im feelin so sick yet no one believes me ; im so out of frens . i need'em .. im jus so out of love ; .. 27o2o6 -

i jus dun love todae . i dun love .. i hate my life . i hate myself .. had a big big big serious quarrel with moi father in da car this mornin .. this how's the stori started .. => earli in the mornin when he was brushiin his teeth in da bathroom . i automacticly woke up n went out to tell his i didn't want to go to school todae .. so he said no .. * he shouted n not sayin properli * .. so i jus guai guai de walk back into moi room n slp back disappointly .. so after tat he open moi door n ask me tu wake up .. i wake up n then go do moi normal things na .. brush teeth n bla bla bla .. den becos i dunno why todae i prepare take so long time .. like its fated de like tat .. den i was late fer sch in the end .. hmmmx .. siian siians .. den moi bag was confiscated becos i lost moi ez link card .. n den i was like " kaox .. what a farkin dae todae is . " .. n den i jus pass moi bag to mr wong .. after bell ring ler .. we can go .. but but .. stupid him suddenli sae wanna check nails .. den i tio la .. moi nails so long .. so moi beautiful nails was gone in the end .. n now im typin with so short nails .. cant even be seen .. den i goota carry all moi books n bla bla bla .. back to the dnt room .. cos moi first three lessons was dnt . n i was like holdin on to the lighter which belongs to tiffany .. n marcus mp3 .. n moi precious HP !! . n den i walked walked walked .. so after tat .. i did moi dnt n bla bla bla la .. den ue noe what .. when it was the last perioud of dnt .. moi stomach start to ache lorr .. kaos . n i was like so tired so tired norrs .. so i was like sufferin in class ? .. den decided to tell mdm haslinda .. den she called hui hui to pei mi call moi father .. den i was like goin down the stairs n i nearli fell .. cos i was like pain till i feel so weak .. den after tat the clerk called moi father n he said he was goin to fetch me .. n den i jus sat outside the general office .. so i slept there lorr . so pai seh norrs . hmmmx . diaos .. den wait til moi sch de recess wanna over le den moi father come .. den he was like shoutin moi name lorr .. n den i was like so pai seh n den i also got a fright norrs .. fuck man .. so i was so fuck up with him norrs .. den cant find mr.wong n cant take moi bag back .. the end he came .. i took back .. n den go in da car n lie down .. so after tat moi father came into the car lorrs . n den sae what . " ue think i dunno isit .. this mornin ue sae ue dun wan come sch .. den i sae no . den ue come .. now ue come home . ue think i dunno isit .. " den i was like alreadi so fuck up .. so i quarrel with him sayin tat he dun trust me n whatever .. den he sae what he never sae he dun trust me .. den i say since he alreadi got tat meanin so why sae no .. den i was like so angry la .. den i cry n cry n cry in da car .. den he keep sayin what he work what bla bla bla .. den i jus diam diam la .. dun wish to continue . cos i noe moi this type of character .. if i cant stand it .. continue quarrelin ,... i wil jump out of the car right awae .. dun care whether i wil lost moi life anot .. den after tat reach moi house here de clinic .. he took the number fer me .. den he go fer work .. sayin he wiil be back . den i waited there alone .. roamin here n there .. cos it was like so long .. den after tat he suddenli call me .. say what since i also must go back the same doctor fer moi hand .. so why dun i cancel moi house de .. den i wait awhile fer him den he come fetch me go .. den i cancel the number .. den waited fer him so long so long lorr . im stil sufferin n i was like alreadi so hungry .. n den i was stil roamin around moi house area .. loneli me .. at tat moment .. how i wish someone was beside me .. pei me .. i was like stil cryin . so it was so pai seh . hmmmx . den after tat moi dad called .. den i got up the car .. n go to the clinic .. den the doc sae what i got gastric n bla bla bla na .. den he finali belief .. haix .. den take medicine n went to moi aunt's house to rest .. den like tat norrs . til night .. eat dinner . watch tv .. hmmmx . den came back home .. now moi stomach ish stil painful norr . the doc also got give tmr de mc .. but dunno moi father wil let me dun go tmr ma .. hmmx . hope he sleep over .. hmmmx . whatever .. den came back home with not a good mood bahx . im jus so tired of life .. ;




hmmmx . i wan quit sch . i wan .. im so tired n sick of sch . i rather learn other things den stay in sch .. how .. what can i do . im jus so sick n tired .. i dun wanna studi .. i dun wanna .. haix .. sch is nothin to me now .. its alreadi nothin .. it jus sux so much .. can i jus leave this place ? .. pls .. ;




hmmmx . jus wanna tell xin tat .. " im willin to see ue back to her becos ue wasn's suppose to me so close to me .. since she's so disappointed n angry now .. i have nothin to say .. is she wanna anihow think what can we stil do .. she no time fer ue .. ue no time fer her .. so i dunno what to sae ler .. aniwae . i read ur blog .. thx bahx . thx so much fer deciding to go out with me tat night bahx .. thx tat ue at least thot of me .. hmmmx . im glad to have a darlink baobei like ue . n even if one dae .. ue go back to chii . i wun blame ue or whatever .. i wil stil thx ue fer leavin me with a happi memory .. hmmmx .. ue too dun force urself too much kaes .. dun think too much about the probs ue havin .. must kan kai kaes . hmmx . smuackkies ..




hmmmx . kaes na .. got to go do other things le .. also quite tired le .. i also not in good mood .. hmmx . so ermx .. back tmr kaes ? miish those who read moi blog loadx .. thx fer readin ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ i jus wanna ue be happi .. tats all .. _

i hate myself ; even if i noe what done is alreadi done ; how am i suppose to take back the things tat has been done ? ; 26o2o6 -

what a dae was ytd ; afternoon was a borin one ; a frustratin one ; but it came tat at night was quite fun ; hmmms . we bought a medium bottle of absolute vodka .. n then ermhx .. onli we three gals .. no ice .. no coke .. nothin .. dunno to call who out ; dunno wanna go where . n we jus rot at MOS outside ; saw so mani shuai gege ; hahas ; and then hmms . called peter .. den we went to his house ; and den drink .. omg .. xin n him plae the cai quan . den keep losin den keep drinkin .. the end she became so stupid tat she sae the vodka is hot n boilin ; i n cynthia was like laughin awae .. becos it was reali funni ; den after tat xin cannot tahan . n i became red like a tomato .. n cyn was like alrite la .. jus abit stubborn ; tootpid ; den after awhile .. xin died ; hahas . n i became crazii ; n cyn became so stupid . so blur ; den i start all moi nonsense la .. den i awhile later .. i keep force moiself go wash face n bla bla bla ; den manage to wake up . jus walk abit siao de . den xin n cyn start vomitin ; stupid xin la .. never eat den jiu drink so much . den cyn lei . eat tat udon .. den all vomit out .. si bei er xin norr . den i was like got to take kare of the two of them .. i have no choice but to call kc ; hmmms . it was about 2 somethin le nors . and moi father was like naggin naggin .. n i was like so fuckin frustrated .. den after tat kc took a taxi down .. n xin was like alreadi lyin on da floor .. den got to *fu* her to the taxi .. ue noe ue noe .. den she was like askin me ; why ue call kc of so mani people ; i dun care her n jus walked awae .. so retard . aiya .. den after tat like tat nors . reach moi house here .. den stay at da lift there fer decades of time . den we go up .. cyn n xin keep vomiitin ; n i was like alreadi so blur ; hmmms . den they go in moi room . then i came out to explain things to moi pa la .. den tok tok tok . sians . tok so long . tok til i so tired . den i went back to the room .. den dunno what time den slp .. so ma fan . hmmms . aiya . jus bla bla lors . den this mornin woke up .. den peter slp slp slp . dun wan wake up .. like tat lor . todae whole dae at home . i dun like todae . not becos i didn't go out . i jus dun like todae .. now i jus eat finish n den im concentratin writin moi blog . hmmms . tats all bahs ..




