Save me.. Its clubbing events and events and events.
3rd June. St James.
12th June. St James. ( organize by a friend,& he even tempt me to go by giving me a guest list ! )
17th June. Zouk & Mos on the same day.

& i might be leaving to overseas on the 13th,coming back on the 16th. Tell me,how to go? Where got enough time? ): But i really want to go.. & worst,i've got no clubbing clothes to wear already ):
Buy one for me ? LOLS.

Look at girlfriend's retarded face. LOLS!
Goodbye shoulder length hair ):
CUT! AHHHHHHH.....
Shave shave shave. AHHHHHH......


Sorry for my lack of pictures blog. (: I've been forgetting to take pictures,i would take if you would remind me every day. :D & i've been doing nothing these days. Other than bringing little one to bathe yesterday. Then i went to meet girlfriend to interview a job,shall not tell you what kind of job first okay. If not probably everyone would point their naughty fingers at me & laugh. Hahahahas! Well, HOW LONG HAVE YOU NOT SEEN MY LITTLE ONE'S PICTURE? & do you know why? Because he dosen't like to take pictures,as soon as you take the camara out,he would just walk off or turn away. But he's been surprising me & Darryn:) these days,with all his cute movements. Like though sitting down,but because he just got scolding from Darryn:) , he actually doze off while sitting in front of Darryn:) . LOLS. Can you imagine that scene?

Alrights,anw,i need a job so soon because i've been out of cash lately. Been going out and looking at other blog shops,but i've not been shopping. I haven't even got any hoodies i wanted,club wears or any other things. LIKE WHAT THE?! So i've decided to work on my own,so i could spent my money freely. And at the age of 16,its still kind of -.- to take money from dad.So what to do,since i'm so not interested in studying,work lors. But don't think too far,i'm still studying though. Its just the holidays what. So take this time to work everyday and earn money (: So probably if anyone has start reading my blog,you guys will find soon that why isit my blog would write that i'm working everyday. Like there's nothing to read. But no worries lahs,i'll still go out to have fun and blog (: I'm so nice right ? Like josh entertain me and say " ok la,vionna's awesome ! " (: I take that to heart. hehheh.

I'll be meeting girlfriend later and we will be going for our interview (: so nice. & there's something i got to state out first,when anyone of you finds out what job i'm handling,NO LAUGHING OK. -.- i just need a job what,and i find that job is going to be fun. LOLS.

Well well,whatever it is,i've got nothing to blog now! So i shall go continue to advertise these shirts that are out for pre-orders. Bye babies(:

john,i miss you. is this pure illusion? You just went like this,how do you want us to accept the fact? Its too much......
( p/s , i just hate kpo kias & irritating people,who would blog or whatever till as though the know ah john very well,or worst,there's this girl who came to me on msn and say " who's ah john ah? " _|_ hello,i don't even know you,and since my nick is so obvious,why still bother to ask. what the ... ? brainless isit ? )

I wonder how is this so,to see you go.
Like though the curtains covering the shadow of you from me.
Like those memories has been a dream.
What is this,its still feeling like a dream,a nightmare.
I want to end this,like how much the others want to too.

I wonder how would we be able to send you off this friday.
Would you be able to see us cry?
Si min said something that we all agree with, " we've never thought we would see you in this manner "
Your tears flow when you were in coma,hearing your parents wishing you to get home to have dinner with them.
Because its been so long you had one with them.
Why couldn't you hang on longer,to live throughout this lesson,and never drove on a bike again.

I remembered of our past,how i knew you,how we had fun,how things went when you wanted to see me,how we played bumper car,how we had all these fun...
We're missing you,so much.
& i couldn't regconise your body,couldn't accept the fact.
But i was left with no choice,only looking at your picture,with my full respects,2 joss sticks was given.
How did you ended in this state? How did i end up with 2 joss sticks in my hands for you?
Ah john,john, if you could come back alive,there would be like so much things in the future for all of us to get through.
Dear one,we'll be missing you,we'll be remembering you,always.

Your news appeared on the news,on the paper,how i wish it was a lie.
& everyone's wishing to get up from this nightmare,what a frightful one.
I miss you,as much like anyone do.

p/s : those who wishes to go to his funeral or to send him off the last day he's here,just leave me a tag. Please do it sincerely & not for the sake of going there to see and kpo.

