roar . stupid blog .

alah . omg lar . freak . hahas . go cut hair seh . now like a mushroom with short frinch and loads of layers . no spyke . roar . hahas . how am i going to go to school tmr with this kind of look . hahas . sure tio laugh de . sobs . hahas . but aiyo . hope my hair quickly grow nors . lols . if not like tat i really cannot tahan ehs . boy don look like boy . gerl don look like gerl . kana the alien like tat seh . lols . die lar . nvm . bu yao guan liao . hahas .

omg ! im ending up like baobeix lar . damn . this few days do de things or go de place always got connection with her memories , while baobeix is _ _ .. ya . some peeps should know who lar . hmmms . like tat nors . so wil blur blur de . make me feelings so confuse . judy also wanna die of confusion le . hahas . she kana worst than me seh . hahas . doncare her . lols . care myself first den settle hers . lols . aiya . jiu shi like tat lar . go see my friendster de new pic . got one is like above this pic de . i mean is the same lar . den the captions so meaningful . wo xi huan . another pic also . hmmms . this few days keep go town with precious . everytime go somewhere wil lookout . especially at somewhere bahs . but i see nothing =) . isit becos you've seen me n you'll hide urself . or jus walk away ? =) . well , i don blame if ue walk or hide yourself because you once said something . haas . well , this is just a sudden thought nors . hmmms . cannot run away from it de . so just let me be bahs . hahas .

wake my heart up . =) . cant get feelings the right way . so i jus wanna slap it awake . tat's all . shake my soul up too . so i can get things right . hahas . i don wanna think think think anymore . whahahas . =) .

what i stil wan write arhs . i all forget le lei . hahas . aiya . rmb le den sae bahs . bye . now busy chatting . so many people seh . tao yan . hahas . joking nawh . byes .

darling gerl ` i miss you [ as a memory or i really miss ue ] . why are my feelings so confuse . hmmms . i dunch noe . take kare . i rmb tat chicken guy . =) . i miss the way you said i look cute in my uniform and i miss those hugs =) . tats all i noe fer true i miss .

fark that person who tag my blog . if i am , so what are you =) .

wake my heart up . =) . cant get feelings the right way . so i jus wanna slap it awake . tat's all . shake my soul up too . so i can get things right . hahas . i don wanna think think think anymore . whahahas . =) .

what i stil wan write arhs . i all forget le lei . hahas . aiya . rmb le den sae bahs . bye . now busy chatting . so many people seh . tao yan . hahas . joking nawh . byes .

darling gerl ` i miss you [ as a memory or i really miss ue ] . why are my feelings so confuse . hmmms . i dunch noe . take kare . i rmb tat chicken guy . =) . i miss the way you said i look cute in my uniform and i miss those hugs =) . tats all i noe fer true i miss .

sudden photos .

see long long . wil i look like boy boy ? lols . abit lar . hahas . the real pic more die . more look like nors . lols . so ke ai seh . =) . maybe cutting spike tmr seh . hahas .

i dunch noe myself =)

roar . todae so kai xin n angry seh . half half lar . lols . never go school ~ whakakas . whhee . den never take mc . tmr sure die . sure tio gan . siians nehs . so poor thing . hais . den this morning lar . dunno whether tat father of mine is going to wake me up mar . den don listen to baobeix n judy fone becos thot going to sch . den the end 8 somethin my father come say late liao . no need go liao . lols . happy is no need go lar . bek chek is never ans fone and bla bla bla nawh . lols . so ke lian . den 3 like tat wake up go prepare , go meet precious and zean [ ZEAN , SEE SEE , UR NAME . AND UR PIC ABOVE . ! AREN'T I SO GOOD .. DAMN . LOLS . ] . den they wait so long seh . den go cartell eat , yum .. so long never go le . my last time at cartell was with roy i think or either cyn . lols. den i go meet them le den we eat . eat le go take neos !! whee . so cute . im the cutest lar . lols . den take le go heeren . go see precious de eye lash . see have mar . den don have . lols . poor thing ehs . tat time go with her also don have . hmmms . den i nearly buy the hand cream thingi .. so cheap seh . but dunno good mar . den abit smelly . the end also never buy . lols . den they sent me to workiie . hahas . so ke lian . late fer work . den todae so less people work . den customers got alot . roar . so busy . never even rest dao lors . hmmms . so tired seh . den some customers give me attitude . fark seh . i never give they give . nearly roar at them . lols . den after tat mdm put me and weiqin til 1o.15 . tat means got extra abit pay . lols . also shuang lar . lols . den after tat i go home .. hmmms . so tired . now chatting with ZEAN n precious ohh . hmmms . and judy lar . hahas . like tat bahs . hmmms .

