im not da one .

not da one`ue use tu noe .
she's gone since da dae she's hurt .
what hurt her da most was him sayin tu leave him alone .
what hurts her da most was their pictures flowin .
those memories use tu be nice n sweet .
yet it turns into a nightmare now .
she's lost in da woods without anyone .
she's lost in her dreams ; her horror .
no one was there when she needed someone .
everyone thinks they were there wen she needed someone .
but all of`dem were totally wrong .
she needs someone fer dinner n everyone wasn't free .
she needs someone tu talk tu her on fone yet her fone wasn't ringin .
she needs someone huggin her yet she gets it from no one .
she wanted tu cry herself out yet everyone ran away .
she needs someone tu drink with her yet everyone dosen't wants .
she needs someone tu be with her everi second yet she sees no one .
she realizes she has been lonely all this while .
while her friends thinks they were by her side .
she realizes nothing were meant fer her .
she gobbles those panadols in front of her .
and people thinks she was getting attention wen she was not .
she just wanted tu end her life .
she slashes her hand ; get stiches yet people thinks its nothin .
she's finally sick of life , sick of those around her .
she dosen't give a damn tu anything now . she swears she not da one .
a dark secret she keeps where no one noes .
she dosen't wants anybody to care .
cos when she needs it . no one was there .
what hurt her da most was him . her . them .
a fake smile n laughter she bbrings everywhere . no one noes whats real .
she's sick so sick yet no one cares . no one bother tu ask .
not a single soul realises she was so sick n treated her as a pile of shit .
she gives up her life now , not noeing anithing .
everyone's fake , no ones real . they think they understand .
but what they noe was only she's hurt .
she don give a damn anymore , she's weak n her tears are all dried up by her pityful blood .


boyy , ue made her give up . ue made her miserable .
what she's left with is only her room , her dog .
what she cares about now is onli a dog .
she dosen't even cares fer herself anymore .
yet she told herself , if one dae , ue are left with no one .
she would be da one alwaes with ue .
cos she misses her memories with ue n those times when ue use to love her .
no one believe she's not da one anymore . so what's more could she do ? .
boyy . ue told her tu leave ue alone . tat was da worst thing she ever receive .
unable tu accept da reality , nothing more she could do .
all she could was tu swollow da panadols the doctor gave n what she bought .
penknifes are nothing tu me anymore . they are jus a toy tat could kill .
she's not getting attention fer everything she does .
she just wants someone tu be by her side huggin her especially ue .
how much she hope tat she would see ue on streets n then ue huggin her .
it may not be ue , anyone ..
she just wants someone tu hugged n someone tu understand .
its becos of ue my dear boy .
its all becos of ue her life is shattered .


she's cryin . n cryin . although she noes her tears aren't worth but she dosen't mind . no ones with her . she all alone now . she don cares about relationships now only hopin that he would be by her side tu bright up her days once again . how much she wished she could wish herself away . how much she wish someone would tell him she needed him by side . how much she wish someone would be there like she alwaes be there when someone needed her . she wished n wish , but what she get in the end was all a lie . she just wants him , her n them .. alwaes . it hurts so much so much .


darling gerl ` he told her tu stop all her nonsense . nonsense was a word she loaths . he told her tu stop everthing . she hurts . she don wanna care anymore . it reali hurts alot yet people thinks its nothin but a lie . i don wanna attention . dun wana those tears anymore . im not strong anymore . no im not .. loves ~ .