I hope you could really make it,and as i do.
The news was shocking,my eyes are swollen.
Why did you?
We weren't close,but i would remember we once were.
I remember how you try to prove to me you love me.
I remember standing behind your bicycle while you were riding it,i remember how much i love to be behind you.
I remember the day you kept standing behind me to block my tattoos from showing to others because i was wearing a sch uniform,& i remember the day that this happen,it was raining.
Lots of cycling & fun. Lots of dangerous stuns.
I remember how i knew you,i remember the first time we took pictures,i wonder where are they now.
I remember the tons and tons of tattoos on your body & many would stare at you.

But after all these , we were never together.
After the fun we had,after we've lost contact,at times when you wanted to meet me out or to just give me a call,i would always avoid,because i knew you weren't the kind of faithful guy.
then you gave up,long ago. Till today,we've got no contact,and this news that shock me,is that you're gonna go,somewhere in heaven.

They tell me there isn't any hope anymore,i can't rush there now,but for tmr,i will. Please,be strong......

Ok,ah john? )': Don't go.

I don't like your attitude these days,yes.
Your temper is changing,its going from bad to worse.
Its dota,dota,dota,maple,maple & whatever yahoo games everyday.
I see you using the com as soon as you wake up or reach home.
Yes,i do use the com too,but not as long as an hour or two it takes.
Where has your promises gone to?
Do you even remember it?
Remember when we first got together,you too did play dota , dota & dota.
But you promised to changed & stop that bloody game.
Yes,you've changed,but whats this now?
Our love / r.s to you was so , break-able? Like so soft and weak..
You easily suggested break after a big quarrel last week.
My response on mind was like .....
Who are you? Who are you to treat me like this?
Sometimes as good as an angel,but sometimes,i don't even see the old you.
What is our future like? I use to see it,now i don't.
Like there's something over it,telling me,if i'll never see you change,we wouldn't built up a future of our own.
I'm stupid,i would rather continue like this,then to let go,yes,let go.......

I'm not expecting anything from this post,its just that,i've got no one to go to. & i've been wishing to say this. So as it is,i don't want any response,from anyone.

Vionna did a makeover today.
She shaved & cut her hair,she went to pluck her brows.

Okays lah. You all would be very surprise thats all,& oh,
i didn't copied anyone,i'm not bothered to, & i wanted to cut my hair very early ago.
& of course,girlfriend & dearest judy + baby love said it is so nice,better than my previous hair cuts & ..... (:
Didn't mean to say this,but because the fact is i don't want anybody to think that i'm...... :D

So i'm enjoying the looks of my hair now,i'm very glad about it. Its my dad's birthday today, & will be celebrating @ night. Will update clearly soon about these days (: No pictures, because i kept forgetting to take pictures. Soon Soon !


Dear dad,

Happy birthday! & i really hope this year & for the rest of your life,everything really goes well for you. This day last year,i actually forgot that it was your birthday,i still went out to have fun & only till you remind me,yes,yourself. I remember how guilty i felt for a long period of time. Then i told myself that i'll never forget your birthday & make sure you get a happy celebration every year.So this year,right after my birthday,i kept reminding myself that its your birthday on a friday. Well dad,whatever it is,happy birthday,thanks for everything,your tolerance,your patience & your forever love. Sorry for the disappointments each & everytime something that make you unhappy,i always didn't mean it but i always too hope you would understand. Some things are difficult for you,but at this age of mine,i'm already a big girl,there's decisions difficult for me too. But no matter what all these have happen,i'm always your little girl who'll always be loving you,& just like you,this love would be now & forever. There's no one who could replace a big man like you in me,please rmb i'll always be here regardless of how naughty i gonna be.

I know you're very very tired,i know that of course. But if were you,do you know that i would know what to do,when to sleep or not to. I've already waken you up,but you told me you're going to talk on the phone,after a short period of time,i wonder why you haven't come out yet,so i came in the room,and i see you sleeping.You think i can't understand? If i couldn't understand,i would have long broken up with you.Am i not understand-able enough ? Ya,if all that are bothering you,isn't it bothering me. ITS been a lot of months since i last really shop and shop,and eat good things all in one day. Or lets not say eat,lets say shop. So how is this ? Have i not given up enough? Or you think i'm unreasonable? You're tired,am i not? Who is feeling more tired ?

Its tired though... To try to wake you up,afraid that your dad would scold.
Just because i saw his message this noon was to tell you to get back home early to take care of your sis,if not,do you think i would be bothered to wake you up since i know that you're so tired?
The way you talk to me its like " eh,what the fuck,shut up lah ok " You get this ?
Don't you understand ? You know you're difficult to be called up,then change.

