im goin crazy . one last dae . im lettin go .

ue say ue change le . ue sae ue dun even noe who's urself . think hao hao . ue are stil da one who understands things well .. stil copes things well . gerl , onli things i can tell ue is whether ue wan listen anot le . im anithing n its up tu ue de . dong ma .


ue miss her ? i earli jiu ke yi gan jue dao le . rmb myye nick last few daes . maybe ue never saw . but if ue reali wanna go n seeing her so down stil hurts ue . ue go back find her . i noe i'll end up like her but i'll stil continue with life . wo bu hui rang ni dan xin . its no use writin on blog n telling on msn . she wishes ue by her side ? den ue go bah . although i reali love ue as da one beside me but wo bu yao those around her tu talk about me . sae i snatch de . sae i sae jiao wei . i alreadi lost da one i wanna love le . so if ue go i'll jus take it as ue are part of it bah . maybe she reali needs ue nors . maybe we shouldn't even have known each other . maybe i was reali da one who break eu two up nors . don wanna be da subject in their conversation . ue disappointed in urself ? hmms . dun like tat le . go find her bah . dong ma . i wil tell her hao hao take kare ue de . hehes . dun sad le . i dun wanna see ue sad . or cry animore le kaes . thank ue fer being there with me fer da past few months ..loves .


as fer ur laogong ner . now no me le . so everithin also he wun blame me liao . jus now stil get scoldin from him seh . bad words sia . cb seh . sae til kana i also snatch ue like tat . so now at least everithin also none of myye business le . ue can go out with him liao . do everithin nawh . hmmms . jus like tat nors . n pls pls pls tell him is ue never tell me in advance sometimes den i dunno ue two goin out de hors . not i snatch ue den eu dun wanna go out with him de kaes . kanasai . everithin myye fault . hmmms ,. jus spent more time with him can le . no need buy things or what tu show ur love towards him de . dong ma ? loves ~ .


finally,everithin's gone . love .. frens . everithin bah . finally . i reali dun give a damn fer anithing le . i'll take it as its all over bah . so sick n tired . everithin's lost . stupid me cryin everi night again . si bei sians . dunno what da fark happen tu me . i'll let everithin go . everithin's gone . gerl , tmr's mye last dae with ue . i wanna it be a nice one kaes . smile bah =) . tmr plae plae plae le . guo le tmr , jiu don talk le . no more fone calls from ue kaes . no more nothin . promise me , our last dae shall be a memorable one . *cryin* .


im not suppose tu cry . i promise myself tu be strong . from da dae after tmr . u'll start ur life again with her .no more me . i promise myself not tu cry but it jus hurt so much , i reali cant control myye tears . i've long not cry fer so mani tears . maybe i was da extra one all da wae . maybe i was da one who was suppose tu be alone but i took awae everithin .. promise me tu take kare of urself n ferget our memories fer ue to be happi with her . smile da wae ue use tu last time. blame me fer being selfish . i noe i gonna miss you . but i'll keep quiet tu let ue go an xin yi dian . ue are alwaes da one i would rmb . alwaes da one i once treasure . i promise ue i'll be there fer ue whenever ue need me . i'll alwaes be ur listener . i'll alwaes be da one when ever ue need someone . promise me not tu hurt urself . smile da wae eu think ue should .


why the hell am i cryin like a idiot now . when im alwaes da one at fault . im sorri . so sorri people . i reali dun wanna things end up like tat . it hurts so much til i dun wanna be the one tu live . it hurts . hao tong hao tong . leave n never turn back again my gerl . never .... its all myye fault .. there wil be no more ue .


darling gerl ` thanks fer everithing . thanks . zhen de xie xie ni .. i jus wanna ue stae happi n take kare jiu hao le . its enuf ...

dead medicines,rusti penknifes . those lonely tears .. those hatred feelings . 27o4o6 .

i'am not suppose to care .

i'am not suppose to live my life .

wishing you were there .

i'am not suppose to wonder .

where you are or what you do .

i'am sorry i can't help myself .

cause i'am so in love with you,my precious .

they swore they'd make it work,vowed to stay together,dun wanna care about the distance . she gave him all she had,she did her veri best . but he stil slip away from love n failed the test . while she was thinking of him,he had found another,he said he couldn't do it,he couldn't promise what he promised . she was devasted,her heart was torn straight out,she's been such a fool,she should have listen to her doubt . from then on,they stopped talkin,never spoke again . while he was with his new girl,she was dreamin of him . everydae she cried,tryin to fight off the pain,but the hurtin had never stop,n it jus shot through her everi vein . months went by since endin,but she onli grew worst,she couldn't accept what happen . it was love cursed . it finally overtook her,she couldn't stand it anymore,grab a picture of him with her,and snuck out of the front door . she walked into the woods,found a secluded place,memories flowed,n tats how she's been replaced . hours later she was found,in a pool of fresh blood of hers,and beside her they found a picture of theirs . as lovely as angels smiling but it turn into her nightmare . on the back of the picture wrote the reason,why she took her life,what he did to her,it seemed he was the one holdin the knife . though he didn't kill her physically,but he tore her soul apart which felt worse than death . it was obvious what n how she did,it was all becos of a little broken heart ...

i wrote tu you from hell `

my song leavin its foot awae from the grass `

flowing towards the way of recarnation `

and the wall must have wrote your name `

leavin myye soul on earth `

mother heaven showed up ask " `

can a song replace a broken heart ? if its a yes,mother heaven would dedicate a gentle song to let me leave n R.I.P in hell " `

loves not as easy as you think ..

