we think about our BEAUTIFUL future. ~ lols.
Very nice Ben&Jerry Ice-cream & we got it for free! LOLS! but don't bother about my face -.-
SO CUTE RIGHT.
Look at the delicious food below.and this is only how much it cost :D
There's a story behind this oily dumpling,RIGHT JOSHUA?!
OISHI!
Judy & mine. I mean this is what we order each.
Joshua & shaolun ordered this.

OVERDUE PICTURES.

it was something i never knew would happen,so here i ask,
who are you exactly,& why do you have to do this.
in fact,why isit so.
i don't wish to say who the person is,neither who am i thinking about.
but i haven't done you any wrong. i was wrong to believe you,again. & yes,again.
i don't know what you want,i've given you,everything.
and yet you aren't happy with it.
whoever's guilty of reading this,i might not be talking about you,
but if that person does knows,go reflect.
sometimes,you just make it too obvious,just that no one believes,just that you don't want to admit.
and i'm tired of saying. its a whatever thing already.
i'm going on with life now,& doing it on my own,without the help of yours.
so why,why again you have to do this.
and now to think back,the past that happen might be something that you've planned.....

I've been reading Xiaxue's blog & Uncle Ben's blog. And its all about LIZARDS!! How much i pity those lizards being CRITISED [ how to spell critised ):,i spelled it wrong right?! ] but serve them right :D I mean,which CB,loves lizards right? Imagine you hold onto the lizard's tail and swing them,and right in front of you,they then drop their bloody tail and run away. AIYER,CHOY. Actually,my house contains 2-3 fake lizards,and whenever i hold them to someone,anyone would like " ARHHHH,FUCK YOU " then tumbles away. lols! But whatever,i don't always see lizards at home,but outside my house,big and long ones,amen. Well,still,i hate insects,all kinds of insects probably,so bloody hell, KEEP THEM AWAY FROM ME :D


Anw anw,i was suppose to go out today [ sat ] & Sunday with my beloveds,but in the end,my dear June couldn't make it. So we had no choice,and she just cancelled on the outing with us on Sun.4 of us was suppose to go cycling,roller blading,and picnic-ing at east coast,but too bad its cancelled and changed to next sat (: I hope there's no more cancelling anymore,i miss them. So in the end,i waited for Darryn:) to go to work first,then i went to prepare,went Great World to meet Judy,Joshua,Deepak & a new friend,Pamela. Eh hey,nice right,to have a new friend. So after that,we went puffing,then they say " eh ,take pic lehs take pic " after taking a few pictures,they say,ok , we want to go liao. LIKE WTF. So after lots of talking and playing & BULLYING of dear joshua,he ran off. Then deepak left very soon. So the 3 of us went walking around,buying things,looking at things then Pamela left.So Judy & me went talking and puffing,then daddy came to fetch us,went to Queensway to get my things,then HOME :D So currently,Judy's studying but talking about chicks hatching with darryn,talking about what they do during young times with the eggs and its damn funny,while Darryn:)'s playing Dota and talking. And i'm here blogging,listening to their nonsense. AND WE'RE ALSO HAVING A FART PARTY IN THE ROOM :D how nice is that. Silent killing my Darryn:) . lalalas~

So on Sunday,i should be going Suntec & east coast with Judy. Hurhur. Anyone,wanna come :D ?

ITS TAGGIES TIME. TIME FOR ME TO REPLY TAGS :D

Josh : er,yes. nonsense joshua. & hmmms,idiot,moron,whats your blog add huh? AND HOW CAN YOU & JUDY GO TO THE SCIENCE CENTRE WITHOUT ME?! bloody hell -.-

Blahsboom : blog add or email ? email ah . let me think,oh ok. chanycv_92lv@hotmail.com . LOLS. then whats ur blog? if not how i view you.aiya,you everytime kay siao one.Blog awhile then throw your blog away already.Don't know how many blogs you've change already lors .

Pat : Where got alot of error? And i didn't mean to walk off,i was too pissed off to listen to anything. :D & i will have my belated present lors ): i also financial probs. BBQ OR CHALET OR PUB? lols.

