i can only see you smile .

wednesday :
aiyer , i also forget what happen lei . lols . okays okays , rmb le .. hees . showiie arhs , this few days si bei short term oh .. lalas . yup . that day whole day very rush oh . hmmms . joey die also want go eat steamboat that day .. den i meeting ahboy at 4 something .. hmmms . den she stil must wait for hui hui finish oral . tsk tsk . den we nowadays finish sch at 2 . so pek chek .. actually say hao hao we go first de . the end she kay siao tu tu tu , den say go in see huihui okay already le mar .. den make us wait outside so long . den i go the small gate there see . then she playing . huihui haven even start oral . tsk . den wait wait wait .. after wanna 3 le i think , den i say i not going le . den she keep kbkb , say why . den i kbkb with her . hees . the end she lose , hahas . den i go home alone . sobx sobx . den go home rush rush den go down meet ah boy at bugis . tsk tsk , first time jiu make me wait for him .. wa biang . but wait awhile nia , lalas . den we go buy movie tix , den go smoke .. whakakas . then go take neos .. whee . so nice oh .. whakakas . den befer movie [ although the movie has started ] hees , go chou yan again . ewww , he teach me bad . whakakas . keep smoking .. hees . den jiu rush go watch movie le , tsk tsk . we go to bugis den spotted loads of my friends and his . tsk , they keep say we two together .. buuuu ~~ my friend keep say don bluff. roar . den we two keep tou xiao .. whakakas . shhh . [ secrets ] hahas . he nawh , stupid chao ah beng . den we go watch the ehs .. lady in the water .. so dots .. he bei xia dao so many times den i also . two so toot toot de . whakakas . den inside very cold oh . sobx .. lols .. den after movie we go find his friends .. lols . yuan lai youngster got work as ride trishaw de . ue know ue know ? faints lar . so kawaii , hees . his frens all so kong bu . all one face de . tsk . his frens also say we together .. wa biang . so pek chek . den i at there chou yan den he talk to his friends .. whahkakakas . after that he bring me come home .. whee . he so kns .. everything he pay for the whole day nehs . taxi , movie , neos , drinks , everything for that day lar . omg . so long no ppl like that dui me le .. at first i and him down there like siao siao push here and there , cos i say i wan pay . den he say wun talk to me if i pay . tsk . den jiu let him pay nors . lalas .. xi guan independent pay de wo , suddenly feel he can yi lai . omg .. cannot like that think la me .. wa biang . think other tings , other things .. faints .. hahas . den so dots , at night messaging whole night .. faints .. den he say tmr got his fren b'dae , ask me go . alalalas . very dots de say ok . lols . ue know at where mar ? wa biang . kallang bahru nehs . HIS PLACE !! i don mean his house lar . so dots nors .. den i was like whee , so far .. prepare to die .. hahas .. was disscussing what to tell my papa den suddenly i thot of cyn . lols .. okays . so the end i doze off and this is what happen of thurs ..