hmmms . cried todae ? hmms . things happen . like what she said .. what done is alreadi done .. it cant turn back .. its prestdined .. or whatever .. i jus did somethin so wrong so wrong .. how would ue ever wanna me to face moi frens .. im so sorri so sorri .. i hate myself fer being like tat .. can i jus get out of this world n stay alone ? can i jus ferget everithin n let everithin start from its beginnin again .. its my life ; so let me die .. see me die .. wil ue ? ;




i jus dun wanna studi .. can i .. force me .. console me . its no use . reali no use .. dun ask me to think about moi future .. i jus wanna moi life without sch .. i jus wanna moi life without books .. i made this decision le .. can dun try to change ma .. hmmms .. i rather dun wan studi and then go learn other things .. manicure ? hairstylin ? or jus work in ani fastfood wil do .. or ani shops .. i rather be like tat .. reali .. i cant stand the everidae wakin up earli .. i cant stand those teachers scoldin n scoldin .. i jus dun wanna .. pls .. wil this do ? .. i jus cant explain to moi father .. i cant even open moi mouth .. what can i stil ever do .. i jus hate moi mum so never even anione would wanna force me to talk to her .. its what mr sim says de .. he told da whole class of mine ; if ue dun wanna studi .. ue slp in class .. break rules in sch .. if ue dun have da interest in sch .. so why dun quit sch n go outside n learn other things tat ue think ue can concentrate on .. ; im jus followin what he says .. so how can ever anione stop me ... i jus wanna me alone all of a sudden ..




its all over ; all over .. moi life is all ruin .. never sae im a small gerl animore .. neever .. one thing ; i jus wanna let others noe how i feel ; how can this be ; i hate ppl scoldin me fer unvalid reasons .. i hate peopl forcin me to do things i do not wan .. i hate people who wants to change my mind . i hate ppl who look down on me . i hate people who never understands me n they sae they do ; it dosen't happens on them . so how the hell can they noe .. i hate everithin .. includin myself ; myself ; a barbiie who is over in her life .. no more her .. no more frens .. no more famili .. no more anithink .. she jus wanna be alone n start all over again without knowin about her past .. can i ? can i ? pls .. pls .. i jus wanna die n take it over ; see me die ? soon ? i dunno .. fer everi question anione g0nna ask me ; i woul d sae dunno .. so dun force me .. dun .. i wil go crazi n do anithink .. so dun .. im alreadi half dead .. so no more stress pls ..




onli she noes what happens .. no one is suppose to ask .. n jus shut up .. i cant take it animore .. im dyin ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ what done is done . we cant change the past n da present we are holdin onto .. unless ani miracle happens .. there are somethins tat cant be erase n be fergetten about easili .. im someone so weak .. i gonna turn into someone so useless .. no one loves me .. even if a yes is provided .. its onli fer a period of time .. n there's no more love .. nothin wil ever come back again .. so let me go .. n die peacefulli .. _

SHUT UP ;; SERIOUS .. NO MORE LAUGHTER PLS ..

how old le .. stil laugh laugh laugh .. one this year 18 one 19 .. dunno how to think ma .. i scared befer ue two crazi i go in IMH first lorr .. shhhh .. dun hahas le .. n0rt funi .. shut up ..

mummie .. i cried le .. i duno why .. -

i dun noe what ever happens .. all i noe .. isit becos of me ? one sentence " from the beginnin of everithin . i shouldn't have pressed ur profile .. added ue .. met ue .. or even talk to ue n told ue i love ue . " .. moi fault ? i blame it on moiself .. why sae u hate her .. why .. i noe how it hurts .. i noe .. but ue dun have to sae ue hate her .. ue made her so lost .. so lost ..




i dun understand why .. wen i hear ue cry .. wen i heard ue swollowin everi single tablet .. i cried myself .. i cried cos ue are someone so close to me .. i cried becos i noe how it hurts fer noein someone ue love saeyin he hates ue .. i dun wanna ue hurt urself .. im stil sobbin .. how about ue ? no more swollowin pls .. it hurts me dong ma .. ying wei ni shi wo gan mummie .. wo hai shi ren .. hai shi hui dui ni you mama de gan jue .. no use de gerl .. no use de .. he's urs .. n onli urs kaes ;;





im cryin .. silentli .. dunno why .. but i continued to cry .. even if anione saes it dosen't concerns me .. den think what if it happens on ue n ur gan mummie .. what if ur gan mummie was the one hurtin herself n she is someone goona be so close to ue .. n she's the onli one who understands ue so ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ what the hell is this ? _

i also dunno what to blog worrs . bored ? . no one pei ; life g0es on - 24o2o6 ;

i've clearli ferg0tten everi single guy ; ohhhh .. iim so happi fer myself .. i wanna celebrate .. who wan pei me worrs ? mem0ries stays .. but feelings all fade le worrs .. hehehes .. i love this feeling .. lalas . but im jus afraid got one dae wil come back those type of nightmare worrs . hahas . aiya . try dun think about it norr . hahas . aiya .. from ytd night feel veri good jiu shi liao .. onli todae in sch tired nia .. tired de wo ohhh .. hahas . im retard todae .. but sae real de .. todae de dae veri borin n0rr .. go sch .. rush homework .. hahas . everitime must walk pass tat slut's class so sians .. its a confirm i must walk pass lorr .. omg .. den lei .. start sch n bla bla bla norr . hahas . after sch veri fast jiu rush out le .. cyn take taxi fetch me ma .. hahas . once come jiu must go in straight awae liao .. hahas .. but i veri fast le lorr . den the taxi stil must turn one round .. hehes .. dun care na .. not i pay de jiu ke yi le .. hahas .. shhhhh .. dun let cyn noe .. den eh .. come home .. change .. bathe . blablabla .. alot na .. use com .. den go out again norr .. hehes .. go eh . hmms . go town .. bored hor ? everitime town ? hahas .. read moi blog de people also wil read till sians sians .. hahas . den after tat i no mood .. cos bored ma .. den wear gao gen shoe .. den i dun like . wil spoil moi mood . hahas . den horr .. todae i go cut hair nehs .. hahahas .. so satisfied .. jap jap de .. but if wear those normal clothes wil look abit funni funni .. dun care na .. i dun care liao .. hahas .. den walk town walk til sians sians de .. cyn la .. keep seein watch .. hahas .. den after tat we sit at the eh .. heeren de fountain there .. zi lian . den got one gal ask me help her n her frens take photo man .. den help lorr . i veri kind de ok . lalas .. den they keep sayin thank ue .. hahas .. den after tat i call papa come fetch me .. wait so long norr .. hahas . wait til i pek chek .. actualli hai hao na .. hahas . den i go in .. den he fetch cyn home .. cos i not hungry . den papa also not hungry .. den never go eat norr . hmms .. den we come home .. hahas .. oh man .. i love marcus mp3 man .. hahas . nice to use .. but sensor to sensitve nia .. like gerl gerl like tat .. so sensitive .. er xin .. hahas . hmms .. dunno na .. lalas .. returnin his mp3 back to him on mondae .. yeah .. see .. he so teng me .. hahas ..aiyo .. but horrs . in the end .. me n papa eat maggie mee .. hahas . too late le .. den cos of our laziness .. we lazy go down .. hahas .. den cook norr .. lalas .. nice nice .. hmms . like tat nor .. end of moi dae ..




now talkin with mogan darlink on fone ; hmms . abit no mood le .. dun ask le hao ma .. haish .. ask ask ask .. past le na .. never keep ur fotos le hao ma .. jus take it as i was so foolish hao le .. sians .. spoil moi mood . sians arhx .. haiish .. ue dun wanna let me noe what happen between ue n her .. den all bad mood .. use to be ue nu er de worrs .. sure xin yang yang .. wtf na .. wadever .. dun wan write liao .. tmr gonna be with moi cynthia n xiin na .. who wan come de call me la .. we goin kbox maybe .. or china black .. see first la .. sians .. whatever ..