I've been thinking about this for a long long time,that the thing that would break us up would be you,yes you. The way i have to wake you up for such a long time,the way i see you change & the things you just don't listen to. Do you understand that i actually wanted to care for you , to ask you to wake up and go home. I just want to know whether do you have to get home or not. But look at the way you talked to me just now, you claim i started it all , but if wasn't that i had to call you 10 , 20 , 30 ... over times, do you think i would have been so fuck up? Do you know for several times i woke you up,what you told me? You said what husky here and there,beagle this & that...

You have to understand,i'm neither you sis,nor your bro. Neither your dad nor your mum,i don't have the patience . I use to just shout at someone to wake up , and not sit there patiently and shake and call to wake you up. But its been 5 days to our 8 month,and i don't see the change in you. People might think that i'm making a fuss about this,like its only just to wake you up, But idiots,why not you try waking him up the next time ? This time,you just take things for granted,you even kick my dad,HOW NICE AND WONDERFUL IS THAT. You even frown and him and ask " WHAT " . Yes,i will use the word EH. EH,yes,you're my boyfriend,but who are you to WHAT my dad?

Oh yes,you're sleeping when you said all these,but how could you? You said i knew that you're like that,difficult to wake you up , and all these. BUT TODAY'S DIFFERENT,i tried to wake you up more that the previous times. AND YES,TIMES,not time. When we quarreled,you even point at me and say not to say EH to call you. But i'm like this. You ask me to keep my volume low , but this is my house,and my dad has the right to know everything. How can we make up a "beautiful" future when its so difficult to wake you up ? AND YES AGAIN,ITS JUST WAKING YOU UP. Imagine in the future,you have to go to work in the morning,and the alarm clock rings,and you shut it off and sleep. AND I HAVE TO WAKE UP EVERY MORNING,to wake you up,and go through many frustrating looks of yours.

Do you think i like to wake you up? You think i purposely wake you up ? Many times when you're sleeping & your home calls , i just kept quiet,put it to silent and leave you alone . AND YES,it happen when i'm sleeping too, i just do the same thing.

Ask yourself,am i like this before you was with me? I'VE CHANGE,why not ask around? HUH Friends,ask yourselves,am i much different from the day before i was with him? Whenever i wanted to go clubbing,i would go. Any pub-ing sessions,why not? Any lunch after school,why not? Any dinner at night and spent my time shopping around,why not ? Any slacking sessions,WHY NOT? But now,do you know why i haven't been to all these things for such a long time? Its because, what you always say is this " go lah,i won't angry la. / go la,i also cannot say anything. / go lahs,lols,i go do my own thing lors. " & yes,i've tried to go by your " go lah " . So i went,and always come back to see you with a unhappy face. Then when i would ask you,why your face black for what. All you tell me is this , " no lahs,where got " then change the subject. Thats why,to prevent all these,i've stopped all these,for probably,yes,7 months i guess. If not it would be half a year already. All my friends ask,how come you like this huh,how come you this and that ah,come out lehs,so long never come out already. Eh,you look like auntie lehs,eh you fat alot lehs. Eh what lehs,eh this lehs. What can i say? Nothing. I've been going home after school,wait for you,then repeat everything again.

I cook,i do the house work,i smile no matter how scary your mum is,i take care of the little one no matter how much i wish to go out,i wait for you to come back from sch,hoping that you would bring me some thing nice at times,but what do i get ? Its tired,yes it is. But through this coming to a 8 months relationship,sometimes there are too many things that happen,but i couldn't say anything. I know what would your answer be if i say , wa lan,have to take care of your son and can't go out. You would reply " then i bring him home lors " Do you think i want this answer or you thought it was a joke ? Its been 8 months dear,8 months since i gave up so much things,have you ever wonder about it?

Yes,i've tried to get on with life,but i've tried my best,and i still don't get what i use to,what to do?
So now,do you still think you're wrong,or am i still very wrong?
Is it all my fault? Have i spoilt you ? Do i have to go,let go? Or are you going to change,are you going to listen to what i say?
Like today , like what you fight , this and that, i've told you a several times. & i'm tired . Forget it if you don't understand what i say or mean,i'm already speechless.

