31o1o6 .. im jus so confuse by how eu feel .. n wad eu think .. ;

wad can i jus sae .. wad can i sae .. met eu up todae . n bla bla bla things happen . actualli .. nothin much happen .. dunno la . wadever .. i got no mood again . bu yao re wo .. bu yao ... come if eu dare bah .. i got no mood .. wun plae this type of children thing de .. haiis ..wadever .. guai kia tong .. shake ah shake ah shake ah shake .. yo arh yo arh yo arh yo .. ARHS ... im tokin nonsense .. im half dead .. im jus followiin mogan's nick name . haas . lalas ..wadever .. he's retard .. he never contact me .. i dunch like .. i mish roy .. i wanna bite somethin .. moi mouth ish itchy .. he's dead .. im dead .. everione in moi life dead .. im cuttin moi hand again . im sorri ppl .. im goin crazi again .. im sorri humans .. i miishhh hiim .. wadever .. i got $3oo fer moi ang bao's . how about anione of eu ? shuang ma ? im dead .. now got $3oo also no use .. it seems like i cant even bring him back .. wadever .. hey .. to tat fuckin person who ish readin moi blog n tellin him anithink .. once more time .. fer goodness sake .. dunch add things in n leave some words or sentences out ok .. thank euu . i got no mood to sae euu this type of crazi person .. wadever .. i wan go talk on fone with moi dear cynthia le .. shhh ..


oh btw .. moi dear cyn bought me a flower .. eu noe the mini toons de .. haas . n i bought her one .. whees . i love her .. love eu .. hahas . thank eu nehs .. haas . AND .. she tried cheerin moi dae up todae but i think she failed. haas . retry pls . hahas . whakakas .




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]-

is it all over ?

the person who is readin moi blog n decide to tell him anithink now .. why u dunch dare sae out who eu are .. why .. guilty .. or scared .. pls la .. if eu wanna sae ..sae everithink horr . dunch onli sae abit abit n anihow put things in la .. now break le .. eu happi bo ? .. dunch care eu gal or boi la . pls la .. how old liao . noe how to read moi blog should be around moi age or older de la .. pls la .. undercover veri nice to do mehs .. stil ask guan hong dunch sae out .. wa biang .. hopeless human ..




break le .. are rumours can be trusted ? can ? no ? but wadever i heard is like all da same .. those frens whom i heard from have no connection .. wad da hell ish this .. patch ? yeah ? no ? .. wadever .. wenever this type of things happen .. everithink come out .. out of control .. this few daes reali si bei tired of everithin lorr . go out.. come home .. sleep .. everithink so normal .. nothin much to write ..




hey moi frens .. thankiies fer being there with mi wen i needed all of eu da most kks .. thankiies fer tat two minnies .. haas . which i hugged whole dae through .. thx fer payin moi whole dae expenses .. ermhx .. n tat who are .. calvin .. thx fer tat cigg ue gave .. so retard .. i reali had moi dae .. mornin was reali a terrible one .. but ermhx .. afternoon till night ish reali fun .. haas . korr . korr .. eu wan die arhx ..act cute .. haas . moi da sao same age as me .. dots lor . i ytd den noe lei .. haas . so xian mu her.. haiis .. xian mu her got one so good de stead like moi korr .. see them together .. mi also happi le .. but hope moi da sao wil treasure lorr . moi kor ish like so damn good lor .. ermhx .. she sick need panadoll .. no matter how far moi kor wil run go buy lorr . haiish . aiya .. everitime so good de guys everitime tio give people liao .. diaos .. but heng he stil moi korr . most teng me among all his meii de .. hahas . think i should be proud of it le bahs .. whakakas .. den tat johnson arhx .. hahas . make me depression at plaza sing de mac .. ma de .. haas . but he also good la .. lent mi his big big big jacket ... haas . veri big lorr . den i wear short de ku zhi ytd ma .. den like onli wear one jacket . hahas . moi ah boi sae like chicken .. also another act cute one .. all take foto all act cute .. haas .. aiya .. we go cuppage plae pool ma .. den i cold .. cos i sick ma .. haas .




ok la .. i dunch wan write le .. hmm .




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ wadever . i got no mood _

gonee .. ? fake / reality ? - 29o1o6 ;

no messages -
no calls -
no replies -
no answers -

is this love gonna be over ? or ish this love ish onli startin its beginnin ?
it shouldn't be like this,i thot -
etc ; this afternoon . message him ..
no replies ..
thot maybe he hasn't wake up ..
about 12 somethin . called him ..
he said he was eatin .. after eatin reply me ..
till now .. no replies .. no calls ..
i dunch understand why ish this happenin .. no i dont ..
is the reason becos of our past ?
or ish da reason becos of her ?
or is da reason becos of last two daes ?
2 weeks of our love story ..
onli two weeks .. isit reali gonna end ?
millions of questions in my mind ..
im jus so confuse .. so confuse ..
i thot this love of ours was gonna be fereba ..
why did it end up like tat .. i dunch noee ..
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ... 16o1o6 ..




loads of messages -
no calls -
loads of replies -
did answer -

saw eu tat dae outside sch with loads of guys around eu on fridae ..
took a glance of euu ..
thot maybe it was fate ..
den moi tears came down wen i was in da car ..
dunch understand why , wonder wad were eu thinkin ..
the next dae ..
was with roy at city hall's mrt ..
saw eu walkiin with ur fren , passin by me ..
eu look at me all da wae while i did da same ..
wen eu pass me . i turn moi head . hopiin tat eu will too ..
but eu did not . moi voice jus came out shoutin ur name ..
but there were no response from euu ..
i was so lost . didn't understand why eu didn't even sae a hi ..
message eu asap .. den realize eu were actualli rushiin fer somethin ..
indeed i went crazi tat moment .. soon ..
understand eu n her break ler .. dunch eben noe how i felt tat moment ..
happi ? sad ? angry ? no feelins ?
ii dunch noe ..
messages were startin .. pei me todae ..
went to ur house ..
manage to put ur DOGS to sleep ..
laughiin with ur sister ..
den i went home without a bye ..
_ _ _ _ ; unknown date ..