mummie .. baobeix wann ue to be happi happi de kaes .. dun wan ue sad sad .. dun do stupid things n dun smoke too much horrs .. ferver de nuer n mummie no matter what happens kaes .. iHEARTxUe the most le .. we must an wei each other if anithink happens kaes .. i'll be there fer ue wenever ue need me .. im true .. n i promise what i sae ; smuacks ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ im so dead ; yet alive n down again ; i noe its moi life .. but i reali cant take it animore .. how do i end it ? i never understand moiself .. jus follow moi feelings n go ; i noe feelings are all lies .. but i have nothin to trust animore .. i hate school .. yes .. haish .. everithin's so confuse .. moi mood changes so fast .. n i jus hope it wouldn't stay angry n sad .. no one understands ue see .. im a fool from the beginning i've known ue ; back to think about our memories .. i realize its so real ; but its now all over ; it turns into somethin so cold which wil hurt each n everione of us ; . inu - moi fault ? ; i wasn't suppose to be livin in this world ;

borin dae ; what wil sat be ? ; 23o2o6 - ;

wheee .. todae same lor . normal dae .. onli after sch .. i da onli one stay back do test .. hehes .. den wait fer xin . den come moi house .. hahas . den i sleep den she use com .. hahas . den after tat she go home .. hahas .. borin dae horrs . she also ke lian la .. hahas . KC .. SYL..TS.. hahas .. darlink .. shuang ma ? hahas .. aiya .. choose SYL la .. hahas.. anithink ..hahas .. i dunnoe .. stupid ue .. ask me to give ue ans .. den i sae SYL .. den ue sae but horr .. KC what what what .. diaos nehs .. rather ue dun ask me better . hahas . . diaos .. hmms . todae after she go le .. i eat le .. bathe le .. den do mask . . shiok man .. hahas .. cos i realise moi face got yi li yi li de dong xi .. den i dunno what .. see do mask wil what happen .. den do nails .. hahas . todae i change man.. hahas . den moi hand horr .. moii papa ask me dun put bandage le .. hehes . ltr tmr go sch all moi peng you vomit blood .. lalas . dun care them na .. hahas . hmms .. thinkin back * 8 stiches .. i dun feel a thing .. i dun understand why .. everithin's numb .. * .. hmms .. dunno na . dun think so much bahs .. hmmms . dunno .. tmr jiu shi goin out with cynthia .. hahas ..




hmmms .. moi dear tiffany .. promise me not to hurt urself kkaes [ even if i noe ue will ] .. one dae .. jus one dae ue wil realize those tears fer him dosen't worth .. hmms .. although i noe myself also like tat .. but im jus tellin ue bahs .. hmmms .. mine worst den urs na .. happen more things .. so ue got nothin to regret about kaes .. hmms .. dun think so much arhx .. i wil be there fer ue .. gerl .. frens fervea kaes .. hmmms .




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ im stil thinkin of ue .. n onli ue .. _

a dae ? same normal life ? i dunno .. without ue ; i jus wanna be al0ne ; 22o2o6 -

let me see what happen todae .. im sorri cos i got short term .. so i ferget liao . hahas . ermhx .. i go to sch norrs . sians .. n tat miss chin never come . she ask me come do CA den she never come .. freak . den i cannot do .. den tmr must mian qiang go sch again .. whahahas . hmms . todae g0rt health check . sians .. I WAS MOLESTED MANS !!! . hahas . no la .. check back bone nia .. YEAH ..!! i got good back bones .. hahas . equal to perfect back bones .. hahas . im so satisfied man .. hehes . den bla bla bla na .. same norrs .. same sch .. den after tat after sch actualli decided pei xiin darliink they all go see netball match de .. den moi papa la .. sae liao i also blur . dun sae .. but the end . rachel n judy go nia . mi n xin never go .. whakakas . we wait fer papa . den go tiong walk walk n eat .. idiot man .. hahas . we todae also pig again . in sch eat .. drink .. den go to auntie shop . den eat ice cream .. maggie mee .. chocolate .. den after tat go tiong eat steamboat .. hahas . fat le la .. die .. lalas . anione stil wan me if i reali grow fat ? kekes . den after tat nehs .. eh .. we talk norr .. todae me n xin like talk xin shi like tat .. also dunno how to sae la .. den saw wee tiong n rabbit .. i nearli tore wee tiong's shirt n i pull ear til red red de .. kekes . den ltr me n xin wait fer papa . den take car go home .. she come moi house .. now i writin this blog she also beside me typin sms .. hahas . hmmms .. siians nehs .. den after writin this blog i wan go bathe liao .. hahas .. moi ah pa down there niam niam niam liao .. sians horrs .. everidae hear him down there niam .. hey people .. btw .. what if i sae i wanna turn into a bung .. what reaction would ue all give ? dunno nehs .. im stil thinkin .. wheeee .. aiya .. dunno na .. hahas . tmr also dunno go where . should i go to sch tmr ?? hahas . no i should not .. * devil * .. yes i should * angel * .. diaos .. retard me .. kaes la .. i wan go bathe liao .. he reali down there niam niam niam liao .. whahaas .. miish me kaes .. buais buais ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ i miss ue ; would anione be outside moi sch .. waitin fer me tmr .. givin me a true hug .. telling me true things about he's / her feeling fer me .. n lent me a shoulder ? ilu . _ im stil a ger who has her feelings but dun make her go crazii ..

down .. down .. ii needa s0meone now .. who can jus accompany me .. let me lie on his/her shoulders .. huggin him/her everii miin - 19o2o6 ;

