Im so sorry i didn't blog . i'am just busy pissy around with my daily life . Shopping around and bla bla bla . Shall not talk about the other days alrights . This will be a short one . hurhur . I just er , finish some shots this morning with alicia and michael . phew , it was a very very hot day . I forget to bring my bottle of water and i nearly died of dehydration . goshed . finished my shots and went down to kallang to have my lunch with dad , auntie , xin and chinyi . And then to upper serangoon for some bo liaos thing . Then to tiong , and then back home . Can't stand the tiredness lurhs . I can die . So im busy all the way til after 3rd april ! i'am sorry guys ! and im leaving for my camp from 28th march to 3oth march . hurhur , wish me lucks there to live without ciggs and phone + com . xD .

Days ain't easy to pass . So darling , don't make me difficult anymore . First , i'am not bothering you nor your life . I'am suffering to myself and i don't pin hopes that you're reading my blog or whatever . So boy , keep urself and ur girl away from me . Yes , im stil in love with you . Yes , i miss you . Yes , i need you . Yes , i don't want you to go , but i didn't do anything to force u back or anything . I'am not in any wrong silly . Your girl's testi to you was a purpose for me , am i right ? i didn't read it at first , i wasn't even bothered too . It was them who caught wad they saw and i didn't , i don't know how they contact you , but boy , you must have gotten a fright . they called me to tell me what happen , and i can't imagined how they laughed at you . Silly , i will forget you eventually . But pls , don't bring me trouble cas i bring you none . Don't put anyone into trouble . We ain't free for anything . Remember , i would be always here , and although i know you won't even be back anymore but always always rmb , you're stil my hope and strength for everything i do .

I'am in need for cash !! oh goshed . i've been spending and spending money for everything . my clothes , food ! , accesories , bla bla bla . goshed . who's gonna yang me ? Haas , i think the person who gonna yang me will go bankrupt soon . Hurhur . I need my contact lens , its going to overdue . SOMEONE , HELP ! Jobs aren't easy to find nowadays mans . Worst thing is that i don't even have time for it . AHHHHH ~~ SAVE ME . =P

THURSDAY : i did not sleep for the whole night for the sake of qingaide de audition . i was so afraid i would sleep guo tou . LOLS . so i remained awake , lying on bed .

FRIDAY : called jasmine and i bombed a phone at a total of 51 times . LOLS . but she didn't even wake up . luckily when i was putting my make up on , she called and said she doze off . she didn't slept too actually . HURHUR , all qingaide de fault . tsk tsk . then i had to rush down , because he didn't know what to do or where to go , and he don't even have the form . we have to even bring school shoes for him . omg . totally shag . LOLS . reached and rushed to find him , then his BROTHERS also dunno wad shit brothers are they . they looked like a piece of shit to me . you know what ? they pei him go , see us come and due to some things that happen past few days , they walked away and diao me . dots . so overall , im the one at fault again . damns . then i had to rush here and there to help him find the form but luckily when i was outside the toilet asking a bunch of guys about the form . I SAW ONE OF THE JUDGE !! YEAH !! and he came to me and said , in front have , why don't in front take . then i was like , " er , i go take le , they don wans give me " then he was like HUHS , how can they , okok , you come with me . Then YEAH , QINGAIDE ! all thanks to me . hehheh . so i ran with the judge to take then he ask the camara man to video me running here and there for qingaide . diaos . i was like " ARHS , DON WAN DON WAN . lols " . then i ran back to give him the form . hurhur . VIONNA WINS AGAIN ! lols . while queueing and listening him learnt his vocals and songs , we was shot a few times by Channel U and 8 . we were even told to sing WU DING right in front of the camara la . omg . Then fiona xie and another guy kept saying we were couples and then purposely say , oh no , is fren not couples . diaos . im just being a hao peng you to pei him ok ! LOLS . then after around 3 plus , guess wad the security say " ok , this bunch of guys go home first , come back on sunday same time . " diaos . we was like cursing and swearing there la . LOLS . so due to tireness , everyone of us went home to SLEEP !! lols . but i only slept for like 3 hours then woke up again ? sobs sobs . sleepless nights and afternoons . LOLS . then around 1o something , xin came to pei me le ! hurhur . then we both rot inside my room til around 3 something , we went out to use my NEW BOUGHT MICS . LOLS . was singing and singing there til around 5 plus , i buey tahan le , so i went to rest for awhile and then woke up around 6 plus to wake the others up .