you said we cant be together becos u were brothers with him , i was eventualli hurt n i held myye tears back . myye frens were all around me shock .. i told myself in the night .. why .. why did ue do this things to me .. he loved me .. but i've onli treated him as myye brother too .. ue were myye brother fer years . yet only til now,im wiling tu confess yet ue run awae from reality .. sayin you cant bring urself tu do this n ue dun wanna hurt him .. ue never think .. the one ue were hurtin was me .. i held my tears back .. i dun wanna show mye frens i was sad again .. yet i cried whenever im alone .. or in the night .. its becos of ue i cant control myye temper animore .. its becos of you . i ended up slashin .. swollowin medicines .. n you never even cared .. i waited fer you outside school,yet i dun see even your soul .. how much have i been hurt .. i dun wanna myye friends worry . i dun wanna myye friends get angry .. i suffered myself .. quietly .. no one noein .. your photo above .. n its me who wanna remember .. how i wished i could bring up my strength n braveness tu ask ue " have ue ever love me ? " .. how afraid i am .. afraid the ans wouldn't be the ans im waitin fer .. i noe i wanna love ue . its ue who wanna stop me .. im sorry i cant ..

darling gerl ` her nightmare is ue . her fear are her frens . its all becos of ue . she's sure no one understands . she's sure no one believes her anymore .. ta men shuo wo men zhen de hen pei , dan ni xin li hai shi bu yong shu wo men liang ren zai yi qi .. hao xiang mei tian neng jian dao na ke ai de ni .. smoochies . ~

im startin tu run wild .. so wild .. 2oo4o6 .. ;

those memories are startin tu come back so close .. yet i dun wanna anione tu noe .. tu keep it from them .. i smile like da wae i use too wenever with them .. i dunno what's da prob with me .. dun leave me quiet .. cos i'll reali end up like da wae i use tu end up those previous times .. so ue can let me be .. i mish those daes with him .. its all da fact .. i cant get it why i ended up like tat but i jus dun wanna think if i have a choice . i have alreadi tried tu keep moiself up with work .. but its alwaes hauntin me .. hauntin moi dreams .. those swit loveli dreams are all so destroyed by those memories i dun love .. never sae ue understand how i feel cos ue are not me .. not me .. boi .. i noe .. i noe ue are runnin awae from those realities .. why not come straight up tu me n tell me ue love me once more ? i noe ue dun wanna hurt me but im jus so willin tu go through everithin once again .. those smokin nonsense are all so comin up again .. i jus hope tu stop . now , its moi turn tu hide myself from da fact im facin .. its me myself runnin awae .. can i dun see ue again ? no more miracles .....




im startin tu give up everithin one by one .. frens who cant be frens .. not even lovers .. yet i dun wanna tu start a new one .. im stoppin myself from everithin .. yet im someone who acts tu be so normal n pure =)) .. im startin tu lose the sense of frens love .. startin tu lose everithin .. are frens fereva .. ? no .. no .. no .. not ever .. they are all so fake yet acts tu be real .. aren't they ? .. i dun care fer who i am now . i get through a dae by a dae .. not gonna understand anione .. animore .. why am i runnin wild again ? or am i thinkin too much .. whatever da fact is .. i wanna leave ue alone from now on .. be independent n go bahs . im so sick n tired of everithin le .. can someone come n pull me up ma ? so tired le .. can i cry out loud again ? pls .. im so tired so tired . no one understands ..




think should i follow darlink next month go put ahem ma ? hmmms . not ex at all nehs .. but sccared pain pain nia .. darlink sae wil wors .. siians .. hmmms . next month arhs ? moi b'dae nors .. put ahem at waist there $4o nia nehs .. den darlink next month wanna put another pheonix .. dots .. i put one on moi finger the other on moi back bahs . mostli is like tat nors .. hmmms . so darlink arhs .. see ue next month .. hahas . hao hao take kare urself lors . no kana s0 bad mood .. hahas . dun miss ur mother liao nawh . whakakas . hehes . hmmms . btw .. can someone tell me when is mother's dae mar ? hahas . cos i dun reali give a damn nors . onli interested in noein .. later some idiots sae i bo xim .. dots . hmmms .




everidae is so sians .. so sians so sians . haish .. i've decided tu go fer tat modellin thingi liao .. hmmms . ya . i wanna go .. hmmms . now bian bian slpin . jus now bring him go groomin . aiya . dunno la .. hmmms . now i veri sians nehs . dun wan write le la .. see everione da next time i wanna write bahs .. hmmms . bye bye .. see ue .. mish ya people .. hahas . so depress .. so no mood . hmmms . can i dun give a damn fer everithin le ? hahas . tat wil be g0od ue noe ? hmmms .. dunno nawh .. i wanna go orh orhs liao .. loved everione by me . * sprinkle sprinkle water * . whakakas . hugs . smoochies .. hmmms .




