darlings wansui wansui !
and i remembered how we met for the first time IN SCHOOL . xD .
brent ng ng ! LOLS =X .
actually this picture was me pulling his ear [ pss , he ask me pull de ] . * im innocent * lols . the close his eyes like very tong ku . but stupid pic , too blur . tsk tsk .
and then jovel sweetie & me . they said her pose was like being rape . lols . xD .
and then the snapshot by ehs brent or siaokia i think . lols .
stupid pig . too tired for pics !
the the 369 face ? duunno . hahas . im innocent *
STUPID SIAOKIA , i named him PIG . lols .
then the snapshot by darling . tsk tsk .
JUNEY !! see , sitting like tat . tsk tsk .
u know why im not there ? go smoking ma . then she take my camara take the pics . idiot . but this is our dinner before eating !

and then after eating . lols .

went to bugis ytd to work for only 3 hours . hahas . then tiffany darling pei me awhile jiu go then after awhile come back with esmond pei me awile again . hahas . after that juney came !! wheee .. after work we went to walk walk then went for our dinner . YUM YUM . chicken coop and sherperd's pie . weets . after that we went to walk walk again and then forget got " ying huo cong de meng " , so rush to the coffeeshop watch . lols . kuku hors ? but nvm la , for the show we willing to sacrifice . hahas . after that watch le juney jiu must go home . so walk til half then heard mogan darling shouted " DARLING " [ as loud as a lion ] . lols . then saw brent , siaokia and jovel with him . then at there talk talk . then bu she de li kai them so ask juney go first . [ JUNEY ! IM SORRY !! ] but she smiled and said nvm . i love you lurhs darling . i promise one day wil pei u all the way back to ur house . PROMISE . xD . then we at there zilian , play , talk , kpkp till papa come lo . hahas . stupid siao kia , knn , bully me huhs . u die u die , wait i tell u ! i complain to ehs , think le zai tell u . lols . steal my cigg de idiot . tsk tsk . ROAR . well , this was ytd . FUN !! weets .

todae didn't went to sch , becas woke up early in the morning and have my gastric again . sobs sobs . dunno must go surgery anot . eeeee .. then tell papa , well , he hais , give me those kind of attitude like i bluff him . well , whatever . i hope one day when u don belive im sick and i wil die of it eventually . gosh , my last wish when all my dreams have fulfil . then i woke up around 12 something and waited for xin to come . then we watch the GHOST GAME . then she bought chicken rice for me and bought yougurt and bread for herself . not normal bread arhs , nice bread , alot of fillings de . hahas . well , now she's behind me sleeping and im waiting for baby to come . xD . loved .

the long hand girl took this picture . lols .
then the retarded us .
another blur pic . gosh , all tiny legs with big bodies . lols .
the suddenly pic .
the tall and short pic .
and then the lovable pic . lols .
its was suppose to be me and the long hand girl . but due to her too long hands , i was the only one being taken . tsk tsk .
the idiotic snapshot .
uncle benTOH's birthdae card ? haas , due to the kuku me first time seeing this kind of things , i took pictures of it ! lols .
its actually a cutboard , but i wonder how they put their picture on it . the girl below is another birthdae sweetie . xD .
then the sweets behind which i've eaten 3/4 of them . lols . nicely wrap huhs ? i also want !! tsk tsk . lastly , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UNCLE BENTOH AND HIS SWEETY FREN ! weets .

i love my bear , thats all . my expensive bear . lols .

went to uncle benTOH's birthdae for awhile to pass him his presents and then went down to bugis to find winnie darling , jolene love and ferlyn . well , nice day though morning was bad . i love them lurhs . xD . messaged with juney for the whole day , gosh , miss those times . =) . uncle benTOH was white , cute , shuai shuai ah ! hahas . the picture i took with him is in his hp , after he sent me , i wil post it up ! and its time for me to open chalet with my loveable peepos . march and may alrights ! hahas . wait for the news darlings ! well , im fully fully booked this week lurhs ! gosh , monday going down for 2 hours of job , tues for laobudian , wed for james or juney or both . thurs maybe steamboat . fridae onwards , im working til next thurs . =) . weets . shooping time ! muahahas . anw , nowadays my blog wil be full of pictures becas of my webcam and digi cam . so look out alrights ! kaes , im off to conference with xin , ken , laode , adelson , zhiwei le . hahas . BOO ! bye !!