Judy : eh,hello dear,my chinese is really not bad de ok,tsk tsk. & PLAN FOR MY BIRTHDAY ? i think suan le bah,later all of you bully me ): i miss you.

Deepak : There wouldn't be a day when my name or nick name changed to nerdy vionna ok! Like so impossible lors. & yes,why did " IT " became a " IT " ,not human mehs ? LOLS. or dog ? LOLS.

AHAHAHAHAS! i don't know how to spell but its called Dutchshen,whatever la,i don't know how to spell ! EH HEY, ah girl ~ ah ~ ah girl,come to me soon ! :D Darryn & me can so called get it for free lors! And she has the same price or higher as ah boy,and she's ah boy's best fling! HEHHEH. so cute right,judy's favourite ok..YEAH,so happy.I have a dogs year this year :D wu lala~ DOGS,dogs! DOGS !!! :D if Darryn:) really go get her,then i shall tell u ah girl's story. (: Anw,she's imported from taiwan. (:

Well,on Tuesday,i totally forgot we had to bring ah boy to bathe.So i even planned with Judy to go have lunch.In the end,after sch,we went to puff with shaolun,josh and meverick i think.I forgot who.But i just took the first mouthful and Darryn:) called,said he's with daddy waiting for me.So i went to Pets Zone alone with Darryn:) first.After that,Judy,Shaolun & nonsense Joshua came to find me for lunch :D Physco me SO LONG SO LONG to accompany them to Great World. Cabbed there and i saw Chongjing and Junyang again:D Much misses,my pri sch friends. So i saw the lunch thingi poster inside the Japanese Restaurant,we went there to have our lunch. Upsize with drink & a side dish just for like $3?! And we even ordered a extra plate of Gyoza,and each person have to like only pay $12 :D How nice. Quite delicious,not bad.Should go often since its so cheap and filling :D Took many random pictures and pictures of the food,it sure looks tempting.Upload it when Judy's gonna sent me the pictures. Perfect,i love spending days with the 3 of them.Like so much fun,2 noisy ones,one really quiet one and for me,i'm neutral,i don't keep really quiet,and i'm not very noisy :D RIGHT?! I LOVE TAKING PICTURES WITH JOSHUA,always so cute.But whenever with him,i would have stomach aches,know why? Because i always had to swallow down his nonsense and irritating words that always hurt me ): LOLS. Alrights,end of this. I didn't went sch on wed. THANKS TO RANDY,he lied to me on mon and tues.FUG U !

Todays Labour Day. Happy Labour Day to all who had always wanted a public holiday. Like long long once for some. (: I don't think i'm going out. ): Hannah,i know la,aunty staying at home taking care of her ah boy. Eh,have to remind me to go sch on friday for exam ok =x . :D Done with blogging,i'm tired,i want to sleep soon. GOODNIGHT LOVELY PIES.

and lastly,still wanna fug you as usual! (: feels so nice without seeing you today,laugh,evil laugh,cute laugh.ok,being lame. :D bye to all.

OH YA,12 more days to my birthday . And i'm turning 16,like finally :D Oh come on,presents for me,ok? Don't be xiao qi la... :D

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I WANT THE HOODIE ): BLOODY HELL...

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I WANT SO MANY THINGS FROM HERE,#633955,#9004 & most importantly, #1196 [ Grey or white is ok,but i want black ): FIND FOR ME! ]

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& THINGS FROM HERE too ! ): ): ): 21020774,101012. ALL BLACK PLEASE . I WANT...lols.

My birthday's coming,do anyone of you rmb?! i bet,no one -.- I had a crazy birthday during sec1,terrible horrible birthday during sec2,and perfect nice one during sec3.I guess this year's birthday would be as horrible as sec2,or probably,worst than that. POOR VIONNA. :D

So let me tell u what,i was updating in school today when these few guys started coming around the computer,so i guess those who knows me well,jolly well knows that i dislikes people coming around me when i'm blogging or doing any updates on any of my personal accounts.I rather people read after i've finished updating,then to look or probably,stare at the com when i'm updating. So i started shouting,in a very high pitch voice. Then i hear patrick say this " wa,so cute one" or something like that.because i shouted not using my usual voice,instead,a different kind of voice came out. Like -.- . So i had bad moods,not wanting to go detention,hmmms,so i went out of school to have a PUFF with lovely judy who was alone outside. We talked,then meverick came. Puff and puff,asked daddy to come fetch since he was already on his way (: , then we came home , studied for like,JUST AWHILE,we slacked,and i end up sleeping at 6 plus,woke up at 8 plus and i find my home with full of PEOPLE! how nice is this.then we had spag,again,now they went to take things,don't think they're coming back anymore. I'm tired today,i'll be sleeping early,i think.