why am i alwaes feelin down ; why am i alwaes clingin onto memoriies ; why am i alwaes being so outta of mood .. haaiish .. let's tok bout ytd .. i ermhx . went to sentosa . met ling na first .. den took a taxi to sentosa . tootpid weirong they all so long den c0me .. den we was like abit no mood liao .. cos wait too long n it was like so bored .. hmmms .. actualli did not decide to tann .. but in the end .. walk here walk there also become tann dao liao .. siians . also good la .. hahas . let ppl noe how sunshine i am .. hahas . dots rite .. hmms . den after weirong they all come .. we also never reali do anithink much .. cos they eventualli started their soccer .. so bu ke neng mi n ling na together plae rite ? hehes . but luckii jacky never plae .. den we pull him go plae da chair lift .. high high worrs . whakakas . den its like .. quite scarii . i was like so afraid the thing would suddenli drop or i would suddenli slip n drop off the fuckiin chairr .. diaoos .. den wen we reached up there .. it started to rain lorr . so i n ling na n jacky was like so cold so cold . liike in da ssnow without ani proper clothes on like tat .. somemore we got no money .. cannot sit down n drink .. btw we were not wearin shoes too lorr !! so ue think .. do we look stupid . ? so i was like so tired liao . den feel like sleepin .. so we was stuck there about nearli 2 hours ? n no one tried to save us .. we actuaali bought the ticket to go down de .. da chair lift ticket also .. den cannot .. cos rainin n eh .. got thunder .. so we sit down there like beggers .. diaos .. somemore tat tootpid weirong n qi wen dey all never listen fone lei .. more style lorr .. diaos .. after tat .. finalli .. the rain stopped abit .. not abit .. is stop .. den the tootpid chair lift spoil!!! n we cannot go down . fuck man .. must take da ride .. which is so stupid .. ue gotta wear a helmet n take a small car like tat .. tiny one .. a person at a time . n u have to gonna control it urself .. so i was like .. dots .. i look stupid n retarded .. den we pass the test n we gonna go down .. its like a slope n ue or me rollin down .. wasn't able to control easili to this type of things .. den i was like shoutin all da wae down .. hope the thing would not tumble n i roll down or i would not knock onto anithink beside n ue noe .. drop off the hill .. arhs !!! .. so ke lian .. i finalli reached below .. n wheee .. nearli out of breathe. .. hahas . ling na keep knockin onto me .. moi poor backside .. maybe is cos i suddenli stop ? hahas .. dunno na .. poor us jiu shi liao .. poor jacky too lor . being force by us go .. den this type of lan jiao thing happen .. hahas . den we quickli walked back .. oh ya .. jacky piggy back me .. den i was like so heavy .. hahas .. eh .. piggy back n run ok .. hahas .. den stop .. den ling na piggy back jacky n run .. dots rite . run run run .. hahas .. dots .. oh ya .. i saw a peacock with nearli no more nice nice de feathers n saw a humji komodo dragon .. hahas .. guesss wad the komodo dragon did ? it was like gonna cross to the other side .. n den we came .. n it got a shock .. turn back n slide back quickli into the forest ? jungle ? hahas . dunno na .. feel stupid .. guess wad i did to tat poor peacock . i chase it man .. hahas .. n it run .. so it feels like a eh .. a pig chasin a peacock .. ? hahas .. stupid lorr .. hahas .. den it ran n i decide not to chase .. hahas .. it was so tirin lorr .. den i walk walk walk .. hahas .. back to tat piggy back thingi .. after tat ling na piggy back eh .. jacky .. hahas . wan reach le den let go .. den we walk back .. leg so pain lorr..sobs sobs .. no one down there teng me .. whakakas . den after tat we buey tahan liao . everibodi wan get out of sentosa le .. cos whole dae down there liao .. den after tat we quickli changed without bathin .. change in da public .. hahas . den we do our things .. our bag everithin wet l0rr.. !! .. hahas .. moi poor make up .. all gotta throw awae .. if not next time ue see mi .. moi face ish rot de .. hahas .. kks la .. like tat nor . den we get out of sentosa .. we go eh .. we go wanton mee there .. den they all workin there ma .. den we eat .. eat le we go .. onli mi .. weirong .. peter n shiyong go nia .. hahas . den i go xin darlink house .. hahas .. on her bed talk talk talk till i slp .. den she go bathe .. leavin me alone .. hahas . den 11 somethin moi ah pa call .. den go down .. actualli wan tell him dun wan go home de liao .. but aiya .. dunno ..jus ans n go home lorr .. hahas .. siians hoor ? den after tat jiu reach home .. straight awae ok .. straight awae lie on bed .. never on air con .. never off light .. jiu slp liao .. hahas . cool ma ? like tat norr .. hahas .. tats moi dae .. !!




todae lei ? kaos .. wake up sun burn .. pain lei .. pain pain .. told ue liao .. no one cares .. den wait fer xin wake up .. den dunno go where .. den she decide go swimmiin . i was like so happi .. i dunno why .. hahas.. but den i think again . sians .. ttannin ish here again .. hahas .. i gonna be damn black man .. hahas .. den i wait fer her to come .. like wait fer one ah ma from bugis walk here like tat lorr . si bei long lorr . den i wait lorr .. hahas .. den we go swimin .. lalas .. mi n her like pig lorr . after swimmin go buy $2 de fries .. den eat until dunno like wad .. hahas . den reach home open one coke drink .. den cook one pack of maggie mee mee share .. den after tat go eat yam .. den go eat dinner .. dinner was alot lorr .. so i feel like a pig todae .. hahas . yum yum .. anibodi wanna yang me ? .. hahas .. den after tat .. eat le xin jiu go home liao .. siians rite .. den i end up down here writin moi blog .. bored siia .. bored .. hahas .. like tat nor ..




hmmms .. siians .. now i chattin .. feel so bored .. aiya .. wadever la . no mood again .. sians . hate myself fer being like tat . wadever .. see what happens tmr .. todae im abit siao .. so dun care me if i sae anithink .. or wadever la .. wad ever .. shit .. haish ..sians .. pek chek now nehs .. siians ..




* wei she me ai qing jiu shi bu neng jian jian dan dan de ai guo .. neng bu neng zhao ge ren mei tian an xin de pei zhe wo .. wei she me zhe shi jie jiu shi yao na me fu zha . hao xiang tao bi mei yi ge shi guang . *
* wo hao xiang hao xiang nian ni .. neng bu neng hui dao wo shen bian ner ? wo hai zai deng .. i zaii chi chi de deng .. hao xiang nian wo men de mei yi ge hui yi . hao xiang hao hao de ai ni yi bei zi .. *




boii .. fergive me fer being myself .. i hate people controllin me .. reali . so no matter how much memories we hold .. i gotta let go .. ue asked mi to take it tat i have never known ue .. i did .. n i did ferget ue n continue with moi life.. but .. things came to worse wen i dreamt of ue ytd .. dreamt of those hugs ue gave willing .. dreamt of those smiles n laughter ue gave wen i alwaes sae about jokes .. n .. everitime wen i wanted someone to bright mi up . after da broke up .. have ue ever miss me ? or wanted me back ? i noe i dunch noe how to treasure things .. but . haiish .. blame me bahs .. hate me fer all ue wan .. * slashes of cuts * ;




to those people tat have once have memories tat cant be fergetten with me - im sorri if i didn't noe how to treasure those times we were together .. im so sorri . although i noe sorries are useless words .. but i jus hope ue all would fergive .. its indeed mem0ries are real difficult to ferget .. but i jus wanna those memories back again .. if anione of ue wun mind ? come back to me once again pls ? i beg ue ? fer da sake of moi laughter tat ish gonna pei mi the rest of my life ? i miss ue ;




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ im lonelli .. im so alone .. kill me if ue can .. i wun blame ue fer killin me .. cos i dun feel a thing animore .. 8 stiches .. its startin to hurt ... haiish .. sobs .. _ i love ue ;;




todae tann .. ytd tann .. befer ytd also tann .. i sure become a crow like ng xin hui man .. !! ..

ue noee .. its been such a hot dae ; n im suddenli so out of da mood ; 17o2o6 ; -

todae ish so boriin .. so borrin . no studi todae cos g0tta tat cross country .. n ue noe .. we gotta go our own .. n its like earli mornin .. im alreadi gettin fed up .. cos i woke up late .. n den moi friends were like kept calling .. askin if i go yet alreadi .. all wanna longpang . dots .. den reach tiong ..den waited fer tiff n the others .. den me n tiff go buy mac eat .. eat in moi pa car .. so this year cross country was like at eh .. turf city .. last time de .. n actuali it wasn't so hot til after dunno what time .. kaos .. n i didn't run todae lorr . fuck .. gotta help david tan take care da mascort thingi with tiff n hui hui .. omg .. siians . aiya .. wadever .. den bla bla bla .. nothin much .. den we went home .. so i went to take out moi hand the strings todae . so i was like shoutin awae .. pain lorr . fuckin doctor .. ask him stop like talkin to wall like tat .. den i dunch care .. i jus grab onto xin darlink hand .. hahas . after tat she came back moi house .. den she bathe n slept .. den i plae moi com awhile .. bathe. . n waited fer her to wake up n den i slept .. hahas .. so tired .. now moi eyes stil half open .. hmmms . dunno why suddenli so pek chek .. siians .. i dun like this type of feeliin .. hmms . btw .. tmr im like goiin to sentosa with weirong n dunno hu .. dunno who . he la . dun wan sae clearli .. aiya .. wadever .. go jiu shi liao .. i wan become abit more black .. but not black until like xin la .. hahas .. shhhhh .. ehs .. so hot .. hmms . sians .. maybe after updatin moi blog .. i wan go orh orh liao .. cannot tahan la . .whole dae under sun .. den tmr also .. sure die de lorr . hmms . so bored .. aiya .. wadever .. * no mood .. * . ;




whhees .. moi baobei sylvester lurbriies moi darliiink xiin .. aiyo . all moi famili na .. good good .. no outsider .. hahas .. hmms .. hope xin wil accept him bahs . hahas ..