chop all my feelings away lar . lols . so tao yan de . hmmms . dunno . i also dunno what i thinking . hais . bu zhi dao . bu yao xiang ye bu xiang zhi dao . hmmms .

i'll write bout tmr . kaes ? going soon . or maybe write later nawh . write abit more if i think of anything nors . hmmms . bye byes , =) .

darling gerl ` i hate school lar . damn . fark sch . hmmms . i don like nawh . sobs .

i love you . =) . i mean myself . lols .

angry . i've never been like this for so long .

buuuu ~~ suddenly no mood ehs . wo bu xi huan . hao jiu mei zhe yang le . also dunno why ehs . hmmmms . i wanna shout , shout shout out loud now .. but what can i do ? think is because of school bahs . think of it jiu wil fed up , jiu wil veri fan ehs . hmmmms . damn it . shouldn't have the holidays . so i wun bu xiang go school le . use to holidays and those freedom le . wo bu yao du shu ! . don ask me to continue study . buu . wo bu yao . no use no use . ahhhhhhhh !! . its so tiring getting up early in the morning n sleeping late at night . i dunch wanna see the face of teachers and keep the school rules well . no no no . i dunch wan to get use to go to school anymore cos it sux . buuuuu ~ . im use to going out n working and i love the life like this . i don wanna change it . i dun wanna go school ! . buuuuu ~ . damn it . i was late fer school since monday and now i have tu reach sch sharp at 7.25 . damn it . its all that shawal's fault . i don think i wil reach at that time lar . i don care le . bu yao , wo bu yao . i wan my own dreams and everything , and peeps , don tell me study le den can have my dreams or whatever shit . don tell me any logic because i don wanna noe and i jus wanna listen to myself bahs . see darling liyong no need go sch , can go out because she sick ehs . stil have a dyed hair . roar . roar roar . i wan that and not like a guai kia in school . buuuuu . ~ im stil guai lar . i mean i dunch wanna go sch nors . jus wanna my own life . ITS MINE ITS MINE ! . how to tell my father ? my damn farking father . hmmmms . how tu say ner ? how tu quit ? the worst thing is i'am in a broken family lar . so i noe if i wanna quit and if i have the worst quarrel with my father . he sure say ask the damn mother of mine lar . can my mother die faster mar ? den can my father jus hack care me mar ? i rather like tat zhi dao mar ? hais . tmr don wish tu go sch , but how to pon ner ? itchy mouth of mine go ask my damn father and he say NO . fark lar . i mean why cant he talk properly lar . feel like slapping him and say i need manners too . hais . how ? wo bu yao nawh . hmmmms . siians . how am i gonna pon tmr ? so sick of sch . damn . quit quit quit . quit quit quit . roar . buuuu buuuuu buuuuu . miss lorna , can help mar ? if you stil reading my blog , and ue see this , call me ? i need ue ....... to help . hmmms .

suspecting my feelings , i wonder why . told judy somethings today . hmmms . i'am turning so not straight . roar roar roar . nonono . bu ke yi !!!!!!! but hais . bu zhi dao nawh . don wanna get into a relationship now bahs . just wait til someone i can zhen de confirm my feelings on tat person de . hmmmms . roar . its so not straight lar . damn damn damn . must wash my brain and heart and soul le . must wash clean liao . hmmms .

