everthiin's over . hao bu rong yi de wang diao le ta . eu lai le yi ge . i've waited so long fer his sms . so long . thot he would jus hate mi so much . but he did message mi on new year's eve . it made moi dae . den we start messagin like normal close frens . askin wad am i doiin . n bla bla . thinkin tat i would have da chance to patch up with him . cos meetin tmr . askin him to be moi fake stead to bluff tat idiot off . but but ... i let him noe xin hui ler . i dunch even noe . he took number from her . n now its like im the one being like cynthia . helpin them to get together . n haiish . i dunno . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . do eu noe how much it hurts . ur love one lovin ur best fren . ur one n onli best of bestest fren . i jus have to keep quiet . why . cos i was the one who let him down first . i was the one who gave up first ... people use to sae " a word named love ish meant to be selfish . even if someone ish ur best fren . n eu love tat guy . there's no wrong snatchin him awae . " no . wrong ler . im not this type de person . why should i hurt her becos of him . since he loves her . n i obviousli noe she fell fer him from the first time we met him . so why should i break them up . hmm . she noes i loves him too . but i should be da one to step out . no why . no reason . no reasonsss .. i noe wad she's thinkin . i noe . im jus so tired . so sick n tired of livin . of playin this game called love . its so out of .. ?? .. im sure a failure . i loses each game whenever i play it . wenever it ends . den i would regret makin tat move . regret movin to the next step . moi heart's breakin deeper . so deepli . gerl . dunch think bout me ler . eu not so easi den found da one who eu loves n someone who loves eu deepli . go for him . pls . dunch give him up jus fer da sake of mi . even if eu give up . dere's no chance of him lovin mi again . so why end up none of us cant get him . go fer hiim . i give eu a 1oo% . eu two would be happi . so wad they sae i n him pei . so wad they sae i n him ish gonna be a lovin couple if we are together . so wad . he's alreadi n0rt moi . im alreadi not he's .. i've messed up things again ...
cried at chinatown todae . again . its not becos of _ _ _ _ now . but becos of _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .. haiish . haiish . i cant take it ler . but jus let moi tears lead to moi face . he dosen't noe why i cried . cos he's stil so blur as last time . he didn't noe why i cut moiself in front of him . he stil didn't noe . 28 cuts means nothin to me . it never hurt so badli as how im hurtin in moi heart . i feel nothin . nothin at all . no one noes why . no one noes . im lettin him go . [ MOSTLY ] .
im so sick . todae never go skul again . skul ish sho bored . sho bored . i wil onli sleep in class . so i dunch noe why should i continue studyin fer . breakin moi bones . freak it . hmm .
kkx . got to go ler . he's the him . im stil moiself . jus turnin from bad to worse . i love him stil . but i gotta let him go with someone close to miie . he's no longer moi . i think . from the begiinin of so long . so long . mish eu all l0ads . thanks fer viewin moi blog . love ya . take karries nehs . hmmm .
DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ i failed all moi relatioships . im such a failure _*
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