its all over .. 12.ooam .. da first month of our love .. it ended ..

yi qie duo wan le .. ta yi bu shu yu wo . wo ye bu shu yu ta le .. nan dao ni zhen de gan jue bu dao wo de ai ma .. nan dao ni zhen de xiang xin ni de zhi jue ma .. bu shi mei ci duo shi dui de .. i was right damn happi those daes with ue .. saturdae . sundae .. n it all came so suddenli .. it ended .. todae .. tuesdae .. 28o3o6 .. no more ue .. no more love .. no more me .. but tu tell ue more . im happi with moiself i didn't cry much wen i receive da message tat ue wanna break . in jus two words .. " let's break " .. n ue wanted tu end everithin .. ye shu . i've alreadi learnt tu give up things tat are shouldn't be mine .. people around me might think there's a farkin damn somethin wrong with me .. seeing me smile a month n then cryin again .one dae they should be understandin ? .. since its suppose tu end like this .. den i shall let it be .. .. ue dun trust me .. no ue dun .. ue dun believe tat ue are moi one n onli . ue said i gave ue false hope in meetin ue .. what false hope have i ever given ue . ue reali wanna me sae out .. kaes .. since ended le .. i sae hao le .. " remember tat dae i was sittin beside ue in great world's mac .. remember ue read a message . remember da first word " baobei laogong " .. what was it .. what was this . i dun wish tu ask cos i dun wanna spoil our relationship .. ue never even read da rest n ue kept pressin down .. n den replied .. i dun wanna see .. i dun wana noe what's happenin " was moi eyes playin tricks on me . or was it fer real . i dun wanna sae anithink n now ue shoot things back tu me .. am i suppose tu blame myself or should i sae its all ur fault .. jus a few questions n a few reasons . ue dun wanna tok it out .. yet ue jus sae break .. ue said ue wanna me be happi . so have ue ever noe how happi i wanna be ? i thot ue would understand more .. what can i more sae .. if ue think everithin ue think is right .. what's more fer me tu explain .. nothin .. suan le .. if ue think im stil in da wrong .. den blame me fer ur whole life .. .. .. think its moi fault n tell everibodi its moi fault hao le . fer what i saw tat dae in great world .. ue can sui bian find a reason n sae moi eyes is playin tricks on me hao le .. ue think i treat ue as a spare tyre ? ue see .. everithink ue think ue think .. why ue can slowli talk out things with her but not me .. becos ue think im stil young n dun understand .. so let it be .. im stil da small gal ue all think .. whatever .. maybe .. we shouldn't have even patch at all .. those smiles ue gave .. are all memories again now ..




her : let's break
me : huhs . ?!
her : let's break bahx . im tired le of waiting .
me : waitin of . ?
her : waitin fer ur love ..
me : so what are ue tryin tu sae now .. you are thinkin i dun love ue at all ma ? .
her : i can feel ur love . on n off ..
me : since ue trust ur gan jue so much .. so easili let go le .. i also have nothin tu sae .. my feelings on n off fer ue ? if reali like ta t.. i earli jiu let ue go le .. if its ue da one who reali wanna break .. dun find reasons and think its moi fault hao ma ..
her : if ue reali love me so much ue wun have nothin tu sae now .. ue are moi one n onli but am i ur one n onli ? whereever ue are or whoever ue are with ue dun even bother tu tell me . everitime sae wan meet ue in the end ue wil have somethin on . why give me false hope when ue dun even have e intention of meeetin me ? .
me : isit reali becos of this few questions ue gonna ask tat made ue give up in me .. ue wanna noe ? i dun believe in relationships tat are gonna last tat meetin everidae .. messagin everidae .. talkin on fone everidae .. maybe its becos of those past . i rather see da one i love not everidae .. what false hopes have i given ue ? ..
her : i wan ue tu be happi . no matter how much i miss ue i wun ask ue meet me everidae . i dun wan tu tie ue down . ue can go out with anione but at least tell me where ue are n with who so i dun have tu worri fer ue . i wan tu noe cos i care .if ue reali love me . ue wil hafe e urge tu meet me . i feel like ur spare tyre when ur frens never meet ue den onli ue wanna meet me . everitime ue sae maybe wanna meet meue no ei reject my frens who wanna meet me jus cos of ue maybe . isnt it false hope ? .
me : a spare tyre ? ue have tu sae til like tat ? everithin also ue think ue think .. what thing is not ue think de ? if ue are reali moi spare tyre . i wil not have meet ue le .. eu think im veri good with moi time ma ? ue alreadi sae maybe le .. so why everitime sae becos of me . ? .



da rest continues da time she replies ..