ur b'dae : may 3rd - moi b'dae : may 13th - moi papa b'dae : may 23rd ..




roy . thanks fer being there wen i needed someone to pei me worrs . thanks fer peiing me to moi baobei b'dae which satisfied him . thanks fer entertain me eben if moi jokes weren't funni . thanks fer makin me laugh worrs .. thanks fer all ur encouragement .. hmmm .. ii noe eu mish me . hahas . meetin up tmr rite ? so dunch mish too much liao . hahas . well . i've got nothin to sae but i reali wanna thank eu fer everithin .. reali .. mish euu loads kks . *blink*..




have ur love been fadin fer me .. eu wil not die without meetin me fer a dae huh .. are eu back fer revenge or are eu reali tat busy .. eu're makin me confuse . turnin me round n round .. what's da use .. why dunch eu tell me da truth .. make me ferget everithin .. n maybe if ths love ends .. it wun hurt so much n there wil be not much memories .. are eu takin mi onli as a toy .. or wadever .. i've reali gotta nothin to sae .. let us see what tmr gonna happen kks . haiish .. its reali a game of love ...




arhgs .. todae ang bao onli got $252 .. or isit onli fer this year .. diaos diaos diaos .. fed up .. why so less ? how how how ? aiya . nvm la .. dunch care . whakakas . todae being force wake up .. go 1st uncle house bai nian .. den jiu go mummy there . go gim moh first .. den dunno go where . den after tat too bored . buey tahan .. den with delphine jie get out of tat stupid big house . den meet _ _ _ _ at admirity de mac .. den go _ _ _ _ house . den play with the dog .. laugh here n dere . put the dog to sleep . i think they think moi thigh veri nice to slp . hahas . den eh . nothin much happen .. tmr nehs . maybe goin _ _ _ _ house first ? goin / not going ? .. dunno la . den at night meet roy . hahas . den dunno stil gotta meet who liao . dunno la . hahas . todae de blog nothin much too write .. not much think happen . all i noe ish i wan to die liao .. flu gettin worse . zhui hao shi wed fever . fridae den need go sch . hahahahas .. i must eat more pineapple tarts .. drink more cold water . hahahahas . ok . i shall do tat . especialli eat more chocolates . yum yum .. orhx . ytd meet kor n calvin kok n moi house downstairs . kns lei .. so funni lor . calvin at moi house downstairs dance .. den me ask him teach . he dance nice lor . but too bad he too small size liao . haas . give me a few years more n im sure i wil be taller tann calvin n roy . whakakakakas . hahahahas . ok ok . gtg .. buais buais . mish me ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ should i trust eu ? or no ? i hate her .. her .. n her .. _

hmm . earli afternoon write blog . haas . bored ma . den few daes bo write liao . 26o1o6 ;

to hiim ; to da one i've not seen fer long : after months . although with those sms n calls . but there were no meetin of us . i rmb i even thot of patch but news came tat eu were attached .. it was such a letdown .. n i broke down everi min .. rmb eu said ? " after euu . maybe i not findin ani other stead le .. " .. rmb ma ? . den wen i heard eu actualli after me got 2-3 ex le .. eu noe how i feel ma .. it was like .. so fast lorr . i stil rmb the feelins i had . angry . sad . funni tat i actualli made a fool out of moiself . haiish . den decided to give up on cryin . waitin ... found another guy i lubs ....... thot tat we gonna be happi together .. yesh .. indeed we did . but it seems tat i stil dunch trust him 1oo% .. if this relationship dosent last . i noe its gonna be moi fault .. saw eu todae .. tats why i wrote bout eu . eu gave me a look . but i could onli take a glance of euu .. cos .. i dunch wanna others to wu hui .. n moi father was like rushin fer time . maybe it was fated fer me to jus look at eu one more time . eu gave me da feelin of love .. yet i dunnch noe wad feelins have i given euu .. so wad im onli thinkin now ish .. maybe its zu ding de .. eu shall now love her with all ur heart n i shall now try lovin him with all my might .. maybe eu should throw those memories i had with uu . eu didn't leave me with ani gifts .. but onli those bunch of love photos we took together ... i threw some reali sweet ones awae to ferget bout eu . kept those tat i wun dig so much memories out .. i hope eu will too ..


to moi one n onli ; moi boi : if eu had ever got da chance to see this blog .. or which ever fuckin idiots tell euu . i hope eu would understand by all means .. i often get confuse by moi own feelings . so i do reali need eu to understand . dunch worri . but eu are reali moi one n onli .. i hope im ur one n onli too .. i reali hope too .. dunch mind me fer saein not trustin euu .. cos i once hurt eu real deep before [ maybe .. about tat time ] .. afraid tat eu are jus back to take ur revenge ? . . i dunch noe . but i jus hope moi mind would jus stop thinkin .. im willin to give up anithink fer euu . jus fer da sake of euu . hope eu wun let me down . i miz euu ... even if i stil have da feelings fer moi ex .. but trust me . I WIL FORGET HIM .. I WILL .. we have onli been around bout nearli two weeks .. but we alwaes had fun .. da laughter of ours seems so bright .. i wish we would last . last til da time we end our daes . hope no one wishes or tries to break us up cos i noe it would reali affect our relationship .. kkx boi ? .. i lovee euu . i mish ur hugs everitime eu go .. but i alwaes treasure the times we are together .. smaucks ..