dots , today saw ah boy and darling . den know why she never come sch . ke lian . sick sick .fever so high . must take kare hao hao kaes ? i miss you =) . ah boy nehs ? just now talk to him on fone ehs . say what hmmms . he also sick le . alot people sick ehs . me also ohhh . hmmms . boyy lar , find him so bai chi . lols . so long never hang out with him n ronald le . those times , so stupid . lols . well well , by the way . todae after sch actually got meet kai de . but ps him . baby , sorry ohh . bu xiao xin de . i also dunno papa wan come . heng i call your fren seh . ask him ling yang ue back . lols . so funny ehs . sorry ohh . but at least you say nvm lar . and never angry . sae kan dao wo jiu ke yi le . hahas . so sweet seh . but too bad , cos i don wish to get into a relationship now . if not tat day ue ask , maybe got ans le . lols . buuuu nawh . den after kai go le , me baobeix , and judy go eat same thing . den walk walk . den they come my house . whahahas . so long never like tat le . den baobeix first time don wan go work . aiya . because sick mar . also not because of me . roar . nvm lar . got pei me can le . den wait so long fer my ethel precious de message but don have . den i buey tahan le , jiu send her . lols . den we two realise is waiting for each other de message ehs ? shi mar shi mar ? can i say like tat ? hahas . like tat bahs . den they go home le jiu call ah boy nors . den jiu start veri veri no mood le . hmmms . what wil happen tmr ehs ? wil i have the damn courage to pon in front of my damn farking father ? ;p . dunno nawh . btw , i'am ah boy's new photographer . lols . he take photo so ugly . real life he shuai shuai cute cute de . take photo like road side no one wanna care de . lols . so i must help seh . hahas . he say what must wait him sick ok ler den can take . NEHS ! i pian pian meet you when you sick . lols . like tat bahs . end for todae le .

you know what peeps ? i eventually spent $1oo over dollars on make ups and those have tu got tu do with my face . and fark it . when i have the mood for my face thing . IM GETTING FAT . AND ALOT PEOPLE SAYING LAR . AGAIN LAR . WO BU XI HUAN LAR . AH BOY LAR . COMPARE ME N JIAXIN . ROAR . DEN THAT JIA XIN TODAE AT SWIMMING POOL THERE TOUCH HAND HERE N THERE , LOLS . DEN SAY I FAT LE .buuuuuu ~~~ !!! . cannnot . i don like lar . everytime when face start good den i fat . den slim down abit face jiu kanasai . roar roar .. how how ? hmmmms . must jian fei . i wan jian fei !! i wan go sentosa !! judy say wan go de . one day okays . must asap . i wanna burn my fats off . lols . i wan go back matrix le . go jian fei . hahas . i miss the auntie there . so good to be seh . but too bad nawh . she tui shiu le . hmmms . after my last day she also last day . hmmms . i wan do alot of exercise !!! . i dunch care nawh . by one month i must slim down !!!! roar / i make sure those idiots say me de wil die of getting a fright . roar . IM FAT LAR FAT FAT FAT . why char bo got so much fats de ? so xian mu those thin thin de . like baobeix pat nawh . kana pole . lols . can wear anything seh . hmmms . hao nawh . like tat nors . just don like people say i fat also don like people trying tu bluff me tu tell me im not fat lar . roar . i suddenly feel like going kbox sing song ehs . wan go wan go ? who wan go ?? whahahas . damn , it just happen . listen . judy said i should be sent to the zoo becos of my roaring and the reason for another is because i don wanna study . * nehs * i rather go in wood bridge . hahas . kaes nawh . bu zhi dao le . wanna go le . go pom pom . do face . jiu call that idiot bahs . maybe nia nawh . hmmmms . BYES =) .


darling gerl ` no no . i don wan sch . i hope tmr outram wil collaspe . i dunno how tu spell that word lar . like tat nors . lols . i wanna quit quit quit . roar . ALAN PEY . !! I DON LIKE PEPOLE BLUFF ME LAR . UE BLUFF SAY GOT COME BACK . NOW SAY QUARREL WITH FATHER WHAT BLA BLA BLA DE . I DON LIKE DON LIKE DON LIKE !!!!! i noe its all a lie from the beginning . eevrything you told me was all a lie . including those days we hang around at chinatown .

well . todae ? fun . real fun . stupid us . hahas . i wan to have more days like today even when sch starts . i don care . hahahas . no comments . im damn tired . going tu sleep . take kare people . =) . i'll update more asap . hmmms .

don't say you love me if you don't even know me . =) .

hmmms . i'am sick and tired of rejecting people . lols . no lar . kidding . but i really don't wish to drop into a not serious relationship now . i need time to know that person so don't rush . well . i just want a serious and not a playing or what de bahs . hmmms . =) . i told myself something just now , hmmms . lols . what ever decision i make and whatever consequenses there is , i'll try to change it or leave it and not regret =) .

darling gerl ` i love myself . i love MISS.CHOCOLATE . i love MISS.ETHEL . =) . i love those peeps who accompany me this few days de . whakakas . smoochies . =) .