This would be a wordy post,i think you should only read it when you're free :D

Hey dear,listen to this,i didn't expect you to side me or side her from the beginning,partly i've known you for over 3 years. And what about trust? What about people ? Its probably for you to understand and find out,thats why i don't bother to tell you anything about her anymore,because to you,it might sounds like " Huh,what nonsense is she talking? To me,she isn't like that what" . Because love,this isn't the first time that some thing like this happened.
I still wish to talked to you like the past,but my voice just stops whenever i wanted to,and then i would tell myself , forget it,since i can't do so,i just don't wish to force myself. Yes,i'm tired of calling,messaging & waiting for you to give me just a message or a call or probably tell me you're coming to find me to just chill out,or stay at home or anything. As time passes,these waiting started to turn mold,like you left it there for long,and its starting to rot like a log. Like you totally forget all about it,or maybe should i say,to busy for it? Yes,i'm still the person you could turn to,talked to without considering anything,i haven't change at all at this.Yes,we've been spending lesser time,and we're both attach,yes,but its overboard,isn't it? I use to see you for like everyday? Then twrice a week,twice a week,once a week,then after that,for more than a week. You might be okay with it,but then when things happen between that week,i have no one to turn to,neither give you a call.You might like it when we meet after a long time because we've alot of things to talk about,but its different for me. You use to say you've planned your time properly,when's for him,when's with me.But it seems like i'm wrong to believe,and you've shouldn't have said anything about it.Even like you have the time now,you've none with me.I know you need time with your other friends,like going to expo with her and tim,like going out with syl,with tracy,with aron,or anyone,but you go think about it,since the day you drifted with him,none of your time was for me. I didn't want to asked you out,neither asked you to come to my house,because i didn't want to hear any of your reasons or that you're busy,not free. But i have to go by you,i'm left,choice-less.

No i didn't walked out on you,i just didn't find a reason for me to be staying there.Since i didn't like to hear or talk about her,or hear you talked about her,or rather LOOK at her,then i would rather walk off. Yes,it is a small issue,so i didn't wanna talk to you about it. If you hadn't update your blog till as though i'm the one at wrong.You want to make me understand many things that you think i should.But this is me,and this is what i think about this situation.You should know when it comes to a certain situation,i would think many ways to it and many ideas or many reasons about it,so its no use telling me ,making me understand.I don't like her,thats my prob,i didn't say " hey,lets hate her together,lets just fuck her off " . For the last few days,i've done alot of thinking,and then i realise something that i probably shouldn't. Dear love,we're starting to drift,and i'm starting to not understand you,we're like at a different worlds apart. No,i'm not making myself miserable,probably this is who i am from first,and you didn't bother to tell me,only now. But i'm just like this . You know even i probably dislike her now,but maybe not in future time as time passes,its always like that isn't it?Or you just forgot how i am and starting not to understand me too?but something like this happens,just adds up to what isn't suppose to be.
Not her fault,maybe you would say,but its different for me,different thinking for others.

I wrote that i couldn't explained well because i was in school writing,time to go then.So i just cut in short.Yes,i didn't declined that i've lost trust in you,in fact,everyone close to me. Why not tell me,how many times you've lied to me,maybe because for what you think that is good to me,thats why you lie,or maybe you're afraid i would get fuck up because of this and that,have you? And how many times did it happened ?