thursday :
eww , damn .. meet at 4 something again .. always gotta rush .tsk .. came home and then same nors . prepare , go out . tell papa say going out alone de . den he at there kbkb .. don care lar . also stil go out . never tell him i going so far . lalas . the end reach tiong le . think think tell him better .. den i told him the truth . use to his niaming , the end i stil go . lols . saw miss chan lar . tsk . and i wore like a chao ahlian that day [ but im a guai kia . ] pls understand .. den she was givin me a kind of face . i got a fright . lols . nearly die of a heart attack . damn ... den after that take mrt all the way to kallang meet him .. sit there so long nors .. den smoke le two sticks .. den he ask me go mac in front wait he jiu come le . go in taxi . go all the way back to people's park to take money .. damn .. took hundred over lar . from one company de nehs . don wanna ask much but that lady don seem to be the mother .. and is surely not .. faints . den took taxi and went all the way back to kallang bahru . lolls . was draggin my feet already .. cos i hate meeting those ahbengs and lians i dunno . lols .. so as a guai kia . i stood outside and smoke .. faints . his frens was ASKING AGAIN !!!!! different friends lar ! den so pek chek . hahas . he pulled me in like a tootie .. and then there was not much people . i and him go play the com games .. the photo hunt .. so dots .. his fren came to play too , and then 3 idiots was snatching to press . hahas .. so pervert . the photos all so RA . hahas . nan guai den play so fast . lols .. i was like so bu gan yuan de press . maybe that idert go play sure very fast de . hahas . you know you know ? whakakas . den tsk tsk , he keep smoking . den i was like pulling his ears , niaming . hahas . den he stop abit abit only .. what a piece of shit . hees . no appetite this few days , so other than recess , i jiu never eat le .. all the way til night also don have . sobs . he has fierce eyes that can make me cry .. he stare me ask me eat . lalaas . i have cute eyes ! i stare at him too . whee . he stil listen to me . muahahas . [ psspss , guys are all like that ] . shhh .. hahas . den i got to know the gerls , and they were really good . anyway , only two went ytd , include me 3 .. hmmms . they were all so cute nawh .. use cake throw here and there , play here and there . run here and there . hees . so long i never smile so natural and happy le .. realise with them can so happy . hees . okays okays , I RMB ABOUT THE CHICKEN CHOP THINGI , THE WANWAN SOUP , THE JI LIAP JI LIAP AND THE WANTON MEE OKAYS !! hees . so stupid . den we went to bugiis . faints . they force me to watch movie . sobx .. lols . but i cant cos the movie was 9.45 . don wanna quarrel with my father so never argue with him to let me go . hmmms . stupid him , say i never go he don wan go . tsk . his frens all suspecting . shit .. his so damn shit . anyhow lai .. lols .. bu guan le . whakakas . den took taxi there , four of us went first and then we went arcade . hazel and i was bored , so we went shopping . whee . no money , i did not shop . she shop . she's rich okays . faints .. poor me i realise . hahas . she nearly everytime like buy clothes give her stead , thomas de . tsk tsk . hahas . dey two so sweet . so thomas and boy was like playing arcade nawh .. den we went back .. but they came up . hahas . den sit there .. tsk .. keep say wan pei me wait for papa . den force him go up he don wan .. roar .. suan le .. but we going sit the singapore " hot air balloon " soon le !! whee . nice nice . . lalas .. den after papa come le .. they pei me go there wait .. but i ask them go first . don wan let papa know i hang out with this chao ah beng .. hmmms . den waited for papa for 2 mins. ahahas . den go le .. same lar , messagin whole night .. den doze off . hahas . so dots .. whakakas .. they watch the " CLICK " nawh . i wan watch de . sobx sobx . nvm nvm . will find people pei me watch de . muahahas . kaes . thats all for thurs .. whee ..

fridae , todae :
aww . todae wasn't really a good day nors . hmms . went to sch and nearly late . early morning got scolded by miss chan becos i and joey was running in and made her so called throw face . damn . nvm .. den after everything , same . class study . oh ya again .. sat beside them again . can hear her laughing , talking .. glad for her .. =D .. but was not feeling well den around 11 something , went to the sick bed to rest . whee . slept there til after sch . so shuang . hahas . jealous ? den after that joey came with hui hui and peiling .. den we went to tiong . eat .. same nors .. haahas . den did not have the appitite so did not even finish half .. only eat a few mouthful of vegetables .. few spoonful of soup and damn abit of rice jiu nothing le .. hmmms . so dots . they force me eat but i really cant . went in n out of the toilet a few times . so tong ku todae . sobs sobs . my backside pain pain . hahas . well , todae was really a suey day anyway .. den hang around at tiong so long .. at first was going didi house , but no time ,. we change it til monday or tues .. den i went to see doc , they pei me . tsk lar . the fee was like 3o over dollars . medicine so many .. they want me to die .. hahas. nvm , anyway i wanna die too . hees . den gylina came with her STEAD !! so dots . so tall but only 14 like us . faints .. den she ask me help her plan how to break , i told her i was an angel not a devil to break people up and she hit me . sobx sobx . hahas . den went home after that .. was actually going to sengkang for somethings todae but don have .. some things about patrick they all de nawh .. hmmms . but papa don let me go .. den i so pek chek , til now stil givin him a kind of face . sobx . wonder how to explain to that auntie now . nvm ... faints .. don care don care .. now worrying for patrick but pek chek him at the same time . serve them right for playing those kind of things . damn them . hmmms . nvm .. wil try to help as much as possible bahs . whakakas . afterall , he's stil my BROTHER . hahas . fuunny ehs ? cute mar .. whakakas . so til now , writing my blog . nothing .. whee . going to sentosa tmr .. with them .. so happy . so long never like that le . gonna see bianbian le !! . whee . so happy ,. xiang dao tmr jiu high . whakakas . tonight , juniie promise to call at 2 something to talk . whee .. gonna tell that idert befer he sleeps too early tonight . but im afraid i wil get tired and sleep ehs . but i know tmr goonna be tiring day . whakakas . okays nawh , thats all for todae . nothing much right ? tsk tsk ,. nvm , we'll see for tmr .. whee .. i miss bianbian the most le .. how much i wish i can have him back ehs . hmms . so regret not listening to cyn but at least i let him go , i stil have freedom . hmmms . =) ..

