useless letters . useless tears .. useless blood .. nothin .. 31o3o6 .. ;

decide tu meet ue up todae tu pass ue da letter i wrote .. thinkin of a chance tu be together again .. wrote da letter fer about two daes .. n den i tore it off todae .. cryin behind cheers .. tats what he told me " told ue not tu come le . serve ue rite " .. i dun wan scoldin from ue . i wanted comfort but no one was there fer me . ue turn ur back n walk awae .. with her .. i never thot i would see this scene .. never .. hmmms . tore da letter awae with moi bare hands .. jus rite in front of myself .. spendin two daes writin .. i suddenli felt i was such a fool tu write .. i expect ue to turn back .. expect ue tu come .. no more .. i dun even see a single soul .. call kor .. boi .. kok .. out .. den meet at china town point . sit at mac .. havin a real farkin bad headache n needed panadol at tat moment .. but no one believe .. i wonder why .. i wun kill myself like tat .. jus smoke one cigg .. jus one .. n kor came .. stop me n i got nagging .. me n kor same time shi lian .. siians .. he feel happi but not me .. hmms . i noe he also veri sad de .. haish .. two of us behind chinatown point there zi lian .. zi lian til moi camara half dead .. boi sae we throw him alone .. dots .. haish .. smuacks kor kor todae .. kor kor also smuacks me todae .. dots rite .. nothin big deal .. two single .. including do xiongmei so long liao . nearli three years le bah ? hmmms . we are alwaes so tiong xim .. hmms . no appitite todae again .. bo eat .. siians .. haish .. see bian bian so noisy i also sians .. hmmms . haish . todae jus not a good dae bah .. never go detention .. anione wanna sae happi new year tu me on mondae ? im dyin .. judy tua us go detention .. farkin du lan .. she sae dun wan go de . in the end sabo us .. wa baing . du lan .. den dun dare call me .. kaos .. whatever nawh .. i dun even care animore . i've no interest in anithink le .. tmr go where nerhs ? i also dunno . xin tootpid .. call syl bo call me .. make me wait fer her call .. bleahs . where were ue when i needed ue ? hmmms . nvm .. ue haf ur own freedom . i got no rite tu find ue wenever i want .. hmmms . haiish .. so sians . everithin so down .. school .. home .. frens .. love .. everithin nawh .. nothin is left out .. haish .. can i ferget everithin ma ? dun wanna remember le .. i dun like .. dun like da feelin .. jiu shi dun like .. can someone take me out ma ? take me out of all this .. hao ma ? .. haish ..




hmmms . thanks fer da one month ue gave .. thanks fer those caring .. nice memories but not gonna be remembered .. hmmms . dun wanna end up break down here n there again .. maybe two of us reali tio hurt til veri bad bahs .. never thot ue n her would patch so fast .. hmmms . so now ue two again together le . hao hao take kare her n treasure her bahs .. so now between ue two dun again cos of me quarrel or what le .. ferget moi chun zai bahs .. wanna noe why i dun reply ue ma ? dun wanna get back into ur life n in the end history repeat itself bahs .. i ownself hui zi dong de li kai .. yong yuan jiu dang zuo chen jing mei ren shi guo .. once moi friendster can use le .. i wil delete ur foto de .. fang xin . hmms . i noe ue sure ask i zhen de she de ma ? moi reply is .. even if bu she de .. i wil force moiself tu leave this time n i promise tu mean it . i dun wanna be da one who alwaes crush into ue two le .. dun wanna her frens or ur frens da bai think is moi fault bahs .. tell ur didi le ma ? about this matter . hmmms . tell him no need go plan the four of us go out or what le .. i wil tryies tu contact june n tell her de .. so we two maybe zi dong yi dian .. dun contact bahs . hmmms . jus now thot wanna give ue de is tat time we go watch movie tat book remember ? i said i would write our everidae in it ? i got write . but tear awae le .. write new de . those questions ue alwaes wanted tu ask .. also wrote le alot of moi feelings n bla bla bla bahs .. but see todae .. i tear le . everithin tear le .. take it as i todae never even meet ue .. or also can take it as we have never known each other bahs .. think this is da best wae den ani other le .. ue also hao hao take karries kaes .. hmmms . haish .. dun everitime so late go home dong ma . dun cut ur hands with glass le .. hao hao bao zhong .. - kelson ..




hmmms . dunno what he wrote bahs . i also dunno what's happenin .. but i hope nothin would ever affect our friendship bahs .. ue also hao hao de take kare . dun think so much le mrs . bee .. ur mr . bee wil come find me n sting me if anithink happens tu ue . so at least save me kaes .. hmmms . hahas . frens ferever kaes .. me n ue = to a pair .. hahas . meet up soon kaes .. think ue noe who ue are .. dun be stupid kaes . mish ue loads loads .. whakakas ..




xin hui ish moi xin gan .. but she is also moi black black .. moi idiot .. hehes . she got syl jiu dun wan me . got pat also dun wan me .. got wanjing also dun wan me .. got chi also dun wan me . got ur jie also dun wan me . go jovial also dun wan me .. poor me hors ? nobodi wans .. hehes . aniwan wanna buy ma ? win le lors . todae tok tok tok with him tok til ferget call me . er xin man .. xin hui ish er xin .. ferget call me . dots . bu xi huan ni le . n oh ya . btw . can ue pls update ur tootpid blog faster ? . then tmr wanna go kbox ma ? i backside itchy le . aiya . dunno la .. hahas . see first lors .. so sians . hmmms . haishs .. mondae also duno goin sch ma wors . so dunno ue can see me ma .. mish me kaes .. sistarx tiong xim 184 .. whakakas ..




hmmms . nothin much tu sae le bahs . i wan go orh orh le .. see bian bian orh orh til so shuang . i also xin yang yang le .. hmmms . wonder how tu put him aside cos he's like a king sleepin in da middle of moi loveli bed huggin moi boster . tootpid .. so how should i move him nerhs ? kick ? nope ? push ? nope . carri .. ? see first lors . .he veri pig nehs . todae so earli sleep . also good nawh . no need come ka jiao me . hehes . ke lian me . everinite give him bite .. bleahs . love bian bian loads loads ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ im sure one dae .. someone would understand .. da love fer ue wasn't fake .. wasn't on n off .. but ue trusted ur feelings . but now .. i dun blame anione of us .. hmmms . xiaoping dear kor is ][ .xia0BASTARD . ][ .. he's stupid mei here is ][ .xiaobytche . ][ .. kor .. thanks fer da smuacks ue gave .. do ue thank me fer givin ue smuackies ? hahas . we did somethin so wrong todae .. poor kok kit . ke ai us .. hehehehes . mish ue loads . love ue .. muackies again .. lalas .. _




ohhh . btw . anione remember tat todae is april fool's dae .. ? hehes . happi april's fool dae .. !! whakakas .

message : thank ue fer lovin me ..

