[[ lost ]] - 1412o5 -

i was lost . so lost after "he" said "hmmm . im sorry" . i jus cant help cryin . i dunch understand why . i can onli keep the feelins to myself n nort to let "him" noe . fer months i've been pinning a restart of this long unwanted relationship . but it turns how to be so cold,so cold . a word "patch" n i thot it wasn't euu . a word " im sorry" n i was so sure it was euu . i was jus so happi wen i saw eu todae . but eu wasnt . eu cant ferget her . eu were not smiling fer the whole dae . den i told eu . " go back to her if eu think eu stil loves her . ii noe she stil loves eu deepli in her heart . make ur decision n tell mi tonight kkz . hmm . " hmmm . moi heart jus shatters wen i told eu these words usin moi own mouth . moi own reasons . it jus hurts so much . i jus felt like cryin but it jus cant flow out . i noe eu would leave,i noe . den i hugged ur hand tightly . hopin tat eu wil not leave mi no matter wad decision eu made . den i looked at eu . mind thinkin . " i should have not let eu go from the begnning " . den i hugged eu tightly . little shinning tears sheddin down n no one noes . all i wanted to tell eu tat moment was " dunch leave mi pls . i jus mish eu so much . indeed im waitin fer eu but i reali dunch noe how long wil i last " . it feels so hurt so hurt . i rmb hurtin moiself todae . eu jus cared fer mi so so much n i jus get tat moment of happiness in moi heart . i jus hope tat it was lastin fereva . in the nite . eu left . i was waitin fer ur message . waitin silentli . i ask eu " have eu made up ur mind ? wad's ur ans " .eu said " hmmm . im sorry ." i drop down dead blur ; cryin . n den . i never received ur message . i dunch noe wad the news wil eu n her end up to be . but all i noe im alone now . cryin .

-" ger . i noe i gonna shed nites n nites of loneli tears like wad i did in the past . i noe i gave eu up first but i neber thot i would end up like tat . i thot we would be back fereva again . but in jus not den a dae . eu once left again . why dunch eu understand . i said le . never leave mi if eu once come back again . sobs . eu onli gave mi mins of happiness n left again . can eu pls come back to mi . [ wen i noe its impossible ] . shobs . cant eu jus onli love mi . onli mi . . . . . i mishh euuu . i lurbriess eu so much so much . haiish . i think i shall let go . let go of everithin . sobs . all i want to do now ish drunk moiself again . sobs . i rmb i never said i stil love eu wen i was drunk tat dae . ii never .. sobs . "-


DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- nvr trust the smile on my face ; da laugh i alwaes give . i hate eu leavin me .