sorries are so useless after what ue did to me .. a misunderstood ma ? i dunno . onli ue do .. i reali cant see wad kind of personality eu have .. what's ur true character til now .. but as i n0e ? i heard ? ue cant be trust .. ue aren't someone i can be close with .. i reali have nothin to sae wen ue called mi todae .. sayin sorrie .. saein its a misunderstandin .. i dunno .. i jus dun wanna repeat da same thing which once happen to me . i dun wanna repeat history .. moi memories .. u n him .. n them .. r so outta of moi list of life .. cos i reali cant take those probs animore . he time ue ma ? it isn't surprisin at all . reali . he's rumours i listen til sian le .. everithin also listen sian le . whether he reali time ue or wad.. i duuno .. now even if ue tok bad about mi in front of him .. his frens .. i also dun care le .. it dosen't seems anithink .. anim0re .. ;
boii . whether isit becos of helpin me .. takin revenge .. or maybe its reali ur own attitude n character .. still .. ue're not moi animore .. i dunch care animore .. even with loads of chances .. if once again i see ue .. i would jus walk awae .. n take it i have never known ue .. ying wei .. wei le ni .. wo zhuo le tai duo shang hai wo zhi ji de shi . ge zhi ji ye ge dao mei de ge . ku ye ku dao mei yan lei le .. so wad's more can i do .. from now onwards .. i swear in moi blog .. no matter i cant ferget which ever of moi ex .. of cryin becos of anithink .. the tears or anithink wun be down or wun be becos of ue . . ue made mi do this decision .. eu made mi do it .. there wil be no more of mi n ue de memories hangin around .. no more ue love me .. no more of ur rumours .. no more news of ue from anione to mi animore .. no more talkin about ue .. no more sayin i miish ue .. ;
i feel more likee a sick person than ani normal soul on da streets .. eatin medicine everi now n then .. everi mornin til night .. goin to da doctor three daes a time .. havin cousellin everi once a week .. sometimes .. two - three times a week .. i feel weaker from everi dream i woke up from .. i dun feel like wakin up animore .. it feels like a nightmare of a lifetime .. im so weak than anione think .. never think im strong .. never think im alwaes the happi gerl tat ue use to see .. everi memory has its disadvantage n advantage .. but i jus cant think the right way . hmms . since everithin ish so lost now . n moi soul is followin its way .. i shall be the wae i am .. ue can slap mi to ask mi wake the hell out of moiself .. ue can scold mi til ue aren't be able to scold animore .. but im jus so deaf .. so deaf .. i wun be able to here wad ue sae .. n im jus so numb so numb .. wun be able to actualli feel the pain how ue slapped mi .. there's no more use .. eu may sae im such a fool .. n i wil acept wad ue sae as i reali am .. i cant let go of the things i must .. but i wil alwaes let go of the things i must n0rt .. i agrree i dun noe how to treasure things .. but im so sorri .. its reali moi character . personality .. n attitude . ;
PETER NG . !! tell mi wad ue said weren't true .. tell me wad ue ask me was also not true becos ue were so drunk .. quick .. ue wanna mi die of heart attack or wad .. or ue wanna mi kill moiself or hang moiself .. ue so kong bu lorr .. darlink .. eu were also once moi .. but tat was so long ago .. the rumours i heard about ue also too much le .. yes .. i hate rumours to the core .. i aren't suppose to believe .. but im so afraid of ue .. afraid of another game called love . dong ma .. tats why i dun wish to give ue the ans of ani questions ue ask mi .. tats why i keep sayin dunno . give me time .. let me think .. cos im a gerl who easili unable to ferget moi memories .. although im short term .. but jiu shi wang bu liao na sie hui yi .. hmms .. im so soorii .. but if ue are reali true .. ur feelings are real fer me .. im sure ue would wait .. im sure ue would wait n wait .. no matter how long .. i wil see .. i will .. i dunch wanna another short relationship .. short love story of my life .. ;
i wanna be happi .. jus happi .. so bored this few daes .. no one's here to pei me .. no one . but people .. im tellin ue .. this year moi chalet wil be 4 daes 3 nights .. 11th may to 14th may . thursdae . fridae . saturdae . sundae . cos fridae holidae .. hmms . tats why so long . n this year the b'dae party .. i welcome everi single soul in moi life .. ue are allow to bring ur frens .. but fer heaven sake .. no dai ji's with those people in moi chalet .. no diaoin .. no not happi here n there .. ue all not happi with outside de people den we together go see .. but not we moi own friends h0rr .. hehes . !! wheee .. todae nvr go sch .. tmr also never go sch . fridae cross country or dunno wad shit .. no need studi . hahaahahas . shuang sia . hehes . . im so happi with this week . hahas . ;
DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ im alrite my friends .. jus dun leave mi alone wil do . hmms . hehes . _
Thursday, February 16, 2006
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