omg .. take those things as rubbish .. the things i jus wrote . haas . kks . let me see . arhx .. moi pa give me $5o todae . whakakas . fer me to buy shoe .. den i can take some go buy baobei present . tmr lei . tmr baobei b'dae . kekes . me goin with laogong . lalas . tonight gonna pei laogong go watch wad soccer la . dunno wad singapre v.s dunno where . hahas . i think i gonna bored to death huh .. nvm . i borrow ruselle lee de singapore true ghost storybook from judy liao . later bored den take out read lorr . haas . wonder how tonight wil be like . haas . todae xueyi fight with firuz n weisheng . den she call her stead come down . her stead ish char bo lorr . butch i stil dunch mind lei . NOT BUTCH LEI . wa lao . more straight den me . haas . den so funi lor . she in front of teacher take out fone . cal stead . wa . alot la . veri steadi jiu shi liao . haas . den we all so worri fer wei sheng . so i onli got one thing tel him " wei sheng . dunch care her . eu got me n meverick in da class to save eu . she cal stead come down . we got frens . she act nia . dunch care her kks . anithink cal me . " . hahas . dots . i feel so retard .. kakas . den now i also dunno wad happen . onli noe i saw police car in our sch . style lorr . maybe cos of xueyi this thing bahs . hahas . she abit siao one lei . can tok to herself or laugh to herself de lor . omg . diaos . heng me n moi dear deari frens are normal . wa . todae in sch sick sick . cold sia . den sms peter . ask him lend me jacket . den he dunch have . so he sae lend me PE t shirt . hahas . den i cover whole dae . like jus tio rape like tat . so stupid lor . den after sch late come out . den he go first . haas . so his PE t shirt ish stil with me !! i shall draw vigourously on it . haas . todae whole dae so sian . tmr also dunno wan go sch ma . cos tmr last two period ish dunno wad celebration . scared too sian . den tmr after sch go change . go pri sch . den at night go baobei b'dae . hahas . xi wang tmr wil nothin happen norr . kekes . now me waitin fer laogong come moi house . he sae wad he go bugis buy jeans first , if not must wear underpants come out liao . haas . retard lor .kks la . i wan go pom pom liao . so tired .. kekes . buais buais .. btw worr . me hope esther jie ok worrs . they break ler . she now like tio depression like tat worrs . hmm . me wan cheer her up asap . well . " jiie . eu take karries kks .. mei love euuu . ai si ni ler . "


DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ vion lurbries guanhong _ dunch ever break my heart . dunch ever .....

ii lovee euu nn onlii euu .. wad a crazii dae todae worrx .. 24o1o6 - ;

wheees . i tmr den write .. veri tired . i wan go slp ..

nvrbere|aced . schh sux siia . . .

hmm . let me see worrx . todae ermhx . afternoon wake up pack room . siians . so tired . pack here and there . siian nehx . befer packin i wait fer laogong to wake up . den corr him . he sae 1o mins . haas . the end dunno an hour or two lorr . so i decide to eat moiself . kekes . den me continue packin . sweepin . cleanin . like maid like tat . kakas . den after tat corr cynthia . diao lorr . she got stead liao . stead somemore ish bookie . den si bei kao bei wan . stil sae i kao bei . kaos . noisy lei . den we conference on fone first time ma . den he so diam . wa kaos . think he also 17 years old veri big mehx . kana lan . aiya . dunch care him la . sae bout him den spoil moi beautiful mood . so after tat meet cyn at 5.3o . den we go river valley there eat . eat liao go great world walk walk . siians nor . but nvm la . hahas . cos i also veri bored ma . hmmm . kekes . den after tat about 8 somethin liao . tat cynthia sae she wanna go home liao . den gang hao laogong message me ma . ask me help him go chinatown there choose clothes . cos so late ler . den onli with him . so dunno can ma . den me corr papa lor . cant imagine n i never thot of tat he wil let lei . den since he let i jiu tell laogong ok lorr . haas . den after me jiu so wait at busstop fer laogong bia taxi down . den saw chap n the dunno who la . den kekes . ask them pei mi . den after tat they leave me alone go plae pool . den i let them go lorr . hahas . den i sae i go back wait fer laogong . cos stay at bus stop veri stupid . den after tat i go ler awhile laogong jiu come liao . wa lao . wan go tat time saw clarice n one guy . so pai seh . hmmm . den they talk talk talk . den after tat we wan take bus go chinatown tat time . we saw another laogong de fren . dotx lor . den niam niam niam again . den we go take bus . haas . todae two of us so retard lorr . kekes . den after tat walk to chinatown ler . den laogong call papa ask him how to walk to maxwell road there . cos we wan go pray pray . den after tat reach ler . den me n laogong pray pray . durin wen we wan go pray tat period of time i dunch wan sae wad happen la horr . den me go pray sae " .... " haas . cannnot sae out . kakas . den after tat we take bus jiu go home ler . cos late late liao . kekes . den after laogong pei mi walk til moi house there jiu got to go liao . cos he also must quickly reach home . den mi go ah ma house take things first den go home . after tat reach home ler . abit tired liao . den call laogong . he sae he wait fer taxi . dunch wan go home by bus liao . den i sae orhx . den we talk talk talk . haas . now jus put down fone den he go eh . go bathe . haas . tmr wil force him wait outside moi sch . lalas . kkx la . me wan go rest liao . wait fer laogong corr me . hmm . buaiix .


DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ i dunch wanna go sch . i dunch wanna . _