did it reali hurt ue deep ? do ue reali love me deep down in ur heart ? ue may sae yes .. but i would alwaes repeat da same thing . what i saw tat dae wasn't acceptable .. were moi eyes playin tricks on me or was i thinkin too much ? blame ue fer da break ? why everithin ue think ner ? ue reali think i dun love ue ma ? ue said i message ue n reply ue without even thinkin ? are ue so sure ? were da words reali tat hurtin ? den how about those messages ue sent ? we sent messages tu each other n we think it wun hurt at all .. but how did we noe what were the two of us thinkin about ? saw ur profile . saw da message ue wrote . saw da testi she gave ue . guess what moi reaction was ? i wasn't surprise at all .. maybe reali did not contact her but im reali lost .. we arent livin happili after da break so why sae ? so why end this relationship in jus two words ? nope . ue are not stupid .. ue are not foolish .. maybe we should have given each other more time befer da patch .. maybe ue can blame me fer being stil so young .. maybe ue can even blame me fer not understandin .. but i reali cant acccept da fact tat ue are mine fer tat moment .. maybe becos i was use tu seeing ue being with her .. but not me .. i miss ue hugs n kisses too .. ur last presents fer me was da message ue reply todae .. saein ue mish me too .. in da message ue wrote . ue said how would i wan ue to love me .. moi reply was .. maybe i needed ue too teng me more .. maybe i wanted ue tu reali show out how much ue wanted tu meet me .. maybe i wanted ue tu show me things ue alwaes kept tu urself .. maybe i lost part of moi trust in ue becos of da word i saw tat dae .. i told moiself .. wo hai pa .. zhen de hen hai pa shi qu ni .. dan ...





to be continue .

its all over .. 12.ooam .. da first month of our love .. it ended ..

yi qie duo wan le .. ta yi bu shu yu wo . wo ye bu shu yu ta le .. nan dao ni zhen de gan jue bu dao wo de ai ma .. nan dao ni zhen de xiang xin ni de zhi jue ma .. bu shi mei ci duo shi dui de .. i was right damn happi those daes with ue .. saturdae . sundae .. n it all came so suddenli .. it ended .. todae .. tuesdae .. 28o3o6 .. no more ue .. no more love .. no more me .. but tu tell ue more . im happi with moiself i didn't cry much wen i receive da message tat ue wanna break . in jus two words .. " let's break " .. n ue wanted tu end everithin .. ye shu . i've alreadi learnt tu give up things tat are shouldn't be mine .. people around me might think there's a farkin damn somethin wrong with me .. seeing me smile a month n then cryin again .one dae they should be understandin ? .. since its suppose tu end like this .. den i shall let it be .. .. ue dun trust me .. no ue dun .. ue dun believe tat ue are moi one n onli . ue said i gave ue false hope in meetin ue .. what false hope have i ever given ue . ue reali wanna me sae out .. kaes .. since ended le .. i sae hao le .. " remember tat dae i was sittin beside ue in great world's mac .. remember ue read a message . remember da first word " baobei laogong " .. what was it .. what was this . i dun wish tu ask cos i dun wanna spoil our relationship .. ue never even read da rest n ue kept pressin down .. n den replied .. i dun wanna see .. i dun wana noe what's happenin " was moi eyes playin tricks on me . or was it fer real . i dun wanna sae anithink n now ue shoot things back tu me .. am i suppose tu blame myself or should i sae its all ur fault .. jus a few questions n a few reasons . ue dun wanna tok it out .. yet ue jus sae break .. ue said ue wanna me be happi . so have ue ever noe how happi i wanna be ? i thot ue would understand more .. what can i more sae .. if ue think everithin ue think is right .. what's more fer me tu explain .. nothin .. suan le .. if ue think im stil in da wrong .. den blame me fer ur whole life .. .. .. think its moi fault n tell everibodi its moi fault hao le . fer what i saw tat dae in great world .. ue can sui bian find a reason n sae moi eyes is playin tricks on me hao le .. ue think i treat ue as a spare tyre ? ue see .. everithink ue think ue think .. why ue can slowli talk out things with her but not me .. becos ue think im stil young n dun understand .. so let it be .. im stil da small gal ue all think .. whatever .. maybe .. we shouldn't have even patch at all .. those smiles ue gave .. are all memories again now ..




her : let's break
me : huhs . ?!
her : let's break bahx . im tired le of waiting .
me : waitin of . ?
her : waitin fer ur love ..
me : so what are ue tryin tu sae now .. you are thinkin i dun love ue at all ma ? .
her : i can feel ur love . on n off ..
me : since ue trust ur gan jue so much .. so easili let go le .. i also have nothin tu sae .. my feelings on n off fer ue ? if reali like ta t.. i earli jiu let ue go le .. if its ue da one who reali wanna break .. dun find reasons and think its moi fault hao ma ..
her : if ue reali love me so much ue wun have nothin tu sae now .. ue are moi one n onli but am i ur one n onli ? whereever ue are or whoever ue are with ue dun even bother tu tell me . everitime sae wan meet ue in the end ue wil have somethin on . why give me false hope when ue dun even have e intention of meeetin me ? .
me : isit reali becos of this few questions ue gonna ask tat made ue give up in me .. ue wanna noe ? i dun believe in relationships tat are gonna last tat meetin everidae .. messagin everidae .. talkin on fone everidae .. maybe its becos of those past . i rather see da one i love not everidae .. what false hopes have i given ue ? ..
her : i wan ue tu be happi . no matter how much i miss ue i wun ask ue meet me everidae . i dun wan tu tie ue down . ue can go out with anione but at least tell me where ue are n with who so i dun have tu worri fer ue . i wan tu noe cos i care .if ue reali love me . ue wil hafe e urge tu meet me . i feel like ur spare tyre when ur frens never meet ue den onli ue wanna meet me . everitime ue sae maybe wanna meet meue no ei reject my frens who wanna meet me jus cos of ue maybe . isnt it false hope ? .
me : a spare tyre ? ue have tu sae til like tat ? everithin also ue think ue think .. what thing is not ue think de ? if ue are reali moi spare tyre . i wil not have meet ue le .. eu think im veri good with moi time ma ? ue alreadi sae maybe le .. so why everitime sae becos of me . ? .



da rest continues da time she replies ..




not tu love so much again .. not tu love till it hurts .. not ever .. we are so unable tu treasure ..




wil people laugh ? wil people ever look down on me ? becos of those relationships tat are goin over n over again .. fer me .. i give a 1oo% trust on moi sentiments .. i noe somethin veri bad was gonna happen todae cos moi dae wasn't goood . but i never thot its ue .. i shall not led a tear again . eben if i gonna . it shall not wen im so awake . unless im drunk . if i gonna led a tear down again . it may not be fer ue . but fer those past n memories i have .. those scari fears .. .. ..




tu keep moiself from not havin depreesion .. i shall keep moiself with those works with frens .. with bian bian .. i shall keep moiself veri veri busy .. i shall not think of ue .. i shall not .. .. .. even if i ever think of ue .. it shall be onli fer a while .. jus awhile ..