SAT : So after waking up around 6 plus to wake them up . I went to prepare for myself and xin too . Then went for breakfast and then fetch MRS.CHOO . then to tiong bahru to fetched CHINYI ! hurhur . so that sotong girl " LOO CHINYI " , didn't know must wear uniform , so again , i bring for her . LOLS . Liyong reached there first , so she queued up first then when we reached , we just sat in together . becas jeslin was with her bunch of frens right infront , so we gave up our sits to go in front ! hurhur . saw Ahger Deborah , shuyu , stella , and loads more of friends la . All calling me here and there , til i so blur , didn't know what to do . hehes . Then alot things happen , like had to take photo bla bla bla . Then everybody was so excited and anxious lurhs . hehes . After around 12 plus , my dad came to support me ! whee , but he had to go and come go and come again , becas he had work to do . awww , heart breaks . I was like already hoping that he would appear lurhs . HEES . my first surprise this year was my dad . =) . then we had to wait for our photos and everything , around 3 to 4 plus , it was our turn to sing ! whees , btw , we got interview a few times tat dae too and everybody was like blaming me , see la see la , all ur fault . tsk . my fault again . LOLS . DID ANYONE SEE ME ON NEWS LIKE A SHIT ANW ? LOLS . i didn't know why i kept touching my hair also . LOLS . im sorry ! ok , continue to sing de thing . So first was stella from our sch de , then qihui , jasmine , liyong , ME , xin , chinyi and then lastly , ferlyn . They were like all singing and got the red flower , so i was like , omg omg , im dead im dead , wad if i get the red flower . wad face should i give . i didn't have hopes at first . So when it was my turn to went up , i was shivering seriously ok ! then intro like shit , then i started to take a deep breathe and then sing my DAODAI . then they judges " DING DING , another song pls . " i was like , omg omg , chance chance . so i whisper " yi shi de mei hao " . then i started singing again with me shivering body and voice . LOLS . Then they DING DING again , then i don even dare to look . LOLS . then when i heard people clappin and shouting , i turn my head and YEAH , ITS THE GREEN GREEN FLOWER I WISHED FOR ! so i totally forgot to say xie xie , and i just walk to put back the mic and smile to myself and to xin , and then walk back . Photo taken , interviews asked , and forms written . When i walked out , the first thing i did was jump onto my dad and hugged him . then everybody was smiling to me . Whees , you wil never know how happy i was . Then hugged a few peeps and then suddenly , i hugged xin and cried . then i got shot by the stupid camara again . OMG , don call me or message me if u see me crying on tv . LOLS . then my make up was like , all over my face . LOLS . held onto the form tightly and told myself " this is wad i always wanted , its here , and im holding . " xD . waiting for chinyi and ferlyn and then we went to toilet , saw yongjie and yvonne . Then i was looking at yongjie and said " wad wad , kan bu qi me right . hurhur " . So after everything , went to town to meet sister VENN and HER frens . LOLS . then saw baobao sweetie and girls . =) . Went to eat then slack awhile at cine then went home again to sleep tightly . Didn't really slept again cas my fone was ringing and ringing , so i woke up to use the com . Night came and whees , totally xD .

SUNDAY : woke up by MRS.CHOO message , then qingaide call me . so had to prepare and went down again . This day singing de was qingaide , sihui , and benda plus other henderson and newtown girls . =) . So no matter wad , i had to go down to give them all my support . On the way there , si hui called me and told me qingaide went in le ! whees ! whees ! so i was like so happy and jumpin in the car til i knocked my head on the glass . tsk tsk . So again , stayed there half of my day and only qingaide went in . but =) , wei le outram guang rong ~ hurhur . Then darryn was there too . After tat darryn and sihui plus others went home , thens i pei qingaide go back his house to wait for him bathe and change , take money . So we were both like laughing , shouting say YEAH WE GOT IN ~ lols . pics are taken , they are all above . xD . Then around 5 something , dad came from woodlands to fetch us down to chinatown to kbox . hurhur . then sing sing sing til around 9.15 , dad fetched qingaide to outram MRT and we went home . =) . Slept around 3 plus and then it was MONDAY BLUES , SCHOOL DAY U SEE !

MONDAY : went to school and was nearly late for sch , lucky i saw xin and then we rushed up to the hall . Slept for the whole dae in sch becas i was really tired , and thens after sch , waited for dad to come then MRS.CHOO and xin came to my house . dad fetched Patrica baobei home . =) . we were like slacking here and there then around 5 something , we all doze off . woke up and dad was home . had our dinner , watched MY VIDEO ON STAGE , XIN'S AND CHINYI'S VIDEO TOO ! hurhur , then around 11 plus , they left . awww , currently 2.15am here , writing my blog . =) . tats all for todae and my next audition is on the 1st of april . =) .

TO ALL WHO TAGGED ME AND CONGRATS ME : thanks guys , thanks for those wishes and everything . Its just the first round and this is wad i get . I'm happy enough le . =) . but people , bo bao i second round wil get in . Cas i have to stand on the stage im scared of again , and its more strict this time , so ya , bo bao de ah ! =) . Ya , so 31st march wil be qingaide and stella and girls de second audition at same place , 11.15am , those who can turn up , i hope u guys would be there to support my love ones alrights . xD . 1st april would be mine , i really hope u guys can turn up too and it wil be also at the same place , 9.15am . =) . remember , don bring too much hopes . don blame me if im out ! =) . I just wished tat if really tat suey tat im out , one of my love ones would at least get in ! xD . hurhur . LOVE YOU GUYS . smooches .

TO you : i saw you for the past two days when im there . FRIDAE AND SAT . i don't know if you've seen me , but boy , i nearly brokedown when i see u sing just right in front of everyone . While those girls around me was only waiting for you and yuyang . When they shouted and shouted , i smiled to myself , i was happy for you . Finally i knew , this was wad u got whenever u had events . And on tat SAT when i saw u at somerset , boy , i sweared , i didn't saw u or yuyang at first . It was just nice tat i need the toilet so i held xin's hand and turn to the toilet , but i didn't know that i would see u walking past . I smiled at you , i thot you would smile back at me , but you didn't even gave me a glance . You didn't even bother to look but you just kept smiling . i don't know what you tell yuyang or wad yuyang told you but boy , i was really disappointed with wad you did . My frens said , if they had knew you would walk passed , we should actually purposely say HI to u , and if you don't reply , we would shout all kinds of things . I didn't know what to do , i just squat at the corner and teared just thta little bit and i told myself , no . I remembered something at that moment , remember me saying that i would just want to see u one more time and tats enough ? God was nice enough to let me see you 3 times and you replying my messages at times . Maybe i should say i should be happy enough for these things to happen nowadays le . =) . Baby , you are still the strength for me for everything i do . You were the power in me i always think to kept me going . Thank you lovely , thank you . =) .