table ended up with 4 people ! Me and xinhui and two other guys !
What the hell right , the table is really really small ok . damn it .
Brainless fools . kidding . Lols . So we dance and dance ,
Oh ya ! and guess wad stupid thing happen .
I fell off the table lahs , xin hui also fell one time .
OIE ! at least i fell off i didn't try to sabo anyone , i tio one big big bruise at my knee . Unlike xin , she fell and she even tried to pull my dress .
Luckily i think no one saw anything . Haas .
So after that around 2 plus , baby accompanied me out [ aww , so sweet right . Its a long way out and a long way in ok (: ]
Then i went home without my things , i left it in the locker with liyong's belongings . blahs .
Oh yes yes , there's this bunch of guys , when i was still trying to put my girls into the guest list , was looking at me like i'm some kind of dinosaur .
Then i was already so busy then i don't wish to bother about them .
When i was walking away , this guy patted me on my back and said ,
" [ in a very slow way ok ] er , you vionna ahs ? "
then i replied " yes , i vionna . " Walk off ~ lols .
So qian da right ! Ask at this kind of timing . Better off dead man .
So yea , thats it for velvet . Its really fun . I love the songs . really nice (:
This friday there's a party at Scape park . Arena 2 and 3 i guess .
Scape park's around cine . So i think there will be alot of idiots there ,
sure alot of problem . Only idiots stil go around beating people up and finding probs .
But i think i'll still go , i'm already selling the tixes .
For more information , just leave a tag or give me a call (: . Loves .

The song , chuang wai (: