okays ~ i decided to grow my hair .. lols .

nice leg yarhs ? lols . belongs to lydia huhs . my poor dar . argh ! clarice didi larhs . just finish raining den stil cycle bumping here and there derhs . den bump til pua tou . ko lian ~ he nothing wrong arhs , my dar like car accident like that . her leg is worst than how it looks like in the pic okays ? omg . ytd dunno why suddenly her leg swollen like pig leg ehs . den cann0rt move . alamak ! dunch know arhs , she don wan go hospital , scared stay . let me pursue her bahs . lols .
was beside ps that building where can play pool derhs . was with kor they all huhs . faints . den i niao ji , need go toilet . lols . so we come together ! lalas . den took photo arhs . cann0rt take that can see face derhs , cos we just orh orh wake up . face like blur blur de . eww . BOO LING BU LING LING . whakakas .
see our shirt . muahahas . she mickey i minnie derhs . hmms . jie jie just went to disney land and bought me the shirt arhs . lalas . den dar dunno where buy derhs . lols .SEE ! we wore like that to town , like our house . lols .
took this when we was on our way to ps . in the MRT ! lalas . left is chap chee , middle wei liang , right my beloved kor . lols . they was dunno talking bout what larhs , den i was too bored yarhs see . so i took their pics . but they don mind . lols . chap chee EMOING arhs . haas . hmmms .
eww , i rmb how this pic was taken ! lols . i accidently keep tuning the phone of hers . den can u see wo men zai tou tou laugh . hahas . careless me .. BOO LING BU LING LING ** ..
whee . my darling's bike . ren jie ~~ lols . took this befer he came down to meet us . lols . look retard huhs . i find that if i use something to clip me out of the pic with my bag , the picture only with the bike would be nice okays ?! hahas . means im ugly larhs . tsk . faints .took this bike home that day from town , sho sak ki . lols . but scary huhs . i was like dropping and my helmet was like dropping too . ewww . * diaos * .
ermhs .. forget when take . but this is xiao zhi . he look so ugly in pic larhs . look really like rat cos his nick is lao su . faints . was at kbox with lydia and renjie nawhiies . hmmms . sho style arhs . upside down de . take wrong lerhs . faints . hahas .

his red de , mine green . red , green lights . lalas . the lemon tea we all drink huhs was also taken by me . whakakas . i REMEMBERED i forced xiao zhi to bite the lemon ! muahahas .

REALLY REALLY forget what happen this few days lerhs . my short term is getting real worst okays ?! hmmms . let me see .. .. monday go out with them dui marhs ? then ytd nerhs ? oh . go mam mam and walk walk with lydia , angie , janet and that si hui arhs . erks . she volunteer to go larhs . and lydia never tell me . anw , whatever . den we went to kbox . whakakas . 5 girls , two jug or vodka coke . erks . keep da arhs . den we all die . lols . oh . only that si hui alright . me and angie and lydia become red red . den all vomit . lols . stupid manager at there larhs . farker lai der . ewww . keep come spot check us . den we hen bu shuang ta . call the head quarters complain him . ! but the end huhs , hai dao my friend . KAI actually working there , but becos of us , den he quarrel with the manager den now want transfer to toa payoh . next time i want go find that manager gan liao . tsk tsk . hmmms . den after that we take taxi proceed down to suntec . whakakas . go di siao ppl . muahahas . took my revenge lerhs =D . after that that si hui go home , den say bath le come my house . den lydia they all come . hmms . we did nothing but lie on bed . sho tired .. hmmms . den that si hui call but i never ans . lols . shhhh . den tua her . muahahas . bad bad us , but she deserve it . hmmms . after that 1o something they jiu go home lerhs .. den i slack , but very early sleep ytd . lols .

today hurhs . same larhs . went to sch , then joey early jiu go lerhs . so todae never take papa car . ewww . but i stil reach sch earlier unlike normally . hahas . went to find angie they all talking about the prob . hmms . den that bitch never come todae , so no chance . hmmms . pek chek larhs . roar . den lesson starts and everything . early morning our class jiu get scolding . SI BEI SIANS ARHS ! den went back to class . i was quite in a bad mood in the early hours but better after that . hmms . todae they swimming , but i find my papa to bluff the teacher , but he stil wan the MC say i cannot go for PE . ARGHS ! damn .. stupid adrain teo . hmms . lessons continue as usual .. den assembly period was changed to form teacher's period . then miss chan give out the class photos . whakakas . can sign . whee . i feel like a STAR todae ! so many peeps ask me sign at one go . lols . den i realise being a star is shoooo tiring ! faints . hahas . so tiff ask me pei her go penisular , den i said okays . so after sch same , go toilet do nice nice . go tiong mam mam , den come home change . wanna go press money cos promise tiff to pay for her TATTOO money as her birthday present . den my house here got one bank , how it shits the stupid bank was under construction . stupid . den we sat there doing nothing , wondering how . so i say monday den pei her go . hmmms . den it was so damn going to rain . she went to the bus stop and i wanted to go home . but it rained when i walked half way ! just nice i was at block 12 , those idiots wasn't there so i went up to mama house . hehes . talk and sms on the bed til i orh orh . den kor kor and jie jiu come back .den we eat dinner together . lalas . after that at nine i jiu go lerhs . cannot stand , too bored lerhs . faints . den came home change ler , lie on bed . after awhile renjie say wan go mam mam . den i say okays lors . i pei him . sho meet him downstairs . whakakas . den he go mam mam i drink water . lalas . den we sit downstairs my house awhile jiu saw the uncle's dog . den go play with it awhile jiu go home lerhs =D . uncle said the dog ren de wo . whee . sho happy .. miss bian bian hmms . hais . nvm ~ den gang hao reach my doorstep , papa called . arghs !! so zhun . hees . like that n0rs . later i wanna check the memory card thing lerhs . muahahas . see ya .. that's my todae , i'am anxious and happy bout tmr . i wonder what a day isit goona be . becos its teachers day , how many peeps i know am i gonna see . whee =D .

sometimes , really never know that i've SAID THE WRONG THINGS or did the wrong one . sometimes when i think i'am joking , people would take it serious . and when im serious , people's joking . andd some peeps which should go out of my life , stays like glue . and those which needa come , leaves me far far away . those who shouldn't go , leave me one by one . what's wrong with my life ?! sometimes , it really dosen't concerns anything bout me but there's just something playing with MY LIFE ! and when peeps don understand , there will be all sorts of quarreeling again . i can't do anything anymore and if i'am really that useless , maybe i'am just waiting to die . i've been testing my life for 4 years , its always like that . it only depends whether i accept it or not . what the hell is happening . maybe i've really done the wrong thing at times , but i don't realise it . so now what's wrong again . at times in a day , my mind would just suddenly burst out to be so pek chek .. and i really can't do anything about it .. suan lerhs ..

HEY BITCH , WOULD YOU DO ME A FAVOUR AND STOP ACTING INNOCENT . ?! YOU TOOK AWAY SO MANY OF THEM , MAKING SO MUCH PEOPLE UPSET . DO YOU FEEL HAPPY AND SATISFIED ?! ARE U SO MAD IN YOUR MIND ?! JUST A THIRTEEN YEAR OLD TRYING TO ACT LIKE FOURTEEN AND FIFTEEN ! GOING AROUND TELLING PEOPLE U'RE FOURTEEN AND SOME FIFTEEN . DO YOU REALISE HOW MUCH PEOPLE HATING U NOW ? CAN YOU SLAP YOURSELF AWAKE INSTEAD OF US HELPING YOU ?! KNOCK SOME SENSE IN URSELF PLS . AT LEAST WHEN U DO THE WRONG THING , ADMIT ! U TAKE THEM AWAY , U FLIRT WITH GUYS WHO DOSEN'T BELONGS TO U , YOU TAKE FRIENDS AWAY WHO DOSEN'T BELONGS TO YOU . WHAT MORE DO U WANT ?

darling gerl ` i suspect that stupid tiff gonna pass me her chicken pox larhs . fark . holiday den pass .. wa biang . sobx . sobx . anw , wil put up m0re pics asap derhs . whakakas . bleahs ..oh ya . ytd 2 something ask marcus help me buy pink dolphin come up give me , tootpid dickson larh , go tell xiao zhi . tsk . hai me tio say til sho jia lat . arghs ! siians .

lovely days ..

whee . the pics we took larhs . suddenly look at my pics with the smile on my face . so * puke * . lols . very geigei ehs . faints . the more i see the more i thinks it dosen't look like me .. ewww . shucks larhs . roar me away . lols .
let miss vionna present mr.tianshui . lalaas . my hair looks like its so pong pong . hahas . so retro that day , bleahs .

arghs !! anw , this pic was the last one . he deleted the rest of it becos HE SAID IT WAS UGLY ! AND HE NEVER ASK MY PERMISSION ! * slaps * . lalas . anw , our day was quite nice larhs that day . hahas . we sat at pasta mania , thinking what to eat . in the end we get up and walk away . so throw face . lols . cannot stand it . hahas . den we go eat the yoshi noya . lalas .

arhs !! todae was a very dots day too .. ling shi called out by xiaoping kor to meet them . so i said okays . went to kor mummy's shop to find them . so packed with people larhs . lols . den joshua bought his guitar with him becos he had lessons in the night with chap chee . =D . long time frens indeed . and then we went to chinatown point arcade to play . stayed for quite sometime den went back to people's park centre . faints . den we talked and talked , waited for chap chee . den he came . he keep suaning me , zhen dui wo . den i started to EMO . den he got a fright . lols . delaying for some time , we wanted to go to nines place . but i ying joshua to the lan shop . he snatch kor away and they play . den i with chap chee and weiliang go ! chap chap in the end was good , he spared me ciggs . lols . so he joke around but i wasn't able to smile . den reached 7 , i went cos papa called . was going for my cousin's party . dunno what party , those community centre CC . ! sang and play with the hamster they bought there . poor hamster larhs . den after that around 1o.3o , the thing was suppose to close already , so we all went home . yawns . went to eat befer going home .. so bao bao now . and after awhile more , im meeting lydia , jeremy and marcus . HELL ! . FAINTS . i'am starting to get tired larhs . anw , i'll stop here for todae . lets see what wil happen tmr =D . bleahs ..

i got a password for my blog =D . some reasons larhs . although i'am able to write it down here now , but i don wanna me so chek ak . whatever , dunno how to spell . lols . anyway , i just don like people reading my blog and then stating in their blog that what i feel is not what i write . and everything is fake about me . so how bout u ? arhs ! whatever ! anw , i told myself not to hate her anymore . cos i really don wanna care what she thinks . and btw , those who are holding my password for my blog , keep it confidential . keep it well . don give anyone . hmmms .

darling gerl ` i'am going down lerhs . awhile only =D . see u peeps soon . haas . * I WANNA BE THAT KAI XIN GUO * . and i realise i can be if i want =D ..

damn .

have been trying to update my damn blog for a few days . but is either i don have the damn time , means the blog can't be updated . cos its spoilt . arghs ! so i've forgotten what have happen this few days =D . pardon me larhs . but its the fact . hehes . i only currently remember that i went to meet tianshui kor ytd morning . we went to mam mam and then walk walk . took loads of photos and discussed many things about chocolate . lols . then i went to meet xiaoping kor they all . cos kor asked me out . i was eventually late . i got niaming and scolding larhs . as usuall . let's see , btw , ytd was quite a terrible day to describe my mood ! . in the morning , the bitch mother of mine spoilt my day , and then in the after noon , that WONG KA YING . or which ever , how to spell her name . and then nite my father , late night a farking bitch which is currently now alan's stead . shit so much . ewww . den after that all of us went to great world to watch movie . it was damn bored larhs . dunno what show lai derhs . faints . total we here got around 1o over people . never thought will have so much in the beginning . but saw boy and wee tiong , so they made my day =D . anw , i went after the movie to my auntie's house to wait ffor my cousin . dunno what damn tix my dad have , not gonna say bout it . always like that , farking idiot . nvm . ~ den after that went for that damn concert . went to bought tiger . eww , i just gulp down one can and i became so drunk ~~ bad drinker indeed . bleahs . nvm ~~ so befer the show even end , we went home . i really can't stand the singing anymore . i vomitted so many times , really tired . hmmms . so came home and same larhs , bla bla bla . haas .

todae ? ewww , wonder how isit gonna be , my damn mother woke me uo early in the morning 12.3o . she fried fried rice for me and eat . den i can't sleep back anymore . dad says evening have a party that concerns my family .. faints . but i'am going to prepare after finishing my blog to meet xiaoping kor they all . got to know a new friend , weiliang . =D . joker larhs . lols . with boy together very noisy derhx . anw , maybe later in the middle of the night meeting lydia , janet , and those other few larhs . lazy to state their names down . hmmms . tmr's our sch speech day , so gonna be a holiday . tues till 11 . forget becos of what . lols . wed nomal . thurs half day , till 1o something cos teacher's day . friday HOLIDAY ! . LOLS . and then .. .. . muahahas , my one week holiday . but after all the holidays and two weeks of sch , gonna be mine exams lerhs . damn . so bored . arghs !! nvm ~~ quickly wanna end my blog and go prepare lerhs . muahahas .

when my cousin was watching the concert ytd , i went to the exit somewhere to sit alone larhs . so hmms . thought of alot of things , then type it down into my hp . anw , the hp belongs to lydia , so saw quite alot of things in the draft folder . very meaningfull . wil type it down into my blog in the night later if i rmb . haas .

alah , i'am logging off first . cos tian shui kor wanna do something to my blog . whee =D . buais arhs . bleahs .. muackies . wil upload the pics we took ytd up asap derhs . lalas ..

darling gerl ` although feelings are not there for u anymore , but why does my heart stil breaks ? anyone specialised who tell me more ?

tired .

all took todae de arhs . 24/o8/o6 . look so tired and chou arhs . faints . her nawh ! hahas . can't wait . faints . anw , i love her =p .
second pic . lols . gotta face another side arhs . she wan take her hair i also wan . so must take til so xin ku . she so bad huhs . baddy . lols .

i love my night life =) .

thanks guys ! had quite a great day but it was so tiring arhs . eww . damn . lols . pohmeng kor arhs . so long never call me . ytd call me den meet him 1 something ehs . actually meeting wee chng at cuppuage de . thought of going down instead of him come finding me . lols . but meet kor downstairs . he become more shuai le . hees . heard he break with his stead le . one over year .. but he say confrim not more than 3 days sure patch . lols . bu guan ta . den we go buy ciggs . eww . kor say he owe me one pack . lols . cos ytd can't help me pay . no money . lalas . den we two sit at my house here the coffee shop place . where only " cresent " people can sit . get my meaning ? ewww . i was force to sit there . he pray and i can't pray too right ?! omg . lols . so i sitted there and see him pray . he took those glass bottle de tiger beer out , go buy ice . den we drink , smoke , drink , smoke . call yong jie come down . den lydia gang hao call me . the she come down with janet and dyter . finally saw that dyter de looks liao . eerks .. lols . den yong jie come down . talk talk talk suddenly got car stop . den one bunch ppl come down . motorbikes racing around . all stop come down . taxi ~~ alot .. total of 3o to 4o ppl . ewww . so many .. here de ppl . so kong bu . lols . janet was playing with glue .. you know you know ? den blur blur . den we went to another side talk and slack .. me and lydia and janet lar .. lols . den i was saying , believe me , we transfer here . later sure got ppl also transfer here come talk . lols .I WAS RIGHT . jeremy , xiao zhi they all lar . all gather. tsk tsk . siians . all high ranks .. lols . sit there diam diam . den warm up liao , 3 of us start to noisy le . bleahs . den xiao zhi say wan go mam mam mac . around 5 something .. ewww . but during the time , we got smoke alot , talk talk , play alot . lols . so funny . cannot stand them and i never thought they're actually so friendly !! hahas . den around 6 ? we go wait taxi go down bukit merah mam mam . eat le we thinking whether to come back my hhouse or what . lols . anw , went down to eat only left , jeremy , xiao zhi , lydia , janet , kor , yong jie , me . hahas . in the end go jeremy's house . so squeezy lar . den we play majong all the way til 11 something or 11 like that .. den we go down chinatown kbox . lols . drink and smoke again . cant imagine i'am only left with 4 sticks of ciggs !! ewww .. i broke my record terribly !! nvm .. den quarrel with yong jie . so kbox only we three gers and xiao zhi . after that sing sing sing . now den come home . lols . currently 5.3o pm . whee . i love my night life .. poor janet say wan da vodka . da til she go toilet vomit on the floor . tsk tsk . den lydia face face red . hahas . so the end now they go find clarice , manting they all . i come home . xiao zhi sent them there den sent me back home . so i know now , there's this guy also high rank , staying below my house at 8th floor , same A lift . lols . realise only ytd . ahahas. den maybe later meeting xiao zhi midnight slack at the same place . maybe not . anw , im also not so close to him lars .. faints . or tmr .. ya .. to pass him back somethings .. hmmms . like that nors . aiyer , whole day very funny jiu shi le . lols .

realise you've been letting me go already . letting me have my freedom . thanks . =) . dad . example i went out so early without informing you , you didn't scold . you have been so good to me since that day . and many more , you're starting to joke with me .. thanks anw .. i told you , i'll have my limits if you give me back the things that belongs to me . see , i'am back early =P . so early okays ?! take care .

darling gerl ` some things which are suppose to go , wun go . and those aren't suppose to go , it went away . and worst , somethings comes at the right time and some , very wrong or it shouldn't have come at all . what is this ?? !! .. i'am not that chao ahlian , so shudup and i wun be one . i know i've change , but i'am stil me .. accept it or not ? it dosen't concerns me already .. i was your little princess , remember , dad ? but i'am just ur big ger now , let me be ..

failure * no shame at all . shameless bitch .

what kind of parents are you ? i dunch understand . you dunch understand me at all , never thought of how i felt . what happen todae was totally .. .. .. dunch you feel guilty at all ? i damn don care if ur mother died since u are 3 . i care for myself . so what im selfish , i learn it from you . if anything happens to me , for damn shit sake , its all your fault . URS ! you fail as a mother , failure . i dunch care about what girl's home thingi or u wanna bring me back . you wun see me , you wun .. .. you can't blame on him den u blame on me , have you got any shame ? shameless . i'am not like her , i can't study , i dunch wan so no matter how you force me and what you to do me . I WON'T CHANGE FOR YOU DAMN BITCH . slap yourself awake will you ? you made my life so miserable and everything was the cause of you . have you ever thought of me ? i dunch need you to think of my future . its my life anyway . you wil die early so pls go now . how i wish u would have meet up with a terrible accident now , and die terribly . die , i wil not shed a tear , even if i do , its just crocodile tears . you said you work hard ? damn hell . wake up ! who was the one givin u money ? gamble gamble and gamble . the one who taught me bad was not anyone but u . so shudup and stop being so idiotic . u make me puke . i don have to wait til im 21 , 18 will do . and from the day im 18 , i wun ever call you mum again . not ever . stop ur shouting and everything , its just so noisy . ue made me leave home , so don't blame me for doing things u don like . u'll lose me , you will .. .. ..

let's not talk about todae too kays ? its to terrible for me to say . i may be going back to my DAMN BITCH place soon . so you can't see me anym0re . nvm , i wil run out to find you peeps =p . let's not talk about her , the sight of her makes me puke . erks . so that's the end of me * claps hands * ..

darling gerl ` don act now , i hate you . i hate you . and i really do .

you force me with no roads , this is where you want me to go .

i love this pic !! just simply love it !! whee ..
toot toot say i look cute in this pic ! lols ..
i look so not like me . bleahs .
really really no comment on this pic . but i really love this four pics i took ytd =D . jealous ? hahas . bleahs .

darling gerl ` i'll be g0ne soon .

ai zhen de hen wu li , zhong yu dao le zui hou , she me dou mei le .

since eu redy made ur decision. let it be bahx. eu say i mia aft tat sentosa ting. but eu gort contact dao me mahx. show any concern.? nope. when dere's no one by ur side lerhs den eu wan me pei eu. wat m i to eu.? now eu gort ur frenx by ur side redy. im useless to eu. fer wat i go baichi again msg eu, cal eu. no point rite. i dun wanna wait anymore. felt like a fool. i gave up. all along i noe e reason y eu wanna remain single. disappointed. eu noe wat im toking bout. tats y i stand no chance. i tot e prob lies wif me. tot tat eu stil cant forget bout those tings in e past i hurt eu n all tat. but it turns out e prob lies wif eu. nort me. n its nort only me. all e guys tat r interested in eu. all gort rejected rite.? tats y tat time when caiyan jio eu,i told eu confidently tat eu surely wil reject him derhs. aint i correct.? all those tings eu've done i noe derhs. jux dun wanna question eu bout it. jux diamdiam. r eu reali hapi wif tis kinda life.? eu go tink about it bahx. tats all i can say now. [ written not by me , someone ]

from the damn months , you've been saying i only need you when my friends are n0rt with me . did i ? or im letting feel the way i let u felt months ago ? you know im use to u contacting me , so why do you wish me to contact you ? concern ? how can i ? baichi ? so u feel like a baichi indeen messagin me , calling me . i knew you would give up . i'am always waiting for this day . you know . you know what im thinking .. i knew everything would go back to the same if i don't accept you , even if i do . things will end up the same . so what i cant forget the past ? so what i cant let everything go ? i'am not like u a 19 year old person , i'am just a fourteen year old GER . YES . the probs lies some with you , dunch you know till todae . you might n0rt think of anythin .. what have i done ? what have i done that u did nort ask . ask ~ just ask . since ue can say it out so why not tell me what you didn't ask . yes , maybe im happy with life now , and maybe not . maybe like zhu , everything's fake .

its been months ~ months .. i didn't even realise that u're stil waiting . i've try my best to treat u the worst i can . but you can take it , and no one has ever did that . no one's patience for me has been so good . why did u ? i dunch understand . you said after i stopped working , you mistaken alot of people for me . you would go up to them and its wrong in the end . u've been taking ur stead for me after i go but after something slap ue awake , u realise its not me . i never knew i was always giving u hope till jason told me so many things . i didn't know u were so miserable becos of me . like him , i shouldn't have replied ur message at the begiining , i shouldn't have went to interview for the work and i shouldn't have met you up 0r called you when wen and you came my house to ton . am i in the wrong again ? i'am sorry .

like what u said when we were walking . i believe its true and i once think of it . [ btw , the things i say now , some of u might be going crazy , hating me , but its my blog , so shudup ] . okays . so like what u said suddenly . im clever . and i was wondering why . you was shaking ur head saying im clever . really clever .. so i asked you why . u said i could easily catch someone in hand , even the m0st difficult one . u said i could easily make someone fall in deep love in me , but i too can make that someone hate me like that person has never hate anyone befer in just a short time . u said i could be very best friends with someone . u said i was easily tricken but could trick people too .. you said no one will be able to understand me , unless i say everything out and the person is deep understandable . And instead of feeling anxious of things ue said , i felt so relieve .. =) .

thanks f0r calling me . =D . i felt so retard . but u SAID YOU WOULD CALL BACK and u did not . tootpid . i said i would melt u , muahahas . maybe its true that time heals everything slowly .. maybe its true that i should learn to change for you . i dunch know , but it seems like everybody is coming back , and those who i've just known , are all going away . and it seems like getting back to the past . . . . .

nothing really happen after that . i mean just now lar . hmms . sleep til dunno wwhat time . then eat , watch tv . use com . around 9 , change le den jiu go see doc . was force by papa to go see doc . say what must get mc . anyway dou must detention le , i wonder get mc for what . hmmms . tmr detention till 6 . papa also know . that farking miss chan call my papa and tell him . roar . cant stand those teachers . doctor so long ehs . lucky got chocolate and joey pei me talk =D . hmms . even the doctor says im under stress after the saying why i have to appetite and everything .. hmmms . den go help papa buy newspaper . den at downstairs play with the dog which belongs to those uncle de . lols . then the dog follow me home . but i bring him back . chi wawa arhs . so kawaii nehs . the uncle ask me bring go home . hehes . but i stil tell him i have bian bian ~ hais . hmmms . den coming back home saw one dog . everytime play with him de . hehes . maomao de . whakakas . den come home slack awhile jiu do mask and everything . yup yup .. just now kent call me talk , so sians ehs . hmmms . den i watching the show , never concentrate . he jiu put down le . hehes . say hao le den message him . bleahs ~~ den now jiu writing this blog nors . chatting with baby , toot toot and kent . hehes . =D .

ewww , don feel like going sch tmr again . lols . i've not been in class for four cutties days . hehes . monday got chase out of sch for going home dye hair but i go home sleep . lols . tues got suspension for being late more than 3 times . [ anw , im use to suspensions . ] . i can stil buy magazine on that day purposely . lols . wed pon . den in the end so many things happen . hahas . todae never go sch . lols . wonder tmr how . james starting the course next week le , so good . i how ? hmms . ewww . so bored so bored .. lalas ..

can someone help me dl this songs below and send me , i really really need`em asap okays ? hmmms . thanks =p .
zhao mi [ pan wei bo ] .
wu qing de yu , wu qing de ni . [ dunno who sing de , only know the name is two words nia . hmms . ] .
di yi ge qing chen [ wang li hong ] .
chu dian [ SHE ] .
ring ring ring [ SHE ] .
yuan lai ni she me dou bu xiang yao . [ zhang hui mei ] .

if can , SHE new album de all dl finish okays ? hehes . help help help . really need all this songs . whakakas . and u people can dl the songs by twins de , wo hen xiang ai ta and wei she me xiang ai de ren bu neng zai yi qi , dunno by who but nice arhs . whakakas . neng bu neng also another song nice de , by dunno who also . hehes . and ai wu li by pan jia li . hehes . cant think of any other songs currently cos mind wanna die le . whakakas . take care oh people =D . ewww , oh ya . and one , shu dao wu , da ying wo . nice also . but also dunno from who . cao ge i think . hehes .

darling gerl ` i'am numb to everything now , so numb . my father can scold me till he cry , but i dunch feel anything . i never led a tear . when u said so many things , i only knew my heart break , but i dunch feel any pain at all . i'am so use to everything around me . and u've start messagin first again , i appreciate that . but becos u made me feel so untrue , im leaving away from u before i break myself up .. i was forced to become like that , i didn't know how i ended up like that . but i only know im currently just clearing up the mess myself slowly as time passes .. .. ..

unfaithful love .

muahahas , this pic took by patrick arhs . hmmms . so bo liao nors . i was taking another picture using another phone , he use his phone take this pic . tsk tsk . all ytd take de . at marina south there . whakakas .
took tis picture and patrick use it as his wallpaper . lols . see my hand ! so cruppled ! lols .
ewww , this also took my patrick . lols . was lying down there den he call me . lols . so bai one good position let him take . nice ehs ? ke ai lors . lols .
well , i don't even know they took this picture lar . must be shao lun or joey take de . using shao lun's phone . lols . so dots lar . we two really sleeping . snatching my bag which is on the table . cos nice to lie onto it .. hahas . nvm ~~ found this picture in shaolun's hp , so send to papa de . whee . ytd cant post it up . dunno why . SO ... I POST IT UP TODAE ! MUAHAHAS .

whee . ytd 1o of us not in class . all pon . but i only have 6 with me . another one at hougang , another one at home i think . lols .. todae i also never go sch . bleahs . total 8 never go . didn't expect so much never go todae ehs . lols . me , joey , shaolun , patrick , meverick , selvy , monica and henry . faints nors . think teacher wan vomit blood liao . lols . wonder tmr how .. hahas . .

well , was sleeping just now then i DREAMT of so many ppl lar . omg . but heard that whatever is dreamt wil turn opposite right ?! siians . all the dreams i dreamt was what i want . hais . how i wish can make whatever come true in the dreams i made ytd . lalas .. anyway .. abit stupid nawh .. hahas . yups yups . whakakas .

darling gerl ` okays okay , writing my blog either at night or tmr or dunno when le . cos im rotting to death . im really bored . omg . ! . see what will happen later nors . hehes . =P . bleahs ...

im no chao ahlian ~ really . so for damn shit , stop saying ~ .

monday :
lols . very nice day actually .. eww , but i lost my coloured hair ! its black now ... black ~~ . omg . i was chase out of sch in the morning , was asked to go back dye hair , but i hang around alone at chinatown for awhile and then go home sleep . lols . clever huhs ? .. hahas . was late for sch ehs , VERY LATE ! hahas .. den joey , angie they all tio form , i actually got suspension ~ but i go home .. hehes . orh orh til so shuang . whakakas . then evening like that meet yong jie arhs , he pei me go dye hair . $4o nehs . ex seh ~ hehes . then we go safra play play . then saw his bunch of same friends . lols . i stil dun understand why when we walk into the arcade , they were clapping their hands so loud .. i really don understand ~ nvm . lols . den after that meet papa go mam mam . hehes , oh ya . when we want go safra that time ehs , saw patrick THNG they all ehs . smoking ~~ lols . snatch with vincent the cigg . stupid patrick , suan me ~ tsk tsk . then they settling some probs with those malays ~~ our own school de ~~ worst . so as a guai kia , few of us squat down there see them . so funny ~~ whakakaas . den chase that patrick til i no breathe . idiot . laugh my playboy . ewww , don like don like . nvm . i'll accept the fact . hahas . like that nors . whakakas . eat with papa le jiu come home . hmmms . =p . think monday is like that bahs . i really cant think of anything le =) . hehes .

tuesday :
worst . same ~ late . hahas . tio suspension ehs . sobs . i alone upstairs , then they all inside general office . got air con . but i better . muahahas . stil can sms and sleep , they cannot . lalas . very suey ehs , saw mr .sim sim again . EVERYTIME de nehs . den miss.chan wil walk behind him after awhile . SUEY arhs ! get scolding , sobx sobx . then miss.chan saw , shake head , diao me . walk away . eww . nvm .. i don care . ~ lols . then sit there do nothing . hehes . xue yi and joey keep tou tou from general office find me , but keep tio catch . whakakas . den after that 11 like that i and joey go swimming pool there mam mam . ewww . mam mam till half raining . tsk tsk . so pek chek . hehes . then cannot go back , give that mr.wong announce ask us go back . freaking idiot . so pai seh nawh . ewww . . . then we go back wet wet de . freak nors . den shirt become tou ming . den behind the ahem so difficult to hind . den keep avoid teachers , heng our class there seh . they dunno doing what CME de thingi , then i hide here and there . hehes . ask wei sheng they all go in the general office take jacket for me , from patrick . hahas . PATRICK KOH i mean . then he give me . whee . cold cold arhs . so cold . . . then hair like siao siao .. lalas . den after that do miss chin de hw .. very fast jiu 1.55 le . then i don care arhs , straight away walk find hui hui they all . bleahs . then joey , patrick , meverick cannot come out seh . so poor thing . then shaolun , weisheng , judy , huihui with me . lols . then we stand outside there talk talk .. wait for them . yue wait yue long , pek chek we go out of sch smoke first . whee . then huihui eat mee mee . lalas . den go basket ball court .. no ppl de . so sians . after that cannot tahan le , so we take taxi go home . then reach home on the scary movie 4 watch . siians ehs. so funny de . after that watch chucky , so er xin . puke .. .. .. den no time watch another one le .. ~ so decide next time then watch . hehes . ran hou they jiu go home le . cos must go home early de . hmmms . den papa awhile later jiu wan go downstairs mam mam . den i want fry rice ! whee . nice nice oh . but very full . fat fat le . ewww .. [ anyway , i'am always so fat ] . shhhhh . den slack here and there , awhile jiu orh orh le .. tired arhs ! whakakas . slept without knowing also . heng sleep til 3 something wake up off all the lights cos i forget .. hehes . thats all nors .whakakas .

wednesday ; todae :
todae best seh .. lols . todae got swimming arhs . den we all don wan go . hmmms . so pon nors . lols . papa fetch me from back gate le den see him go le i go hall . ask who wan pon , den xueyi wan pon . so together we go out . steady seh .. tell the stupid outram dogs i stomach pain wanna go home , den xueyi dunno lar . just pull her walk with me , den say later i wil message miss . chan . just nice got one taxi . hehes . so we take den straight away like that go . so nice ehs . hahas . den i hide below , eww . cos if benedict that outram dog see me sure paoto me de . er xin . den meet joey , weisheng , shaolun , patrick at the mrt station there . whakakas . den we go people's park . aiyo . alot things happen lar . don say le , lazy type . hehes . den each of us phone start to ring liao . lols . den mine never ehs . den only after when we inside the mrt wanna go marina bay , my hp then ring . tsk tsk , my father nehs . but i still listen lar . lols . guai kia ~~ then he quite calm , quite fierce . lols . hai hao nors . den bla bla bla . walk all the way to the steamboat there . so far arhs . den play arcade . so long lors . den slack all the way til 4 we go eat steamboat . whakakas . bleahs . eat till 7 something ehs . then papa come fetch us . tsk . all poor thing no money , all drink tap water . lalas . quite nice ehs . hehes . nothing to be throw face about nawh , good mar . healthy . whakakas .. like that nors . come back home tio niam . niam arhs niam arhs ~ niam till alot of things oh . now papa know all my tattoo le =D . no need hide le . whee . whakakas . den ask papa the quit sch thing , ewww . he no comments arhs . ask me ask my that mom of mine first , if she can , he no comment . omg ! let's wait for this day . muahahas . =D . i've been waiting for so long so long ~ . =p .

ewww . tmr don wish to go sch ehs . later late must suspension again . i got no magazine read le nehs . faints . later kan dao mr.sim again . siians man . papa i think he let me don go sch tmr nehs . later i go ask ask . go also nvm nawh , i sure go sch sleep . what's the use . lols . like that nors . hehes . gerl arhs , todae knock onto ur eye . dui bu qi arhs . i touch ur head only , dunno why my bag hit ue . must be u scold my baby behind its back , so wan take revenge . muahahas . anyway , your eye must be okays lar hors ? hehes . hao nors , just like that . whakakas .

darling gerl ` if you cant understand me , what's the point ? what kind of daughter can i be ? then what kind of father can ue be ?
ger , will not trust him again le . i dunch know why arhs . hmmms . since the sat we go sentosa , he jiu MIA le . i also dunno for what . must be xiang ue again =D . tell him i no stead , for damn shit sake =) . i'll return his shirt asap to ue okays ? that day in front of ue bu guan ta like that is real le de . really bu xiang kan dao ta . last time in front of ue bu guan ta becos dunno how to face or something like that , dunno how to put it . but that day meet ue , really bu xiang kan dao ta le . hmms . now we let things continue like that kaes . he's out of my life , i don trust anymore . u're still here right ? we'll stil meet right ? =D . will we be the same ? hope so . xiang tong le .. finally xiang tong le .. u getting on with life , i also oh . running towards my goals =p .. u must take care kaes . no eat so often ! UNDERSTAND ?! piak ur pipi then ue know ehs . whakakas . xiang ue arhs . loves =) . you know who u are , ue wil reply me de dui mar ? =) . reply quick quick okays ?! muackiies . hehes .

you haven reply ur tag , wil ue faster ?! =) . im really anxious about ur reply . can ue not tell me u're working again ?! * sians look * . hmmms . take care . AND STOP TIRING URSELF OUT ! stupid . no chocolate is so stupid as ue . at least being a vanilla is cleverer . okays ?! stupid .

my eyes are dozing off ~~ omg .. ~

ewww , this pictures are took todae other than the two below okays ? hehes . was in the taxi arhs . lols . i was bored , and since i have long not zi lian . i decided to pull them in too . muahahas . although one of them , that ONG WEISHENG . took pics with me unwillingly , but he still say he would rather take with me than others . muahahas . im clever ~ whee . this was the second pic i took . 2nd *
this is the first one nawh . 1st . weisheng took de . lols . actually we have 3 de . it was taken by shao lun lar , but he nawh . not sense of angle . so inside the picture only got me and weisheng . only can see his shirt . tsk tsk . hahas .
nice pic ehs ? lols . funny huhs ? when i went in straight into the taxi , den i took this photo first because i took a few before that at the basket ball court but everything was gone !! damn .. waste my strength . bleahs ..
i force him to take this picture . lols . i pinch him terribly .. muahahas . with my nails , he died . lols . first pic he took was dunno looking where lar , and i was so unsatisfied . i bite him and force him to took this . lols . don i look funny ? hahas . abit don look like me ehs . faints . or i always look so ugly ?! roar . faints ..
yaya .. this with shao lun . i know all of them look really really ugly in photos lar , but they are not so worst in reality . so pls accept . lols . he smile so fake , nearly slap his butt . muahahas . i shall go make tiff jealous becos she message shao lun she LOVE him ytd ! faints . how many is she gonna love ?! hahas . shhhhh ~~ .
i look so fat in this pic lar . like thos pic around the streets .. hahas . he took with me willinglly okays ?! lalas ..
arhs !! this the one who always calls me darling , dear for no reasons and always frightens me .. damn .. he also took this pic with me willingly okays ? lols . i took with him first and then the above one . damn , the above one ask me why my face like so warm .. faints . im human .. not cold-blooded . diaos . then he had nothing to say . lols ..

ewww .. this was taken on ehs .. i forgot le nehs . let me think .. friday i think . lols . when i pei tiff to tan tock seng to see her fren with the broken leg or something . whakakas . i like this pics ue know ? muahahas . i rmb befer i went i told her fren to die soon . lols . shhhhh ~ bleahs ..

darling gerl ` whee , this are just pics i decided to put up nawh . lols . i'll write about what happen this few days asap okays ? cos im tired ehs , den come home jiu orh orh or rest . whakakas . gonna think think if i should write anot then i'll see how nawh . muahahas . also not much nors . [ pss pss , just two days not in class le ] . lols . wish me luck arhs . GOD BLESS ME . LOLS . bye ~~~

i hate people guessing things about me they dunch know , and agree things that i've not about me . what the hell is this ?

saturday :

well , let's not talk about sat , shall we ? not a very happy day indeed . hmmms . other than normal mood coming its way , everything remains the same ? i'll just round everything up and say okays ? hmmms .

i read your blog about ur schedule for this week at work , so i decided to visit ue , or maybe to purposely go there to bring whatever belongs to us back . [ i was suppose to go and ask ue to go out , if u say a no , i'll just go somewhere on my own ] .. hmmms . that was my plan . i went there , you were not at work . i thot ue might be inside or something but when i ask the other crew members of urs , i was told that u're working at 4 till 11 . whao . i didn't know what to do at the beginning , i was in a total SHOCK ! damn . i dunno why . i called over 1o people , only 2 answered but they were busy or other things . so i was wondering " what the hell is with me ? i have 2oo over contacts in my phone , none can help ! " . perfect ? =) . nvm . i've no comment already . friends ? HAHA .. so i force myself or maybe zi yuan de wait til 4 . i don see a single soul =D . nvm . i wanted to wait on my own anyway . manage to wait for my dad's arrival , went to town to meet hazel and her friend . hmms . met her at the food court and we ate . they went to take neoprints . walk around and then to heeren . meet up zhuzhu . how i know that that idert was there . nvm , anyway , i don care . i got my baobao from zhuzhu =) . nice . and then hazel went shopping and borrowed $15 from me ! well , nvm . im broke anyway . another $15 to her wun die . and then they came so since i dunno what , but we walk our own and zhuzhu cum that idert walk the other way . =) . went down and hazel fren gotta go somewhere ~~ so left me and hazel . and we was waiting for thomas and adam . faints . saw hazel enemy and we was trying hide away from that damn person . hmms . finally , thomas and adam came . then we walk to paragon to eat . they eat , not us . we went toilet to zilian , and they eat . funny ehs ? after that we walk all the way to far east . omg , i nearly die . was smoking so much all the way when i walked there . I DUNCH KNOW WHY , DON ASK ! ya , that's right . went walk walk , and jo came . chao ah lian ~~ faints . den after talking talking , adrain came . all of us met up at the taxi stand and then took a taxi to esplanade for the fire works . well , they left me and adrain to take the taxi and they four took one . damn ~ . nvm . im kind enuf . anyway , it was a total of $15 when we reached there . the damn jam around the road is so long . and we got to rush down in the middle of the road ! saw a few act lians de , diao me . so as a guai kia =D , i just looked and walked past them and say , fark ue . and then i walked away =) . perfect . ! nice me ! anyway , they did nothing and diam diam . lalas . we lost hazel they all . and the whole thing , left me and adrain watchin . fone cant get through . after everything , also cant . arghs ! i don wanna say about the rest of it . makes my blood boil . damn . end of that day . shit . ....

sunday , todae :

woke up around 12 something . called yong jie about 1 something . he was already at queensway buying clothes . always like that , im use to it . so i prepared myself and then i ferget what time i meet him . the same , i smoke and smoke and smoke . one fine day , im sure im going to die of something . thats all . end of my life . hmms . he came down stairs my house to meet me , went to the coffee shop to eat . forced him to drink coke . muahahas . and i drink green tea . aren't i evil ? cute lar . lalas . den we took a damn farking bus all the way to tampiness !! so long ~ stop half way to go toilet ~ faints . all becos of him lar . arghs ! anyway , nvm nvm . im kind - hearted . then walk around , called beibei darling if she's at there . but TOO BAD , she never ans . =) . went to the opposite building for movie , but all fully booked . damn . checked the GPRS and we manage to found one at great world at nine . hmmms . called dad if i can watch , after some damn arguing , arghs ! it was a yes .. phew . so took a cab all the way to great world . watch the show " CLICK " . damn , stop it . for every show i've watch this few weeks , i've been crying !!!! its not becos of emotional shit , its becos of the SHOW . ewww . stupid . den it was 11 when it finish , i thought he was going to FETCH me ! in the end , he's at home ! fark . told him since its like that , im going to take a bus home becos i have not a single cent . and it wwas only 11 . and he said why should i take bus . being that unreasonable him again , HE DAMN SAID THAT IF I TAKE A BUS , I WIL REACH HOME AT 1 !!!!!!! farking damn irratated me , decided not to quarrel . he asked me to take a taxi home , so i took a mercede cab [ is this how i spell the word ?! ] .. let yong jie down first and then my turn . the cab fare was $5.2o . dad pay for it . he came down . trying to stand behind me to see if i have anymore tattoo behind becos i dunno how the damn shit hell he knew about my tribal ~ hmmms . stupid him and clever me . i walked with my back covered ! i've been talking to him coldly since sat night ! arghs ~~ !!! stop everything about sat night . fed up , pek chek , vomit blood . okays . thats it . thats for todae . END ; ...

wanna know why i walked away from you , well , asked your heart . maybe it wil give you the ans why to all your questions for me . hmmms . i think you know what i mean when the attitude i gave you that day . anyway , i don't like people backstabbing me =) . you should know it since the day i told you so many things and DECIDED to trust you back . [ PSS , PEEPS , I MAKE A DAMN WRONG CHOICE SO DON'T FOLLOW ME PLS ] . well , no more .. no more .. im not gonna trust you ever again my dear gerl =D . nahs , im not sad that i've lose ue . at least im clear of whether to trust ue or not after all these YEARS .. funny ehs ? i know none of you can guess its who , if can , the ans wun be clear . hahas . confused ? bleahs . i purpposely de . muahahas . continue with my niaming . thanks for all ur FAKE caring and everything ehs . ewwww . the sight of seeing ue makes me puke .. i dunch know why you know ? rmb to change into a better person okays ? stop being like that . THANKS for those talking and alot lar . okays ? well , i think u're glad that i've become wiser in some ways . i know you will . so i bless you , and you shall take care . =D . don find me only when u lose them okays ? i wun give a damn anymore about ue , don come all the way okays ? i don wan ur explanations anymore .. don make me confuse again .. =) . maybe like me and her , time wil heal everything , i realise . but for you , pls do ur best to gain back my trust if you ever want me back . thanks for going btw , see you soon .

dad , indeed we have a generation gap . for that quarrel we have that day , i appreciate everything . im glad i shout out saying i dun understand u and im MORE EVEN glad that ue told me back that ue should be the one not understanding me . i nearly told eu that the genaration gap and everything , but i didn't . ue made me wanna leave home that day and i know if i did , you wun see me todae . i even dreamt of leaving this whole damn wide world , but i'll always think of you first . till todae , we stil cant have serious talks .. i dunch know why . u'll always feel awkard . aren't i right ? how i wish u was the one reading my blog every now and then . how i wish ue waas like other parents , so open and understanding . how i wish ue was what i wish ... i wonder why things will end up like that . when i had a terrible cry in the car during sat night , you thought i was crying only becos that im quarreling with ue , isn't it ? no .. i was just cryin everything out . i couldn't take it anymore , pretending like im strong , so strong in front of you . when i came back and cried again , i realise the divorce between u and her had been a great blow to me . i never knew it til sat night when i sat down crying , thinking . when i knew this was life , i asked myself , where are those friends who said that they wil be here .. i rmbed the two of you quarreling downstairs when we had the two story house . i was there crying when JIE brought me upstairs .. i rmbed every single thing .. the quarreling . the fighting . the beating . everything . i pity myself for that night , and i cant imagine myself curling up like a little baby on my bed , trying to get to a deep sleep . i rmb when i see other family holding hands , taking photos together , walking around happily , we was the only family which had a distance that i can feel no matter how young i am , no matter how close we hold our hand together . the smile and laughter ue gave to me was all fake , and i knew it right from the start . i'am proud of myself , to be so strong til today , becos for this kind of family background , i could have been a very very bad gerl .. at least , im still able to control .. but dad , i really want you to know this , if one day , i become someone unlike the daughter ue have now , i really hope you'll understand , because that is the day , when everything comes to an end , and its the day i cant control my character anymore . one working like shit , like hell . and the other just sitting there , gambling , waiting for money to come in , celebrating her own life . what kind of life is this ? till todae , when i see those families outside , and when i hear my friends say they're going out with their family , i can't explain those kind of feelings , how i felt .. how much i xian mu them .. i can't stand but only wishing them happiness =) . i feel like an angel with no wings , no freedom always when i wish someone best . i feel like someone so different when i give the best to someone , and when im comforting someone .. can i go ? sometimes i asked myself ..... can i go ..

darling gerl ` u're the reason i live on , u're the reason i smile , now that u're gone . everything's over . i told myself not to be pathetic anymore . its so useless becos no one cares at all ! the fact is , i really do wan keep things to myself and probably just settle them when time comes and tell me its time to heal . becos , telling others , seems to be so useless .. no one can do anything . at the very end , the decision and every move i make , its stil my choice . so , hmmms . no comment . nothing . =) . let me be .. let me be that foolish one again , the idiot who is starting to believe people again but her , herself , getting fooled out of nothing .

the rest of the pics . hmmms .

lols . that one is tiff arhs . not me. hehes . cos i wana round of to 8 photos mar . so put hers . cos mine no more le . she stil got two more . but no need put lar hors ?! hehes . cos its my blog ! muahahas . kakas . anyway , i think my aiming to 1o de target is really comnig true oh =D . hehes . happy happy . whakakas . =p . * no comments needed . shudup * . =D .

darling gerl ` ilove you . and i really do . can none of ue go MIA pls ? hmmms . how could ue all ? hmmms .

what can i do more , to bring ue back ? back to those memories ? hais . hmmms .

ewww . i gonna talk about todae first and then explain about some pictures above =D . hehes . today was a very fast day oh . hehes . went to school early in the morning nawh , same nors , gotta rush in . thought going to get scolding again but heng teacher not there . hehes . i was wearing the same shoes and taking the same bag as joey lar ! den everybody so surprise . diaos . hahas . first lesson was suppose to be CME nawh , but saw miss.chin . everybody was asking why , den she said that the time table had change ! but none of us know lar . roar . nvm ..... den nothing really happen during eng nawh , same nors , sian sian de . hehes . den CME watch movie . den chinese .. recess , den history . lols . den literature . aiyo . very fast jiu shi le nawh . hmmms . den after sch also dunno go where . cos joey wan me pei them go pp . tiff wan me pei her go tan tock seng . faints . den i go pp with them first and ask tiff come with us den slack here and there . siians lors . also dunno they ask me go for what . den pek chek , so me and tiff go tan tock seng nors . take bus go ehs , den i sleep on tiff shoulder . whakakas . got to walk quite a distance den go see her fren . omg . the leg . lols . broken leg . hahas . omg lar . the fren look like hong kiap nors . hehes . den after that play with the fone and wait for papa come . around 4 jiu go le . tiff go lan shop i think . den i come home nors . yawn . sleep til 8 something like that den wake up call papa . he say what he stil outside . tsk tsk . den around 9.3o i call kfc . hehes . the stupid gerl tell me around 1 hour den wil reach . so i thot around 1o.15 or 1o.3o nors . wa biang . befer 1o jiu reach le nehs . chao fast lors . den the person give me attitude becos he knock on the door den i dunno mar . den i give him back attitude . muahahas . lucky i got $15 with me . den take from papa the box there $2.6o . faints . den i eat first nors . dunno around what time papa den come back . hais . all the way alone arhs . ! i wan go kan fire works also no one pei me . sobx sobx. nvm ~~ den all the way jiu shi zhe yang nors . watch tv . play com . now write blog if not is lie on bed or edit photo arhs ! roar .. so tired ehs , but cannot sleep . tmr also dunno got meet boy and hazel they all mar . tsk tsk . dunno lar . so confuse . hehes . bu guan le .. if tmr never meet them , i wan find people go out le ! whee . hao xiang qu chang ge ehs . muahahas . hmmms . den now i so sian oh . biting the straw of my yakult , watching tv while writing blog . my head wanna drop le . hmmms . so xin ku . after writing blog jiu wan go orh orh le . hehes . den see tmr wat time wake up . whakakas . now boy stil outside ehs . he kana owl , at night come out , morning sleep . * shake head * . hehes . nvm.. let's talk about the pics le . whee =D .

lols . let's talk about the first pic ehs . i was viewing some unknown profiles nahs . hehes . dunno de . den i saw this person's profile . whakakas . went to see and i realise few of her pics looks like that idert lar . omg . hahaas . also bung lai de .. hehes . at first i thot is boy boy oh .. but see see see , den realise is gerl gerl . whakakas . so i took it down and put . see see ! dunch ue realize mar ?! whakakas . whee , den the second pic is mine ! whakakas . since i say new pics coming up mar . den i this few days also no zi lian . hehes . so i just now zilian nors . whakakas . got 4 ehs . but i put up one only .. cos got alot of pics ehs . total other than my pics got 15 . hehes . so bu ke neng put everything up mar . hahas . but i like this picture the most among all nors . hehes . see my panda eyes . sobx . not sleeping well ehs .. hmmms . i gonna have a soar throat also le . bleahs .. cannot hear my keai ke ai voice le . hahas . * puke * . ewww . third picture is her name ehs . den i edit meimei . muahahas . i wonder the hui correct anot lors ! ask judy ask ue write den ue dunno write til what ?! tsk tsk , den the uncle say is like that. so i anythin lors . lols . above the dunno what and below the xin can know is ue can liao . hahas . den i like my tail . whakakas . see the legs like baby devil or just baby de legs hors . small small de . and oh ya [ btw , psss , stop giving comments about my tattoo or whatever shit okays ? i DON'T appreciate it . . , urs also not as nice , im just entertain ue =) ] . yup .. just like that nors . hehes . pain lei . wa biang . cos the needle small small de cos its chinese words . so er xin ~~ ewww . the uncle promise me wan find people teach me do oh . muahahas . =p .. ewww . the forth picture is the sweet dui mar ? hehes . papa buy give me de ehs . so surprise . he stil help me open oh . whakakas . he ask me this type of sweets got eat de mar .. hehes . faints . wan give stil purposely ask . haha . den i mood not good mar . cos he come back so late never tell me , den i face black black de tell him okay lar okay lar . hehes . den he put on my table . muahahas . ewww . so sour nors . inside de flavour got black cherry , apple , lemon , watermelon and blue raspberry .. den is extreme sour de . hehes . i'am suffering ~~ whakakas . but eat le got warmth de feeling oh .. so long papa never buy sweets give me le ! hehehehes =D .. see my fifth pic arhs . my tribal .. lalas . at my pipi there .. hahas . pain also hors ~ bleahs . nvm . wei le my target , i willing to ren ! muahahas . but don see so close like big big arhs ! actually small small de nors . den uncle make it longer and bigger nia . roar roar roar . den i keep ask the uncle wanna ok le mar . hahas . cos cannot tahan . but dunno why the time longer than my back de gerl gerl nehs . hmmms . hao bahs .. now my another target is my hand and my arm le . isit suan arm arhs ? dunno lar . hehes . baobeix joanne say next two weeks or what arhs . but i going to put shading on my tribal first den i think put which one first . hehes . whee .. hao bahs hao bahs . whakakas .

i was playing my com todae when ue called me . the phone was on the table and when my fone ring , i got a fright . not becos of anything , but i haven even see my fone that whose calling . when i held it up and saw it was ur fone number , i was shock . hms . holding onto it thinkin as fast as possible if i should pick up . so i took up the courage and listen . when ue talk , i felt the distance and the strangness between us .. ue asked for their number , i knew she was sleeping so i gave ue the other one . hmmms . when i thot ue was going to put the fone down . ue asked me why i hadn't sleep or something like that . [ in mid of confusion ] . trying to reply in a cold way but i cant . hmmms . ya . and when ue put down .. i feel so relieve =D . thanks for calling to bright some days up =) . hmmmss ..

darling gerl ` sinno me moro . whee .. tiff say i slim down alot ehs =D . so happy . muahahas . i shall continue not eating . bleahs .. continue to drink green tea or milo .. long long one time den drink coke if im greedy for it . lols . hao bahs .. diet time has to continue . whee .. see ya peeps . loves .. [ EVERY PERSON IN MY LIFE IS GOING MIA ! WHEE . I SHALL GO MIA TOO , SHALL I ?! LALAS . UE CANNOT FIND ME ~~ NANINANI PUPU ~~ MUAAHAHAS . ] . =P .

i have no pic , so i put that ! lols . isn't bernard cute ? lols . new pics coming up soon =P .. lalas .

thursday :

yeaps . its todae . faints . woke up at what time i also forget le lors . siao liao . hehes . dunno 12 something or 1 something ehs .. ehs , yaya . its 12 something . hmms . i was suppose to wake up at 1o to order my mac breakfast ! arhgs ! but i slept back . hahas . clap hands for me .. =D . i woke up in a very dots mood . faints .. blur blur de .. was sitting in front of my com playnig O2jam . =p .. hahas . den baobeix joanne suddenly call me [ pss , i paused . i saw a big spider in my house currently now at 1.2o am . omg damn god ] . farker .. oh ya , den baobeix call me ask me pei her go penisular oh . hmms . so since i have 80 with me .. i said okays ~~ i was bored okays ?! . but when she called me she was already out of her house ! and i haven even bathe ! so she took a taxi here and i bathe .. hahas . she lost her way around my block . bleahs .. by the time she reach i already wanna make up le . =D . den she came in sit in my room sms and listen to her mp3 .. hehes . i in papa room do make up .. finish le jiu go le . baobeix shy shy .. keep walk behind me and diam diam . whakakas . den we talk about loads of things oh . about the cassilyn arhs ? dunno lar . forget her name ehs . den alot nors . =p . i wanna change name le ! damn god . sun bian change face . wa liews ~~ she tell me alot things in queenstown de ehs . omg . ! ABOUT ME ! damn shit .. nvm .. i not guilty can le =p .. den we jiu take taxi go ehs ! i kana her posb back seh ! taxi also i pay ! roar . hahas . den we go see see . den actually she do only de . but i backside itchy ehs . hahas . den jiu bluff the uncle i got 3o nia . muahahas . den i put one tribal oh . pain seh ! freak ! hahas . den uncle teng me the most le ! I KNOW I KNOW ! cos i put ur name is free de =D . if not is 2o bucks =p . den after that i jiu come out den saw 3 malays . ewww .. dey smile at me !! EWWW . den i rmb of the SKL ciggs !! puking . hees . den wait for baobeix . haven 5 mins she jiu come out le . hahas . she put baby devil at her leg there . ewww . so ke ai de . quite nice ehs . dunno why but i like . ! faints . she say the uncle so kns , while watchin the tv den do . hahas . den after that we jiu take mrt go bugis . hahas . ewww . got one UNCLE smile at me . lao beibei . hahas . gerger huishan teach de . lols . so er xin lar . kaox . next time i wun listen to boy le lar . say what wear short den jeans ku zi with any shirt , bright and obvious make up . nb ~ not malay jiu shi uncle . damn .. den me and baobeix go mickey mouse shopping . hahas . i bought a pair of shoes and one bag . lols . den ask papa come give me 5o again . cos really no money le . den we go take neos oh . hehes . i like it ! i look so retard in the last pic ! eeee . so er xin ~~ . HAHAS . den lent baobeix 1o bucks . whakakas . we jiu go mam mam . den baobeix mam mam finish le go buy ice cream . ewww . the last time we eat de wasabi ice cream . ewww . * puke * .. next time i know how to torture people le =) . muahahas . den i jiu go walk walk again . bleahs . go wallet shop den see one pouch . so nice eehs . i like the words written on it . later i write it below arhs . ! =D .. den baobeix got probation , cos come out from girls home arhs . so naughty . so must go home le . hmms . den i meet xueyi go kbox sing song . hehes . so we two take mrt ehs . take same de =) . muahahas . eww . walk with xueyi so stress . in front enuf big liao stil so tall . ahahas . shhhh .. ewww . todae my kaikai not working . only that alan . not alan peh hors . ahahas . den two drink vodka . bleahs . pure de .. eeee . so er xin . like drinking Qoo .. ahahas . ue know what drink mar ? the ke ai ke ai de nehs . hahas . den sing sing sing . den xueyi keep asking me about me and ue . hmms . ask if we come kbox wil happy mar ? wil like me and her now so sians mar . haas . alot . hmmms . den after around 9.15 we go le . we go mam mam .. =D . i eat chicken rice ehs . she eat laksa . so er xin lar . the chicken rice so much . bleahs . 4 dollars nehs . hehes . cannot tahan oh . muahahas . den xueyi now go her fren house . papa jiu fetch me home nors . hehes . [ touch up touch up , damn . i wil scare the hell of myself if i ever go bugis again . first i saw qirui , and then precious and her fren , and then roselyn . and joey ! omg . ] hahas . well well , nvm . =D . qirui make baobeix so faints . hahas . baobeix keep telling me qirui very shuai shuai oh . faints . roselyn cut hair . eww . short hair . im like talking to a diff person =D . nvm . all memories =) .

ewww . forget to call syl todae . hahas . also never reply joey . faints lar . hehes . monday maybe baobeix joanne waiting for me outside sch oh . =D . we go shopping for her stead and her de aniiversary present oh . might me going town arhs ! see ue peeps there okays ?! hehes . sat maybe meeting hazel , boy and thomas arhs . go shopping also . hehes . bought for boy one shirt ehs . sat go take =D . nice nice args !! but its expensive okays ! damn . boy , ue should be honoured and proud hors . i never buy for myself i buy for ue . ewww . hahas . wonder can ue wear mar . faints . hahas . sunday going out with yong jie ehs . forget cal him again . i gonna get scolding le . sobx sobx .. always get scoldiing by him de . tsk tsk . keep suaning me . ewww . sunday going down tampiness bahs . =D . our memories place . ahahas . so ke ai . so long never go out with him le . sure very noisy de . tsk tsk . stil rmb we go all the way to changi den wen coming back home , nearly got some probs in bus with one malay . ewww . so er xin . hahas . den i kiap my hand on the chair . so funny , hahas . tues maybe going KB find boy again . ewww . wed maybe finding miss.lorna .. wanna call her again . muahahas . im so book ~~ i wonder what wil happen tmr ehs .. it wil be bored arhs ! hmms . see bahs . got detention .. hahas . im running away ~~ tmr sure get scolding de nors . i never go dye hair . hehes . i need plasters ! im in need of plasters ! hahas . i gonna force and remind joey times to bring her plasters for me le . hehes . owe her fren 1o oh . faints . owe xueyi 3 sticks of ciggs . tsk tsk . regret passing the ciggs to hazel . hahas . cCOS I NEVER MEET HER ! ewww .. nvm nvm . whakakas . i wanna save money le . so i can shop more ! whee . see ue people okays ?! i miss ya ..

i realise its the fact our friendship probs and everything has affected me so much =) . when joanne told me that her friends knew about our probs too , i was wondering why . maybe we was once too close =) . that made every girls admire our friendship so much .. hmmms . maybe like what ue say . time wil heal everything slowly .. i now agree what people always say " time , always the best healer of every broken heart =) * . well , i wil stil miss you like i always too , i hope ue are too =D . hmmms . well , its the fact that ur name is written somewhere =) . i wun regret . i promise uncle =D . i promise myself too =p .. bleahs .. nice name . it hurts ue know ue chocolate ! =p . nothing had pierce onto my body hurts so much only ur name okays !! be proud =D .. hahas .. well , take care . don stress urself up too much .. bless ue =D . whee . . . . . .

darling gerl ` rmb the pouch the words de ? hehes . writing writing . hehes . " A girl is like a tea bag , you can't see how strong she is until you see her in hot water . i don't suffer from insanity , but i enjoy every minute of it =D . today has been a total waste of make up , some women get excited about nothing and then marry him for unvalid reasons =D " ewww . cute isn't it ? i know ue don understand . muahahas . i understand can le . lalalas .. * blink * byebye .. miss ya peeps . =D .. hehes .. im going to messsage boy and then sleep le . alalas . i have sch tmr !! im a guai kia !! sure i am !! =D ..[ eww . my tribal hurt , i cant bent .. i feel like i've been tore apart . lols . kuazhang ehs ? [ pain lar . really pain . stupid baobeix joanne . she also have den bluff me not pain . tsk tsk . bei pian le !! bleahs ] . =D .

sylvester lo jiao jiao is such a farker . nbcb ~ .

tuesday :

whee , half day seh .. whakakas . cos national day mar , lols . if everyday or every week like that jiu shuang liao . hahas . we so ke ai , actually i and joey already wil late le but STIL slowly . hahas . den half way shao lun call me say they pon . ask me and joey wait for them outside the shop there . lols . they running out from sch ehs [ judy , xueyi , weisheng , shaolun ] . hahas . den i and joey in papa car lei . wa biang . den i kay kiang talk loud loud . lols . den cos late le mar , so papa fetch all the way in to sch . hmmms . stupid leanord chong or dunno how to spell lar . stand down there with few outram dogs . farkers man .. ~~ lols .. den must kay siao very gan chiong . hahas .. freaking shit . that day i never put plaster nors . leg and hand also never put . den must pull socks high high .. whee . chao guai kia =D . bleahs .. den never get scolding lei . hees . miracle .. .. .. den aask us quickly go up hall . heng ehs . we run go canteen toilet . whee , becos we at there meet them mar . whakaas . den we saw jasmine .. she also late den don wan alone go up hall so also go canteen . lols . becos that joey bought alot of tibits ! den we at there eat . hahas . sweet , chocolate .. whee .. kana at there picnic .. tsk tsk . den awhile later saw benedict and two outram dogs come . cbk . go tell teacher .. farker . ask benedict diam diam he say cannot , what rule what rule .. two brother the same . farker lai de . damn .. den that ngng come .. kbkb .. den go the theatre there sit . den saw miss chan , whee . we are dead . hahas . den she write all of our name on one paper ehs . den say what we can go after sure we all there . faints . when we wan walk back to hall ehs , saw mr sim . ccb . si bei suey .. hahas . den he shout at us go back there .. den say what late stand one side , other thing stand another side .. tsk tsk . den i and joey plan hao le mar , so we stand at the late side . muahahas . say i stomach pain go toilet , den joey pei me . =D . tsk . den i tio scolding . say what must dye hair back black . my hair de colour ownself drop de nors . dye back going to be black black again . sobx sobx . i don think i wil be putting it black lar . siao siao .. whakakas . den he say we can go le . whee . den weisheng they all is another side de mar , so they say what weisheng lost wallet . lols . so they finding .. hahas . mr sim si bei stupid nors . stil believe . hehes . den call weisheng father say what weisheng lost wallet .. faints .. hahas .. but in the end they also can come back . bleahs . den we cannot find our class ehs , so we sit behind . whee . all eat sweet get caught i never ~ muahahas . den that miss siew is xueyi , joey , me , judy and shao lun de bodyguard . den weisheng must shiok de . lols . that kumar is his bodyguard seh . lols . den after the prize giving we all sit together . lols . guess sit where ?! sit behind cum beside them . diiaos . what a NICE PLACE ~~ they choose . after that we play play play , dunno what song we all stand up . lols . den jump jump jump . tsk tsk . they say i short , jump le also no use . sobx sobx . i wan grow taller !! roar .. hahas . later boy sure jealous de .. shhh .. den dunno how things end up , hais . bla bla bla lar . dun wanna write it down .. dunno what the farking shit i doing also . if things get backs to normal , i feel so farking uncomfortable ~~ hmmms . hais . dunno lar . i dunno dunno . don wanna know . =) . den after that jiu go take from leong ping my ciggs . cos just now thot teachers wil check my bag so i ask her keep first becos i saw her only . faints . den went to lan and alot nawh . abit sian sian ehs .. hehes . joey keep buyying the shark fin soup . so er xin lar . i don wan vinegar den she keep ask the uncle put alot . hahas . den my stomach pain again . sobx sobx . this few days not feeling well ehs . bu guan lar . hmmms . den the next day holiday mar . hehes . so like that nors . =p .

wednesday , today :

ewww . i was suppose to meet boy at 3 something at kallang mrt de . tsk tsk . den one something i wake up le he never wake up . wa liews ~~ i knew he was going to be late . so i slowly . hehes . but stil got bathe first nawh .. cos scared after he call den i must rush and then very long . hahas . den put my face de toner and everything .. just wear one shirt sit in front on com play . lols . call him , message him also bo reply . tsk tsk . so long lors . den wait til 5 something den he wake up . den i go prepare , change . faints . suppose to meet at the same place also de . but my damn father of mine say wanna come fetch me , so i told him den he say why not go his house there meet him . i kana his maid lar . wa biang . then tell papa i going his house meet him nors . den same lar , got to wait for him again . nb ~~ hees . den becos i todae wear the cute cute jap jap de whole suit mar . den wear the white colour de so call shoe that one . so very gao wei , cos i got do my hair den the wind blow blow blow . tsk tsk . den after he come down le we go KB , go the hawker there eat . hmms . pi gu itchy . both of us wanna smoke inside but i play safe don smoke inside den he smoke . hahas . later his fren come also smoking den give the sell chicken de uncle warn say $2oo .. lols . 3 all quickly run out seh . total $4oo lei . whee . . . den the fren go press money . hehes . den we go the place we always go ~~ they play pool and billard there . tsk tsk . hazel and thomas reach le . whee . den same lar . me and hazel sit one side . the two guys play billard . see them play also wil vomit blood ehs . hees . hazel help thomas draw eyeliner and kiap kiap .. see his eyes also cannot tahan , laugh til like shit . hehes . den they play one round only jiu stop le .. den me and hazel stil gong gong sit there . lols . den they dunno go where nawh .. den we cannot stand le so we go play photo hunt . so er xin nors . we play the BABES de . cos hazel say HUNKS de is really er xin til like shit . hehes . den we two kana toot toot like that sit there play . whee . so fun . play til we siao oh .. we keep wan to da puo ji lu . den cannot . hahas . den thomas with dunno who play billard again . sian nors . whakakas . den after that suddenly say want to go le , freaking idiots . we play til half nehs . den give people play . hehes . den after that we take taxi til half the fire works start le . keep start awhile den stop . den we walk from kallang river all the way to esplanade . si bei far nors . den while walking , we keep play . hahas . so kawaii nehs . smuackies them . hehes . stupid ang kong siao , purposely take out shirt walk . lols . den play til so ke ai nawh .. hahas . also dunno why we walk to esplanade for what .. den take bus go down bugis . nearly quarrel with the uncle seh .. whaakakas . den in the end lucky nothing happen . hmms . so squeezy ehs . tootpid , reach bugis le say wan go serangoon . den tio scold by ah pa lar . nb ~~ den go down mam mam . eat abbit nia . already few weeks le , no appetite . hmms . zu ding must on diet . lols . den papa come le , so fetch hazel go home nors . ewww , hazel stay wen there . lols . den after hazel go . that kbkb father of mine jiu si bei noisy liao . at there niam niam niam den i listen songs . hahas . aiya .. just like that lors . den come back home til now never talk with him . hmmms . so pek chek . arhgs ! that's for todae lar =D . bleahs .

farker , that farker so chee bye . sylvester lo jiao jiao ! chao noisy nors . now talking with him on fone , keep fan me . tsk tsk . so pek chek .. roar .. i wan go order mac le . whakakas .. =D ..

darling gerl ` im tired . nights .

i'am getting sick , sobx . aren't feeling well .....

saturday :
hmmms . a very very happy day indeed =) .. woke up at ten arhs ... nope . is kel call me wake up de . hehes . but i sleep back . shhh . hehes .. ask him go bring bian bian like go bring what like that .. tsk tsk . so long .. tell me 1o like that wil reach den 1o.15 .. ke xin call me so fierce de say why kel haven reach . wa biang . sobx . sobx . den i call kel .. hehes .. den he say going le . tsk .. den around 1o.3o den reach i think . but i wake up le . hehes . give her fierce voice frighten me up .. lalas . den go prepare and call juniie oh . kaaos oh . she never ans . total we all dunno call 23 or 33 times arhs . den i cal the last time she ans .. hahas . she say she just wake up . wa liews .. den say habour front very close her house . wil very fast reach de . hehes . stil don believe her , so i ownself slowly den when wanna go le , call her tell her say i take taxi go pick her . tsk tsk .. den reach le we jiu find them nors ,. hehes . heard bian bian barking jiu know where they are le . =) . whee .. then go hawker centre there find them . hehes . i go bian bian jiu diam diam le oh . whakakas . I'AM STIL THE BEST . ! lalas ... finally can go le oh . cos they eat finish le . we go up the bus den bian bian jiu bark cos kan dao hei ren . nb ~~~ hahas .. den give the bus driver gan xia qu .. say no pets allow . last time bring bian bian can , now cannot .. wa liew .. so pek chek . the end we take taxi go in .. hahas . all the way to the beach oh . den walk a distance .. so xin ku .. sobx sobx .. bian bian heavier abit le .. so carry til very xin ku .. arhgs !! den we go buy things .. go buy ehs ... rain coat .. cut into two .. whakakas . den put on the sand . we very clever hors ? muahahas . cannot copyright idea hors . if not i kill ue i tell ue .. whakakas .. den we xai tai yang .. whee . now i sunburn . pain pain .. whakakas .. cannot put bian bian out oh .. cos the OWNER never give the leach .. sobx .. the OWNER also change the food nors . kaos . bu guan ta le . guan wo de bian bian . hehes . the mao mao so long . so pek chek .. haas .. cannot bath him also. sobx .. he never bite me ehs . =D . whee . den got one ang moh so take care of him oh .. hehes .. nvm nvm .. den i at night got thing so must early go back ehs .. sobx . juniie also . den we 6 something jiu go back le . they go back den i wait for papa nors . kaos .. got to say good bye to bian bian le . but next time wil bring him out de =D .. hehes . bring him go san bu . whakakas . so ke ai nawh .. den at night go papa that what national day dinner . ewww . only me and papa going . tsk tsk .. den papa say got 5 tix , when he give me see , got 1o lors . wa biang .. ONE WHOLE TABLE LEI ! den we so ke lian lar .. two pathetic us. hahas . den gang hao my patrick brother jiu call me le . hehse . den heng oh . i ask them come they say okays .. hehes . den patrick , shaolun , meverick come ehs .. all three wear the same de cos after work mar . hehes . finally saw how they wear le .. so dots nors . whahahas . den we eat and play .. den later i and patrick go out talk awhile for somethings ehs .. den hmmm .. realise quite alot of things nawh .. =( .. den papa call us back ... tsk tsk .. den after that jiu eat ... around 1o something the whole thing jiu finish le . wa biang . that day actually got meet ahboy go esplanade with KB there de people . but the end papa say cannot . pek chek .. den patrick they all say wanna together ton de . but papa also don let . everythin also don let . i die hao le .. hmmms . den papa ask where they wanna go .. they say downstairs my house but dunno why papa suddenly so good let me stay til befer 12 ehs .. den we befer 12 go back . they come my house ... hehes .. den i very tired mar . so reach home they play my com i jiu lie on bed le .. that day got alot of ghost show oh . watch til sian sian . hmmms . den papa ask them know how to fix the router that thingi mar . den patrick know . den he fix . hehes . so long oh . den around 2 something dey ask my papa if can order mac .. den papa say okays .. hehes .. den i never order lar . this few days no appetite .. can whole day don eat .. hmms . i wan go pou ji lu everyday don eat le . hehes . whee .. den they eat i jiu doze off le .. sobx sobx .. den dunno what time they go home ehs .. hehes . the put me on a nice position and return me my pillow .. hahas . wonder how they carry me . diaos .. (">_<") .. den after that next morning wake up jiu shi sunday le .. see what sunday happen ... whee ..

sunday :
actually tell boy say i 11 something wil find him de . tsk tsk . slept til 1 something den prepare den go find him . hmmms . all the way to toa payoh there lei . wa biang . take taxi go .. hehes . heng less than 1o .. whakakas . den go his house oh . so kong bu .. a house of lians and bengs .. cb ~~ hahas .. so sians ehs . he whole day play game i whole day entertain his brother .. tsk tsk .. his ke ai de brother .. this year 5 nia . whakakas . den we take photo .. hahas .. so let him be nors .. den that boy play game play til forget me . roar .. make me whole day so sians . but we got go down buy fruits nawh .. hehes .. den boy de goldhair wanna dye black hair . tsk . i help him dye lei . now my finger nails black black de . so ewww .. boy laugh laugh laugh . kaox . now his hair like my colour oh . hehes . nice nice .. later alot people gonna say nonsense again . faints . * drop down * .. hahas .. den his ah ma and cousin come le .. dots . so fierce de . but treat me very good ehs . whee .. =D .. damn .. his father and father fren win horse race win 1o over thousand ehs . wa kaos .. den i so pek chek .. early know i also play . hahas .. den bring us go eat . tsk . i actually don wan go de nehs .. so pai seh nors . hahas .. den we go eat clay pot rice at geylang .. faints .. nice nice oh .. den the ah ma keep ask me eat . faints .. whole family all smoking de ehs .. hahas . that day i no cigg le . so xin ku . cannot smoke . don wanna smoke boy de red de .. ewww .. ask him don smoke so much he stil smoke so much . finally go home le .. den he fetch me home .. hehes . take taxi lei . hahas . like that nors .. that was sunday nawh .. nothing much arhs . but i know i keep laughin jiu shi le .. dunno why . hahas ..

monday :
ewww . monday nothing nawh . just same nors . go sch and everything . but eng two periods i not in class . hehes . run classs .. alalas . i go toilet with xueyi chou yan .., whheee .. den after sch they play play play .. dunno play what water lar . den what judy pour til joey ... den joey whole body wet .. den they in class fight .. nb ~~ tear shirt la .. pull hair .. like shit .. alot nors .. den weisheng hold joey den i push judy away . kaos . so pek chek .. make til me abit . roar .. den i ask them go out left we three sstay in class . den they change . joey cry ehs ... den judy come an wei joey .. den they two quarrel .. den i say i leave them in class talk . if they dare fight or quarrel again each one slap . wheee .. den i go out ehs .. hmms . later from outside heard them quarrel .. alot of bad words . tsk ... den i at outside get scolding .. wa liew .. den go see what happen .. yuan lai is they pian me go in de lors . they neevr quarrel . den use water pour me . sobx sobx . become i wet .. den all come in com me .. sobx .. shout for xiaoping ask for help also no one come in .. bleahs .. all bully me .. ewww .. den after everything we go back .. hees . den all wet wet de . tsk . den me and judy go wash hair in toilet .. hahas . cos they also got play green tea and pink dolphin . wa biang .. hahas .. den we come lan shop . play til i sleep . hehes . den joey and weisheng ps me go home . left me and shao lun .. hahas .. den after that shao lun pei me .. ewww .. den wait for papa den he come .. once i reach home around 7 or 6 something i jiu sleep le . sleep all the way til this morning oh . so shuang ehs . hehes .. so long never like that le .. whee . kaes nawh .. what happen todae wil write next time kaes . cos wann go le .. bye arhs .. whee . =D ..

i'am aren't happy like what ue see now . it isn't me . im worst than the previous time but ue think i am better .. i betrayed my pride and myself talking to her already .. i wonder why .. just becos we played ytd ? i cant stop myself from not playin with ue todae .. any of ue .. i just played like hell . when i sat behind ue , i saw ue smiling and laughin .. i was wondering why ue could ? ='( .. my tears nearly rolled down no matter how much we were playing .. when i betrayed my pride playing with ue and ue .. i asked myself , what happen ? i dunch know what's happening to this whole thing .. doing things i thot i wun . and somethings i thot i wil but i didn't .. it isn't me at all .. ue wrote in ur blog sayin that ue thot leaving me alone that time was the best decision ue did . i read it ytd and i cried .. tears flowed .. i wonder why .. it isn't the best decision for me , its the worst .. and a very cruel one .. ue made me hurt myself .. ue made me do things i wun even thought i would do . whhy can ue ? what made me like this ? i miss you . people say that we would be once back again , but i don think we will , not as close.. it seems like hell but do ue even know ? we have differrent lives and i miss those times when ue use to tell me everything ue feel . i miss those times we use to go out together like crazy bitches around the streets . wil this ever happen again ? im not ue .. i cant think what ue think .. but can i not cry again ? i don wan myself running into the toilet again cryin when no body knows .. i don wan to see ue laugh and im crying .. cos i don wanna miss the past .. wil ue be back ? im not like the previous me anymore , everyting's destroyed . can ue talk to me ? can ue once call me again ? can i receive ur call again ? can i know ur every feelings and xiiin shi again ? it seems like everything is over .. .. .. .. .. ru guo shi qing neng cong lai , nar yi tian ni wen wo de dong xi , wo hui yong bu tong de xin qing hui da ni .. rmb the day ue asked me if one day we goona be together , how things were gonna be like ? and i said " stop being so er xin and think about this things lar , its impossible " .. but how i wish i was saying that day .. , " i once thought of it . do u think it would happen ? " .. everyone's leaving me and im actually betrayin myself ~ .this is what hurts me the most ..

darling gerl ` i cant bring myself from not doing things i don want anymore .. why is eeverthing turning like that ? it looks like hell .. and i cant make it perfect .. iloveyou ; i miss you and i really do .