no one's in mind , i realise =) .

don't say you love me if you don't even know me . =) .

hmmms . i'am sick and tired of rejecting people . lols . no lar . kidding . but i really don't wish to drop into a not serious relationship now . i need time to know that person so don't rush . well . i just want a serious and not a playing or what de bahs . hmmms . =) . i told myself something just now , hmmms . lols . what ever decision i make and whatever consequenses there is , i'll try to change it or leave it and not regret =) .

darling gerl ` i love myself . i love MISS.CHOCOLATE . i love MISS.ETHEL . =) . i love those peeps who accompany me this few days de . whakakas . smoochies . =) .

yesterday ? met up with ling na and her friends ehs . hmmms . at town nawh . hehes . den hmms . walk walk ehs . den everybody so retard . we are the cutiies ! hahas . den very sians mar . den we from town walk tu suntec ehs . so far . lols . den wanted to find guan hong mar . thot he working at mac . den in the end . zean quarrel with the manager . sorry wors . hmmms . den never see guan hong but saw emily . lols . so entertaining ehs . she working at ehs . dunno what lar . forget . hahas . the sell bread de . not bread talk hors . like tat nors . den i blur blur de . den take bus also quarrel with the uncle . si bei sians ehs . hahas . den after tat go bukit timah for some reasons . waited there for an hour for some dua pai people . lols . den like tat nors . den my ling na because too tired le ehs . so abit no mood . so we talk talk nors . hmmms . den after tat papa call le . jiu bye bye le nors . hmmms . WELL , I MET A NEW FRIEND , BUNG . CALLED ZEAN . REAL NAME , ESTHER . lols . dan bai cal something somthing . i stil remember ehs . cannot say . if not hahas . later get killed =X .hmmms . met up with someone lar . someone "he" always wanted to noe ehs . and realise actually my darling , dunch noe is beetter . lols . that was yesterday . WELL . LING NA !! I WAN TO GO ON FRIDAE TOO ! CAN ASK DINE TO GO TOO ?! hehes . just see see ehs . hahas .

darling gerl ` friends ? him ? i dunch noe .

blog is spoilt ..

arhs . boring . my ulcer pain . wan go rest liao . shhhh . pain seh . pain pain . sobs .

will life be better without you ?

small pic .

no comments . nothing .

why should i continue to say something when you has said things till like that . i agree its my attitude . well . like what you said . i dunch like what i see . since things has stop . i don wanna say anything anymore .

i hate that sentence of urs . especiiaally when ue dunch noe what is happening .

let past be past . don ask me any questions anymore .

darling gerl ` my life's so worthless . let the people hate me .

fark . i wrote long long de . den dunno what happen tu damn blog lar . fark . don wan write le . jus simple lar . todae go east coast . cycle . play with myy new fren . a doggy named larry . and ehs . like tat lar . eat . finish . damn . farking shit .

hmmms . don cry fer me cos its worthless . don cry . really . hais . i just don like to comfort the person who is crying fer me . i don like it . damn . fark . i gort no one tu take over me tmr fer work . die lar . bbq how ? shit ehs . fark . so du lan now lar . damn . no mood nawh .

i don wan people tu love me . i don wan people tu cry or get sad fer me . just don love me . don . its cruel fer both of us . i cant have him . i think no one wil have me then . hmmms . hais . i dunno . i'am just so afraid i'll give up soon becos .. hais . see how he treat me . i'am like playin the game by myself . and im tired ehs . hmmms . no one wil have me til one day someone show me that there's something called true love and its to me =) . hmmms . damn . i don think i'll have it . hmmms .

darling gerl ` i dunch even noe how long i have tu stil wait and ya . i thought of her when i was at east coast todae . well well , her ? memories ehs . so sweet . when i was cycling ehs . those memories jus pass by . hmms . now also no contact le . she hate me . she hate me . well . all i can do is diam diam =) . hmmms . im always doing the wrong things lar . n suey things always on me lar . hmms . dunno . dunno . im tired ehs . really de . hais .