what's you and what's me ? i'am willing to tell you how much i miss you if you gonna be away . i will fall if you ever go . its you that gave me the courage to do everything , wad wil i be if you're gone ? i don't wish you to go too . i hope ur results are well , i hope you don't fail , i don wanna you go .. what's life then ? its only a week away to the day for you to take your results , u are afriad and worry , i am too . i'am sorry i can't express my feelings or how i feel towards you by messages or reality . my frens who know me wil know i'll always write them on my blog . so keep ur eyes on my blog and update your blog too baby . there's another event for you on sat at northpoint and causeway point , i hope it goes well , although i won't be there cas im working , but you know i'll fully support u ! as soon as that day passes , you'll be getting ur results the next day [ i think ] . but well , have confidence first ! i really don't wish you to think so much . you're falling sick and i can't be there to take care of you so baby , u gonna have to take care yourself so much for the sake of me alrights . i will be here , loved . x)) .

yawns yawns , waiting for my dad come fetch me . then im so bored , so came here make noise abit . lols . well , mood was really bad just now . but suddenly hao le . hahas . faints . retarded . im bored im bored !! anw , mum came by just now and iron some clothes and bought me some clothes . weets . she went to thailand never tell me , if not i ask her buy more things . tsk tsk . nvm , at least she bought me some nice clothes ! weets . xD . kaes kaes , don blog le . lols . sians . going to uncle benTOH's birthdae pass him his present first then im off to find darling . gosh , todae's plan was destroyed beacs of hazel darling !! who ask her don wan go town ! tsk tsk . go marina watch movie , don wan ! so i wil just wander around myself todae . xD .

ahahas , zhiyang & me . =) . pictures time !
darlinqs . i just received these first four pictures today in the morning by juney ! gosh , i just love her lurhs . xD .
then my ugly face in the shop . lols .
weets xD . baby was taking his foto when i rushed in with a stewpid face . tsk tsk .
then the all kinds of angles time . lols .
JUNEY ! weets . xD . we promised to meet once a week ! weets ! so peeps , u might see her name often already !! lalas .
taking picture of himself when winnie darling captured him in another phone ! hahas . but i like this pic lurhs , it looks so ehs , zi ran ? hahas .

then the edited one by winnie darling . =) .

REPLIES TO TAGS , SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLIES ALRIGHTS !! :

winnie : awww , although its childish lurhs . but long long play one time ma , nvm de . hahas . yes yes , kill him , slaughter him , rape him [ eee . don wan , he so ugly . lols ] . xD .

8310 : baby , if i don't forgive you , would i be talking to you ytd ? oinks .

jeslin : linked . xD . take care .

xiaoshan COUSSIE : sobs sobs , coussie , i miss you also lurhs . tsk tsk , new year is around the corner , i'll contact u soon for clothes alrights ! loved darling .

tracy DEARIE : tsk tsk , patricia wun dare to steal my black mouth toy away ok ! she dare im going to rape her again ! muahahahas . and tracy , how can u side patricia instead of me ? !! tsk tsk . RAWR .

LAO DE : tsk tsk , why must we go sch when u can don go . idiot , u stil owe me thousands of money hors , mai ga lim bei kay siao hors . better find ways to give me back ! fark , i jio xin hui pon u also LL . x)) .

chinyi : gosh , i forget u to reply u above , i now then rmb i haven reply u . hahas . oppps , ya lurhs ya lurhs . happy family . bo xim de mei stil call happy family mehs ? =x .

