missing many peeps . i'am always STILL making the wrong decisions which are leading me to depressed feelings i once got . *

sentosa !! call me if anyone going alrights . lalas .
done by LOO CHINYI alrights . okays okays , i'am gan dong . hahas . but xiang dao she forgot me during halloween jiu shang xin . arghs ~~ ..
ehs . FABIAN cum DABUDIAN cum XIAOBUDIAN . lalas . stupid day actually . lols .
hi hi . no sun . but i still wear my sunglasses . hahas . if not i will look like a siao char bo without them . lols .

sun-tanning , i mean . =D .

so long never update blog lerhs , no body come and disturb me ask me update also . ahahas . so i just leave it lors . no larhs , kidding . lalas . i got come update , only because com spoil . hmmms . then cant . all failed . so i gave up . and i don't have the time in the afternoon too . lalas . so how's you peep nowadays . ? i lost some of ur blogs , so wun u peeps mind taggin me again ur blog ? hahas .then i'll link this time . lols . anw , can't really rmb what happen these few days . so i'll just say about todae and other next few days then i'll go alrights ? cos im getting tired lerhs !! lalas .

hubby came my house todae to pack my room , house . wash and clean everything . throw away things that don't belong to my room anymore . lols . so funny alrights . but it somehow spoil my mood when he started packing . because dabudian started using com and i just came out from bathing . then when i opened my door , my room was in a farking mess . he throw things that HE THINKS IT DOSEN'T BELONGS TO MY ROOM to another side . and then when finish packing , the rubbish side looked like a hill alrights . he's been wanting to pack my room so much since the day he came my house alrights . he can't tahan the mess and everything . lols . i realise i've actually many things to throw away u know . and from dunno how many bags , i'am left with only 3 now . arghs ~~ . nvm nvm ~ but my room looks really nice and clean now . anw , he mop and vacum my whole house too . lols . he say's if he marry me , he'll be the one doing the house work he thinks . lols . and i said , yarhs , then i'll be the one going out shopping . muahahas . dad was satisfied with his cleaning , hahas . because u know why , " HE CLEANED DAD'S ROOM TOO ! " . then cook mian mian give him mam mam . lalas . after that around 11 something , he went home with dabudian lerhs . weets =D .

gonna get out to somewhere tmr , but i dunno where . everyday facing hubby , i'am getting bored . lalas . oppps . i still prefer to have my freedom , he controls too much . somehow at times , don't like the feeling being with him . then i always asked myself , did i accept him just because to qi those peeps who HAVE GIRLFRIENDS BUT YET LOVING ME STILL ?! i dunno . because i've currently receive 3 " niam-ings" from the 3 guys . but i don't care anws , my revenge maybe . hmmms . was suppose to meet rain and those friendster peeps [ she said that ] tmr . but since she say sunday meet , got joyce . then i rather meet sundae . lalas . but if im down at town tmr , and they're there , might be going to find her awhile . weets =D . sundae was suppose to go out with his parents but i cancelled , opps , sorry . cause i didn't want to go too , and luckily rain called to go out . thats why i went . hmmms . nvm ~ whatever . lalas . thats my tmr and sunday . im missing my night life , and i die also must find ways to go out , i don't care . so if i get back my " FREEDOM " at night , will call some of u peeps out alrights . muahahas . =D . take care . !

since i've receive so many complains about you . and worst , nowadays showing ur true character lerhs , i really wanna leave . nicer to be single . its been a long time since someone controlled me . so what u're tiong xim like what u said ? but i still can't trust u . maybe we were meant to be friends only . i got loads of comments from others , especially my close one and i don like it . i don't like it when they give so many comments . they just cant think of how i feel . and maybe because of these reasons , i really wanna leave . i know im not ur type , and u're not mine too . maybe its true i accepted u because to spike them and because of your lovely sweet talks . the way u worry when i don't listen to your calls and reply ur messages , make my heart melts . u would worry so much so much so much . but sometimes , i really don't wish to answer ur calls . thanks for those great time u gave since 2810o6 . but i know i tai guo teng ni , chong ni . i know i have to leave asap . if not if these continues , i know i would lose my friends , my close ones . i'am so sorry if im gonna make you go crazy , make you grieve . but u have to understand my situation like i told u from the beginning . pls take good care of yourself , you're really a good guy , but not for me . =) . i hope my friends understand why i'am doing these , i hope u guys know what's happening .

i miss lydia that bunch , laobudian that bunch , jiaojiao that bunch , xiaozhi that buch and many many more peeps hmmms . imiss those night life i have with you guys alrights . the drinking and fun we have . those stupid talks , those smoking sessions . really missed . to all my night life friends , pls don go mia just because im not coming out late at night anymore . call me anytime , if i can be there , i will . and would someone pls find a specialist in lockers . help me find a way to open my locker quietly . help me find the key to it . my dad only changes the locker in the night so i can't get out . pls pls pls .. sobs . i miss those nights i sleep only in the morning and only come awake in the evening . and then out again at night . adrian , its been 2 weeks u've been gone , how have u been ? may i know ? its only now , i realise , its only u who came up in my mind now and then . not him , not her , not them , i swear . misses . telling myself to give up , everything was my fault , and thats all i know .

darlinq ger ` those times i've cried , who camed ? who came to understand ? i'am still standing alone at times , thinkin my own ways . although my dabudian's here , some things , some decisions , are still mine . one decision made wrong . everything goes down to drain . don't wanna lose those busy times , i promise myself , no matter what , i have to find ways to get back my freedom , my busy life , fun life and my NIGHT LIFE . hmmms =) . *