should i be fucked up or should i continue with my life ? ; - 21o1o6 -

to whoever eu think eu are : iif eu think everibodi ish toleratin moi attitude . den let it be . eu ownself sae eu my jie . wen i did not sae anithink . so i shall entertain euu . if eu think i reali give everibodi moi fuckin attitude den i shall sae im sorri . this ish who i am . at least ppl noes i have moi reasons . at least i stil have frens . so pls . im not someone who wil stick to moi own sistar or fren stead if i noe tat he's alreadi someone's stead . i wun even stick to moi fren or sistar stead frens . oh come on . i was da one who brought eu to noe them . n excuse me . if i did not rmb wrongli . eu was da one who wanted to so called wanted to come with me . im not someone who wil reject ppl so straight fowardli . so i didn't sae no . n think properli . if eu reali think moi boi's frens wanted to reali meet eu . fer goodness sake . they seemed to be jus entertainin eu . dunch act ler . i didn't ask eu to stay at moi house tat dae . eu were da one who wanted me to help eu polish ur nails . i didn't deperately asked eu to stay at moi house to pei mi . so why tell moi boi's fren tat i desperately wanted eu to pei mi at moi house . why follow up moi boi even eu noe he's alreadi moi . i thot eu rmb moi house no. why tel moi boi eu didn't habe n eu dunch even rmb . well . pls . if eu think moi laogong = moi boi would fall fer eu . den go . go n message him all eu wan . go cor him all eu wan . if one dae he reali fall fer eu . without ur ani fuckin tricks . i vionna chan give myself to eu . i pei fu eu . from tat dae if he reali ai shang ni . i fereva put moi head down wenever i see eu . why follow them to clementi todae . aiyo . eu also not one of them . eu also not one of the sistar . eu follow fer wad . eu think lyin got use mehs . mi not wan at blog talk bout eu or wad la hor . jus wan eu go think . if eu reali think eu wan be moi jie or eu reali think eu my jie . eu read ler go think . like this got use ma . even if eu dunch have the meanin to take awae moi boi but im sorri to tell eu tat eu gave a wrong impression . oh ya . heard before me n moi boi together huh . on one mornin eu told him eu love him huh . wen eu noe i need him so much huh . eu think consoling him wil be so fun ? oh come on . to tell eu da truth . wenever i talk bout eu about anithink in front of him . he would jus change his face impression n give me a feelin his heart ish goin "eeee" . rmb tat dae eu so called deperately wanted to pei mi n moi laogong to find his fren . eu noe wen eu go smoke or wadever . i dunno which dae . moi laogong de fren eventualli even ask me " omg . why did eu bring her . wa biang " . so why dunch eu think . eu lead a wrong impression . or maybe it was a purpose but too bad i could look thorugh euu . hey gerl . im tellin euu . if eu reali wanna break us up . try us . if eu wanna be with moi boi's fren . den eu try too . tok bad bout me . cos i dunch care animore . i dunch .. i dunch think i even understand euu . if eu wanna me to reali trust eu . i reali think it goona take a long time . i llooked through everithin . i think nearli everithin bout eu . it seemed to me like its such a disappointment . dunch ever make mi sae " it's over between us " ... btw . get close to moi laogong's fren all eu wan . cos i dunch think i care so much . havin him . cyn . xin . pat beside me ish jus enough ..


if eu ever once ask me . have i ever treat eu as a true sistar . i would sae yes . BUT . i would also sae . but now . to me . uu r such a disappointment . eu jus made me seemed to hate eu so much . n if eu ever again ask me once . have i ever treat eu as a true fren . i would also sae yes . but i wil also sae . i dunch think now tat eu r a true fren . so now do eu understand why it seems tat all ur frens around eu would at least hate eu once ...


hey peeps out there . if eu reali think i have a fuckin attitude . i shall repeat da same thing . im sorri . this is jus me . i can tolerate a person til so long . but dunch make me tolerate too much . cos it wil soon be over . i've even tolerate a person fer one n a half years . now . we r not even frens . we take it as we have not even known each other . so people . do me a favour . if after this blog . eu think eu reali hate me . eu think eu wil give attidtude til i cant stand eu . den pls . i wil be honoured if eu fucked off from moi friendster . moi fren list . moi msn . moi fone book . moi mind . before eu wanna fuck off from moi mind . pls at least tell me first . cos i dunch wanna be like a fool . do eu understand . thank eu .


BOMBSTER . IF EU WAN UR MP3 BACK . GUAN HONG ISH NOT INVISIBLE . EU DUNCH HAVE TO ASK OTHERS TO TAKE IT FROM ME . N PLS RMB . GUAN HONG ISH SO MUCH TRUSTFUL N CLOSER TO THE ONE EU THINK EU CAN TRUST BESIDE EU NOW . WADEVER EU THINK . PLS .


i noe moiself im such a bitch . but so ? so ? . i ask eu . eberione has their own character . i can be retard at times . but not mani people have seen me serious befer . cos im someome who tolerates people easili . ask those close ones around me . if eu reali treat me as ur sistar or fren . eu wun easily scold me . or sae eu r tolerating me . we would jus fergive each other so soon . so fast . aiya . wadever . be someone close to me . dunch backstab me . dunch lie . dunch do things which i hate ppeople to do . eu would noe im someone so different as eu think . im not sayin til im so damn proud . but . i dunno . noe mi well . eu will noe ...


whee . all i noe ish ytd laogong pei mi whole dae at home . kekes . all we do ish slp . use com . watch tv . eat . haas . kekes . he's moi 184 . lalas . no one can take him awae worrs . if reali someone does n i noe ler . i reali dunch care tat person who ler worr . mi vionna chan use moi name n all moi darliink's name jio tat person 1 one 1 liao . cos he's jus so important to me . kakas . laogong . im urs n u're moi . whakakas . love euu loads . esplanade ish fun . hahas . todae half of da dae at esplanade with laogong onli . mi wan hot to death liao . i wear til si bei jap go lorr . den cant imagine i onli go esplanade . den go marina n tiong nia . wa biang . kekes . but aiya . nvm .can be with laogong can liao . he hoor . ask him todae go clementi dunch fight . den go sparring . idiot . sparring until hand got blood . ma de . which chee bye kia so knn . fuck . not happi need to beat until like tat de ma . hmmm . make me so du lan lor . me onli one night cannot pei laogong nia den he go sparring . arhss .. n cant imagine no one stopped him . freak . nvm . since its over over lor . me todae at night go pei cyn watch tat memoirs of a geisha . nice lei . style lor . kekes . everibodi must watch arhs . kakas . hmmm . den moi tat laogong i think he drown in da bathroom again liao . bathe longer den me lei . wa biang . now call him like i callin wall like tat . kakas . den after da show mi n cyn go take neoprints . yeah . tiong got neoprint shop liao . suddenli i find tat place more n more shuang liao . haas . den we take two machine den we two jiu no money ler . so long never take foto liao . haas . den todae take le i so happi . so far so good . satisfied with all moi pictures execpt fer one . which i took like a idiot . shit . i llook so black in tat pic lor . cos we laughin laughin den i go walk past den take down . freak it . hahas . den after tat go home i keep call xin baobei . ask her why this few daes bo call me . den she sae she stress n busy . so mi wan ask her take kares liao . so ke lian lorr . ermhx . must do all housework . must give da shen jing bbing de sistar qi . must give tat d0tx bro of hers to let her vomit blood . must nearli everidae train netball . haven buy newyear clothes . got so mani homework . got tat stupid project . sians norr . wan help her also cant . ownself also cannot help liao . tmr must alone clear room . sweep floor . mop floor . packed whole room jiu shi liao . siians nehs . hmm . too bad laogong cannot help mi . if not i ask him do everithink . kekes .jokin na . me wun torture him til like tat de . haas . kkx la . he finali ans fone ler . me wan go ans liao . dunch disturb arhs . kakas . buais buais . mish mee . haas .'


DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ i noe i love him loadx . so dunch anione dare to take him awae from me . wad a tired dae shall tmr be . fuck da world . i dunch wan studi liao . _

wheee . i also nothin to sae . ; 19o1o6 ;

whee . im bored im bored .. kakas . now tokin on fone with laogong . so funni nor . sae wad tmr come moi house den reach ler den call mi . den i tell him cannot . coss cannot let him see i jus wake up de pattern . hahas . so bored nehs . yeah . tmr no need go sch again . pon again . hahas . this time dunno wan go get medical certificate anot lei . hmmm . kakas . ask laogong pei mi go see doctor . oh ya . todae go shoppin . so shuang . at bugis spent $2oo . kakas . idiot horr . hahas . i sumpa wen laogong tmr come moi house i sure help him put nail polish . hahas . put blue de . kakas . same as me . who ask him di siao mii . di siao mi tat time dream tok . den tell him alot things . kakas . todae shoppin with cynthia shop until so tired lor . bag so heavy . sad sad nehs . todae bo meet tio laogong . he lor . kanasai lei . suddenli sae need to pei his mummi go out .. kakas . den wen receive tio tat message . moi whole face turn black in class lorr . hahas . aniwae . todae also nothin reali to tok lor . tmr de blog la . sure got alot things to tok de . hahas . btw . todae mi . shao lun . judy . wei sheng pon da ipw thing . sians lor . go see doctor den waste $5.1o . hahas . jus to take MC . kakas . we all four see lei . den all same time . teacher sure suspect de lor . aiya . dunch care la . got mc can liao . die den die lor . zui duo expell onli ma . i more happi nehs . can everidae pei laogong liao . hahas . kkx la . dunch write liao . i wan go retard with laogong liao . he todae abit siao de . like influenced by me . become so retard ler . drink water must repeat so mani times . den sae wad bomb here n there . hahas . i wan go entertain him ler . buais buais .


DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ i noe i stil dumch trust eu 1oo% . but i promise euu . give me time . i wil learn to trust eu wholeheartedli .. _

ii have euu now . never ever eu gonna leave mii . moi smiles are back -- 18o1o6

fer daes eu remember i cried everidae in front of euu . the tears i gave eu eu didn't noe . since 16o1o6 . eu made the choice again . being with mii . eu bright up my dae again . now,i cant even bare not to see eu a dae . eu seemed to be my everithin . jus everithin . i smiled n laughed fer da sake of euu . jus onli euu . da time in sch,i dae dreamed nearli everi min bout euu . didn't even realize tat a soul was talkin to me . i noe eu are jus moi sweety pie . im ur dolly's DJ . kakas . da tootpid times we are together are gonna be memories mi n eu are keepiin . i was jus so touch wen i didn't reply ur message ytd . n i doze off . fergettin to message euu . i never knew eu would wait fer da whole nite fer me . tryin to wake up everi hour to see whether i've replied euu . but cos eu were too tired . eu onli wake up a few hours after . messagiin mi everi single time wen eu wake up . wen i replied eu this mornin . i ask euu . eu said " scare eu leave mi cuz i love eu alot and i reali can't loose eu again .. " eu made mi so happi . noein tat eu would actualli said tat . fer everi message wen eu sent with a "laopo" . i would jus keep it inside my mind . noein tat it would never disappear . i jus wanna eu to be with me fereva . never let me down . ii promise . i promise i would never let eu down again .message to euu " laogong . eu heart itchy wan smoke den sae . kekes . dunch sae eu cannot quit . kakas . let mi see . todae eu dunno smoke how mani le horr . but tat past few daes can dunch touch la . hahas . hmmm . lovee euu kkx . miishh eu loads . dunch alwaes oversleep in bus arhs . if not i tickle eu again arhs . kakas . "

ARHS .. everi dae can meet laogong . so shuang . kekes . but .. hmm . afraid fridae . sat n sundae cannot meet him worrs . sobbiies . but nvm . he promise sat wil come mii house pei mi do housework de . hahahas . he sae first time do housework worrs .later mop floor den he accidentli go mop the mirror . kekes . wun la horr ? moi baobei laogong not so tootpid til so kuang zhang de horr . hahas . hmm . todae so happi worr . meet him den go esplanade with long water n si hui . we buy the fire crackers plae . so funni nor . dunno like wad . hahas . sae wad pray fer tat bomb cos he die ler . hahas . bomb himself to death . kakas . next time must bring more people go . hahas . meanin nehs . xin baobei must go . cynthia must go . alot nawh . kekes . den go there like siao siao . kakas . todae mi tio tua l0rr . nb . xin n judy sae wan meet go find job . wen me n laogong wan go find them tat time . suddenli call mi sae dunch wan liao . freak norr . den i at tat moment dunno du lan til how . aiya . but dunch care nawh . hahas . hmmm . dunno laogong sundae wan go where nehs . dunno nehs . he sae til i also blur blur de . hahas . meetin cyn n laogong n xin tmr go shoppin buy clothes . so happi nehs . i sure shop til i siao de . hahas . although onli got $2oo over la . sians . kakas .