thank ue fer breakin .. ue made me understand moiself more . like ........... i dun easili cry alreadi .. i learnt tu give things up tat aren't mine .. i have alreadi take things easili n more openli after so mani ups n downs . now .. maybe ue would hate me so much .. but i would sae " its myself .. its me .. it was ue who made things end up like tat .. n not me .. 28o2o6 is a dae tat shall be forgotten by ue n me .. its a dae tat none of us shall ever remember ..




those swwiit talks .. those swwet words .. those loveli kisses n hugs from ue .. are all gone .. i learnt tat things come n go .. so are ue .. remember da dae i added ue in friendster n became ur fren . n then those talks n chats .. n den those meetin up .. n then da four of us .. n den those cryin .. those laughter .. hhave ue also remember da time we saw at safra . n den dae passes by each dae .. til noow .. so long .. it shall not happen again . no more .. shhhh .. those cuts i gave .. ur name i slash on moi hand .. i suddenli felt im like a fool .. maybe ue did reali love me . im sure tu tell ue i reali love ue .. ue gave up so easili .. so now ue dun wanna reply my message . isit becos again ue think there's nothin tu talk between us or ue think ue shouldn't give a damn reply .. or ue have nothin tu sae or isit a long long long reply ue gonna give ? maybe i would drink n smoke moiself to death .. but R.I.P .. im sure tu have moi frens with me .. even all gone . im sure tu tell ue i have bian bian with me .. bleahs ..




i noe im abit retard fer moi whole blog .. but ermhx . entertain me abit wun die de . oh ya .. my frens . ferget tu tell eu all .. if one dae ue see me talkin tu myself huh .. dun worri .. its jus fer a period of time . wil stop de .. or my friends .. ue suddenli see me cryin on da streets .. also dun worri too much kaes .. also onli fer awhile nia .. get use tu it jiu hao liao .. whakakas . im like tat .. but please be glad huh .. im not so terrible this time .. at least i stil laughs .. or isit a bad symtom? hahas . funni huh ? do ue think its funni ? i think so nehs . why i stil laugh .. or huh . am i tryin tu make those smiles tu overcome moi tears ? hahas . isit better or worse ? whakakas . oh ya .. btw huh ..i saw yong jie todae nehs . surprise tat i suddenli talk about him ? whakakas . never thot of after we break tat dae i would ever see him again .. but todae .. we saw each other .. den we was like tryin to block our faces . but dunno what tat idiot peter go tell him .. den he suddenli end up with moi dog nehs .. hahas . not him holdin la .. peter la .. hahas . but two of them together . diaos huh ? whee . but he smile at me .. n i was like faintin .. whakakas . i never thot this would ever happen lors .. hahas . whatever na .. dots ..




kaes na . end moi blog here .. i gonna flider with other things alreadi .. gonna call petern cum tian long tu tel them i alrite .. thanks fer those callings but i never ans .. hahas .. cos i dun wish tu talk .. ermhx .. dunno wanna call anot .. see first la . hahas .. kaes kaes .. gonna rest moi eyes .. its so itchy n moi gastric is gonna burst soon .. miss doctor saes tat if it continues tu pain like tat . i gotta be rush tu the hospital fer da next two daes .. moi deari cousin saes if reali this happens . i gotta undergo a operation . although its a small one but YEAH . im dyin im dyin .. YEAH .. !! . is anione happi fer me ?! hahahahhas . finalli im dyin .. silentli .. whakakas ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ i reali dun noe what's gonna happen fer da next few daes .. maybe someone comin up slappin me .. hahas . slap bah . i sure kill da hell out of ue .. hehes . jokin .. i also dunno what i gonna do .. ermhx .. maybe deprression ? hahas . i wun .. maybe cry ? i dunno .. thot i sae not easili led a tear down again ? hahas . dunno la . jus dunno what's gonna happen da next few daes .. hmmms .. _

blog is spoilt ..

ue noe what .. i wrote such a long blog .. n some gone ? dots .. too bad lors .. ue all cant read . hahas ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ dots .. moi eyes are dropin out . moi stomach are burstin .. _

sorri fer somethin ..

ermhx . sori fer da previous blog i wrote . some words from da startin lost le . blogger startin to lag on moi com . hmmms . pardon me kaes . whakakas . love ya loads ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ i love bian bian . baobeix . baobeixdarlinkxin . cynthia dear . aiya . all moi gannie famili members . whakakas . hmmms . smuackies . _

i love everione .. ermhx not everione .. hahas .. 26o2o6 - ;

hmms . but also cannot afford tu lose baobeix wors .. cum baobeidarlink xin n cyn . hahas . losin baobeix wil cost moi life . whakakas . ahem ahem . tmr not goin sch again . cos im so sick .. nearli kana sent tu SGH .. hmmms . stomach pain . think is gastric .. cos thot havin moi meals regularli .. moi stomach is stil veri painful now okies . hmmms . vommited about 6-8 times todae bahs , sobx sobs . hmms . hey . guess wen i can seee baobeix again ? hmms . whakakas . ytd go sentosa . so shuang nors . actualli hai hao na . hahas . cos never reali concentrate on sun tannin . with moi bian bian with me . difficult na . hehes . wana thank ke xin n ke li fer da dog bah . hmmms . their precios lai de nehs . hehes . todae they come moi house visit . ue noe how happi bian bian was ma ? whakakas . den i also havin flu . sian sian de nehs . hmmms . whole dae lock up at home rottin . currentli lost half a part of moi bodi . hehes . now bian bian sleepin besside me . ears movin here n there . kay siao de . hehes . also nothin much happen this few daes nors . hmms . haish . stil like tat .. so mani people ask me how am i .. same old reply .. like tat nors . how happi or sad can i be .. hmmms . also dunno what can i sae nehs . hmmms . so sick n tired of sch . imagine ue everidae see da same things .. especialli those books .. so bored .. see alreadi also wil sleep . hmmms . dun ue think so huhs ? .. hahas .. heard from cyn tat what guan hong currentli workin at suntec mac . i wasn't tat interested lors . hmms . also dunno why ,.. hahas . hey people . cynthia cheng with ah bee nehs . hehes . wonder how long this time wil they last .. he also another pervertic de .. hehes . tootpid everione .. wonder what xin doin now . idiot her . never call me . hehes . must be sleepin bah .. ferget tell her tmr not goin sch . ltr tio gan again .. whakakas . i love patricia de ai xin biscuits specialli fer me . hehes . but moi comment is put more butter . so the smell n taste wil be better . hehes . make in smaller n shape thinner . like tat den nice . hehes . actualli specialli fer me . but tat xin hors . kana pic . from dog become pig . eat all nehs . wa biang .. poor me onli eat one . hehes . i should have brought back home nors . hahas . tmr meetin cynthia bah . cos confirm never go sch le . meet cynthia go eat da small steamboat we everitime eat . so anione wanna spot me tmr ? pls .. i'll be at tiong .. hahas . i wil be there eatin .. should i bring bian bian ? i scared he bark here n there nehs .. siians .. how den he can be guai guai nerhs ? do ue think i should save money let him go train ? . hehes . but sure veri expensive de nors . but slowli save bah .. hahas . dun ue think bian bian name is cute ? . whakakas . too bad he wil bite .. hmmms . he bit me on moi hand da first dae nehs . but stop le . now so teng me .. hahas .. was tellin baobeix i dun wan him le .. go choose bian bian . but jokin nawh , hehes . i got so bad de mehs ? whakakas . i was wonderin if i could ue noe .. quit sch by this month ? but i find somehow its useless . hahas . dun anione realize i've been laughin since da start of moi this blog ? i also dunno why . hahas . wonder what ba0beix doin now ? think he haven orh orh bah .. waitin fer his message nehs . he also bo reply me . so sians .. later he sae he waitin fer moi message again .. grrrr .. bored up .. so sians . thinkin what would happen tmr nors . hmms . farkin teachers would call moi hp or house again . sian de nehs . cant they jus give me up ? hahas . tat would be nice wors .. hmmms . i now also veri tired le . stomach also start to ache again lliao . si bei ke lian nehs . so xian mu cyn .. jus stead with him nia . she sae she hungry n headache i think .. tat ah bee straight awae buy food n panadol put outside her house .. so sweet hors . hehes . never thot he would like tat . whakakas . also dun wish tu sae about anithink sad cum angry .. sae le scared wil mood change n make a big big offecnce .. sians .. hmmms . kaes na . i wan go slp liao . so can off light give bian bian sleep better . later he jumo on moi bed again . i wan go help him cover blanket liao .. he kana like shiverin like tat . kaes nors . so i end here le . buais buaais kaes . ermhx btw . those ppl message me or what den i never reply .. sowe arhs . cos i reali reali damn busy n tired n sick .. so must understand kaes . hmmms . whakakas . tat time at habour front kan dao ling na . hehes . kaes na . i reali go orh orh le . mish me loads kaes . buais . i love tu see da wae how he sleeps . i mean bian bian la .. hahas . kaes n0rs . smuackies . take karries . hahas . see everione soon kaes . shit .. xin n cyn b'dae comin le . god bless me man . hahas . tata ...