SY : oh ? you are ?

xin : awww , yes yes , i know u love me . and u r right ! becas i love you too ! xD .

patriciaBAOBEI : ewww , you wil don wan me mehs . sobs sobs . i engaged to you already nehs , how can u divorce with me like how u divorce with xin hui . eww . ewww . ewww . ni she de ma ? * innocent face *

i wonder wil i see my sop sop and hazel today anot . tsk tsk . she and thomas the 6th month anni , tsk tsk , dun wan go be light bulb . nvm , if see them at town then meet at town lo . hahas . might be going to kbox later so well , call me if anyone at town bahs . x)) . take cares peeps . more pictures cominq up ! weets .

blogger is with its farking probs again . damn . i stil have more , but unable to upload . upload soon . this JUNEY [ june ] ! my sister for 9 years ? hahas . i love her lurhs . xD .
using my digi cam to zi lians . and then snapshot of qihui behind . gosh , she's gonna bash me up if she knows i put this pic up ehs . tians arhs .
then darling usin my digi cam to zilians while waiting for our food .
then our webcam time .
kee siang says he love me no matter what . lols . damn ... and we were both acting cute . durhs .
then my monkey for baby ! xD .
i have the edited pic already , put it up the next time or next blog . well , baby's wearing the jacket i gave him ! xD . and er , he's our shopping stand . =x .
the blur pic . no , people , its not ur illusion . its really blur ! hahas .

then the ugly pic at home . yawns .. bored .

had a day out with baby and juney and dabudian and asshole and winnie darling ! hahas . =x . though the whole outing contains alot of pek chek times but ehs , a nice day la . hahas . well , will be working at bugis from the 2th of feb til 8th of feb to take over winnie's place for a week ! xD . ahahas . well , im really out of cash u see ! hahas . and well , im lazy to blog too . i'll blog later if i can update other pics ! anw , you peeps come my blog to see pics and not read . durhs . =x .

She told me to let go if things continue to be like that . Will i or must i ?

its kinda of late now but arghs , i really have nothing to do but to come and blog . gosh , its seems like my com isn't in any use for me anymore . i would like just rot in fron of it ? stare at it ? or i would like hug my booster or pillow and stare at the webcam with xiaobai or ziyang ? durhs . bored life . anw , monday blues , i agree . slept really early ytd unknowingly . and woke up today willingly .. dragged myself to sch . started class and first lesson was art . we continued drawing our leaves and i really had a tough time with it . TEACHER says the first few pages of our sketch book would totally sux but not after a few months of training and drawing . gosh , he told me and tiffany wad we were going to do for the whole year and i was like " woosh , wad a tough year it would be " . we are drawing leaves now , for summer , winter . etc .... and then after finishing the whole project of leaves , like the colouring and clear sketches of it , he's going to teach us how to draw figures , face shape and then followed by the dressing of the figures . though everything he said seems to be easy but everything gonna take a whole year including next year model project . oh god .. then rest of the classes were kinda bored so i spent my time listening to MP3 & sleeping . as soon as i finish sch , i rape patricia baobeix in her classroom due to her saying she was angry with me . god , it was a long fight indeed . but in the end , xin , tiff and me went to WANTON MEE there for our lunch . thinking syl and guys would be working today but ARGH , too bad , they were working in the night . but we ate there still , of cas . the end KPO syl called peter to tell him i was there with them . so peter came down with tianlong and chee weng . we smoked , talk , play , kpo around till 4 plus . and then tiff and peter went home first . leaving us there , we crap so much becas we were really bored !! then saw [ ethel's hubby ] zhanhao cominq down from the taxi and cominq to work . then saw the taxi drove off with syl in it . well , he was working at 5 . so he went home first . lazy idiot . actually i was making a decision if i should wait for ethel darling anot , but the end i went to funan instead . dad came to bring me and xin to funan for his laptot thing . but in the end , he bought nothing and i end up buying a webcam . dad was really generous today , i shall say . well , it made my day xD . thanks dad . loved . fetched xin home and came back . was trying out the webcam and busy watching my 7pm show , damn , i was really busy . my fone kept ringing and my computer kept "booling boo ling ling" . it got me quite fed up becas my webcam cant use . i stil have to install this and that . tians . but don worry , its alright now and im having lots of fun with this new webcam of mine . it looks really good and isn't lag , pss , i hope it dosen't in the future too . end up talking to fone with wenzhong and xin cas my lao eh really had a really bad day today , but he didn't want to say . so we just pei him . adelson called him and realise tat adelson was drunk ! gosh ! again ,another one . what's wrong with people nowadays ? school has only started and everybody's getting drunk and high with their pills ! damn ~ . only around 1 something then they put down the fone , for the sake of going to their lala land . but in between the times , i did doze off awhile , that was when baby called and he thought i was asleep . omg , wrong timing . so now i'am using my com for blogging and soon after blogging , im going back to sleep . tmr's gonna be a very tiring day , i think . x)) .