todae wen tat toopid si hui come moi house tat time . waste my paper . writin all sae wad she rawks la .. n bla bla bla . den go anihow paste in moi room . hahas . den dunch let me go bathe till laogong reach me house . idiot norr . i bath til half den i thot she call me fer wad . so i open door la . i tio chua l0rr . laogong also standin outside . heng i onli show moi head . hahas . den i wear tat stupid towel walkin here n dere searchiin fer moi clothes . den tat si hui like horni like tat . keep ask laogong see . heng he guai guai . never see . onli keep facin the computer . kekes . den i keep shoutin at si hui . bad lei . she shout at moi ear lorr . den i shout back . hahas . fight at home . dotts horr . den si hui la . keep ask mi change tat clothe . den change here change there till papa come back . diaos lorr . den laogong kay siao sit on bed act innocent . kakas . dunno nurh . mi never with laogong er ren shi jie befer lei . hahas . one dae must go somewhere together er ren shi jie . kakas .

sians nehs . tmr needa go sch again . i muscle pain lorr . teacher nurh . do sit up 55 times n pumpin also 55 times . run 15 rounds lorr . i like run 17 rounds like tat lorr . poor me . but nvm la . train ma . hahas . zui duo suffer abit nia . i also never tired till where lorr . omg . tell eu all somethin . I SHRINK . I ACTUALLI SHRINK FROM 154 TO 152 . dotts . but i got grow thinner abit la . now 43kg nia . hahas . tat time dunno 45 or 44 lei . hahas . lalas . must continue on moi diet . nice nice . new year wan come liao . got money again liao . miissh moi bank . hahas . go bai nian tat time . i wan bring laogong go xuan yao . hahas . sure tio nag de lorr . hahas . opps . i hope tmr pa wake up late . den me no need go sch ler . hahas . i dunch wan go sch tmr . sian . must stay back til 5 somethin nehs . wa biang . so tired . moi eyes also wan close ler . kakas . hey . noe somethin ? me n laogong todae den realizee actualli he stay moi block nia lei . his papa stay 2nd floor . moi papa stay 14th floor . hahas . so funni lor . den we two was like so shocked lorr . kakas . but too bad he move to his uncle house ler . cos he fight with his papa den aiya . bla bla bla lorr . me wan him move back nehs . den at least no need worri which dae cannot see him liao . this time is sure everidae can see him ler . hahas . but he cannot come back nehs . his papa tell him sae he dunch have this kind of son . sians lei . bored up . hahas . aiyo . why i like everi paragraph got laogong de . kakas . cos his moi ma . hahas . kkx la . me wan go concentrate sms with laogong liao . dunch disturb . hahas . kkx la . buaiis buaiis .

DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion <3>

ii wanna be wiith euu all moi life . til da dae moi dae comes fer me to go . ii dunch wanna eu leave me . cos eu are jus a part of me ..ii lurvee euu ..i jus hope tat wenever i open moi eyes . i would see eu beside me .. everiwhere . cos eu are the onli one i can see now ..

jiemeii qing shen-yong yuan de jiiemeii- im willin tu give up moi love fer euu .. 13o1o6_

everthiin's over . hao bu rong yi de wang diao le ta . eu lai le yi ge . i've waited so long fer his sms . so long . thot he would jus hate mi so much . but he did message mi on new year's eve . it made moi dae . den we start messagin like normal close frens . askin wad am i doiin . n bla bla . thinkin tat i would have da chance to patch up with him . cos meetin tmr . askin him to be moi fake stead to bluff tat idiot off . but but ... i let him noe xin hui ler . i dunch even noe . he took number from her . n now its like im the one being like cynthia . helpin them to get together . n haiish . i dunno . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . he loves her . do eu noe how much it hurts . ur love one lovin ur best fren . ur one n onli best of bestest fren . i jus have to keep quiet . why . cos i was the one who let him down first . i was the one who gave up first ... people use to sae " a word named love ish meant to be selfish . even if someone ish ur best fren . n eu love tat guy . there's no wrong snatchin him awae . " no . wrong ler . im not this type de person . why should i hurt her becos of him . since he loves her . n i obviousli noe she fell fer him from the first time we met him . so why should i break them up . hmm . she noes i loves him too . but i should be da one to step out . no why . no reason . no reasonsss .. i noe wad she's thinkin . i noe . im jus so tired . so sick n tired of livin . of playin this game called love . its so out of .. ?? .. im sure a failure . i loses each game whenever i play it . wenever it ends . den i would regret makin tat move . regret movin to the next step . moi heart's breakin deeper . so deepli . gerl . dunch think bout me ler . eu not so easi den found da one who eu loves n someone who loves eu deepli . go for him . pls . dunch give him up jus fer da sake of mi . even if eu give up . dere's no chance of him lovin mi again . so why end up none of us cant get him . go fer hiim . i give eu a 1oo% . eu two would be happi . so wad they sae i n him pei . so wad they sae i n him ish gonna be a lovin couple if we are together . so wad . he's alreadi n0rt moi . im alreadi not he's .. i've messed up things again ...

cried at chinatown todae . again . its not becos of _ _ _ _ now . but becos of _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .. haiish . haiish . i cant take it ler . but jus let moi tears lead to moi face . he dosen't noe why i cried . cos he's stil so blur as last time . he didn't noe why i cut moiself in front of him . he stil didn't noe . 28 cuts means nothin to me . it never hurt so badli as how im hurtin in moi heart . i feel nothin . nothin at all . no one noes why . no one noes . im lettin him go . [ MOSTLY ] .

im so sick . todae never go skul again . skul ish sho bored . sho bored . i wil onli sleep in class . so i dunch noe why should i continue studyin fer . breakin moi bones . freak it . hmm .

kkx . got to go ler . he's the him . im stil moiself . jus turnin from bad to worse . i love him stil . but i gotta let him go with someone close to miie . he's no longer moi . i think . from the begiinin of so long . so long . mish eu all l0ads . thanks fer viewin moi blog . love ya . take karries nehs . hmmm .

DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ i failed all moi relatioships . im such a failure _*

no more reasons . its all da same . da same .. 11o1o6 -

school - im givin up . givin up . realli . i cant stand da wae they treat us animore . why do i have to torture moiself becos of others . why should i bring such a heavy bag n go to school destroyin moi look . why should i actualli get scoldin fer unknown reasons [ even if its fer valid ones . im stil aren't happi . ] . we pay da school fees to study . n not to get scoldin or punishment wen we dunch do our homework or wadever fuckin shit . wad the hell ish happenin to singapore . why do i have to tolerate the school rules n da exams we have . the tireness i get through with . i hate it . i dunch like . i dunch like . i jus dunch like . i dunch like ... why do we have fuckin people in da school . why do we have such idiots who think they are so big in our school . er xin l0rr . shit . no difference .


frens - i had enuf . frens aren't gonna be there wen somethin happens to eu . fren aren't gonna be by ur side wen eu gonna break down,so depressed . no they are not . frens aren't those type tat would give up some tiny things becos of eu . frens are nothin . although we live in a world of a need of friends . but why do some stil end up with none . im havin onli a few around me . not intested in ani more . not intested in ani other bitches although im one . but wad moi frens arouund mi do isn't moi dream frens . i noe no one isn't perfect but .... im stil so disappointed . i dunch get some frens i like . i take jealousy wen i see others with some frens who they think they are realii perfect . im jus so suddenli dead . piss mi off ~~ ..


love - im not gettin on in ani of some beautiful relationships . people get along well with someone close but jus not me . why ish this so . why cant i find him . although it gives me da feelin tat i have forgotten him . but .. im not sure of moiself . im not cryin becos of him animore . im not breakin down becos of him animore . i dunch seemed to miss him animore but wad ish happenin . it seems tat i've forgotten him in a sudden . blured . waitin fer the other guy but it gives mi da feelin like im wastin moi time . bored up .

" i later maybe den come continue write . xiin la . noisy . see ya . "


DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]-

du lan la . 1oo1o6

wa biang . me veri tao yan people kan bian me de nehs . wa lao . he can even sae wad i sure dunch dare slap her de lor . sae wad i dare den sae . if i slap tio her eu dunch wad lor . kaos . nnb . got god bro or sis at plaza veri big la . like i dunch have frens there like tat hor . wa lao . she sec one nia lor horr . outram not a place give her walk big de la horr . wu ji go noe mogan they all la horr . go noe moi korr xiaoping they all la . den come walk big at outram la . chee bye lei . du lan la . du lan du lan du lan . hmmm . got godbro veri big mehs . like i dunch have . got godsis veri big mehs . like i dunch have . kaos . come in outram tat time also not as hong as tat time mi n mi fren come in . go die better lorr . wa biang . me dunch wan slap eu cos mi dunch wan got school case la hoor . me dunch wan tio school de suspension la horr . nnb . fuck . eu wait la horr . one more time eu diao lim bei eu wait la . fuck eu . kan bian mi de idiots eu ownself all fuck off la horr . chee bye . kao bei kao bu .


hais . relac relac . i must relac . dunch becos of this type of people du lan til like tat . hmm . kkx kkx . let's talk bout other things . oh . whakakas . hmmm . todae holidae nehs . kekes . now ish 4.3o earli da mornin . kekes . i jus wake up nia . hahas . so tired lor . mi eyes wan like panda liao . sians . must go do mask liao . do facial . kekes . ytd after skul . den moi pa fetch liyong darliin home huo . i go help out at moi uncle de mee stall . hahas . so nice lorr . i keep drinkin the soup . eatin da fried de wan ton . hahas . yum . now moi heere rainin lei . this few daes keep rainin . sians lorr . haish . den ish rain whole dae de lei . i veri long never go out plae ler lei . hmm . everitime dai zai jia . hahas . actualli wan go find cynthia de . den aiya . i busy . she bla bla bla . den never find liao . haas . dots lor . ytd ish 9o1o6 la . kkx . den at night me go with lydia go eat . hahas . so funni lor . kekes . den ytd in skul . mi korr dey all suddennli ask mi bout chalet de thing . sians nehs . hmmm . den i gonna open chalet durin moi b'dae again norr . kekes . hmmm . this time . i sure ask they all each pay abit . whakakas . this time i got buy alcohol ler . everibodi must drink til eu all drop arhs . all people are welcum . sure . accept fer some . hehees . den i decide on mi papa de b'dae give him surprise nehs . so i this time must save money save til siao . hahas . this sat i siao liao . go tat ah boon de b'dae . wan bring one fake stead go . wan him 1oo% give up on mi . hahas . he veri kong bu de lei . i si bei tao yan de lorr . hmmm . dunch care him la . see tat dae go den sae . hmmm . now so sians lor . i writin this blog . den listenin songs nia . oh ya . MOGAN SAE HE MISHHES ME . OMG . hahas . so happi . since he long long one time den mish me horr . so i put on moi msn sae he mish me . hahas . dots rite . kkx kkx .


actuali veri angry him der . hmmm . tat time gang hao viewin his profile den dunno why la . den spot tio this gal profile . den he dunno sae wad la . den suddenli i got this feelin he actualli ish hongster . at tat moment me so disappointed with moiself . sians . why everitime wil fall fer da wrong guy . hmm . i angry him actualli he also dunno lor . so aiya . i jus keep to moiself lorr . hmm . diam diam . sians . now i think i wil jus act blur . whakakas .


okokx . now like nothin to talk ler . n im gettin real bored . wa . now den i noe tat dunno wad doll's de techno veri nice lei . hahas . if on loud loud jiu hao ting liao . hahas . oh ya . wa lao . eu noe in friendster horr . people view view view moi profile horr . all dunno how tu add de lei . i veri tao yan people like tat de lor . view til so shuang den never add . freak it . see all i onli interested in one DJ's de profile n one modeliin fer levis de profile . why bo tio add . hahas . yups horr . ytd mornin wen on da wae to skul saw tat black chicken crossin road waitin fer fren . so er xin lorr . den somemore she ish siao eh people . wa lao . dunch care la . not moi busineess . den tat dae jus quarrel with samantha tat _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ . wa biang . kao bei kao bu l0rr . i dunch wan reply her sms ish moi business lor . den she now there cal mi farker . kaos . den now tat sae sae sae . wan find xin hui like dunno how to go her house like tat . everitime cannot find her den find me . she not with me tats why i dunch reply la . if not waste moi sms message she this type of person mehs . kaox . xin hui ownself dunch wan contact eu all den eu all come find mi . like moi fault la horr . wadever . shen jing bing . hmmm . den ytd lydia come mi house dao luan . after she go home . den i straight awae sleep lor . diaos . den xin hui call me i never ans . sians . sowe arhs . sowe . hahas . kkx nurh . i wan go rest ler . buai buais .
take karries everibodi .
mish mi . mish ya .
ai si ni men ler . [ this message ish tu everione who ish viewin moi blog ]
smuackiees . kekes . hmmm .


DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ i dunch mish eu no more . love mogan . haas . _

fer so long no write liao . anione du lan me nvr write muh . haas .

hmm . so long bo write blog liao . den give cyn sae sae sae . yao xiu arh . sae me . kekes . hmm . let me see . now 3am liao . i so hungry l0rr . hahas . todae mi thot bo go out de . no one jio me out lorr . cal xin darliin also never ans . hmuph . so bad . whakakas . so about 2 like tat . lydia c0rr mii . hahas . den thot she siao again . wan jio together go kop thing again . thot she run out of wad again . haas . den chey . not lor . she wan me pei her go play pool with arthur . kanasai lei . hahas . so i quickly prepare norr . heng i wear jeans . jacket . one sleeveless de shirt inside . cold cold . den bag small small de . hmmm . hahas . freak lor . den later go play pool . ish me n lydia start first . den cos she everitime bo go in der . den play so long . hahas . den arthur du lan until sae why we plae so slow . hahas . so funni lor . den after tat change to mi and arthur . hahas . like shit lor . cos mi veri long nvr plae ler . so abit blur . he veri clever lor . bulli mi . nvm . i stil got win de kkx . hahas . den all da wae . tat lydia dunch plae . suey lei . i todae got $6 nia . cos moi wallet blank liao . hahahas . den freak nehs . pool i pay . hahas . sua . nvm . people arthur b'dae muh . hahas . so i pae lor . hahas . den after tat we go great world . den tat drive bus de uncle so chee bye lor . fuck up attitude . hmmm . den we go great world watch movie . hmmm . den dunno wanna watch wad . so watch king kong lor . 8.oopm lei . den tat time we go not even 4 lor . dots . den i bo bian borrow $3o from arthur . so pai seh . den we go walk walk first . finalli xin hui call me . hahas . den we talk talk talk . den i tio scold by lydia . sae go out with them stil tok on fone . hahas .den put down . so after tat we go arcade play . den go pet shop . den dunno go where . dunno go where . den go eh . food court . haas . eat lor . hmm . eat japanese food . nice nice nehs . hahas . den we go toilet . so dunno why horr . of all the toilet . i go da last one lei . den go in close door tat time . i realize beside me got one hp lei . wa . i thot i so heng . den take lor . nar li zhi dao i also scared . ferget dunno wad tu do . so put silent nia . den after tat kay siao cal lydia come in . den she more hiong den me lor . she off da fone den wanna put inside bag tat time . got one lady outside lei . den i quickly tell lydia . den she put fone inside her skirt horr . inside horr . hahas . den dotts lor . we open door . den tat lady ask got see her fone muh . den we act blur la . den quickly go outside . hahas . so funni . den we dunno go where go where den go eh . arcade . play den MITSHIBUISHI huh ? also dunno how tu spell . jus start playin nia . suddenli got one guy stop us . i chua- tio l0rr . sai lei . den sae open wallet sae he CID . shit . i down dere think i why suey til like tat norr . hmmm . den ask ask ask . alot thing la . den tio check again . sians . den check tio . freak it . i so angry norr . den lydia tok to him til so guai lan . hahas . den i diam diam now dere see scenery . hahas . den alot thing happen la . den up tu him lor . after he go liao . den we go buy movie tickets . wa . ferget everithin den go watch . hahas . den watch tat king kong i cry like shit nor . come out eyes swollen der . hehes . hmm . den i come out theatre alreadi 11 somethin liao . dotts n0rr . hmmm . den mi n arthur n lydia n moi pa who pok out from no where den we go find carpark . cannot find dao lorr . den walk until i blur blur der . den after tat ner . go home . hahas .

kkx kkx . mie wan tu sae sorri to baobei cos mi never go his court tat dae nehs . hmmm . sorri sorri worr . kekes . but horr . nothin . kekex . mi so sians . so long bo write blog cos abit sian liao . now chattin with baobei on msn . dots lor . bao like ba zhang . hahas . haiish . scared baobei wil go in sia . sians . baobei . go in must mish me kkx . dunch try tu find trouble inside woorr . kekes . hmm . think forgotten alan ler bahs . haiish . think reali ferget bout him ler . since he can so cold . .. like tat treat me . mi also must think properli le lorr . sua liao la . haiish . cry also cry enuf fer him liao . hmm . cut hand also cut sian liao . hmmm . -

chee bye lei . knn . this year de sec one horr . ish guai lan xia lan until dunno like wad l0rr . walk til dunno like wad . buey chio act chio . so small size nia wan act . eu go ask la horr . fuck . even mi darliin jus transfer come in outram also noe eu hu horr . diao . eu diao somemore confirm tio slap de lorr . take it as me warn eu la .

eh . sorri everibodi . tat one moi devil come write de . mi angel soul come back liao . hahas . mish baobei so muchies nehs . hahas . wee tiong promise tu buy one real dog give me lei . must rmb arhs . if not i chop eu again arhs . hahas . rabbit also give me chop liao . hahahahas . whee . this year everibodi must teng me horr . if not i chop eu all . especialli tat mogan arhs . hahas . lalalalallalalalas . chopy chopy chop . kakakakas . hmmm . kekes .


kkx nuh . stop writin liao . wan go chat liao . wan go watch tv liao . hahas .


*** i didn't noe wad was true love in da begiining wen i knew eu . until now . until now . eu dunch belong tu mi . no . eu dunch . i dunch wanna be selfish in relationships . so i wil jus mo mo de keep everithink tu moiself . i lurve euu . ***


DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- STRAWBERRY SHORT CAKE !! WHAKAKAS . !! i onli need euu ..