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ i stil hope what i saw tat dae wasn't true . what i heard wasn't da fact .. its jus so hurtin yet no one noes .. love me fer who am i . accept what i did .. iHEART'sue . hmmms . _

so long never write blog le . hehes . anibodi mish me ma ? whakakas .. 23o3o6 -

whakakas . hmmms . so long so long never write blog le . hehes . cos nothin reali much to write ma . somemore sch start so long le . so wil blur blur de . hehes . hmmms . i now currentli listenin to songs n rottin at home . i whole dae never go out . hehes . todae also never go sch . whakaks . tmr also never go sch . hehehehes . hmmms . siians siians . when i den can quit sch ner ? hmmms . i keep dun dare go ask da learn cut hair de thing . dun dare ask da make up de thing . like tat die le la . later keep pull time . siians nehs . hmmms . who wanna help me ask ? hahas . i noe abit retard la . tats why i never go ask . hehes . oh ya . ue noe horrs . da cantonese song " si xin bu gai " ? . i change da lyrics nehs . hehes . haven change finish yet . onli one part nia . hehes . i type down da lyris kaes . hmms . whakakas .




wo ai ni,zhen de hen ai ni . dan ni yi jing bu shi wei yi .
dui bu qi,zhen de dui bi qi . wo ye bu xiang zhe yang de .
nan dao ni yi bu ai wo er yi,wo ye bu hui zhe guai ni .
wo hen wo zi ji chen jing bu hui hao hao de zhen xi ni,ke shi wo ye hen ni chen jing bu hui hao hao dui wo .
jiu shi ying wei shi qu ni,wo cai bian gu du .
hao nan shou,hao tong ku,dan mei ren zhi dao .
ni shuo ni hen liao jie wo,dan duo shi pian ren de .
zai wo de shi jie li mian,ni cong mei liao jie guo .
ying wei ni de chun zai,rang hui yi bu neng zuo .
suo yi wo cai hui nan guo . . . . .




whakakas . hmms . like tat nors . maybe i wan restart da lyrics . cos tu me la . abit out of meanin . hahas . ehx . dun think change veri easi hors . hehes . difficult de nors . lalas . hmmms . kaes na . sae about serious de liao . whakakas . poor me nehs . see baobeix onli can about 3 daes once or 2 daes once . whakakas . but at least better nors . scared later everi dae see also wil sians . hehes . fact ma . whakakas . hmmms . mi now so sians . yawn . no one pei me . whakakas . oh ya . syl hors . ehx . also dunno should add a baobeix or what . aiya . dunno na . jus syl hors . sae about da dog thingi . me also dunno real ma nehs . ehx . cannot bluff nehs . sae da fren bu ke yi yang .. cos of da parents . so pass give me . hehes . so happi nehs . whakakas . but wil bite people if dunno nehs . den da name call " bian bian " . cute hors . i ferget what breed liao . but they sae small size de . hehes . good good . den at least i no need purposeli rush come back home pei da dog . i can take one bag put him inside like tat time roselyn de dog . den bring him out . whakakas . so shuang . but they sae he veri veri active nehs . wonder how . hehes . this fridae nehs . so jing zhang . whakakas . later tell me jus kiddin with me nia i sure sian half . hehes . toot dog veri niao nehs . onli eat da dunno what cesar de food . hehes . den tian long sae is sissors . so i feed him sissors can le . hahas . metal or plastic ? whahahas . kiddin na . stil got eat what i also dunno . whee . so happi . alreadi bright up moi dae le nors . hehes . xin yang yang liao . whakakas . now smsin with ba0beix . he jus see da nyp de gerl de porn . den he now den realize he noe de . dots hors . tootpid him . whakakas . kaes na . wanna go liao . wan go see he got reply me so log off first . next time den come back . whakakas . bye bye ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ gerl . ur bulletin board . was it talkin about me or her ? hmmms . dunno .. confused by ue .. although i smile n laugh everidae . but til now . there's stil a nightmare livin in world . those memories . the past . im stil afraid . so why people stil think im someone so happi with moi life ? so why even they noe some of moi probs . n see me smile once again . they stil think they noe everithin ..? im stil surrounded by those nightmares n fears .. hmmms . haix . _

fark la .18o3o6 -

no mood la . fark la . du lan .. cb la .. nb .. hk la .. nbcb . FUCK OFF LA . PISSED OFF . SUAN LE LA . ARHS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK ; WHATEVER LA .. NO MOOD .. ANI SINGLE SOUL WHO DARES TU RE ME TODAE AT THE BBQ OR WHERE EVER FUCKIN PLACE .. UE SEE ME GO CRAZI .. FUCK OFF LA . KB .


I DUN WANNA LET DOWN A TEAR FER UE AGAIN .. HOW MANI TIMES MUST I DO TAT .... I DUN UNDERSTAND ... [ not ba0beix ] UE WIL THINK WHY I CAN I DUN GO MYSELF . BUT I ALREADI PROMISE PPL LE . JUS COS UE NO MOOD N ALOT PEOPLE UE DUN WAN GO . HOW UE WAN ME EXPLAIN TO HIM !? EASY FER UE TU SAE .. DUN EVEN NOE HOW TO MAKE UE UNDERSTAND .. SUAN LE .. *DEAD* ..


DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ i have never gone crazi fer such a long time alreadi _

restart moi wish list . whakakas . 13o3o6 ;

wish list again .. this time type all down .. people must zu yi ok . hahas . kiddin na .. :

* slim digital camara . whakakas .

* a perlini ring . hehes . got words carve on it de .. hehes . [ wil anione by it fer me .. ? kekes . must buy two horrs . den the person who buy me de got one n i got one . no need stead ma . fren also can buy . whakakas . ] .

* see yuyang n adriano . [ jus once wil bright up moi dae ] hahahahas .

* 4 daes 3 nites de chalet . hahas .

* a new computer .

* a big big winnie the pooh .

* a cute cute piglet n tiger n eee orh can le .

* more eye liner .. more lipgloss . more face shop de eye shadow .. more blusher . hehes .

* i wan new contact lens [ if ani hao xin ren wan buy give me horrs . cos this is moi wish list ma . surprise me . hahas . i noe i veri bhb la . but moi degree can buy 35o - 5oo de . hahas . ] .

* meet xin more often . hahahahahahas . i noe its retard la .

* go in institute of mental hospital as soon as possible . [ although i noe im alreadi one inside . hahahahas . ] .

* more sticker books n sticker .. hehes .

* a bunch of blue roses .

* more nail polish .

* no more schooling .

* kelly's cd album . whakakas .

* more $$$ . kekes .

* people teng me .. most teng me .

* more clothes worrs .

* more bikini . hahas . now onli got one .. how to lend tat LIM xin hui ?! must find n find n find . hahahas .

* more freedom [ can the government dun care so much . our probs lei . also not theirs . kb so much . ]

* wanna tat slut to die . i wil go to her funeral with a smile n loads of laughter .. hahahahas .

* moi first POSB card .

* more surprises .. [ I WAN SURPRISES ] .. hehes . i love love love surprises worrs . kakas .

* more bags n shoes .. hehes .

* one ke ai ke ai de dog [ real de horrs . wonder rabbit they all sae this year wana buy give me .. thinkin real de bo ? hmmms . ] .

* a new mp3 . hmmms . can save alot alot songs de . whalalas .

* eat the steamboat i use to eat again . whakakas .

* a 512mb card .. [ handphone de ] .

* more people pei me zi lian .

* more colour hair band .

* mickey n minne .. [ a collection of them ]

* 3 sunglass .

* go do hair nice nice .

* go learn facial or hairstylin .

* go learn singiin .. then be one famous de singer . hehes . [ although i noe it wun happen ] .

* i wan drink more chivas n moi absolute vodka . whakakas .

* wan moi people around me .. espeacialli moi boi n papa to understand me more .

* more accesories !! .

* wan moi room to be nice nice .

* think nothin le bahs . hmmms .. hahas .

END .. more surprises .. more money .. more cutie pies .. lalas ..-----

hehes . this few daes so siians siians worrs . so busy . hmmms . nothin to do .. although alot la . hahas . hmmms . two daes never meet baobeix le . mish him loads loads worrs . whakakas . when can meet ner .? tmr about 4 somethin at town ? whakakas . ai si ta le . hmmms . ba0beix . thanks fer lovin ur baobeix me so much worrs . thanks fer everithin kaes . muacks . whakakas .

DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ i never thot of how long our love would last .. i jus wanna those memories to be sweet if it ends .. i promise to love ue with all moi heart .. i hope ue fergive me fer not able to be with ue everidae n everi single min . i jus hope ue would understand . give me more time to addapt the daes with ue around .. give me time to plan moi daes n time properli . im sure we will be able to meet nearli everidae or nearli everi three daes once worrs . whakakas . miish ue . VION ("v") KELSON - 28o2o6 _

i love everibodi . i hope everibodi loves me too . if ani of ue hate me . i beg heaven n hell .. leave me alone no matter how ue hate me . i dun wan so mani probs . shoo shooo shooo .. sorri if i give attitude this few daes moi close ones around me . im sorri . i jus dun have da mood sometimes , suddenli ..

MEVERICK CHIA . I TELL UE HERE HORRS . GOT READ OR NEEVER READ I DUN CARE LIAO . NOT I BIAN HORS . I BIAN ALSO BIAN IN OTHER WAE TAT WUN BOTHER UE HORRS . OTHER HUAN DIO MOI OTHER FRENS HORRS . SAE I WU LI QU NAO N XIAO QI THIS FEW DAES . NOT ONLI UE GOT PROBS N FAN NAO HORRS . MOI PROBS N FAN NAO MORE THAN UE LORRS . I ALSO NEVER ACT SO SAK KI IN SCHOOL .. UE OWNSELF GO THINK HAO HAO IS I BIAN OR UE BIAN HORRS . WA LAO . WADEVER UE THINK . I DUN GIVE A FUCKIM DAMN . MOI ATTITUDE N CHARACTER BO HUAN DIO UE .. SIAM .. BLEAHS . !! .

n0thin .. o8o3o6 ; -

moi loves .. moi wiish .. o6o3o6 .. -

moi loves .. :

him [ kelson ] baobeii laogong ..

moi darliinks .. moi baobeix ..

moi meiis .. moi brothers .. moi jiies .. moi didix .. moi erzii ..

moi human animals .. hehes ..

moi soft toys .. [ over 3o soft toys in moi messy room .. ] .. especialli moi big big big hamtaro ..

moi handphone ..

surprises [ moi favourite le . hehes . ]

moi nailpolish .. [ 26 bottles of nail polish .. ] ..

moi accessories .. [ earrings .. necklace .. etc .. ] ..

moi mirrors .. hahas ..

moi clothes .. moi bags .. moi make ups ..

milk .. [ delicious .. hehes . ]

moi wallet .. [ but i hate it when i see no $$$ inside .. ]

songs .. dancing .. talkkin on fone .. sms .. plae around n go retard .. hehes ..

last thing .. no worries bahs .. hmmms .. jus wanna stae happi bahs ..

moi wish list :

kelly poon's cd . [ whakakas . ]

to see yuyang . [ jus once wil do . hehehes . ]

a big big pooh bear .. a big big piglet .. a big big eeee orh .. a big big tiger ..

a big big minnie n mickey ..

4 daes 3 nite de chalet .. [ 11th may 14th may .. ]

2 more gothic clothes .. 3 - 5 jap jap de clothes ..

more freedom ..

etc .. to be continued ..

* hahas . i cant think of anithink now .. cos on the fone .. then moi head is abit blur . hahas . *

nothin much happen this few daes bahs .. tat sat drink chivas .. heng not so stupid at tat time .. bored norrs. hehes . nothin much le . i got sian sian daes .. find work time is here man .. shit .. hehes . no one yang me .. hahas .. have also dun wan waste baobei de money . lalas .. i veri good dui ma ? .. hehes . love ue ..

DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ iHEART`xue loads .. baobeix has sensitive ears nehs . whakakakas . *shyshy* .. 28o2o6 .. miss ue .. lalalas . mish me too kaes . hahas . * man tuo * .. tootpid ue .. _

hmms . im s0wwies if i this few daes never write worr . veri tired bahs . hmmx . o3o3o6 -

ohhh .. im bored ohh . i have nothin to write .. nothin to sae .. jus nothin . i jus dun have the mood and dun ask why .. freak it .. siians .

dun wish to talk about it anim0re ; 28o2o6 -

hmmmx . what happen todae ner ? i dun wish tu tok about it ler bahx . since its " over " jiu take it as nothin hao ler .. lost one daddie . lost one mummie ; haix .. dunno na . hmmmx . im s0wiie if the above pics make anione of ue puke .. hmmmx .. no copyin .. its moi .. hmmmx . moi hand .. whatever .. im so tired so tired now .. maybe i stil dunno what i've made ue disappointed in bahx .. hmmmx . ue take kare too kaes .. hmmx . nothin much about todae bah .. kbox ? movie ? n den home ? tats all bahx .. hmmmx .




hmmmx . hope things can be cleared as soon as possible bahx .. dun wish to think so much also bahs .. everione got probs now .. siians .. since after ue left after talkin .. all moi laughter n smiles are all fake .. so fake .. hais .. im sorri .. so sorri ..




the dae ; 28o2o6 .. it hurts the most ..




i may gonna lose a fren so close so close now .. ani moment .. im afraid .. everi min everi sec .. im afraid i would lose her .. she has me n C to choose . i wonder what wil she think .. wil she be back like nothin has happen ? we are all so farkin sad .. she said " n0rt da gal i use to be ; * cried ; heartaches ; dun sae nvm .. it will jus make me feel more guilty .. reali sorrix . " hmmx . gerl darlink .. if ue choose to continue ur best frenship with her .. i wun blame eu .. maybe hatred feelings wil be there fer her . but .. i wil jus see ue go as a best sistar n a best fren .. take kares ..




no more me ler . no more the person . the vionna ue all use to noe . .everithin change ler .. change to somethin so confuse .. hmmmx .. whatever bahx .. i wil jus let things be bahs .. if ue wanna hate me .. i also have nothin much to say ler .. hmmmx . enemies are stil enemies . dun plae around animore . .let me warn ue .. dun do things in purpose .. dun tok to moi dad animore .. we are no more frens from last 2-3 years .. so pls fuck off . ue have ur life i have mine .. so shooo off .. dun plae with me .. no .. dun . fer ue .. i wil do anithink to kill ue .. so ue beta fark off from moi sight .. sluts ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ memories are used to be said tat it should be erased .. but should it reali be erase to prevent ani more hurtin ? i stil dun understand myself .. dun understand ue .. n understand anithink in life .. i stil dun trust .. i dun .. no one can be trusted .. no one .. * guilt * _

im feelin so sick yet no one believes me ; im so out of frens . i need'em .. im jus so out of love ; .. 27o2o6 -

i jus dun love todae . i dun love .. i hate my life . i hate myself .. had a big big big serious quarrel with moi father in da car this mornin .. this how's the stori started .. => earli in the mornin when he was brushiin his teeth in da bathroom . i automacticly woke up n went out to tell his i didn't want to go to school todae .. so he said no .. * he shouted n not sayin properli * .. so i jus guai guai de walk back into moi room n slp back disappointly .. so after tat he open moi door n ask me tu wake up .. i wake up n then go do moi normal things na .. brush teeth n bla bla bla .. den becos i dunno why todae i prepare take so long time .. like its fated de like tat .. den i was late fer sch in the end .. hmmmx .. siian siians .. den moi bag was confiscated becos i lost moi ez link card .. n den i was like " kaox .. what a farkin dae todae is . " .. n den i jus pass moi bag to mr wong .. after bell ring ler .. we can go .. but but .. stupid him suddenli sae wanna check nails .. den i tio la .. moi nails so long .. so moi beautiful nails was gone in the end .. n now im typin with so short nails .. cant even be seen .. den i goota carry all moi books n bla bla bla .. back to the dnt room .. cos moi first three lessons was dnt . n i was like holdin on to the lighter which belongs to tiffany .. n marcus mp3 .. n moi precious HP !! . n den i walked walked walked .. so after tat .. i did moi dnt n bla bla bla la .. den ue noe what .. when it was the last perioud of dnt .. moi stomach start to ache lorr .. kaos . n i was like so tired so tired norrs .. so i was like sufferin in class ? .. den decided to tell mdm haslinda .. den she called hui hui to pei mi call moi father .. den i was like goin down the stairs n i nearli fell .. cos i was like pain till i feel so weak .. den after tat the clerk called moi father n he said he was goin to fetch me .. n den i jus sat outside the general office .. so i slept there lorr . so pai seh norrs . hmmmx . diaos .. den wait til moi sch de recess wanna over le den moi father come .. den he was like shoutin moi name lorr .. n den i was like so pai seh n den i also got a fright norrs .. fuck man .. so i was so fuck up with him norrs .. den cant find mr.wong n cant take moi bag back .. the end he came .. i took back .. n den go in da car n lie down .. so after tat moi father came into the car lorrs . n den sae what . " ue think i dunno isit .. this mornin ue sae ue dun wan come sch .. den i sae no . den ue come .. now ue come home . ue think i dunno isit .. " den i was like alreadi so fuck up .. so i quarrel with him sayin tat he dun trust me n whatever .. den he sae what he never sae he dun trust me .. den i say since he alreadi got tat meanin so why sae no .. den i was like so angry la .. den i cry n cry n cry in da car .. den he keep sayin what he work what bla bla bla .. den i jus diam diam la .. dun wish to continue . cos i noe moi this type of character .. if i cant stand it .. continue quarrelin ,... i wil jump out of the car right awae .. dun care whether i wil lost moi life anot .. den after tat reach moi house here de clinic .. he took the number fer me .. den he go fer work .. sayin he wiil be back . den i waited there alone .. roamin here n there .. cos it was like so long .. den after tat he suddenli call me .. say what since i also must go back the same doctor fer moi hand .. so why dun i cancel moi house de .. den i wait awhile fer him den he come fetch me go .. den i cancel the number .. den waited fer him so long so long lorr . im stil sufferin n i was like alreadi so hungry .. n den i was stil roamin around moi house area .. loneli me .. at tat moment .. how i wish someone was beside me .. pei me .. i was like stil cryin . so it was so pai seh . hmmmx . den after tat moi dad called .. den i got up the car .. n go to the clinic .. den the doc sae what i got gastric n bla bla bla na .. den he finali belief .. haix .. den take medicine n went to moi aunt's house to rest .. den like tat norrs . til night .. eat dinner . watch tv .. hmmmx . den came back home .. now moi stomach ish stil painful norr . the doc also got give tmr de mc .. but dunno moi father wil let me dun go tmr ma .. hmmx . hope he sleep over .. hmmmx . whatever .. den came back home with not a good mood bahx . im jus so tired of life .. ;




hmmmx . i wan quit sch . i wan .. im so tired n sick of sch . i rather learn other things den stay in sch .. how .. what can i do . im jus so sick n tired .. i dun wanna studi .. i dun wanna .. haix .. sch is nothin to me now .. its alreadi nothin .. it jus sux so much .. can i jus leave this place ? .. pls .. ;




hmmmx . jus wanna tell xin tat .. " im willin to see ue back to her becos ue wasn's suppose to me so close to me .. since she's so disappointed n angry now .. i have nothin to say .. is she wanna anihow think what can we stil do .. she no time fer ue .. ue no time fer her .. so i dunno what to sae ler .. aniwae . i read ur blog .. thx bahx . thx so much fer deciding to go out with me tat night bahx .. thx tat ue at least thot of me .. hmmmx . im glad to have a darlink baobei like ue . n even if one dae .. ue go back to chii . i wun blame ue or whatever .. i wil stil thx ue fer leavin me with a happi memory .. hmmmx .. ue too dun force urself too much kaes .. dun think too much about the probs ue havin .. must kan kai kaes . hmmx . smuackkies ..