i had a nightmare of the both of us . i realise myself waking up from dreams with tears rolling down that morning . the way i brokedown , the way u killed urself , the way it hurts , the way i regretted . its a dream , it is a dream but i don want it to become a reality . the dream of us made me feel down now and then whenever i think back of it . i can still remember the parts of dream till now . it was really a nightmare . it was all becas of me , and tat was how u ended up like tat in my dream . the way i broke down upon hearing the news was totally unbelievable . gosh , i'll never want to dream of us again . to you , im sorry , i really am . although its useless , i know , but there's nothing more i could do to let you know i'am really sorry for everything i've caused .

i'am stil looking forward to CNY . im waiting for the day when dad passes me the money for shopping ! weets ! this is my best time of the year , where i shop and receive money at the same time ! woots . looking forward to see xiaoshan COUSSIE at OUR aunt's house . x)) . for the past few years , i've been so not good with my mum's side of cousins . finally , fate comes and brought me and COUSSIE together , making us realise we were cousins only after going out as frens status for such a long time . gosh .. its been decades since i last saw lao eh and peeps , plus huiping baobei and coussie . oh damn , i wonder how's ah john and guys doing . xD . i hope they are doing fine . oh ya , will be having steamboat at my house one of this days in this week with my girls . although i don have the pot for steamboat but xin's bringing hers from her house . hahas . by that time , there wil be loads of pics man . pictures of food and us . laopo cant make it tmr . so i think i wil put it on thurs or wed ? xD . make sure everyone's free first . the 6 - 8 of us will be having so much fun , im sure xD . looking forward to see hazel and sop sop darling on sunday too . weets . tiring week ! =) .

laode , i didn't know what happen to you today or ytd with ur family but i know it hurts u alot . becas u broke your record of sobbing in front of james and ken today . =x . but u know , i and xin will always be here , rights ? =) . i know we've not been meeting for quite long since sch started but we're stil contacting on fone rights ? im glad u didn't forget us like wad me and xin's de LAOBUDIAN did ! arghs , gek xim . anw , smile like u use to alrights . don frown ! we'll meet up so soon alrights . smile smile !!!

the smile is not the first heartbroken , my eyes are not the first to cry .
hello , im just a fool whose willing to sit around to wait for you .
But now , there's nothing to hide , since you push my love aside .
my head is saying , fool forget him . my heart is saying , don let it go . hold on to the end , that's what i intend to do .

Hopelessly Devoted To You .