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ why love me .. why care fer me ? no used .. ue gave up everithin . everi faith me . im so afraid i cant continue without ue . . why hurt me with those words n expressions .. wo hao bu xi huan .. i have realize after a few daes ue hurt me with those words .. i realize tatwe were over between us long ago .. so long so long ago .. but why do i beg ue fer being together again ... its not me im lookin at .. i finali understand da meanin of da change in life .. how people in ur life leaves n whatever .. yi ge ren de xing ge .. hao rong yi bian .. i wanna a fren who totalli belongs tu me .. haish .. _

baobeix .. !! .. 18o4o6 .. -

ba0beix .. !! happi b'dae wors . hahahas . eu todae die liao .. sure tio til veri cham de . whakakas . ue are dead .. present i wil asap give ue de kaes . hehes . hmmms . todae in sch watch out arhs . recess same somemore . moi class those siao kias sure do ue til ue ki siao .. hahas . love ue loads kaes . bestie sistars fereva . muacks .. mish ue .. whakakas ..




i noe i aren't no happi this few daes again . i noe moi unhappi moods are all comin back .. i dunno why .. i jus miss me all of a sudden .. yet he's ans was askin me to ferget da past .. must i ? must i reali let go everithin . i shouldn't have went down tat dae .. i shouldn't have . wo tu ran jian you sha sha de zai deng ta .. hao tong ku ohhh .. i mishh you .. hao xiang ni de baobao .. those 8 months with ue ain't no joke .. its all memories .. it hurts again .. im cryin once more ..




i wanna control control control moi tears .. but im too unable tu do so le .. what am i gonna do wors .. wo zhen de hen xiang ni .. i noe what's not mine jiu shi not mine le .. but can i have ue back once more .. pls .. ue are someone nobodi noes .. yet eu would also be da one no one wil be guessin right .. wo ai ni ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ wo bu xiang zai ai le . neng ma ? zhen de hao tong ku .. rang wo zi ji jue de hao gu du .. they stil think im smilin right .. im laughin with moi heart .. im not .. ii noe im not .. have ue ever understand boi ? _

i hate ue . 17o4o6 ..

i hate
people who thinks they understand me well ..
anione use moi name ..
people who use moi pictures ..
people like him .. everitime paoto things about me tu kor ..
him ..
backstabbers ..
people who hate me ..
when ue are gone ..
things i dun like de jiu shi liao .. especialli him .




todae da subject is about him .. he's such an idiot . a bastard . aiya . whatever .




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ bored ..

one last sentence ..

i suddenli feel like goin tu moi 2nd home again .. 'ESPLANADE' .. how .. who wan pei me go this few daes . everidae also can . i don mind . suddenli feel like diggin out memories . cos i noe moiself i wanna cry out loud again but i jus cant . ani kind soul willin tu help ma ? hmmms . ng xin hui .. wan ma ? pei me .. hmmms . hais . suddenli start tu pin on memories again wors .. suddenli mish so mani of them again wors . die ... sians arhs .. !! . haish .. sobs sobs ..


DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ i rmb dreamin of him last night . haish .. i noe im missin dem again .. i noe .. kill me bahs .. _ =[ ..

hao borin wors . siians sia .. hmmms . 15o4o6 .. -你还爱我吗 .

hmmms . i also ferget what happen todae liao . onli rmb actualli is do hw de . den the end also never do . hahas . slack here n there . roll here n there . hahas . hms . so sians nors . hais . tmr also dunno goin where . no place tu go nors . wil someone sensible jio me out ? haahas . todae nothin reali much tu write la . jus like tat nors . mood stil not so good bahs . but aiya . kan kai abit nors . hmmms . kaes nawh . go liao . buais buais . mish me . i miss town n bugis sia . hahas . bleahs . see ue people next time round . whakakas .. btw . actualli goin sentosa tmr de nors . the end never cos xin canot come out . hehes . i wan go sing k . tmr ask xin again . hahas . hmmms . diaos .. keep sing kbox . but i noe buey sian de nawh . den hors . xin de b'dae hors . is freakin romantic lors . i also wan . i also wan . hmms . but aiya . around me de people all toot toot de . dunno what is romantic . if its reali romantic hors . they wil think its childish . is them childish lors . dots . hmms . aiya . dunno la . hahas . i wan go liao . buais . see ya . hahas . hmmms . tmr den blog again . see got anithink happen anot . hahas . diaos .



DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ the more i dun wanna miss ue . the more moi mind reflects those memories . i noe its hurtin but im jus so unable tu control .. i've turn intu someone so weak again yet the strong face of me acts da same .. wil anione care n ask ? cos we have our probs .. i reali reali miss ue . i promise n i swear .. hart`s ue . those fotos .. have ue thrown them all awae ? have ue thrown those pics we shared awae ? .. wo zhi xiang wen ni " .. ni hai ai wo ma .. yi zhi hen xiang wen ni zhe ju hua . que hai pa ting dao ni chen shi de hui da . " ... i noe ue love me no more . im sorri ..

a disappointment .. a pool of tears yet he dosen't even sense it .. 15o4o6 ..

it was a total disappointment n it made me led down those tears i dun wanna led again .. thinkin maybe we can even end up as best frens or even frens but nope .. none .. ue took me as a stranger .. ue took me as someone ue don wish tu noe again .. they said they was goin tu meet ue fer awhile .. so i thot maybe goin down with them was a good idea .. at least maybe ue could sae a hi or give me a look .. but when i went down .. a look ue didn't eben give . not even a smile or a hi i was waitin .. was that the least ue could do fer me ? i thot n i made myself tu ferget ue totalli .. when i thot i have did it .. it turn out tu be a disappointed ans .. no i have not .. what made me pin on ue so much ? so much ? i ran n cried n called . yet ue didn't even give a damn .. no ue dun .. am i tat so not important tu ue animore ? ue dun even have tat little feelings ? dun ue wanna ask tat question ue alwaes use tu ask ? dun ue wanna be with me again ......... ? those looks at ue reali made me think of da past .. those memories .. no one noes .. no one .. somethin i wanna sae . . sometimes people might find me weird .. i .. i .. i can be veri good at times .. sometimes no .. i dun even noe why .. so can ue people don blame me ma ? a weird character .. a farkin attitude .. i dun wanna end up like this .. no .. after what had happen ytd . i reali hope things would be beteer so much fer me .. don sae im too young tu understand things .. becos i dun like people tu sae this .. dun ask me questions tat i dun like . or tell me things i hate like " ohh . ue are too young la .. dun understand " .. fark rite ? i not human mehs ? stil got feelings de rite . sometimes i reali think myself understandin more things den some other people who is older than me . haix . whatever . wo bu dong . she me duo bu dong .. can i don live animore ? hmmms . aiya . dunno la .