not tu love so much again .. not tu love till it hurts .. not ever .. we are so unable tu treasure ..




wil people laugh ? wil people ever look down on me ? becos of those relationships tat are goin over n over again .. fer me .. i give a 1oo% trust on moi sentiments .. i noe somethin veri bad was gonna happen todae cos moi dae wasn't goood . but i never thot its ue .. i shall not led a tear again . eben if i gonna . it shall not wen im so awake . unless im drunk . if i gonna led a tear down again . it may not be fer ue . but fer those past n memories i have .. those scari fears .. .. ..




tu keep moiself from not havin depreesion .. i shall keep moiself with those works with frens .. with bian bian .. i shall keep moiself veri veri busy .. i shall not think of ue .. i shall not .. .. .. even if i ever think of ue .. it shall be onli fer a while .. jus awhile ..




thank ue fer breakin .. ue made me understand moiself more . like ........... i dun easili cry alreadi .. i learnt tu give things up tat aren't mine .. i have alreadi take things easili n more openli after so mani ups n downs . now .. maybe ue would hate me so much .. but i would sae " its myself .. its me .. it was ue who made things end up like tat .. n not me .. 28o2o6 is a dae tat shall be forgotten by ue n me .. its a dae tat none of us shall ever remember ..




those swwiit talks .. those swwet words .. those loveli kisses n hugs from ue .. are all gone .. i learnt tat things come n go .. so are ue .. remember da dae i added ue in friendster n became ur fren . n then those talks n chats .. n den those meetin up .. n then da four of us .. n den those cryin .. those laughter .. hhave ue also remember da time we saw at safra . n den dae passes by each dae .. til noow .. so long .. it shall not happen again . no more .. shhhh .. those cuts i gave .. ur name i slash on moi hand .. i suddenli felt im like a fool .. maybe ue did reali love me . im sure tu tell ue i reali love ue .. ue gave up so easili .. so now ue dun wanna reply my message . isit becos again ue think there's nothin tu talk between us or ue think ue shouldn't give a damn reply .. or ue have nothin tu sae or isit a long long long reply ue gonna give ? maybe i would drink n smoke moiself to death .. but R.I.P .. im sure tu have moi frens with me .. even all gone . im sure tu tell ue i have bian bian with me .. bleahs ..




i noe im abit retard fer moi whole blog .. but ermhx . entertain me abit wun die de . oh ya .. my frens . ferget tu tell eu all .. if one dae ue see me talkin tu myself huh .. dun worri .. its jus fer a period of time . wil stop de .. or my friends .. ue suddenli see me cryin on da streets .. also dun worri too much kaes .. also onli fer awhile nia .. get use tu it jiu hao liao .. whakakas . im like tat .. but please be glad huh .. im not so terrible this time .. at least i stil laughs .. or isit a bad symtom? hahas . funni huh ? do ue think its funni ? i think so nehs . why i stil laugh .. or huh . am i tryin tu make those smiles tu overcome moi tears ? hahas . isit better or worse ? whakakas . oh ya .. btw huh ..i saw yong jie todae nehs . surprise tat i suddenli talk about him ? whakakas . never thot of after we break tat dae i would ever see him again .. but todae .. we saw each other .. den we was like tryin to block our faces . but dunno what tat idiot peter go tell him .. den he suddenli end up with moi dog nehs .. hahas . not him holdin la .. peter la .. hahas . but two of them together . diaos huh ? whee . but he smile at me .. n i was like faintin .. whakakas . i never thot this would ever happen lors .. hahas . whatever na .. dots ..




kaes na . end moi blog here .. i gonna flider with other things alreadi .. gonna call petern cum tian long tu tel them i alrite .. thanks fer those callings but i never ans .. hahas .. cos i dun wish tu talk .. ermhx .. dunno wanna call anot .. see first la . hahas .. kaes kaes .. gonna rest moi eyes .. its so itchy n moi gastric is gonna burst soon .. miss doctor saes tat if it continues tu pain like tat . i gotta be rush tu the hospital fer da next two daes .. moi deari cousin saes if reali this happens . i gotta undergo a operation . although its a small one but YEAH . im dyin im dyin .. YEAH .. !! . is anione happi fer me ?! hahahahhas . finalli im dyin .. silentli .. whakakas ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ i reali dun noe what's gonna happen fer da next few daes .. maybe someone comin up slappin me .. hahas . slap bah . i sure kill da hell out of ue .. hehes . jokin .. i also dunno what i gonna do .. ermhx .. maybe deprression ? hahas . i wun .. maybe cry ? i dunno .. thot i sae not easili led a tear down again ? hahas . dunno la . jus dunno what's gonna happen da next few daes .. hmmms .. _