alwaes true sistars .. alwaes together .. but we everitime caught da same guy we need . its alwaes like tat .. this time .. its moi turn to give in .. so ue dun gei kiang .. aniwae horr .. ue also dunno i talkin bout hu .. hahas .. good good ..




oh ya .. ytd go find tat peter .. den we at nite go watch show at town .. hahas .. we watch pink pather .. he la .. dun dare watch the fog .. see him like so daring .. kaos .. dots norr .. den after tat we watch tat time .. so funni norr .. nice nnice .. i love pink pather .. hahas .. hey people . if ue wanna bright up ur dae or wad huh .. go waatch . nice .. hahas . funni until dunno like wad .. mi laugh til so loud den so pai seh .. hehes .. mi wan watch another time .. anibodi wan pei mi watch ma ? hehes .. bleahss .. =P .. ;




hmmms .. i updated moi friendster de first acc .. changed everithin le .. so dun mind go n see . gotta a new darliink n jiie .. jessiie darlliink aka esther ; xiaolynx jiie .. hahas .. i gotta two jie .. same name .. dots .. so i must better get clear .. hahas . darliinks yi bei zhii kaes kaes .. jiie . yongyuan de hao jie mei .. hahas . although me dunno ue two well nawh .. but i noe we wil sure become veri good de .. hahas . glad to noe ya two .. welcumiies to moi familii list .. ! ;




b0ii .. cruelity is what ue left fer me .. i changed after ue are gone . change so much .. changed into someone so unkind .. so raw .. i use to be a princess who lives happili in her barbiie's world with ue .. n wen i said i was gonna let go .. i jus wanted ue to asked me back .. but instead da ans i get was so different .. fer da eight stiches i got through .. i said - no feelings . but i cried sayin .. it onli hurts moi heart .. becos ue dun even realize i did this for da sake of ue .. without ue here with me now .. i reali hope i could live on .. with da smile n laughter i alwaes bring .. but i cant .. im so sorri . so sorri ..fer mani reasons i beg uee .. come back to me again if ue stil love me so .. _ clear soul ; pure heart ; endless sweet dreams ; true reality in a nightmare .. ;




we darliinks , are so afraid to love once again . we jus needa someone true . someone hu gonna be so serious . a guy who understands so much .. nothin much we wanted . but we alwaes get hurt time after time .. a story after another .. im reali so afraid of the another game called love ;;




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ i believe in fate ; n destiny of life .. ; so slut ; its jus pure retribution .. jerks n sluts aren't suppose to live in my barbie's world .. so shoo off fer heaven sake .. im jus a 1oo% babybytche ue wouldn't wanna plae with .. trust me .. moi cold soul . ; _

whoohoo ; pink pather pink pather .. - ;

whee .. i never go sch again todae .. hehes .. aiya .. tmr den write .. now talkin on fone
hahas ..



DaRLiin`BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]-

ur pr0bs dosen't concerns mi now . u r like jus so out of moi life ; 15o2o6 - ;

sorries are so useless after what ue did to me .. a misunderstood ma ? i dunno . onli ue do .. i reali cant see wad kind of personality eu have .. what's ur true character til now .. but as i n0e ? i heard ? ue cant be trust .. ue aren't someone i can be close with .. i reali have nothin to sae wen ue called mi todae .. sayin sorrie .. saein its a misunderstandin .. i dunno .. i jus dun wanna repeat da same thing which once happen to me . i dun wanna repeat history .. moi memories .. u n him .. n them .. r so outta of moi list of life .. cos i reali cant take those probs animore . he time ue ma ? it isn't surprisin at all . reali . he's rumours i listen til sian le .. everithin also listen sian le . whether he reali time ue or wad.. i duuno .. now even if ue tok bad about mi in front of him .. his frens .. i also dun care le .. it dosen't seems anithink .. anim0re .. ;




boii . whether isit becos of helpin me .. takin revenge .. or maybe its reali ur own attitude n character .. still .. ue're not moi animore .. i dunch care animore .. even with loads of chances .. if once again i see ue .. i would jus walk awae .. n take it i have never known ue .. ying wei .. wei le ni .. wo zhuo le tai duo shang hai wo zhi ji de shi . ge zhi ji ye ge dao mei de ge . ku ye ku dao mei yan lei le .. so wad's more can i do .. from now onwards .. i swear in moi blog .. no matter i cant ferget which ever of moi ex .. of cryin becos of anithink .. the tears or anithink wun be down or wun be becos of ue . . ue made mi do this decision .. eu made mi do it .. there wil be no more of mi n ue de memories hangin around .. no more ue love me .. no more of ur rumours .. no more news of ue from anione to mi animore .. no more talkin about ue .. no more sayin i miish ue .. ;




i feel more likee a sick person than ani normal soul on da streets .. eatin medicine everi now n then .. everi mornin til night .. goin to da doctor three daes a time .. havin cousellin everi once a week .. sometimes .. two - three times a week .. i feel weaker from everi dream i woke up from .. i dun feel like wakin up animore .. it feels like a nightmare of a lifetime .. im so weak than anione think .. never think im strong .. never think im alwaes the happi gerl tat ue use to see .. everi memory has its disadvantage n advantage .. but i jus cant think the right way . hmms . since everithin ish so lost now . n moi soul is followin its way .. i shall be the wae i am .. ue can slap mi to ask mi wake the hell out of moiself .. ue can scold mi til ue aren't be able to scold animore .. but im jus so deaf .. so deaf .. i wun be able to here wad ue sae .. n im jus so numb so numb .. wun be able to actualli feel the pain how ue slapped mi .. there's no more use .. eu may sae im such a fool .. n i wil acept wad ue sae as i reali am .. i cant let go of the things i must .. but i wil alwaes let go of the things i must n0rt .. i agrree i dun noe how to treasure things .. but im so sorri .. its reali moi character . personality .. n attitude . ;




PETER NG . !! tell mi wad ue said weren't true .. tell me wad ue ask me was also not true becos ue were so drunk .. quick .. ue wanna mi die of heart attack or wad .. or ue wanna mi kill moiself or hang moiself .. ue so kong bu lorr .. darlink .. eu were also once moi .. but tat was so long ago .. the rumours i heard about ue also too much le .. yes .. i hate rumours to the core .. i aren't suppose to believe .. but im so afraid of ue .. afraid of another game called love . dong ma .. tats why i dun wish to give ue the ans of ani questions ue ask mi .. tats why i keep sayin dunno . give me time .. let me think .. cos im a gerl who easili unable to ferget moi memories .. although im short term .. but jiu shi wang bu liao na sie hui yi .. hmms .. im so soorii .. but if ue are reali true .. ur feelings are real fer me .. im sure ue would wait .. im sure ue would wait n wait .. no matter how long .. i wil see .. i will .. i dunch wanna another short relationship .. short love story of my life .. ;




i wanna be happi .. jus happi .. so bored this few daes .. no one's here to pei me .. no one . but people .. im tellin ue .. this year moi chalet wil be 4 daes 3 nights .. 11th may to 14th may . thursdae . fridae . saturdae . sundae . cos fridae holidae .. hmms . tats why so long . n this year the b'dae party .. i welcome everi single soul in moi life .. ue are allow to bring ur frens .. but fer heaven sake .. no dai ji's with those people in moi chalet .. no diaoin .. no not happi here n there .. ue all not happi with outside de people den we together go see .. but not we moi own friends h0rr .. hehes . !! wheee .. todae nvr go sch .. tmr also never go sch . fridae cross country or dunno wad shit .. no need studi . hahaahahas . shuang sia . hehes . . im so happi with this week . hahas . ;




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ im alrite my friends .. jus dun leave mi alone wil do . hmms . hehes . _

im so lost .. so down .. out of a sudden . i need someone .. jus someone wil do . ;

nvr went to sch todae .. no mood . sick .. n . im jus so down suddenli .. low mood . confuse . i jus wanna cry .. arhs . wadever . no one understands .. i duncch even understand mysefl . kill me wil ue . jus kill mi ? .. im so lost .. i wanna get clear of moiself .. but the memories i have jus kept comin ip my mind .. n it hurts .. hurts so much . the m0mories i had with him .. another him .. the worst .. with her .. wad the hell am i thinkin .. wad the fuck .. why am i like followin moi mind .. to think n dig out about the memories i had .. its so uncomfortable .. so unkind feelin . why isit alwaes me .. why isit alwaes me .. i dunch understand myself .. den why should i live . live in this world while so mani people saes its unfair .. can i jus go .. go to somewhere where no one will see me again .. n i onli appear in people's dreams .. suddenli i jus wanted someone beside me .. huggin me .. i dunch need the whoever to sae anithink .. but jus hugs fer hours .. fer daes .. fereva .. jus he's or hers arms around me tight .. i miss so mani soul .. wadever . i jus wanna close moi eyes n die .. everithin's so out of control .. im dead . perfectli dead .. her . him .. him .. hais ..



dARLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ unchanged profile .. unchanged photos .. is ur feelings fer me unchaged too ? or how about ue ? fer so long .. so long .. is ur feelings stil there fer me ? _im so sorri . so sorri .

valentine's dae ' ;

wheeee . peter darlink . love ue loads la .. hahas . first one buy me one hamtaro .. tao yan .. hahas . so big lor .. so big so big .. so heavi .. den he stil sae n0rt heavy .. aiya .. eu should tmr bring to sch ma .. den give me hao lian .. hahas . jokin na .. hmms .well .. cried again todae .. dunch understand why .. but the teachers jus seem to want me to dig out this memories of me n him .. im jus so tired ..


DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ how's moi valentine's dae gonna be ? _

im sorri if it hurts ue ; 11o2o6 - ;

i dunch wan tu plae da same game i plae again . . i dunch wan to repeat fate . . n i dunch wan to continue this world of love . . ue may love me with all ur heart but i dunch noe about mine .. if one dae .. i fall back fer da same guy i use to love deepli . dunch blame me . cos ..... i reali need them . although da love eu gave me were so perfect .. so nice .. so sweet .. so memorable .. but im jus afraid i would not treasure becos im a stupid one . . even if one dae i sae i miss ue .. it may onli be a pass by love .. a crush tat last .. i hope nothin would happen cos valentine's dae cumiin .. im so afraid of tat dae .. jus so afraid .. thanks fer da piglet .. da bear .. n five chocolates which cos more tann $2 each .. jus wanna sae thanks fer everithin . . if eu sae eu love me .. den pls fergive me if anithink jus happens suddenli .. fergive me tat i alwaes hurt myself n i said its becos of ue .. cos i stil dunch understand myself clear enuf . . im sorri .. so sorri ..




ue never call me le .. i dunch noe why .. i hope i wun ask eu why .. maybe its becos ue found another gal . i dunno .. i wish i could ferget ue .. ferget tat slut .. n so much so mani things which happens between the 15 daes i've been with ue .. esplanade once use to be da place which belongs to us .. n onli us .. we dunch get bored of it while others do .. we go there everidae .. with da hugs n smiles we alwaes bring .. da laughter so much .. n so mani other little memory .. well .. all i can sae is .. im so sorri fer wad i sent tat dae .. til now , i dunch even noe whether i did da rite thing .. whether da choice n listenin have been correct ..




goin out with ue on valentine's dae .. i dunch noe wad wil happen .. but there wil be jus onli me .. and ue .. til night .. moi darlink n moi korr wil come .. i dunch noe whether wil eu stay around with us .. i hope ue will .. see through ur character once again .. n maybe everithin would bright up .. patchin ish da word eu may gonna use .. but i hope it would be true .. thought i sae i dunch noe anithin .. cos i reali dunch noe wad im thinkin .. i jus hope everione would understand how i feel .. so does ue .. hais ..eu message me too .. saein eu mish me loads too .. wil it be true .. wil da ans be so true tat ue mish me .. maybe so .. cos i stil find eu so true .. so beliveable .. hmms . haish ..




da slash on moi hand .. the stiches n everithin .. it stil hurts .. no matter how i gulp down moi medicine n everithin single little thing i do .. not tat im notti .. its jus becos i wanna ferget everithin .. goin to da doc tmr with them .. i hope it wun be so er xin like how i saw the stiches tat dae .. da blood i lose dosen't cost anithink much at all .. its jus blood like tears i gave ..




hmms . todae de yan hua nice nice wor .. tmr last dae .. gonna watch .. tmr earli mornin .. wil call xin .. den she prepare den she n papa they all pei me go see doc again .. den i n xin go sing song at kbox .. til dunno wad time .. den maybe we meetin them again .. see yan hua again .. i rmb da veri last time not includin todae .. i watch da fire works was with him .. it surprises us n we smiled .. this year .. its not with ue .. but moi frens .. we did smile too .. but not as loveli as the previous time .. hmms .. me n xin darlink got our job le .. hmms . wonder how wil it be .. at marina square de long john .. wil it work ? wil it be fun ? long john again .. maybe trainin wil start all over again ? .. hmms .. hope no bahs .. but i ferget quite a little part le .. so maybe i would rather start the trainin all over again .. come'on n visit me kaes .. hahas ..well .. got to go . im real tired out .. jus wanna close moi eyes n rest .. hmms .. gonna wake up real earli tmr ..so .. see moi blog frens da next time i blog .. tag on moi tag bored pls .. its quiet .. hmms . byes.. take karries .. !




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ its all over moi boii .. all over n it hurts so much til i wanna leave . _

* its stil bleedin * no one noes .. 1oo2o6 ;;