wo bu xiang zai ai le . she me duo shi pian ren de.. zhe xie dong xi hao jia ohhh .. hmmms ..




hais . im waitin waitin stupiditly fer ur message .. fer ur calls .. wil ue cal ? wil ue even sent a message ? wil those questions ue ask be logic ? i miss you .. missin ue ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ no ones my life . no ones my love .. i dun wanna anione tu love me . boi . its worthless tu shed those tears fer me in da cinema n come out laughin like ur normal self . i noe its not ue cos i've known ue fer so long .. although its not as long as the others like him .. but at least i may understand ue like them .. we can probably continue as our closest but not as close as those couples around us .. im sorri if i made ue cry ytd , im sorri if i made ue suffer ytd . im sorri so sorri if i made ue so jealous ytd . im was jus doin what moi mind askin me tu do .. i hope ue would find someone beeter than me .. bu yao dui wo na me hao le . wo zhen de pa yi zhi yi lai .. wo shi zai li yong ni .. i hope im not .. ue are someone i gonna treasure .. trust me this time hao ma .. guai guai de hui dao yi qian bahs .. hmmms . hais . sobsx . sobs . _




even if i smile n laugh todae . it wun be da real me . it wun be someone so true .. so fake yet no one realises .. im jus so sorri tu those who i have hurt . so deep so deep .. " im prayin n prayin ue would be back .. " .. sobs .. *cryin* ..

its her bird dae . perfect . yet instead of a princess she's a birthdae idiot todae . 14o4o6 . -

now lei ? idiot sia . ferget me le lors . hehes . sae what afternoon she meet her frens at nite meet him . er xin la . i so loneli sia . stil dare ask me find xin hui . den i tell her " cynthia dear .. happi b'dae ! " .. isit ?! . hmms . ue becareful sia . later i sae ur punishment is no present fer ue i tell ue . hehes . den let ue regret never celebrate with me . hahahahas . so how so how . may i know what ue wan as ur punishment .. hehes . hmmms . whakakas . nvm . i got xin hui . bleahs !! .

oh moi god sia . ue noe what . i ytd go suntec de kbox sing song . ue noe what ? freak nors . not enuf money den must ask syl dey all come down pae onli $3 . hmmms . so pai seh lors . stand down there like beggers nors . hahas . hmmms . den todae goin chinatown de kster sing . hahas . dun ue think we crazi ma ? good mawh . hahas . sing sing sing den next year become 2nd year de xiaoyuan superstar . hahas . no la . jokin nawh . impossible de . hmmms . hahas . so sian nors . i now rottin le . after this blog i wan go bath liao . den meet xin . whakakas . hmms . later at nite go watch movie with xiaoping kor n bing ru boi . whakakas . todae so busy sia . hahhas . actualli hai hao nawh . hahas . hmmms . actualli todae go sentosa de . den the end never go . hahas . why this few daes keep rainin arhs ? can dun rain anot ? veri sian de lei . sometimes can spoil mood de lors . den make moi bian bian down there shiver here n there . ! . hmmms . cos he scared of thunder n lightning ma . hmmms . den shiver til veri kua zhang nors . den me n papa baobao him . whakakas . now he better le . think he's bodi got those small small tiny tiny black black licks nehs . wonder must do what nehs . how arhs ? anione got idea ma ? hmmms . sians de nors . todae feel so weak nehs . siians . like walk everiwhere is drag moiself de . hmms . hope mondae sick sia . den mondae tuesdae no need go sch . hahas . hmmms . so shuang .. den i rather rot at home . hahas .

wa . ue noe hors . exam comin le nehs . aiya . dunno nawh .. mid year exam . if i now sae i must studi hard must jia you . people sure think i siao de . hehes . eat wrong med . but aiya . i concentrate more on moi eng n chi n science nors . hmmms . pass eng i jiu got confidence liao . hehes . dunnoe nehs . see lors . see mid year how . see i heng or not heng nors . hahas . later suey suey fail all . no nawh . impossible la . kaox . abit kua zhang lei . fail all . wa biang . hehes . hmmms . must pass lors . hmms . overall pass can liao . ue noe hors . miss chin tell xin n pat i become good gal le nehs . hehes . so shuang nors . hear her sae like tat . whakakas . hmmms . guai kia liao la . but i all da wae also veri guai de nehs . hahas . kaes nawh . gtg liao . must go bath liao . if not later meet xin sure late . hahas . buais buais . people , mish me kaes . whakakas . hmmms . hehes . moi bian bian barkin again liao . hehes. . hmmms . see ue people kaes . aiya . i ferget i told beibei darlink i todae goin bugis nehs . siao liao . aiya . later must remember message her sae i todae not goin le nors . hmms . wil meet up somedae kaes darlink .. whakakas . smuackies .. hmmmms ..

DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ i love them loads .. whakakas . 11o4o6 . - _

no titles . 12o4o6 . -

those daes .. i remembered .. stil so sweet .. 11o4o6 .. ; -

hey hey people . so long never write blog le . dunno since when nawh . but the time shorter den la0gong can liao . hahas . she hors .. dunno can how long never write de lors . me nehs ? at least few daes must write one time ma . hahas . hmmms . this few daes sians sians wors . nothin tu do . everitime .. everi week also do same things .. hehes . but think this week abit different le nors . whakakas . fridae tat cynthia dear b''dae sia . wonder how are we gonna tu celebrate fer her sia .. stupid nehs .. den next tues laogong b'dae .. more die .. she sae present no need give .. all accumulate . hahas . more stupid rite . those netballers sae wanna buy charcoal give her .. ahahas . den moi b'dae also comin le . hahas . may ehx ehx may 13 hors ? i ownself also ferget nehs . whakakas . think so nawh . ya la ya la . openin chalet bah .. haven even booked lors . tats da funniest thing among da joke . hahas . slowli nawh slowli .. think baobeix kor june also got open chalet .. hahas . so mani chalet .. den maybe moi primary school class de also got chalet . sians .. chalet here n there . sure veri fun de nors . but too much chalet wil sians nawh . hahas . stupid rite ? diaos . hmmms . got ani bbq ma wors ? why everithin chalet ? people think they too rich liao . hahas . but not includin moi nawh . cos moi is b'dae ma . hahas . hmmms . kaes nawh . b'dae de thing sae til here liao . sae too much wil go crazi de sia . keep thinkin about da presents . hahas . moi wallet alreadi blank le lors . hahas . poor me sia .. who wan kup money together buy present ? kakakas . so i no need spent so much .. hahas . cleever me .. bleahs . kaes kaes ..

cynthia : what SH ? hahas . dun care her la . she noe she noe lors . ue two also not underground de ai qing ma . stil thinks she n clementi de people veri good . si bei tao yan her nehs . stil dunnoe why . aiya .. if she try tu break ue two up hors . impossible de lors . she alreadi da dao ta de mu didi break me n GH liao .. so she break ue two fer what ? backside itchy mehs ? impossible de la . dun care her nawh .. her business none of ours .. hahas . its da fact ma . SH cal mr.bee fer what again arhs ? .. dunno what shit nawh . next time tell me again . aiya . i dun wan put her whole name out in moi blog is cos i dun wana dirty moi blog . dong ma .. hahas . not i humji . kekes . why ? ur mr.bee stil treat her as sistar arhs ? hahas . siao ginna . dots . . but i this guai kia never care so much le nawh . hehes . bu yao guan ta . wo men guo zi ji de shen huo jiu hao le . hahas . hmmms .

ng xin hui : tootpid laogong sia . ue two also got own de laogong liao . i saein ue n cyn la . hahas . but single carefree nawh . todae talk so mani things . so chim . lucki we two noe what we talkin about nors . hahas . talk about last time .. talk about those things we alwaes think . hais . think last time better bah ? hmmms . suddenli allso realize we stil 14 nia . hmmms . hahas . think about where we goin after we die .. so tong ku . think until wil ownself cry . hais . this type of thing i dun think must think too much nors . if not cut a few years off ur life . hahas . hmms . also realize we two love to have freedom alot alot . hmmms . jus wanna someone beside us tu teng ai us .. tu guan xin wo men jiu enough le . hmmms . suddenli we two talk so much about life . if we everitine eat steamboat everitime talk like tat . sure understand alot things about each other de nors . hehes . we dun like people too straight forward .. cos we si bei du lan . but if we two nia .. straight forward tu each other. we don mind . ahaahas . hmmms . kaes nawh . if one dae onli left we two nia hors . hahas . must hao hao take good care of each other liao . ue arhs !! dun disappointed cos of her le . if she wan end this thing like this jiu let it be like tat hao le . ue got nothin tu lose .. cos she alreadi left ue with memories le .. don think too much kaes . i wil be there fer ue de . whakakas . hmmms .

patricia thng : baobeix gerl . dun think too much le . i have moi own life ue also have wors . somethings should be left behind de . dong ma .. hmmms . dun toot toot everitime cry le dong ma .. sec 2 liao nehs .. somemore ue got one bro in sch . dun let ue two throw face kaes . hmmms . im stil with ue rite ? dui ma ? somethins dun wanna tell ue cos dun wanna ue worri . ue noe ue this type everitime scold scold scold .. we also dun like ma . so must keep things from ue de . dong ma .. i also not keep everithink from ue wors . onli tat single secret onli ma . den ue cry til like this .. hmmms . don cos of me this baobeix ue led down so mani tears kaes . xin alreadi tell ue le . must kan kai . people wil change de .. ue can see da change in me dui ma ? take me fer an example kaes . promise me must du shu hao hao . hmms . hart`x ue loads ..

aiya .. tu ran jian fa jue dao i dun wan studi de reason le lors .. todae talk with laogong xin too much liao .. den realize .. hmms . maybe cos i think in life not onli study can settle everithin bah . tats why im not interested in studyin bah . its not everithin .. maybe stil can do everi other things bah .. hmmms . aiyo . dunno nehs . not books can settle everi single thing .. whakakas . sso now savin money .. tryin tu pae fer tat hair stylin thingin bah . sians sians . expensive nehs . $8ooo h0rs !! . hehes . kua zhang hors ? slowli nors . hais ..

