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how much more can i tolerate to go on ?
how much more do u have to understand ? i'am tired , tired of explaining .

they were like fighting and argueing , and i took the picture for them . i didn't know my mei looked so OH GOD in this pic . lols . look at my darling , wad a boy . =X ..

had a dayout with dabudian , wenzhong and zhiwei today . awww , wad a day .. yawns . was suppose to meet wenzhong and james , but didn't know what happen . but we ended up meeting different ppl . got fark up when i knew ken and james wasn't watching the movie " SPRIT OF THE VICTIME " with us . didn't know why , but my mood just ain't good nowadays . had kinda loads of probs in my mind running wild now and then . i'am turning back to the previous me . everything just can't be controlled again . anw , back to today . met up around 4 something and went to catch the movie at 7.3o . went to mam mam with papa and dabudian and then came back home . got so much to apologise to xiaozhi and lydia for not going for the movie with you guys . cas im being locked up at home again , i'am so sorry . yet i still gonna thank xiaozhi so much for helping me with tat thing at cresent day tat about evon and rhonda . caused kinda loads of probs in cresent in the end and i wasn't there . left you guys alone and went out . i'am sorry kaes , i was rushing for time you see . =x ..

someone * i wasn't suppose to know you , wasn't suppose to even fall in love with you from the beginning . the worst thing was , you wasn't even suppose to know who i am . i was so happy when we talked on phone , when times we messaged and met up for the first time . i didn't know things would end up like that , i really didn't expected it . i admire you and LIKE you when bla bla bla [ not gona say it out , its gonna be so obvious who that person is ] . but it took months and weeks for me to get to know you . i was so surprise , so so so surprise . i ain't suppose to be misssing you , but i am now , so much . i get so down when you just said bye before i finish my words . i get so down when you don't reply me at all . i get so down when u don understand . but why is this happening ? no . no . things shouldn't be like this .. i wanted you to leave me alone when i knew some things . i wanted you to leave me alone when i knew things were getting out of hand . i didn't know it made you so down too when i said those things . and now , all i want you to do is to turn back like the previous time , u reply my every message , you calling me , you meeting me . so what u're still meeting me now ? things just ain't THE SAME anymore . . . i've think things too easily . i made decisions harshly . and everything is hitting me back now . ouchy ouchy ouch .. i just don't like it .. buuuuu buuuu buuuuu ~~ the most i can do now is to take one step at a time , and let things be it . its the most i can really do now . i'am not gonna make any more decisions on you , i'am not gonna make anymore comments on you , nothing .. i'll just let it be then ...

james ` you wanna know why i don't reply your messages ? you wanna know why ? becas first , i hate you wanting to meet me , but without to heart to . i hate you not explaining things and always being so mysterious . i hate you for its always ur frens helping you to explain everything to me . i hate you for always making me wait and wait whenever u said u wanna meet . u were late when we first met , i didn't hum a word becas it was the first time . for the second time we met , you made me waited too . and then the third , the fourth and then fifth and then it goes on .. its always me waiting for you , for hours , for mins . i'am tired . i know its difficult for you to make me cool down , i know its hard on you . but i'am really tired . i thank you for understanding always . but i always wanted to understand you , yet i hadn't had the chance to becas you keep everything to yourself , your frens but not me . there's nothing for me to say . your weakness is just that you can't learn , you'll never learnt your lesson . not even once . i'am going everything a step at a time now for everyone , every single one of you . i'll never make decisions agaain . those peeps who will stay by side , they will , always . those peeps who ain't true , they'll leave soon . and i'll see how things goes , i'll see there's actually how many true peeps who lived my life .

had a very heavy headache just now . stress up by those things i heard on the phone with clarice . stressed up by those idiots who have been kpkp-ing . had such a headache that it spoiled my mood and i just put down the fone with wenzhong and dabudian . and it made me realise that i'am getting tired again . tired of life again . life's funny for me , for a period of time , i enjoy and love it . and then for a period of time , i hate it and i just get so pissed off with it . a bad news for those peeps who just got to know me and im turning like that . noooooo ~~~ i'am totally sorry alrights . oh god ~ everybody's going MIA , should i too ? like stop blogging and stop answering unknown calls , like stop replying to messages . should i like go MIA too ? and then come back only when things goes well again ? thanks laobudian for listening to me kpkp-ing just now after when clarice darling called . thanks la kaes xD . u were walking to red house when i called , sorry for the disturbance kaes . hahs .. =) .

myGER`thanks for those understanding days , even like just now ? =) . the way i told you how fuck up i was when i knew the news about them opening a shop too . ? the way i told you how fark up i am when those bitches are cominq around again . those fights i get farked up about . thanks for everything . although our rings got confiscated by that SIMSIM , but we're stil heart to heart close rights . muahahahas . i'am glad u're here by side . ! you know la , im not those kind who wil go express how gan ji i am to you .. but i wil type it out . i'll always be the one who will tou tou hide behind you to help out everything u need , i'll always be the one tou tou doing things you dunno .. lalas . don tell you anything so don asked or threaten me . =X . well , really , thanks for everything . =) . hmmms .

last last last thing ! a BIG THANKS to those supporters who had been to me and myGER's shop alrights ! especially to my MEI arhs , [ although im getting blur as you but eh , bla bla bla , don tel lu ] haas . especially to ya , my MEI , for supporting so much so much . had already gotten 4 tops from us . xD . thanks to xiaolyn JIE and rachel siu + bla bla bla [ means other babes ] ahahas . thanks xD . and a BIG SORRY to those babes who wanna get the necklances , im sorry , im only selling it at a very very high price like over 15 or 2o bucks . sorry !!! for those peeps who don't know what shop im talking about . its www.forever8teen.blogspot.com ! =) . guys clothes might be mostly cominq up ssoon !! so look out for it babes ! get it for ur boys or your love ones for valentine's day or anniverseries or anything . LOOK OUT FOR IT SOON ! xD .