from todae , ue would be the one i onli love . no more others . its onli ue ....

she's down . she's nothing tu anione animore .
she pins her hope on two guys during a period of time .
its not becos she's playin two hearts .
she just wana try it out .
she realizes one was no more . no chances .
another was thinkin about another thing .
he dosen't even wants tu give them a chance .
she gives up in everithing . everithing .
she has hopeless goals n reali duno what tu do or where tu go .
she's startin tu hate those people around her .
no matter who they are [ accept fer xin . ]
she dosent even noes what's she doing .
she dosen't wanna care anymore .
it hurts her seeing her two boys leavin her .
it hurts her seeing herself change into someone she don even noes .
sometimes she wonder , what would people life be without her ?
wil they be happier ?
todae , she asked him online sayin " when ur exams finish " ?
he replied sayin sori fer da late reply n said * she ferget when * .
she said ok n wanted tu leave the conversation .
yet he says something which stop her from leavin .
she thinks he wanted tu said somethin .
but in the end . he said nothing but sori n left .
she's hurt . so hurt . when she's just waitin fer him tu sae somethin she wanted .
how long have they not met .
they use tu see each other outside sch nearli everidae after sch .
she can feel he's tryin tu avoid her .
she noes their impossible .
what she needs most now is him ,. by her side .
sometimes how much she hope tat a kind soul would jus tel him .
sometimes she jus hope he would jus give a hug . a long hug .
til now , she stil dosen't understands why .
why is she suffering fer him ? her friends thinks its foolish but she stil thinks she don mind .
she jus wants him tu noe n care fer her da right wae she wants .
she noes all her friends are cowards who dosen't dare tu talk tu him .
no one would ever tel him how she suffered
how much she wanted he's heart n hugs .
she miss those kisses he use tu give her as a sister n bro relationship .
sometimes , she wishes time could turn back , n she would not tell him about anything .


she loathes those guys who have stead le stil add char bo de . kaos . she don mind gerls addin guys but she don understand why guys add gerls n chat when they have stead . dun understand seh . hate them sia .


school ?
what's sch ?
its nothing tu her anymore .
she dosen't wants tu care about sch anymore .
cos its not her interest .
she's sick of exams . test . whatever .
whatever things concerns books in sch makes her puke .


friends ?
onli wen they need ur help den ue wil see them flyin around ?
haas . funni . hate those idiots who wanna eee .
nothing . dun wanna make myye blog dirty .
she hates those mouth big de seh . everytime paoto things .
go eat potato nawh . next time help those idiots buy .
lols . i dunno what is what le . all i noe is ..
im holdin something called hatred bah .
anthing ,. i dun care .


darling gerl ` she misses him like hell yet he continues with his life . she just wants him tu noe . hope her frens would be able tu tell him how much i wanted his hugs n kisses . i miss those daes when he use tu not noe a single thing .. loves ~