weijie : hmms . not dun wan reply ue . not dun wan sms ue even as a fren bah . let me kan kai abit i jiu wil reply ue le .. ask xiao kev take charger come hors . i den dun wanna contact him . tell ue another time kaes .. not we gei gao .. its da fact nors . if we onli take ur fren hp den not fair nors . tat time moi tat guy fren talk de dun care him nawh . chee bbye kia lai de . snatch moi hp talk de . me n xin think hao le . give da charger n another $8o jiu hao le . like tat we have $2oo nia nehs . ue all sell da hp n got another $8o jiu got $24o nehs . dunno nawh . this one is me n xin de idea . reply ue de thingi .. let me len jing down le den reply ue bah . bu yao wei le wo nan guo le .. hmmms . hais .. hao hao take karries bahs ..

lalas . nothin much too write le bah . tat sundae when sentosa .. plae plae plae . hahas . we down there bury ehx .. peter .. tian long n benny . benny ke ai nehs . si bei ke ai nors . admire his cuteness nia la .. hahas . veri retard nors . hahas . think of him i wil ownself laugh .. cos he retard mar .. !! hahas . toot sia .. like tat nors .. hmmms . den nothin le nors . mondae never go school . todae go school so sians . bag blank de . tmr go sch . thurs go . yeah .. fridae never go liao . hahas . thanks jesus sia .. hahas . hmmms . good fridae ma .. i wrong mehs ? hehes . think correct nawh .. tootpid .. hahas . bo liao nors . er zi n kor open one toot toot group cal da shaggers . noe da meanin ma ? hahas . means everitime si bei shag de .. hehes . dunno nawh .. stupid nors . im included lors . hahas . think xin also included . cos todae cos see her shag den i shag de , hahas . hmmms . dunno nawh . kaes nawh . wan go liao . wan go arrange moi windows media player de song liao . hahas . buais buais . mish me kaes . hehes . smuackies ..

DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ thank ue fer lovin me .. those memories .. young,sweet,innocent memories .. i reali mish those daes . . i suddenli miss 5D n 6D loads .. hmms . mish those daes we alwaes plae n alwaes gave each other surprises .. did everithink together . punish also being punish together .. hahas . mish da whole class except fer da three sluts .. talk about them wil spoil moi 5D n 6D .. so they are so not included . hmmms . harT`x those people being with me alwaes loads . hehes . muackies . ai si ni men le . hahas . hmmms . _

zhi xiang hao hao ai yi ge ren .. o5o4o6 ..

shall we talk about xiaoping kor todae ? hmmms . suddenli ask me go ivan de chalet .. suddenli sae alot of things wors .. so confuse .. bing ru er zi keep hintin me somethin . but i stil ccant get tu the point .. forcin myself tu think n rethink about this sentence i thought myself . " zuo le xiong mei yi jing yao 3 nian . nan dao shuo zai yi qi jiu neng zai yi qi ma ? " hmmms . wonderin . but impossible kor kor wil ai shang wo zhe ge mei you yong de toot mei mei . hmmms . noe each other fer so long le . if suddenli reali reali together de hua .. no one wil believe wors .. xin gan keep sae me cum kor veri pei .. but i don think just pei wil can be together bahs . hmmms . nahx . think i also zuo mei de dun anihow think so much nawh . later all is anih0w guess de jiu si bei throw face lors . hmmms . kor sick sick la . cough cough cough . flu flu flu .. bu hui ting de lei . ask me dun smoke dun drink . ga ki also so sick bu hui hao hao zao gu zi ji .. stupid ue . hmmms . kor . boi keep sae ue got somethin tell me . if ue reali got thing tell me . sae kaes . bu yao hai wo yi zhi xin yang yang de deng .. hahas . hmmms .




i need someone who can teng me now .. hmmms . see xin n cyn so happi . reali happi fer them .. two also got laogong liao .. gerl .. must hao hao zhen xi them kaes . whakakas .




whee . tmr goin k box again . whakakas . go marina de . so tmr who wan find me jiu go there find me . spot me . hahas . goin with xin gan n cyn dear . hmmms . cyn so toot . win le lors . mornin stil go picnic with frens . er xin man .. i n xin gan studyin she playin . win le la . so fast graduate . dunno how to wait fer me this ke ai de dear isit . hahas . leave me alone in da stupid outram secondari . ue noe how sian de ma . n oh ya . btw . cyn .. see ur blog de tag . cute rite ? hahas . xin gan so toot . tired le stil sae not tired . sae must call her laogong . er xin man . hahas . finalli learn abit liao . noe how tu sweet sweet de taalk .. noe how tu cal laogong liao . good improvement . i teach veri good hhors ? hahas , ue arhs . toot . take kare la . hahas . love ue loads . xin gan ish moi ba0beix laogong .. hahas .




bian bian so di siao . take da winnie de pooh de bottle n bite . idiot nehs . keep bitin me . ke lian nors . hehes . who wan ke lian me ? aahaas . this da xiao jie me everidae help him clean shit . clean his ahem . do food . everi two weeks do housework . mop floor . vacume floor . clean house . wa biang . all cos of this xiao gua .. hmmms . later one dae buey tahan den go in back to IMH . whakakas . den go there zi bi moiself . whakakas . people must come visit me kaes . hahas . ue can find me at bed 49 . find cyn dear at bed 48 . find xin gan at da last bed . most siao de . bed 5o . hehes . all cos of bian bian . hahas . stupid bian bian .. this few daes wanna become pig le . eat eat eat . hehes . fat alot le nehs . i wan take him go on diet liao . hahas . so long never bring him go out le . cos keep rainin . den also dunno where bring him . somemore this few daes so tired . hmmms . maybe sat bringin him go sentosa . i noe he wanna go bio char bo again . so er xin . hahas . so anione wan pei me go sentosa ma ? moi xin gan sure got go de .. hahas . cyn also bahs .. hahas . okies sistars ? hmmms . whakakas .