was suppose to meet kendra and girls ytd ahs , but it the end didn't . say next week again . tsk tsk . last week is amelia laopo mei kong , this week is kendra girlfren mei kong . awww .. thought can see them this week de . =.= . then in the end called ethel becas ytd she ask me call her [ i forgot ] . then already 4 something le , so prepare prepare . as soon as i got ready , the rain started to pour . tsk tsk . pek chek . just nice , syl call me ! lols . so i said , ok la , u go prepare lurhs , then take taxi come bring me . xD . gosh , he go prepare and i started playing audition to wait for him . called james becas i was FED UP enough with wenzhong about HIM DRINKING IN THE AFTERNOON AND ENDING UP ALONE . AND HIS VOICE WAS LIKE JUST HAD A FEW PILLS SO I STARTED GOING CRAZY . then i talked to james instead . call mai yuan . =x . the end both of us was like playing on fone ? lols . i said i wanted to eat him up and he at there aiya , nothing . LOLS . soon , i went down to wait for syl then went up the taxi ! weets . gosh , he was wearing a ZARA'S jacket , aiseh ehs ? lols . reached there and saw tianlong , zhan hao and MY ETHEL ! =x . retarded me . chatted with her for awhile and then went great world walk walk . came back around 7 and then cab now with syl to novena to find xin . damn , we got lost there . the whole shopping centre was kinda of big becas they just newly opened NOVENA SQUARE 2 . ARGH ~~ manage to find her in the end . xD . she was sitting there cutting her hair and my mouth got itchy , i want to EAT ! lols . then went down to get some snacks . wheee .. went back up and guess wad , i shouted ! i saw xin's hair turn into , oh god . i was surprised at first , surprise why she decided to cut her hair til , arghs , u guys wil see after she upload her pics . but the outcome was nice , i kinda of like it but not her fringe . its wil grow anws , lalas . realise baby was at bugis alone , and suddenly just got so fed up for unvalid reasons . =.= . decided to tell dad about going home late to go down to find him [ dad LOVE him anw . not becas he is a ... , becas dad says he's a good guy * puke * ] =x . hees . dad fetch us down and waited there for us . met up with winnie at the arcade . soon , it was time to go home ! winnie suggested coming to my house because its been decades since she last step into my house , so baby came too . xin went home first and came out around 4 something . winnie went back around 1 plus becas she's having her model shots at 7am todae . ewww . when she went back around 1 something , left me and baby at home with dad , kinda of oh my god . hahas . lame shit . when xin came around 4 plus to 5 , baby and i went of to sleep right away . gosh , tired u know . then xin enjoy herself using computer with wenzhong who is using in his fren's house too . LOLS . slept til around 9 something and MR.ADRIANO WONG woke me up when i wanna sleep !! ARGHS .. then now he's currently sleeping behind me and xin's sleeping in my dad's room becas my dad woke up and went to work already ~ durhs ~ i woke up to use the com for awhile and im going back to sleep !! TIRED !! thats all !! x)) .

meeting hazel and sop sop later on in the evening , I THINK . or maybe wenzhong and guys . well , wad wil todae be ? hmmms . more pictures more pictures ! lols . damn , time passes so fast that tmr's sch again . buuuuuu ~~ =( . nvm , CNY cominq's soon anw . =x . xD . haas . kaes kaes , im going .. going to sleep and i'll be back later . =) . hmmms .

oh gosh . i had the mood to blog just now . but i'am starting to feel tired already . i guess im nort blogging anything . Haas , actually i have more pics , but im lazy to put it up too =x . soon alrights . maybe later ? tmr ? haas . i guess i'll just have to come back when i have the mood to blog again ! xD .

Have you ever lost yourself in all your feelings?

Have you ever felt yourself feeling weak?

when I find myself I realize i don't know where i am

when I find myself it's you that I seek

My heart is racing as i look around

I'm so scared of leaving

but i don't wanna take you down.

(down. down again. with me.)

anw , enjoy the song on my blog ! haas . a very long ago song but its nice !! been finding for YEARS okays !! haas . take note of the lyrics !! meaningful !! Haas .. go lerhs . take cares . x)) .

my chocolates given ! guess who ? don tell u . =x

guess where ? also dun tell you . =xxx ..

oh gosh , i came to blog suddenly becas i suddenly lost my mood . and im actually wondering what im thinking about . i cant figure out anything .. tians . i've finish the 5th stick of my cigg , but i stil can think of wad isit . no matter how much my bendan and buchubuchu comfort me , i stil cant think of anything right . i've even ate half packet of my HELLO PANDA chocolate biscuits but i stil cant think ! there's something wrong with my mind i think , or is this like mood swing ? GOSH , i've tose and turn dozens of times on bed but i still cant get to sleep . buuuuuuu ~~ kill me please . anw , i'am just here to nag about my feelings . i'am going off soon . oh ya , am i that naggy ? i've been told the 3rd time today that i'am naggy , naggy , NAGGY ! oh tians . currently chatting with my idiot and darling ethel had just went offline after argueing about when we are gonna meet . ARGHS ~~ surprise when she chatted with me , weets , i miss her , seriously . oh , idiot just told me he just got a stead , which he never even see before . and that girl is 18 while he is XX . shhhh .. secret .. i wonder what is my idiot thinking man . well , im really going off , nothing much to write . hadn't been sch for 2 days and im really proud of it . im really sick of sch !

i'am too sensitive , too sensitive for everything . pls understand !