DING DONG! Its vionna birthday today. Judy and guys gave me a surprise. Actually i knew there was a surprise coming up because i saw meverick earlier and he asked me where are they and told me they were coming down. But then i didn't know so many people would appear,even those i never thought they would! :D So of course i cried ): So touched. Then i got scolding " quick la,we all very hungry lehs . " CRY ALSO GOT WRONG MEHS , TOUCHED MA. After having the delicious cheese cake,went outside pets zone to have a " little small water festival " . Cause judy said this " wa lan ehs , we come give you surprise,don't expect us to sit here and see you play with dogs hors " so i took a bottle out from the shop,walked really fast towards her , SPLASHED, on her face. :D I don't care whether she's wearing her school u or not,i'm helping her to wash it okays! Hahahas! Then it all started,all bully me, EVEN MY BELOVED DARRYN:) ! NB. lols. I look like a ghost appearing in daylight lors,cause i have make up on me. Well,I HAD FUN GUYS. Thanks for everything you know,the present,the cake,the fun,the surprises. BUT STOP BULLYING ME(:

AND ONG WEISHENG,FUCK YOU,who said i haven't give you your present _|_. Then give me back the lighter and the shirt !!!!

Anw,to all friends,thanks for all the wishes(:

I think i look the MOST normal looking lors.
But can you guess who is this?! :D So funny.
Josh,i hope this is you if i'm not wrong! Hahahas!

Alrights,Monday had my second paper. Forget what sub already. Hahahas! But then after exams,went to great world to slack. Had fun though,but some things are really _|_ . Serious,no bluff. LOLS. WENT TO HAD DESSERTS AGAIN AT THE JAPANESE RESTAURANT. yum yum. Then went home in the evening. (:

To bugis with Darryn:) to pass my friend the two shirts he bought around 6 / 7 plus. Then we went to walk walk around , decided to catch a movie. After much consideration,we went to great world for our movie. Went to eat Japanese ramen,nice(: Had desserts again,yum yum. Then went to catch our movie " What happens in Vegas " . Rated : 9/10 . Laughed all the way in the movie,a very romantic ending, I LIKE~ hehhheh,after that came back to my house downstairs,to get some supper back home,ate then Darryn:) went home.

Lychee Martini on the house!

Was suppose to go out with my group of animals,chicken..fish.. juney .. but in the end,something was mistaken. So in the afternoon,i went out to meet Juney ( June actually ),then we went to buy lunch and to pets zone. After my little one was ready,we came back home around 7 plus,went out again to En Bar & Grill (: Started chilling there,talked alot. Desserts & Lychee Martini was on the house. Ordered some small dishes and a bottle of white wine,favourite :D Dear june went home around 10,so i was left alone. Listening to the blasting music , enjoying the surroundings,i felt like i was in heaven :D Waited for Darryn:),had some dishes again,till 12 plus 1,daddy came to fetch and we went home. Perfect saturday,lets chill more often. Hahahahas!

I've been wondering and wondering.. thinking and thinking..
then i've decided to keep on wondering (:

After much consideration,i don't think there's anywhere or anyone to celebrate with. Probably i just don't want to spent anymore money. And my only wish now is to get loads and loads of money,to pay for whatever it is,and go shop till i'm happy or maybe,leave in June to thailand again to shop happily ): i need to shop and i need to be happy like before. Not that i'm unhappy now,but i just urhs,don't know how to phrase it. Well,let it be~ Pathetic 16 birthday,when everybody loves celebrating their sweet 16 . God bless man,i didn't receive any presents last year,how about this one? oh my oh my......

on the 13th,i'll be having the worst nightmares,EXAMS.but i don't have to be bothered anyway,it dosen't concerns N level too.. Well,where should i go after exams?! I feel like going out to shop and walk,alone...Seriously speaking,alone..I've so much things to think about...

I don't like the way you talk to me ): As a friend,or whatever,but am i that bad or what for you guys to say? Did i tattooed my face " Joke about me " ): Life is not as perfect as i think or want it to be,i wanna live life the fullest. But how can i when i'm trap here?

I'll haunt you. ( LOOK LIKE GHOST RIGHT? I'm one what -.- )
They have a foul mouth,thats why they have to cover their mouths to take picture,if not they would spoil my camara :D

Finally this isn't counted as Overdue pictures,these was taken on Sunday night after dinner(:

I like this.
i like this too...










OVERDUE PICTURES,again. But this wasn't very long ago,guess was taken on sat if i'm not wrong(: