down .. down .. ii needa s0meone now .. who can jus accompany me .. let me lie on his/her shoulders .. huggin him/her everii miin - 19o2o6 ;

why am i alwaes feelin down ; why am i alwaes clingin onto memoriies ; why am i alwaes being so outta of mood .. haaiish .. let's tok bout ytd .. i ermhx . went to sentosa . met ling na first .. den took a taxi to sentosa . tootpid weirong they all so long den c0me .. den we was like abit no mood liao .. cos wait too long n it was like so bored .. hmmms .. actualli did not decide to tann .. but in the end .. walk here walk there also become tann dao liao .. siians . also good la .. hahas . let ppl noe how sunshine i am .. hahas . dots rite .. hmms . den after weirong they all come .. we also never reali do anithink much .. cos they eventualli started their soccer .. so bu ke neng mi n ling na together plae rite ? hehes . but luckii jacky never plae .. den we pull him go plae da chair lift .. high high worrs . whakakas . den its like .. quite scarii . i was like so afraid the thing would suddenli drop or i would suddenli slip n drop off the fuckiin chairr .. diaoos .. den wen we reached up there .. it started to rain lorr . so i n ling na n jacky was like so cold so cold . liike in da ssnow without ani proper clothes on like tat .. somemore we got no money .. cannot sit down n drink .. btw we were not wearin shoes too lorr !! so ue think .. do we look stupid . ? so i was like so tired liao . den feel like sleepin .. so we was stuck there about nearli 2 hours ? n no one tried to save us .. we actuaali bought the ticket to go down de .. da chair lift ticket also .. den cannot .. cos rainin n eh .. got thunder .. so we sit down there like beggers .. diaos .. somemore tat tootpid weirong n qi wen dey all never listen fone lei .. more style lorr .. diaos .. after tat .. finalli .. the rain stopped abit .. not abit .. is stop .. den the tootpid chair lift spoil!!! n we cannot go down . fuck man .. must take da ride .. which is so stupid .. ue gotta wear a helmet n take a small car like tat .. tiny one .. a person at a time . n u have to gonna control it urself .. so i was like .. dots .. i look stupid n retarded .. den we pass the test n we gonna go down .. its like a slope n ue or me rollin down .. wasn't able to control easili to this type of things .. den i was like shoutin all da wae down .. hope the thing would not tumble n i roll down or i would not knock onto anithink beside n ue noe .. drop off the hill .. arhs !!! .. so ke lian .. i finalli reached below .. n wheee .. nearli out of breathe. .. hahas . ling na keep knockin onto me .. moi poor backside .. maybe is cos i suddenli stop ? hahas .. dunno na .. poor us jiu shi liao .. poor jacky too lor . being force by us go .. den this type of lan jiao thing happen .. hahas . den we quickli walked back .. oh ya .. jacky piggy back me .. den i was like so heavy .. hahas .. eh .. piggy back n run ok .. hahas .. den stop .. den ling na piggy back jacky n run .. dots rite . run run run .. hahas .. dots .. oh ya .. i saw a peacock with nearli no more nice nice de feathers n saw a humji komodo dragon .. hahas .. guesss wad the komodo dragon did ? it was like gonna cross to the other side .. n den we came .. n it got a shock .. turn back n slide back quickli into the forest ? jungle ? hahas . dunno na .. feel stupid .. guess wad i did to tat poor peacock . i chase it man .. hahas .. n it run .. so it feels like a eh .. a pig chasin a peacock .. ? hahas .. stupid lorr .. hahas .. den it ran n i decide not to chase .. hahas .. it was so tirin lorr .. den i walk walk walk .. hahas .. back to tat piggy back thingi .. after tat ling na piggy back eh .. jacky .. hahas . wan reach le den let go .. den we walk back .. leg so pain lorr..sobs sobs .. no one down there teng me .. whakakas . den after tat we buey tahan liao . everibodi wan get out of sentosa le .. cos whole dae down there liao .. den after tat we quickli changed without bathin .. change in da public .. hahas . den we do our things .. our bag everithin wet l0rr.. !! .. hahas .. moi poor make up .. all gotta throw awae .. if not next time ue see mi .. moi face ish rot de .. hahas .. kks la .. like tat nor . den we get out of sentosa .. we go eh .. we go wanton mee there .. den they all workin there ma .. den we eat .. eat le we go .. onli mi .. weirong .. peter n shiyong go nia .. hahas . den i go xin darlink house .. hahas .. on her bed talk talk talk till i slp .. den she go bathe .. leavin me alone .. hahas . den 11 somethin moi ah pa call .. den go down .. actualli wan tell him dun wan go home de liao .. but aiya .. dunno ..jus ans n go home lorr .. hahas .. siians hoor ? den after tat jiu reach home .. straight awae ok .. straight awae lie on bed .. never on air con .. never off light .. jiu slp liao .. hahas . cool ma ? like tat norr .. hahas .. tats moi dae .. !!