hmmmx . kaes na .. got to go do other things le .. also quite tired le .. i also not in good mood .. hmmx . so ermx .. back tmr kaes ? miish those who read moi blog loadx .. thx fer readin ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ i jus wanna ue be happi .. tats all .. _

i hate myself ; even if i noe what done is alreadi done ; how am i suppose to take back the things tat has been done ? ; 26o2o6 -

what a dae was ytd ; afternoon was a borin one ; a frustratin one ; but it came tat at night was quite fun ; hmmms . we bought a medium bottle of absolute vodka .. n then ermhx .. onli we three gals .. no ice .. no coke .. nothin .. dunno to call who out ; dunno wanna go where . n we jus rot at MOS outside ; saw so mani shuai gege ; hahas ; and then hmms . called peter .. den we went to his house ; and den drink .. omg .. xin n him plae the cai quan . den keep losin den keep drinkin .. the end she became so stupid tat she sae the vodka is hot n boilin ; i n cynthia was like laughin awae .. becos it was reali funni ; den after tat xin cannot tahan . n i became red like a tomato .. n cyn was like alrite la .. jus abit stubborn ; tootpid ; den after awhile .. xin died ; hahas . n i became crazii ; n cyn became so stupid . so blur ; den i start all moi nonsense la .. den i awhile later .. i keep force moiself go wash face n bla bla bla ; den manage to wake up . jus walk abit siao de . den xin n cyn start vomitin ; stupid xin la .. never eat den jiu drink so much . den cyn lei . eat tat udon .. den all vomit out .. si bei er xin norr . den i was like got to take kare of the two of them .. i have no choice but to call kc ; hmmms . it was about 2 somethin le nors . and moi father was like naggin naggin .. n i was like so fuckin frustrated .. den after tat kc took a taxi down .. n xin was like alreadi lyin on da floor .. den got to *fu* her to the taxi .. ue noe ue noe .. den she was like askin me ; why ue call kc of so mani people ; i dun care her n jus walked awae .. so retard . aiya .. den after tat like tat nors . reach moi house here .. den stay at da lift there fer decades of time . den we go up .. cyn n xin keep vomiitin ; n i was like alreadi so blur ; hmmms . den they go in moi room . then i came out to explain things to moi pa la .. den tok tok tok . sians . tok so long . tok til i so tired . den i went back to the room .. den dunno what time den slp .. so ma fan . hmmms . aiya . jus bla bla lors . den this mornin woke up .. den peter slp slp slp . dun wan wake up .. like tat lor . todae whole dae at home . i dun like todae . not becos i didn't go out . i jus dun like todae .. now i jus eat finish n den im concentratin writin moi blog . hmmms . tats all bahs ..




hmmms . cried todae ? hmms . things happen . like what she said .. what done is alreadi done .. it cant turn back .. its prestdined .. or whatever .. i jus did somethin so wrong so wrong .. how would ue ever wanna me to face moi frens .. im so sorri so sorri .. i hate myself fer being like tat .. can i jus get out of this world n stay alone ? can i jus ferget everithin n let everithin start from its beginnin again .. its my life ; so let me die .. see me die .. wil ue ? ;




i jus dun wanna studi .. can i .. force me .. console me . its no use . reali no use .. dun ask me to think about moi future .. i jus wanna moi life without sch .. i jus wanna moi life without books .. i made this decision le .. can dun try to change ma .. hmmms .. i rather dun wan studi and then go learn other things .. manicure ? hairstylin ? or jus work in ani fastfood wil do .. or ani shops .. i rather be like tat .. reali .. i cant stand the everidae wakin up earli .. i cant stand those teachers scoldin n scoldin .. i jus dun wanna .. pls .. wil this do ? .. i jus cant explain to moi father .. i cant even open moi mouth .. what can i stil ever do .. i jus hate moi mum so never even anione would wanna force me to talk to her .. its what mr sim says de .. he told da whole class of mine ; if ue dun wanna studi .. ue slp in class .. break rules in sch .. if ue dun have da interest in sch .. so why dun quit sch n go outside n learn other things tat ue think ue can concentrate on .. ; im jus followin what he says .. so how can ever anione stop me ... i jus wanna me alone all of a sudden ..




its all over ; all over .. moi life is all ruin .. never sae im a small gerl animore .. neever .. one thing ; i jus wanna let others noe how i feel ; how can this be ; i hate ppl scoldin me fer unvalid reasons .. i hate peopl forcin me to do things i do not wan .. i hate people who wants to change my mind . i hate ppl who look down on me . i hate people who never understands me n they sae they do ; it dosen't happens on them . so how the hell can they noe .. i hate everithin .. includin myself ; myself ; a barbiie who is over in her life .. no more her .. no more frens .. no more famili .. no more anithink .. she jus wanna be alone n start all over again without knowin about her past .. can i ? can i ? pls .. pls .. i jus wanna die n take it over ; see me die ? soon ? i dunno .. fer everi question anione g0nna ask me ; i woul d sae dunno .. so dun force me .. dun .. i wil go crazi n do anithink .. so dun .. im alreadi half dead .. so no more stress pls ..




onli she noes what happens .. no one is suppose to ask .. n jus shut up .. i cant take it animore .. im dyin ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ what done is done . we cant change the past n da present we are holdin onto .. unless ani miracle happens .. there are somethins tat cant be erase n be fergetten about easili .. im someone so weak .. i gonna turn into someone so useless .. no one loves me .. even if a yes is provided .. its onli fer a period of time .. n there's no more love .. nothin wil ever come back again .. so let me go .. n die peacefulli .. _

SHUT UP ;; SERIOUS .. NO MORE LAUGHTER PLS ..

how old le .. stil laugh laugh laugh .. one this year 18 one 19 .. dunno how to think ma .. i scared befer ue two crazi i go in IMH first lorr .. shhhh .. dun hahas le .. n0rt funi .. shut up ..