tmr lei . so sians . got tu go school again . haish . sure slp in class de . no need sae de . whakakas . den after school got math remedial . siians . more die . den xin gan also got math test . siians . moi next tues . no need do de n0rs . sure fail de . whakakas . den after tat we go home . den change . den i change . must feed bian bian . clean his things first . den after tat meet xin gan n cyn dear at marina bahs . dunno nawh . me n xin gan sure meet first de lors . hahas . den we go sing til late late kaes . whakakas . do siao char bo in k box . hahahas . dem after tat sure go either fer supper or straight awae go home de lors . hahas . tats what gonna happen tmr . dunno what wil anithink new happen tmr lei . hahas . diaos . hmmms .




weix . i veri long no ppl give me surprise le lei . so ke lian . anione wanna sponser me with ani surprise ma ? hahas . oh ya . this year openin chalet also .. all welcome kaes . about one more over month moi b'dae jiu come le . whakakas . wa . ue noe hors . xin n cyn de b'dae wan come le lei . wallet wanna blank le lors . ke lian sia . hehes . maybe moi present fer them is help them open bbq nors . hahaas . den kup money with others tu buy food bahs . whakakas . buy whatever thing nawh . hahas . hao bu hao ? shall this plan continue ? i find abit good lei . den we ton outside . next dae all dun go sch .. hehes . good idea .. den next dae all go see doctor . hahas . anihow bomb reasons . whakakas . sowie nawh . this one anihow think de . dun care me .. whakakas .




kaes nawh . i tired le . reali tired . sians wors . friendster stil cannot use nehs . hmmms . me wan go orh orh liao . so tired . wan go comfort cyn liao . she sae she n mr.bee like quarrel . haish . sure tat mr.bee fault . all guys are da same . so no need ask .. hmmms . he dare make cyn dear sad i wun let him off . dun care he clementi or whatever shit de liao .. dun like people make moi jie mei sad .. hmms . du lan .. hmmms . kaes nawh . reali wanna go le .. tmr den write blog kaes . hehes . bian bian is stil bitin his toys n moi bottle . shit bian bian . whakakas . kaes nawh .. buais . mish me . mish ue loads loads . hahas . take karries kaes poeple . lalalalas . hmmms . good nites ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ ai yi ge ren hao tong ku . bu xiang zai ai le .. ru guo zai ji xu de hua . wo zhen de hui bian feng .. wo zhi xiang hao hao de ai yi ge ren . ye hao xiang na ge ren neng hao hao de teng ai wo .. hao hao de zao gu wo .. zhe ge ren hui shi shui nerhs ? hmmms . hao xiang zhi ai ni . dan wo de xin bu xiang rang wo hao hao de ai ni yi ge .. HEART`xue .. _

to da special next person i gonna meet .. ; song fer ue .. whakakas .unless ue teng me loads loads nawh .. hahas .

how do i ..
Get through one night without ue ?
if i had tu live without ue
what kind of life would tat be ?


oh i ..
i need ue in my arms , need ue to hold
you're moi world , my heart , moi soul
if ue ever leave
baby you would take awae everithin
good in moi life .


and tell me now
how do i live without ue ?
i want tu noe
how do i breathe without ue ?
if ue ever go
how do i ever , ever survive ?
how do i , how do i , oh how do i live ?


without ue
there'd be no sun in moi sky
there would be no love in my life
there'd be no world left fer me .


and i
baby i don't know what i would do
i'd be lost if i lost ue
if ue ever leave
baby ue would take awae everithin
real in my life .


please tell me baby
how do i go on ?
if ue would ever leave
baby ue would take awae everithin
i need ue with me
baby don't ue know that you're moi everithin
good in my life ?


how do i live without ue ?
how do i live without ue baby ?




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]-




don't leave me in all this pain
don't leave me out in the rain
come back and bring back my smile
come back n take those tears awae
i need ur arms tu hold me now
nights are so unkind
bring back those nights when i held ue beside me .


unbreak my heart
sae ue love me again
undo this hurt ue caused
when ue walked out da door
and walked out of my life
uncry those tears
i cried so many nights
unbreak my heart


take back that sad word good bye
bring back the joy to my life
don't leave me here with these tears
come n kiss this pain awae
i cant ferget da dae ue left
time is so unkind
and life is so cruel without ue here beside me


unbreak my heart
sae ue love me again
undo this hurt ue caused
when ue walked out of da door
and walked out of moi life
uncry those tears
i creid so mani nights
unbreak my heart


don't leave me in all this pain
don't leave me out in da rain
bring back those nights when i held ue beside me


unbreak my heart
sae ue love me again
undo this hurt ue caused
when ue walked out da door
n walked out of my life
uncry those tears
i cried so mani nights
unbreak my heart


unbreak my heart sweet baby
come back n sae ue love me
unbreak my heart sweet darlink
without ue i jus cant go on .


DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]-

they said im strong enuf tu ferget ue n live on .. o3o4o6 . -

mani said im strong enuf this time not cry so much .. but after so mani daes since 28o3o6 .. i noe im not myself animore .. i tried smilin n laughin so much so much .. although i did it .. but those feelings aren't da same .. so since da dae wen i said i gonna take it tat i have never known ue befer . i pray tu moiself fer ur happiness . but i also pray not tu see ue or her wenever i go down tu town .. i pray not tu see ue . not tu hear anithink about ue .. pray everithin tu keep me awae from ue .. so promise me .. never ever find me again .. i force moiself tu delete ue from moi msn .. moi fone .. moi mind . so promise not to message me again .. not tu even cal me .. i dun wanna see moiself like a ghost again ..




no one believes i've alreadi fergotten ue .. 他再怎麼好,也是昨天的事了 .. hmms. people .. dong ma ? ..




todae ? suey dae .. get caught fer tat .. get caught fer this .. siians . hmmms . the sight of everi sch makes me puke .. finaali wait till when i finished sch .. den alot things happen nawh . jus dun like todae . hmmms . den go 5th floor . maybe onli outramians noe its where . hahas . went there with patrick . wei sheng . shao lun . tiff . n joey .. hahaas . after staein around there . we went to mam mam . dots . me n patrick so er xin . go plae pepsi with those food with it . mix together n fightin in da shoppin centre . see who die first . hahas . so mani people lookin lors . eeee . den later patrick kay kiang run run run never see . den da drink accidentli pour on one char bo head . hahas . like tat he never even sae sorri jiu run awae le . so cb hors ? hahas . he's like tat . like father like dotter . hahas . den we jiu run awae . security come chase us den we run like heell .. whakakas . all run go home . some run go back sch .. hahas . dots rite .. hmms . den at night suddenli never meet xin cos she la . everitime like tat . hahas . den suddenli 6pm .. lydia sae wan meet me go plaza mam mam . so we two meet there nors . hahas . eat le with syl they all come back moi house here . den take bian bian down give them see . dots hors . whakakas . lydia scared dog den keep callin me applo.. i also dunno why . dots . dun care her nawh . she hors . hmmms . with brandon 1 over year le . few daes befer jiu break .. haish . see her kana buey sad . i sad if i was her . i would have alreadi jump down from moi house . hehes . but dunnoe her nawh . hahas . she a cold blooded creature .. shhhh .. whakakas .. like tat nors . den about 1o bah . jiu come home le . earli hors ? hehes . guai kia ma . whakakas . like tat nors . hmmms . now bian bian sleepin bbeside me on moi shuang shuang chair . he so shuang nors . me this princess help him clean shit n his ahem ahem .. omg . dots .. hahas . wei le him everi two weeks or one week once do housework . vacume floor . mop floor . clean furnitures . sometimes iron clothes . think i wanna become a no one wanna de auntie liao . hahas .




tmr also dunno goin sch ma nehs . tiff n patrick n joey kana not goin . sians . i also dun wan go . dun wanna see all da teachers . can i break alot alot alot of school rules n get expelled ? hehes . i would wan tu ue noe ? i dun wanna see school .. books n teachers animore le . they are all so irratating yet they thinks they are teachin us well * puke * .. i dun scold n sae in purpose .. its jus facts im saein .. i eventualli have pervertic teachers in school . especialli tat idiot . who ask me tu pull moi shirt up outside da cantteen tu see whether i've tuck in anot .. not onli me . tiff n judy too .. such a nuisance .. eeeeee .. shoo off nawh .. whakakas . teachers are irratating flies like parents flyin here n there around ur life .. let us perfect students tu shud them up n sew their mouths .. tie their hands n legs .. throw them inside da pool of our school n let them drown .. hahahahas . isn't it a perfect idea ? hahas . funni .




好想好想拥有你,要我怎样得到你,真得不能失去你,否则一切只为你 . i noe da previous me ue noe was a gerl who dosent noe anithink .. who dosent even care when people stare at her . i noe da previous vionna ue noe was someone so innocent .. not so retard yet abit more quieter .. but since the year ue were with her . nearli about a year n a half .. do ue ever spotted how much i have change ? i start tu cry becos of friendships n relationships .. i start tu stare back at people when they stared at me sometimes .. i started tu do things i've never ever wanted tu do befer .. i started not tu cry becos of those damn results i have .. i dun love anione .. maybe someone .. maybe two .. i dun wanna n i reali dun wish tu get clear of moi feelings .. becos i jus dun like it .. im so afraid tu start another relationship again n get hurt .. im afraid tu love again .. afraid of da one i gonna love leave me .. reali scared ..




xin is so bo xim . she never call me todae again . how dare her . i wil bite her tu death .. whakakas . good idea huhs ? but syl would kill me n throw me down moi house nehs . how how ? hahas . stupid xin .. bleahs . she is moi love one .. i wanna die .. die ..




kaes nawh . tired le . i wan go orhs orhs le . haish . moi com de friendster cannot use sia . i wan jio people out go pei me plae community centre de com liao . hahas . cannot tahan le . livin without friendster fer nearli few weeks liao .. die.. hmmms . buais buais . mish me kaes . whakakas . take karries ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ i promise n swear i've fergotten each n eeveri one of ue .. hmms . _

no comments .. o2o4o6 - ;

if one dae ue turn back and look at me .. ue might see a total change in me .. its not becos i wish tu .. its jus becos of the people around me i mix with .. n it shows how people change in life ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ love is somethin so cruel .. yet no one noes . onli me n ue who happens tu appear in da stori of our lives .. _