touch up touch up !! hahas . wed saw that cresent de arhs ? dunno nawh . the unreasonable de sky at bugis mrt there . tsk tsk .. last time find me prob . tsk . den diao diao diao .. we diao here and there . ahahas ,. but i did not really care .. den dunno walk where le .. saw one bung oh . so handsome so kawaii nehs .. whee .. bugiis is gonna be full of bungs bungs soon .. hahas .. den thurs when i at people's park . gang hao before i go .. zhuzhu dear call me oh . whakakas . she at chinatown point .. den i go find her with that chao ah beng .. yuan lai they saw each other befer de . caught abit of news from that chao ah beng say what he and dear last time de stead arhs ? dunno who .. maybe that idert , i dunno . what got daiji before .. tsk . singapore so small lar . eveeryone i know , sure got connected de lors . either got what dai ji or what shit de nawh . tsk . poor me being a fren of theirs . whakakas . nvm , im use to it . whee .. meet zhu zhu and got my kiss kiss . muahahas .. anyway .. thats all nors . whakakas .. EVERYONE'S SMOKING AWAY THEIR TROUBLES . whee ... i now so xinku . sobx . whole day never smoke dao . wan die le .. whakakas .. shh shh ..

oh ya arhs .. I WANT GO KBOX .. hahas . i wanna take loads of photos .. !! whee . its time to be crazy , reballious and everything again . its time to have myself back . its time to whee for fun . hmmms . i thank myself for not going on wednesday with joey and them for steamboat becos ue were there with them . and maybe if i went , i would have just walked away .. =) ..

my patrick hors , and them arhs . meverick . shaolun and his stead . go play with those kind of things ehs .. hmmms . now tio liao .. on the day they de zui those things .. at zun zun 3am , they got a car accident , only patrick and shaolun stead tio becos only they two didi siao siao .. hmmms . patrick flew 3m , shaolun stead roll abit i think . dunno nawh . but his stead chin , leg , hip and hand all blood .. ewww .. whakakas . and my patrick got his spine hurt !! damn lar . flew 3m and stil can stand up , walk to meverick and tell jokes .. say what he strong . backside strong enuf . fly 3m never die . farker lar he . hahas . nehs !! bu guan .. den patrick de ah ma just die so got songka .. hais . tio this le stil go .. hmmms . he don dare tell his parents what he had done .. only say accident .. den now after he's ah ma songka . he having high fever .. his father got a fright so just now send him to NUH .. he so long never come sch le . never see him . hmms . miss my brother seh . aiseh ! hahas . miss we always quarrel . tsk . this incident must have warn him , i make sure he has learn his lesson . tsk , if he never arhs . i must hand wash clean clean prepare slap people liao . lols . stupid them lar . hais . whaakakas ..

darling gerl ` i've at least started my first step of getting on with life without ue .. trying to smile without thinking of ue .. deceiving myself saying u're busy .. or sometimes telling myself its retribution ? arghs !! i dunch know .. but till now , im stil telling ue , im sorryy , i cant take care of myself without ue .. its the fact .. don try changin it . im avoiding ue , i agree . but wil ue not avoid me to slap me awake ? i've been wanting to call ue , but with no courage at all , i stil give up .. ur name wil be on my back .. and we shall wait and see if i ever regret doing this .. but i can promise ue , i wil not let myself hide alone at home anymore .. no matter if i have frens or not , i'll stil smile , go out alone .. and things .. im starting already , i hope ue wish me luck .. but im stil waiting for ue to come back to listen to my troubles .. i stil miss you like i always do .. =) .