todae lei ? kaos .. wake up sun burn .. pain lei .. pain pain .. told ue liao .. no one cares .. den wait fer xin wake up .. den dunno go where .. den she decide go swimmiin . i was like so happi .. i dunno why .. hahas.. but den i think again . sians .. ttannin ish here again .. hahas .. i gonna be damn black man .. hahas .. den i wait fer her to come .. like wait fer one ah ma from bugis walk here like tat lorr . si bei long lorr . den i wait lorr .. hahas .. den we go swimin .. lalas .. mi n her like pig lorr . after swimmin go buy $2 de fries .. den eat until dunno like wad .. hahas . den reach home open one coke drink .. den cook one pack of maggie mee mee share .. den after tat go eat yam .. den go eat dinner .. dinner was alot lorr .. so i feel like a pig todae .. hahas . yum yum .. anibodi wanna yang me ? .. hahas .. den after tat .. eat le xin jiu go home liao .. siians rite .. den i end up down here writin moi blog .. bored siia .. bored .. hahas .. like tat nor ..




hmmms .. siians .. now i chattin .. feel so bored .. aiya .. wadever la . no mood again .. sians . hate myself fer being like tat . wadever .. see what happens tmr .. todae im abit siao .. so dun care me if i sae anithink .. or wadever la .. wad ever .. shit .. haish ..sians .. pek chek now nehs .. siians ..




* wei she me ai qing jiu shi bu neng jian jian dan dan de ai guo .. neng bu neng zhao ge ren mei tian an xin de pei zhe wo .. wei she me zhe shi jie jiu shi yao na me fu zha . hao xiang tao bi mei yi ge shi guang . *
* wo hao xiang hao xiang nian ni .. neng bu neng hui dao wo shen bian ner ? wo hai zai deng .. i zaii chi chi de deng .. hao xiang nian wo men de mei yi ge hui yi . hao xiang hao hao de ai ni yi bei zi .. *




boii .. fergive me fer being myself .. i hate people controllin me .. reali . so no matter how much memories we hold .. i gotta let go .. ue asked mi to take it tat i have never known ue .. i did .. n i did ferget ue n continue with moi life.. but .. things came to worse wen i dreamt of ue ytd .. dreamt of those hugs ue gave willing .. dreamt of those smiles n laughter ue gave wen i alwaes sae about jokes .. n .. everitime wen i wanted someone to bright mi up . after da broke up .. have ue ever miss me ? or wanted me back ? i noe i dunch noe how to treasure things .. but . haiish .. blame me bahs .. hate me fer all ue wan .. * slashes of cuts * ;




to those people tat have once have memories tat cant be fergetten with me - im sorri if i didn't noe how to treasure those times we were together .. im so sorri . although i noe sorries are useless words .. but i jus hope ue all would fergive .. its indeed mem0ries are real difficult to ferget .. but i jus wanna those memories back again .. if anione of ue wun mind ? come back to me once again pls ? i beg ue ? fer da sake of moi laughter tat ish gonna pei mi the rest of my life ? i miss ue ;




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ im lonelli .. im so alone .. kill me if ue can .. i wun blame ue fer killin me .. cos i dun feel a thing animore .. 8 stiches .. its startin to hurt ... haiish .. sobs .. _ i love ue ;;




todae tann .. ytd tann .. befer ytd also tann .. i sure become a crow like ng xin hui man .. !! ..