P.S. this sundae going put tattoo again ehs . gonna put something similar with xiao shan ehs . den we compare . see where good den go where next time . hehes . love her ehs . smoochies . =) .

stil crying . stil ..

i miss bian bian . i miss champion . i miss him . why cant my father let me see him ? why say til he dosen't want me tu get involve with champion . i really miss him ehs . sobs . i don wan tu be back in the room where no one's waiting fer me . i don wan tu be back home where there's nobody sniffing around . i don wan coming back home , opening the door , and there's no one ehs . i miss bian bian . i want see him ohh . sobs . where is he wors ? how is he doing now nehs ? gort remember me mar ? gort miss me like i miss him mar ? sobs . im tired nehs . tired of crying everyday , fer the different things i do that got tu do with bian bian . im tired .. even a tear or two , its stil tired . those feelings ehs . bian bian , i need ue more than him ehs ... sobs .. why stay so far ehs . stil stay at bukit panjang ehs . a place with no memories but she stay there nehs . bian bian ......

bian bian !! i miss you lars . sobs . the day ue went away . 13o6o6 -

yor're tired , i'am even more tired than ue .

sometimes ehs . i really dunch noe what im doing . hmmms . do damn farking tired lars . and btw huhs . those people who read myye blog . save ur comments . shudup .

i dunno lar . waiting fer him ? haas . sick n tired le . no contacts . nothing . fark the hell .

boyy , i also gort nothing say tu ue . why fall for me ? tu me , its a kind of sueyness lors . im nort what happy or shit is suey lar . i dun wan people tu fall fer me or what de nawh . i don like . so i should put it like tat , kaes . when im with ue , i don think of him . i thought i've forgotten him . but whenever ue're nort around , its all him . i don like people calling me times n times , over n over again . bombing myye fone like nothing . u're somehow perfeect , but sometimes there are some things ue shouldn't do bahs . or maybe i should say ehs . u're too blur . hmmms . dunno lar . dunno how tu sae nors . hmmms . those things ? haas . i also dunno nawh . dunno ler . this myye ans . stop asking . im tired .

ya lar . that's the prob . i don seem tu have any friends lar . no lar . i don mean nort no friends . hmmms . dunno nawh . why am i always the one who wil be there 24 hours like that nawh . and especiaally when i just needed someone tu wake up at 11 just tu pei me go panjang and then east coast its like asking tu go hell like that lar . i mean i ask myself why i always gort tu give in after some ue noe ? dunno lar . like tat lar . whatever shit lar . dunno le dunno le . damn it . fark life i have . friends ? haas .

no mood no mood . don talk don talk . shhhh . i've no mood . damn no mood . work work work . hais . where's myye damn pay ? haven come . shit the damn toilet bowl . fark . no mood lar . roar roar roar roar . what wen what thingi lar . dunno le dunno le . hais . bo liao . stil siding her ehs ? no no . shouldn't blame . btw , im nort blaming . just disappointed with ur reply ytd . thats all .

darling gerl ` i miss bian bian . only him can make me smile like no one has seen befor . only him . no one can make me smile n laugh like he does . i miss him . i miss those sniffing n barking . i miss .. * sobbing * .

IM TIRED !

ok . let see what's happening todae ? well . ytd night at 2 something . i let bian bian go ler . n im missing him damn like hell . im tired . i woke up early in da morning , cant see him . nearli called myye father tu ask him where is bian bian n rmb tu buy his food but den realise he was gone . like a idiot cryin alone in the house early in the afternoon . i wonder why . well . alone in the room again when some idiots can even say im jus acting . fark them . sometimes how i wish i could give them a few slaps and ask them tu kill themselves but cutting their wrist . hmmms . dunno . so met cynthia n when tu eat steamboat at plaza . and then went tu taka . tat idiot cynthia manage tu get a damn model agency thing . but too bad . need tu go for course every sunday n pay 550 bucks fer the make-ups . lols . dunno her nawh . stil thinking . haas . den we went tu cine tu sing song . den can drink so we order . drink til i nearly die of alcohol . i llook like a monkey . hmmms . every cup feels like chivas . so sux . stil gort what tequilla arhs . and dunno what lar . we drink different types . tats why i nearly die . lols . den after tat mmeet alan n kok kit at chinatown . so entertaining . i went there and i just die on the table . den after tat alan play with cyn the 15 questions game . and it was so funny . only me n baobeix n cyn n wee tiong n alan noe da game . so people . i warn ue . don play it . cos u'll regret . lols . like how cynthia regret . den suddenly everything stop . and i started myye talk with cyn . talk talk talk til cry . fark . and then alan peh eventually only ask why ue cry in a cold way . grrrrrrrrrr .. den papa jiu come . den went up . den hmmms . he noe we went drinking . den somehow like tio gan . den in car cry lar . farking idiot . how i wish there was an accident jus now and we would jus perish lar . fark . den meet myye cousin they all fer dinner . den come home . the end . he also diam diam . hais . den came into myye room . natrually i just slam the door n sit on bed n cry . i dunno why , but anything which got tu do with bian bian de . wil cry . like just now . i was writing mye blog til half . i rmb he would always jump tu myye chair n ue noe . jump here n there . or bark . den i started myye nonsesnse . hmmms . damn it . den probs start coming . dunnno what mp3 shit . what chi wen . what winnie lar . dunno lar . aiya , damn shit .