its not da prob with me tat im someone crazi .. i reali cant take it animore .. no matter how mani sessions of cousellin eu have given me .. its so useless .. cos it dosen't matter so much to me . as i said .. he called me ytd . den he was like saein .. he mish me ..haish . keep saein n saein .. i dunnoe .. jus so blured out . alreadi feel like dyin .. but i rmb wad moi frens told me .. ask me not to cuut or kill moiself .. but todae wen i go sch .. saw meverick hand .. he's hand was like all cuts lor . i si bei du lan alreadi lor . moi mood not good .. den stil this type of things happen . i straight awae cannot tahan lor ..ask firuz buy penknife .. he dunno i wan cut so he buy .. befer firuz come back . i told meverick " eu wan plae this type of thing rite . i plae with eu . eu think veri fun isit . eu got dai ji outside den eu cut . den i got so mani dai ji i die liao la " .. so he was like saein " eu dunch understand " .. at tat moment .. i dunch noe wad im thinkin .. jus noein tat i dunnch noe wad i dun understand about him .. wen firuz came back . i straight awae open da penknife .. go to him .. said da same thing .. den i cut moi hand .. jus a slight cut n moi hand splitted open .. so its like "cool" ... den i can see moi hand inside de things .. den pinky meat .. n da purple veins .. so patrick papa also saw .. den he was like eeeeeee ... wad da fuck eu doin .. veri er xin lor .. den as i noe somethin was gonna happen .. i pinch the splittin part together .. den blood start flowin .den judy who said tat she wasn't goona care about me fereva de said .. eu fuckin bitch . wad da hell eu doin .. den she push me to da door .. dunch reali dare to touch me as she noe i was goin crazi ani moment .. den follow me to da toilet .. there were no tissues eventualli , every toilet i go was like blank . den i ask her go ask 2/1 de teacher . ask liao. den dunch have .. so da teacher saw moi hand ..her kua zhang fan ying was like .. omg .. eu wun faint rite ? eu wun rite ? eu ok ma . wad happen . dunch faint kks .. take care horr .. den i was like i wun faint .. i wun .. relax . im alrite .. den the general office de clerk was like give those look wen she saw moi hand .. she nearli vomitted cos its reali er xin .. hahas . but i dunch feel anithink .. hmms .den after tat .. alot things happen la .. den after tat about last period tat time .. dey sae cannot liao .. i must go see doctor .. maybe need to sew .. so i was like shoutin like a idiot .. saein " omg .. do anithink but no sewin .. no needles pls .. omg " so they was saein .. aiya . not pain de la .. nothin de la .. now everi single teacher noe bout me .. so they ask miss chow n tiffany pei me go see doc n selat road .. den we waited fer da doc til 2.35 .. den he saw moi hand n he said .. how did eu get cut n those bla bla nonsense .. so i was like yellin .. can eu dunch ask so much .. den wen he sae need to sew .. n moi father actualli agrees to it .. i was like yelliin again .. wad the fuck .. n we jus dun sew .. no needle .. no string pls .. dEn moi dad was like .. dunch care her .. continue .. wen into a room .. n lied down .. den he prepare .. so jus wanna put da zhui zhen tat time .. i shout here n there .. jus one needle to make moi hand numb took 2o mins . cos i was like movin here n there .. shoutin ..den i cried .. cos i scared needle .. after i realize it was nothin ... he started to sew .. i dunch dare to see so i was like under the hands of tiffany n moi father .. den stil cryin becos i suddenli thot of one phrase ? one ermhx reason ? wadever .. tats wad im thinkin -> " im cryin now isnt becos its painful .. no matter how painful ish da pain ish .. it wun hurt da wae how i was hurt in my heart .. moi heart hurt moi dan now im hurin .. moi slashs of cuts .. more .. loads more .. no matter how it hurts on my hand ..stil..no one understands .. " so i was like the more i think the more i hurt . dunch wan think den it wil hurt more .. cos i would sae " why do i have to alwaes put on a fake smile .. a unkind laughter wenever i go out .. smile n laugh with moi frens but i have to suffer all myself . da talkin from everi single soul dosen't works .. so why dunch eu people jus let me go " .. haish .. after dunn0e how long .. it became alrite .. n the fee was like 85 bucks .. den i was like . sians sian .. hmms . came back home n i was like so tired so tired .. n den i slept .. hmms . tats all . eat fer moi dinner . n den wadever .. tmr meetin jie jie fer breakfast .. den evenin darliink xin come find me .. i wan force her pei me go sing song liao .. so i hope this few daes wun anithink happen bahs .. whhee .. alan sae he miss me .. hehe .. hahas ..




aiya .. bored up .. moi hand ish wrapped til so obviouse .. bored ..




hmms . b0ii .. if eu once said everithin's over..pls dunch come back animore .. maybe as a hi bye fren we can be .. but not best frens or anithink closer den frens .. cos i wil miss eu n everithin wil be confuse again .. den i wil start moi probs again .. if eu reali love me .. i think .. we would have patch by now .. rumours about eu are makin me crazi .. its a soon or later thing .. i jus hope tat eu would understand how i feel .. i alwaes break ur heart .. its alwaes me .. but sometimes wen eu broke moi heart .. eu dunch even noe anithink at all .. so now .. missin eu is a wrong thing i noe .. but i dunch noe how to stop .. i dunch noe how to ferget eu . rmb eu once wrote one a paper which sticks .. eu wrote it at moi house .. ? in moi room ? eu wrote .. guan hong love vionna 1314 .. it stil sticks on moi cupboard .. till now .. wad does it means ? im stil thinkin till now . cos wenever moi fren also does write anithink n stick onto moi cupboard or mirror .. it would alwaes drop off .. but den i realize not urs .. it was stil stickin there til now .. rmb our dae .. 16o1o6 .. hmms . hais . ;;




maybe it was fate tat made me think wad im thinkin now .. maybe memories were jus somethin to break me down .. it hurts so much .. i onli realize now .. everithin was jus a lie from da beginning of moi life .. it wasn't suppose to be so cold n cruel .. i jus hope life would be soo colourful n free .. im such a fool ? but so ? why do eu have to care ? its jus moi life .. im jus onli plaein with it .. hmms ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ its all a lie .. a lie .. a lie .. unbreak my heart n sae eu love me onli again cos i dunch noe how am i gonna live without eu .. without ur hugs n kisses .. _

let me ferget eu hao ma .. duun make me confuse again ..

indeed valentine's dae ish comin le .. but i dunch wish to celebrate it with ani guys around me .. jus hope to receive presents ? lletters ? songs ? dunno .. anithink .. haish .. people all so hapi valentine's dae comin but i jus feel so down .. also dunno why .. i hope tat dae would be a memorable one bahs ..




hmms .. he suddenli call me todae ?
i was like surprise ? stunt ?
hmms .. quickly ans .. thot wad happen ..
den he was like askin ..
i got stead le ma ?
i this few daes hai hao ma ?
ermhx .. loads n loads bahs ..
so i use a veri calm voice but moi heart wich ish beatin terribly to reply him ..
haiish .. den i was like thinkin nonsense again .. ?
ermhx .. dunno .. anihow think or never think i also dunno ..
den i was like askin him ..
why eu suddenli call me .. hahas ..
he said i missh euu ..
i was like thinkin .. ermhx .. april fool dae haven reach .. not funni ..
but he was like .. its true ..
den i kept quiet actin blur .
askin him got stead le ma .. he sae dunch have ..
so i also thinkin whether wad the rumours said were true ma ?
did i made a wrong choice tat moment of chong dong ?
wadever .. haiz .. now confuse again ..
sians lei .. i dunch like this type of feelin la ..
aiya .. dunch care .. i dunch care liao
i wan go do moi nails liao ..
tmr nice nice nails go sch ..
shiok ..




omg .. stupid lai kiat ferget me ..
peter's brother ..
hahas .. cos in msn too long bo chat with him liao ..
aiya .. suan liao
aniwae also dunch reali noe him .. hahas ..




aiya .. valentine's dae full booked liao la ..
diaos ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ im confuse .. confuse .. stupid guys .. _o9o2o6 ..

everithin jus g0iin well .. i swear tat i would hate rumours fer the rest of moi life ; - o7o2o6 ;

baobei darliink : dunch sobs sobs le .. no use de .. since no one understands .. eu cry also no use .. i was once like euu .. even more troubles than euu .. i also did cry like hell .. like the world ish gonna kick me out .. but trust me . this is jus a part of ur life .. its all fate .. like wad i told eu .. to me,in moi world of dictionary .. there's no ani words name " family " .. i dunch understand this word .. i onli have frens who understand n cared .. its our life .. we can do anithink we like .. its our own world .. no matter how they scold eu . no matter how eu fail in ur sports .. it all over soon .. like wad i message eu ytd .. if eu mish him .. tell him .. look fer him .. cos keepin to urself .. wil onli hurt urself .. wen he keep quiet n noein nothin .. i dunno wad i can help euu .. onli noein tat i onli can listen to ur problems n everi other little thing tat eu wanna me help eu out .. i promise i wil be there fer euu .. not like the others .. hmms .. friends are reali so important to me now so i cant help losin eu as moi sweetest n dearest sistar .. not sae i les la .. cos eu noe im somehow straight kaes .. hahas .. but tellin eu da truth .. eu are jus a part of moi life .. maybe losin eu as a fren or a sistar wil be like losin someone so close so close to me .. wen eu cried so terribly jus now .. i was like cryin too .. i dunch noe why .. but it seems so hurt den eu cried .. well .. our lives are meant to be like tat .. there's no wae we wil be able to change it .. so all we can do ish jus to accept it .. take everithin lightli .. n it wil be it .. darliink .. eu take karries kaes .. maybe although eu would not see this blog but smile kaes .. mish ya .. ai si ni ler .. smuackkies .. ;;




gan papa : aiyo .. eu also another one .. dunch care ur bro la .. he big size so wad .. saein the same thing la .. its our own life .. no one wil be able to change it eu see .. ur daddy ask eu get out .. but ur mummy stil ask eu back rite .. at least someone stil cares .. eu stil have me .. meverick .. kok kit .. alan . loads n loads of friends wad .. so why bother bout ur bro so much .. dunch think too much la .. the more eu think . the more eu wanna feel like dyin .. hmms . eu also must take good karries kaes . thankies fer brightin moi dae up everi now n den . kekes .. all ur sorries n pinchings .. our cat fight which ended up onli eu hurtin .. hahas . well . we gonna stay daddy n nuer 184 . hmms . smile smile ..