Its not none of them were there for you when you needed someone,its just that you wouldn't bother to talk about it.






eh,thanks ahs.thank you for all these hors.thank you.continue ah,continue,nvm one.thanks ahs.don't need say don't care de,be yourself lors,and be yourself in front of everyone,like how you are to my friends.ok? (: thanks ah.

and at times when i feel so down like now,i've got no where to turn to.
there's nothing,nor someone i could call as a personal listener or a bestfriend who keeps secrets.
not that she dosen't keeps,there's some things that just couldn't be welly explained.
and the thing is,one by one of you,throws away my trust,my love,and for what i believe in you.
slowly my dreams of becoming forever friends,crushed.
listen to this,
no one has ever thought be how to be a person,and i've got to learn it through experience.
no one has ever thought me how to do this and that,i've gotta do my own.
as time passes by,i try to tell the people around me,the truth,but tell me,who would bother to listen?Who would believe a 15+ years old could go through something even a older person never been through?
but whats this? now i'm crushed,and show no love.
i've lost trust to all,and now i don't bother to talk.
yes,to my classmates.but what can any outsiders see my pain ?
who would put themselves into my shoe,to understand ?
whatever it is,i'm going home now,to find time to finish what i wanna say ):

i'm in sch now,with such a bad temper. save me ):

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

到後來才發現愛你是一種習慣　我學會和你說一樣的謊
你總是要我在你身旁　說幸福該是什麼模樣
你給我的天堂　其實是一片荒涼

要是我早可以和你一刀兩斷　我們就不必在愛裡勉強
　可是我真的不夠勇敢　總為你忐忑為你心軟
　畢竟相愛一場　不要誰心裡帶著傷

我可以永遠笑著扮演你的配角　在你的背後自己煎熬
　如果你不想要　想退出要趁早　我沒有非要一起到老
　我可以不問感覺繼續為愛討好　冷眼的看著你的驕傲
　若有情太難了　想別戀要趁早　就算迷戀你的擁抱　忘了就好

要是我早可以和你一刀兩斷　我們就不必在愛裡勉強
　可是我真的不夠勇敢　總為你忐忑為你心軟
　畢竟相愛一場　不要誰心裡帶著傷

我可以永遠笑著扮演你的配角　在你的背後自己煎熬
　如果你不想要　想退出要趁早　我沒有非要一起到老
　我可以不問感覺繼續為愛討好　冷眼的看著你的驕傲
　若有情太難了　想別戀要趁早　就算迷戀你的擁抱　忘了就好

愛已至此　怎樣的說法　都能成為理由
我在這樣的愛情裡看見的　是我們的軟弱

我可以永遠笑著扮演你的配角　在你的背後自己煎熬
　如果你不想要　想退出要趁早　我沒有非要一起到老
　我可以不問感覺繼續為愛討好　冷眼的看著你的驕傲
　若有情太難了　想別戀要趁早　就算迷戀你的擁抱　忘了就好

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life.

ALLOW ME TO BE RUDE,FUG UP & ALLOW ME TO SCOLD.

ni niang niang de , ta ma de , cai san wo men de gan qing.
ma ma de,cong xian zai kai shi,lian ni yi fen lian dou bu hui liu gei ni.
yi re dao wo,bu hui fang guo ni.
guan ni shi bu shi ta de nu ren,lian ta de lian,wo ye bu fang guo.
wo lian wo zui ai de gege , dou bu ren.
xiao xin kan zhe dian.
wo wu suo wei, ying wei cen jing shi bai guo,zai shi bai,wo ye wu suo wei.
xiang yao jiao ao she me ? nb.
gao lai gao qu,hai bu shi yao mian fei de dong xi?
jian zi bu yao lian.

Those who don't understand , don't bother to understand (: cause even me myself don't know how to explain.

eh,eh,wait ok.

Thank you for all you've done,ass. Not ashame at all,no xin xian gan at all.
Like,what the ? -.- But why should i give a damn to you? I just can't be bothered to continue looking.
Boils me up. Lucks to all these days,i'm having bad moodswings due to bloody period.
STOP ACTING STOP ! ): don't be so pathetic,so sad.

DEEPAK,So sad right ? ): DEEPAK,i still can't win you,wtf ?! -.- and so sad again,i go to sch and you don't go,i don't go to sch,and you'll go . Not fated :D HOW TO BE BEST FRIENDS LIKE THAT?!