boyy . no one can stand mye damn attitude . pls . don give me urs . if one day . someone can stand mye damn attitude without anything . farking damn shit . i really pei fu tat person kaes . pls . stop ur nonsense . i dunno . stop asking me questions and adding probs tu everything . im tired . pls .


darling gerl ` sometimes , i wish i would have the courage tu ask if u would stil love me ? just becos of ue . i cant continue with life . im really tired .

myye days are still nort that well .

letting bian bian go le . todae . todae she's coming tu bring him back le . no more him at night . no more him barking . no more him jumping here n there whenever i comes back from anywhere . no more . i can feel . fell da hole in myye heart . something seems tu be missing off . i've pack his things . laying outside myye living room . he seems tu noe im letting him go , he's jus sleeping on myye bed . he didn't bark fer tonight . no . nothing . he seems tu be telling me nort tu let him go . he seems tu be hinting me . am i thinking too much ? but i can really feel his presense fading . i remember our first day . ue came . ue bite myye hand n baobeix toe . ue was running around , trying tu get use tu every part , every corner of myye house . ue was so hyper . haas . rmb me n baobeix slept with ue on da floor . 3 idiots squeezing . never knew i was giving ue back . time passes like how the wind blows . its been months . n now u're leaving . it hurts more den nort having him . no more newspapers on da floor . no more socks flying around . no more smelly room . no more everything . why . why am i crying over a dog ? people says , its just a normal reaction ehs ? feelings . no , but it really hurts . sometimes how i wish ue would just stop barking n everything . sometimes i even wish ue hadn't been here . no one is gonna be here cryin with me . spending myye happy or sad days with me . ue wun be here brighting up myye days anymore . you wun be here anymore . everything's gonna be quiet . i'll only feel alone again , back in that house of mine . no more coming home becos of ue . no more rushing home . i'll worry everything when ue get back there . but i'll try tu ferget , maybe . maybe , ue was just someone who came pass myye life tu leave behind ur footsteps n go .....

why call me todae ? why ? why when im starting tu accept the life im havin . why care for me so much today ? why talk tu me so well ? why asked so many questions ? why ? why only till i've finally wanna give up ? why made me have so many feelings ? why make me guilty ? why make me hate myself ? tell me . tell me the truth . tell me everything . why make a fun out of me when i cry calling ue that day ? why ? it was suppose tu be serious . do ue know ? have ue ever feel the way im feeling ? im tired of ue playing . but can ue tell me ue love me ? love me like the way ue use tu . and i'll just leave everything down , myye pride , everything , just tu be with ue . i've been telling ue i love ue fer thousands of time but sometimes i wonder have ue heard it ? i wanna noe everything asap . so i can get things clear . u're the worst prob i've ever gone through . but im sure tu tell ue boyy , i've never waited fer a guy fer such a long time .

DAR . ! haas . a name which was suppose tu be darling was breaken up by ue . n i everntually became ur LING . hmmms . well , i gotta tell ue first befer anything happens . i don wanna care if ue have read myye blog or nort . becos im sure someone's gonna tell ue . he's also reading myye blog . but im really nort sure . i dunno how ue think of me , i dunch noe what ue're thinking now . im sorry but tu tell ue i do things without going through myye mind . its like i just needed someone tu feel myye heart up . maybe i just needed someone tu be there tu care . ue indeed bright up myye days and everything . i bright up urs too . but i thot it was jus frens who care . i never thot this would happen . even i myself was wrong . ue stop me from eating those panadols . ue stop me from those knifes . ue stop me from things that were huting myself . ue manage tu make me smile like i've never . ue told me u've never laugh or smile or been so happy like todae . even those months with her , ue don feel da happiness ? something like tat bahs . ue said she gave ue attitude ue hated . ue told me nort tu . but im really sorry tu tell ue . im really afraid tu end up like her . im nort worth ur everything . im nort even worth ue loving me . i want ue tu noe now .. how i wish nothing had happen . ue never find me when ue were quarreling with her . how i wish we had never went out together . im really confuse . finaally . im sorry but myye heart's stil nort with ue . im sorry .