to tat him : hmms . ur msn nick " have i made a mistake tellin eu ?? but i jus wanna let eu noe how i feel " .. well .. hmms . i also dunn0e wad to sae .. eu are also another one tat i should thankkiies euu . thanks fer being there with me wen i needed someone too .. hmms . but .. maybe i onli treated eu as someone so close so close . maybe we cant be together .. hmms .. i got a real big shocked wen eu sent me da messages at tat night .. i was so shocked tat i even kept tat message .. i never knew tat eu would sent tat message .. hmms . but i stil thank eu eu fer being so tan bai .. im sorri if i reali hurt eu loads . but we are stil best frens rite ?? hmms .. eu too .. must take karries .. also sick le .. so dunch think too much n smile big big too kkaes .. whakakas .. ;;




to the another him : ermhx .. eu arhs .. thankiies fer ur two minnies which eu wasted ur time n money helpin me to catch the two minnies at plaze sing .. but i also cannot accept euu . reali .. eu are not moi type of guy .. n alot la . hmms . so we also must remain as frens .. maybe a korr or wad .. cos maybe all da wae .. i've onli been treatin eu as a fren .. a korr .. well .. i noe eu dance nice nice .. but im reali sorri eu are not the type of guy i reali want .. hmms . well . take karries too h0rrs .. ermhs .. dunch smoke too much .. not good .. kekes .. ;;




moi hp de own photo album de title names ; 1st words : why didn't eu tell me eu weren't true at all .. onli til da dae i realize everithin myself .. i dunch need eu 24/7 now .. i onli hope to see eu dae - nite .. i miss eu deepli .. sae eu love me once again,pls .. as i wish upon a falling star .. my usual dae life .. this is how i am,moi own world .. its moi own fairytale now .. no m0re love .. da tears i led down fer eu are now all over .. eu jus left me endin up like this .. eu took moi smiles awae .. n i wan it back NOW ! .. i love moi friends now,n0rt eu .. fuck those sluts of pls .. it's startin all over again .. those memories are meant to be erased .. no more tears fer eu .. barbie's world .. shoo off if eu hate me .. cos i dunch give a damn at all .. tats da prob with me .. a babybytche after all,i do roar .. dunch eu ever step on moi cat's tail .. i never smiled again after eu left .. i wanna see eu wenever i open moi eyes .. i lost eu once again ....... ;;




moi hp de darliink de foto album de title names : thinkin of uue ' will uue cum back tu mii . i really miss eu alot .. will eu trust mi once more,and i wun hurt eu again .. realli hope tat we wil be together with our child tat belong to us and continue the stars tat eu made .. thn start all over again ' iHEARTeu ;;




moi hp me n darlink de foto album : its us in great world toilet - our little little reflection - our neos,i heart her,tats all - eu bright up my daes,my gerl - ROAR! munchin da onli eu,YUM! - ;;




moi hp of frens de foto album : noty him secretli peepin her . retards of outram n gan eng seng . moi beng beng n lian lian . its them smuacking around us,sweet . their life,he's hands around her . meverick + papa soul caught by me ! . judy as secreli taken,kaas . my fren dillon,new sir stamford raffles . judy secreali taken 1 by papa at yuki yaki . ;;




omg .. the fuckin prob ish i hate sluts .. so why keep askin .. aiyo ..




hmms . this few daes slowli slowli past .. wad i do this few daes .. " smoke .. [ veri less la .. shh . ] .. drink .. [ im gettin bored of tiger beer ] .. eat steamboat [ im not bored of it .. im lovin it .. hehes . ] .. listen songs .. [ tats 24/7.. i wil die without songs .. ] .. hahas . somehow quite bored this few daes .. dunno why .. cant catch up with those homework or sch work .. wad i do in sch ish onli slp as i can .. wad wil suspension be .. im bored .. so bored .. i onli wanna sae i wanna thank moi form teacher n class friends + darliink fer being there with me wen i needed them .. from o3o2o6 i cried since mornin .. they tried to entertain me all they can .. jokes n those pervertic jokes .. which finaali made me laugh n ferget bout him .. im glad they are here .. i neever thot they would be here .. its such a wonderful suprise .. hmms . well .. hehes . i wanna sae sorri n thank eu to patrick papa n meverick ahem n darlink xin fer being with me wen im drunk at home .. takin care of me .. how it got me drunk was becos we played saein we " da " tat cups n cans of tiger .. and then after awhile i start playin n laughin like crazi .. then i start moi giddyness n bla bla bla .. n patrick papa try savin me by pullin me to the bed .. shoutin .. hahas .. loads n loads .. finali i got up moiself .. ran to the bathroom . on the shower .. n the cold water jus went down moi head .. i didn't noe why i did this .. but i eventualli cried n cried .. makin them noe n ran .. off the shower .. took a towel .. cleanin me dry .. huggin me all da wae .. tellin me n comfortin me .. thanks fer the hugs meverick .. hahas . after cryin fer so long . it reali made me ferget most of me n him de memories .. me n him de past .. everithin .. it seems tat i've not much probs animore after cryin .. i smile .. smile everithin .. laughin with them .. im reali happi everithin bright up moi life once again .. its reali easy to ferget him maybe .. thanks miss chan fer listenin to me n him de probs ,.. thanks fer saein me n him ... hahas . aniwae la .. thanks fer everithin . hahas . well . sch cousellor mrs law call outside de cousellor come sch cousell me .. die .. im alrite kaes .. im alrite .. dots dots . hahas .. well .. gettin on with moi normal life .. wakin up earli in the mornin .. brush moi teeth .. bla bla bla .. shake shake shake . change .. go to sch rushin everi mornin .. hahas . den somehow sleepin in class .. tryin to wake moiself up everi lesson .. hahas . everi min thinkin here n dere . kekes . jus all moi nonsense .. after sch .. see go where .. either come home .. go out . or aiya .. wadever .. hahas . den come back late at night sometimes den i get veri tired .. looked at moi bed n jus knock off . hahas . if never go out de hua .. den come home with frens .. they entertain me n i entertain them .. den we jus eu noe .. get restless after awhile cos they wil start playin maple .. hahas . wen they go home . n if on tat dae we never go out .. i would slp about one somethin .. like now .. 12 somehtin .. hahas . hmms . normal life .. normal me maybe .. im back .. moi soul is back .. kekes ..




hmms .. got to go .. i wanna go orh orh liao .. so tired .. hahas . den fast fast tmr .. den can see them le .. kekes . i mish them .. well . bye bye .. mish me kaes . hahas .. ai si ni men le .. smuakcies ..




DaRLiin` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ i love euu .. love eu loads .. eu noe who eu are .. so shhh .. hahas . btw .. who's gonna be moi valentine's this year ... whee . im thinkin im thinkin .. so anxious .. wonder wad i would receive .. aiya . mostli nothin de .. i hope to receive big big de things .. cute cute de .. sepecialli bring to sch or bring outside moi sch give me .. wa... kekes . hope darlink xin happi kaes . hmms . _

haiis .. haiss .. o2o2o6 ; -

moi blog gonna be borring nowadaes .. haiis . no why .. dunch wanna sae too much .. went town this three daes .. bored okies .. ytd .. todae never go sch .. tats all ..


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how mani cuts are there on ur hands .. 8-1o .. its over .. over moi boi .. i mishh euu .. i mish eu .. i mish euu . i dunch wanna eu leave .. sobs ..