So,one fine night/morning on 21/04/08,01:37 AM,dear Darryn:) sent me this, lets see.

Composition:My Baby
i love my baby. My baby is cute, She is 15 going on 16. She as shoulder length hair. Neither very tall nor slim but i still do love her. She does e most amazing things. She cooks. But at times she does get irritated by me. But still i love my baby. We have a child. He's ah boy. Ah boy is a yorkish terrier.My baby loves ah boy. I love my baby. I know at times i would b incontrolablebly irritating by my baby still loves me. We have only been together for 6 months going 7 months but it already feel likes years to me. My baby can b very hot headed at times but she's stil uber sweet. I would try to change for e better for my baby as she as been through ups and downs with me. I'll b there for u forever. Deep inside my heart u b forever. I love my baby my baby loves me. And lastly good nite to my baby. And wish that all e stars above would shine here through her darkest times i love you.

( I typed exactly how he sms-ed me.And if you guys realise,there's alot of wrong spellings and no " , " . At that moment,i was wondering,is he trying to save messages,like maybe lessen the symbols so the amount of message he would sent would be lesser,so he wouldn't need to spent so much money or was it because he's too tired to message already. Hmmm ... :D )

So.. I replied him because i was already sleeping too.

Composition : MY BABY.

I love,like and hate my baby,named Darryn Quek. He's cute,not as handsome as my previous boyfriends but among all,he's the only one who loves me most and the only one who bother to tolerate my very bad attitute plus character. He's not very tall,sadly,shortest among all my boyfriends but i still do love him,alot.I love him because he could tolerate me and love me alot no matter what happens and because he could accept my childish,embarrassing acts i've done in the past. Though still not a adult,but believe us,we love each other,deeply. I like him because he's always who he is in front..........the rest was cut off by my hp when i saved it in draft. Bloody hp,bloody LG hp. -.-

( so know what,after sending him the message,i went to look at it again,i realise the whole passage sounds really funny. lols. So funny till it sounds so childish , like what the ? -.- whatever.hahas )

Should i leave for Shanghai & Hongkong during June holidays with my mum and her friend ? Hmmms~ Tell me tell me,should i should i ?

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I'm so clever,DEEPAK !!!! Can you imagine anot?! DEEPAK DEEPAK!! WHOSE A TURTLE/TORTISE NOW?! :D

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YES YES YES YES ! YOOO-HOOOOO~~ LIKE SO FINALLY ! DEEPAK,SLOW TURTLE ! goshed,patience leads to success . whooo-hooo~~ I"M SO HAPPY :D DEEPAK,NANI NANI PUPU~

On my way to airport pictures,and pictures taken there.Not all was uploaded,because i looked hilarious in`em! In the cab(:

In the airport.Must be wondering why i sat on the trolley right?! I was too lazy to walk the long long way. =x
Reached thailand,like finally.And our first dinner there.As if like advertising for coke -.- Its because i like the bottle,so retro.


Dears,for the rest of the pictures at thailand,there won't be alot of pictures with faces of me in it,because i didn't put on much make up,or wore nicely there.So hehhhehhheh , only pictures of my trips . The next time i'm free to blog about thailand will be unknown so stay tuned (:

i was foolish,among my friends.
i was stupid,for being a best friend.
whatever that was,it was for all.
to tell you guys,what true friends should act like they are.
not hinting that you guys aren't true friends,
just that i find the passage was meaningful,and everyone should get to know about it,
to think over what we've done these years,regardless or friends,bestfriends,flings or ex-relationships.
reply me,am i really a true friend,to you? Do you think,i've done my best as a friend,bestfriend?

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:D but deepak won me by 3 words,and since noon till now,i still can't win him. NVM,i'll try, IDIOT.

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Cool! I broke my own record again after trying again and again.
Quick quick,someone,compete me! :D

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Nice! My highest score currently :D and you guys should try it out too.
And for now,i find no one that can beat my score,compete me ?! :D
http://speedtest.10-fast-fingers.com/
I've been playing and playing,its fun,for me! How about you ?!