hmms , this few days never write blog sorry wors . hmms . busy kaes . wil try tu wriite everydae starting from tmr de . hmmms .

darling gerl ` slap me awake tu tell me its all fake , or reality . tell me im a bitch , tell me . tell me ue hate me . tell me im useless . cos im tired . i just wanna rest ..

i'am tired of life without you , and it really feels like hell .

fark everyone nawh . i don give a damn lar . don wanna care , anything or shit nawh . one alan . one the farking family of mine . one friends . work . what ue all stil want . my life isit . take la . i also dun wan le . what kind of shit is this ? life ? shudup lar . i don like i don like lar . slap me awake pls . slap me awake and tell me im dead . dead dead . i hate everyone ... just everyone . im really tired of loving him . im really sick of eveerything .. i wanna just tu close mye eyes and sleep and never wake up again .. im tired ..really tired .

i need ue ` i wanna see ue . but where are ue ? ue don seem tu need me . ue don seem tu even love me anymore . where is the ue i noe ? where is the me when i was with ue ? im tired of loving ue alone when ue don seem tu even care . but i cant give up . i cant . its been nearly three months i've been waiting . stil waiting .. silently . i miss yew .. i wanna see ue now , right now but where are ue . im tired . i miss ue miss ue . i realise so much things after she left , after myye girl cried and talk . its all you .

cynthia , xin hui and me openning a blog and friendster tu sell things . hmmms . it will be open after a dae or maybe later . so go see kaes . must buy arhs .. all things are selling at cheap prices . see ya people kaes . hmms .

darling gerl ` alan peh hwee yew . hmmms .

llove

next time den blog hao le . i now online bbuying things . currently busy .lols . bye .

ALAN PEH HWEE YEW .

CAN UE JUST DO ME A FAVOUR ?

CAN UE JUS TELL NI HAI AI WO MAR . ?

UE NOE I LIKE TAT CONTINUE VERI TONG KU MAR ?

I'VE DONE MYE BEST TU HAVE UE BACK .

I'VE THROW MYYE FACE TU SENT UE THOSE MESSAGES .

I'VE DONE MYYE BEST FER EVERYTHING .

BUT THERE'S ALWAES NO REPLY FROM UE .

CAN UE JUS PLEASE , TELL ME . !

HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE I REJECTED FER DA SAKE OF UE ?

AND MAKING THEM ENDING UP LYK IDIOTS .

I NOE DA FEELING OF WAITING N BEING HURT .

I'VE GONE THROUGH THE TIMES WAITING FER UE ,

YET UE HURTING ME .

SO TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW WIL UE ?

LOOKING AT UE AS A FREN IS DA WORST THING BUT ALSO DA BEST OF ALL .

BUT I DON WANNA CRY AGAIN .

CAN UE JUS TELL ME WHY . WHAT IN UE MADE ME CANT LEAVE ?

I HAD ENOUGH YET I CANT GIVE UP .

IM TIRED ..

DANBAI , IM SORRY . SORRY .

DARLING GERL ` HAVE UE EVER SEE A SHAMELESS BITCH ., WELL .. HERE'S ONE . HAIS .

dan bai n dan huang = two egg . lols .

dan bai is da worst egg i've ever seen .

dan bai looks like a bung .

dan bai de drawing make myye tattoo look ugly .

dan bai is da iidiot i love .

dan bai saes im dan huang .

dan bai is a hongster i hate , but an egg i love .

dan bai is a flirt i wanna bite .

dan bai sux . but i stil love dan bai .

dan bai so kanasai .

504 here n there . dan bai looks like shit .

dai bai so small size .

dan bai ehs , nothing le la . hahas .

die . if dan bai read myye blog i jiu die . later he use da frying pan come n smash me . hehes . grrr . bite him . don ferget ue owe me myye hug kaes . lols .

darling gerl ` im going workie soon . dan bai is already off tu his work . so i am soon . hees .

alan peh hwee yew .