mummie .. i cried le .. i duno why .. -

i dun noe what ever happens .. all i noe .. isit becos of me ? one sentence " from the beginnin of everithin . i shouldn't have pressed ur profile .. added ue .. met ue .. or even talk to ue n told ue i love ue . " .. moi fault ? i blame it on moiself .. why sae u hate her .. why .. i noe how it hurts .. i noe .. but ue dun have to sae ue hate her .. ue made her so lost .. so lost ..




i dun understand why .. wen i hear ue cry .. wen i heard ue swollowin everi single tablet .. i cried myself .. i cried cos ue are someone so close to me .. i cried becos i noe how it hurts fer noein someone ue love saeyin he hates ue .. i dun wanna ue hurt urself .. im stil sobbin .. how about ue ? no more swollowin pls .. it hurts me dong ma .. ying wei ni shi wo gan mummie .. wo hai shi ren .. hai shi hui dui ni you mama de gan jue .. no use de gerl .. no use de .. he's urs .. n onli urs kaes ;;





im cryin .. silentli .. dunno why .. but i continued to cry .. even if anione saes it dosen't concerns me .. den think what if it happens on ue n ur gan mummie .. what if ur gan mummie was the one hurtin herself n she is someone goona be so close to ue .. n she's the onli one who understands ue so ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ what the hell is this ? _

i also dunno what to blog worrs . bored ? . no one pei ; life g0es on - 24o2o6 ;

i've clearli ferg0tten everi single guy ; ohhhh .. iim so happi fer myself .. i wanna celebrate .. who wan pei me worrs ? mem0ries stays .. but feelings all fade le worrs .. hehehes .. i love this feeling .. lalas . but im jus afraid got one dae wil come back those type of nightmare worrs . hahas . aiya . try dun think about it norr . hahas . aiya .. from ytd night feel veri good jiu shi liao .. onli todae in sch tired nia .. tired de wo ohhh .. hahas . im retard todae .. but sae real de .. todae de dae veri borin n0rr .. go sch .. rush homework .. hahas . everitime must walk pass tat slut's class so sians .. its a confirm i must walk pass lorr .. omg .. den lei .. start sch n bla bla bla norr . hahas . after sch veri fast jiu rush out le .. cyn take taxi fetch me ma .. hahas . once come jiu must go in straight awae liao .. hahas .. but i veri fast le lorr . den the taxi stil must turn one round .. hehes .. dun care na .. not i pay de jiu ke yi le .. hahas .. shhhhh .. dun let cyn noe .. den eh .. come home .. change .. bathe . blablabla .. alot na .. use com .. den go out again norr .. hehes .. go eh . hmms . go town .. bored hor ? everitime town ? hahas .. read moi blog de people also wil read till sians sians .. hahas . den after tat i no mood .. cos bored ma .. den wear gao gen shoe .. den i dun like . wil spoil moi mood . hahas . den horr .. todae i go cut hair nehs .. hahahas .. so satisfied .. jap jap de .. but if wear those normal clothes wil look abit funni funni .. dun care na .. i dun care liao .. hahas .. den walk town walk til sians sians de .. cyn la .. keep seein watch .. hahas .. den after tat we sit at the eh .. heeren de fountain there .. zi lian . den got one gal ask me help her n her frens take photo man .. den help lorr . i veri kind de ok . lalas .. den they keep sayin thank ue .. hahas .. den after tat i call papa come fetch me .. wait so long norr .. hahas . wait til i pek chek .. actualli hai hao na .. hahas . den i go in .. den he fetch cyn home .. cos i not hungry . den papa also not hungry .. den never go eat norr . hmms .. den we come home .. hahas .. oh man .. i love marcus mp3 man .. hahas . nice to use .. but sensor to sensitve nia .. like gerl gerl like tat .. so sensitive .. er xin .. hahas . hmms .. dunno na .. lalas .. returnin his mp3 back to him on mondae .. yeah .. see .. he so teng me .. hahas ..aiyo .. but horrs . in the end .. me n papa eat maggie mee .. hahas . too late le .. den cos of our laziness .. we lazy go down .. hahas .. den cook norr .. lalas .. nice nice .. hmms . like tat nor .. end of moi dae ..




now talkin with mogan darlink on fone ; hmms . abit no mood le .. dun ask le hao ma .. haish .. ask ask ask .. past le na .. never keep ur fotos le hao ma .. jus take it as i was so foolish hao le .. sians .. spoil moi mood . sians arhx .. haiish .. ue dun wanna let me noe what happen between ue n her .. den all bad mood .. use to be ue nu er de worrs .. sure xin yang yang .. wtf na .. wadever .. dun wan write liao .. tmr gonna be with moi cynthia n xiin na .. who wan come de call me la .. we goin kbox maybe .. or china black .. see first la .. sians .. whatever ..




mummie .. baobeix wann ue to be happi happi de kaes .. dun wan ue sad sad .. dun do stupid things n dun smoke too much horrs .. ferver de nuer n mummie no matter what happens kaes .. iHEARTxUe the most le .. we must an wei each other if anithink happens kaes .. i'll be there fer ue wenever ue need me .. im true .. n i promise what i sae ; smuacks ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ im so dead ; yet alive n down again ; i noe its moi life .. but i reali cant take it animore .. how do i end it ? i never understand moiself .. jus follow moi feelings n go ; i noe feelings are all lies .. but i have nothin to trust animore .. i hate school .. yes .. haish .. everithin's so confuse .. moi mood changes so fast .. n i jus hope it wouldn't stay angry n sad .. no one understands ue see .. im a fool from the beginning i've known ue ; back to think about our memories .. i realize its so real ; but its now all over ; it turns into somethin so cold which wil hurt each n everione of us ; . inu - moi fault ? ; i wasn't suppose to be livin in this world ;

borin dae ; what wil sat be ? ; 23o2o6 - ;

wheee .. todae same lor . normal dae .. onli after sch .. i da onli one stay back do test .. hehes .. den wait fer xin . den come moi house .. hahas . den i sleep den she use com .. hahas . den after tat she go home .. hahas .. borin dae horrs . she also ke lian la .. hahas . KC .. SYL..TS.. hahas .. darlink .. shuang ma ? hahas .. aiya .. choose SYL la .. hahas.. anithink ..hahas .. i dunnoe .. stupid ue .. ask me to give ue ans .. den i sae SYL .. den ue sae but horr .. KC what what what .. diaos nehs .. rather ue dun ask me better . hahas . . diaos .. hmms . todae after she go le .. i eat le .. bathe le .. den do mask . . shiok man .. hahas .. cos i realise moi face got yi li yi li de dong xi .. den i dunno what .. see do mask wil what happen .. den do nails .. hahas . todae i change man.. hahas . den moi hand horr .. moii papa ask me dun put bandage le .. hehes . ltr tmr go sch all moi peng you vomit blood .. lalas . dun care them na .. hahas . hmms .. thinkin back * 8 stiches .. i dun feel a thing .. i dun understand why .. everithin's numb .. * .. hmms .. dunno na . dun think so much bahs .. hmmms . dunno .. tmr jiu shi goin out with cynthia .. hahas ..




hmmms .. moi dear tiffany .. promise me not to hurt urself kkaes [ even if i noe ue will ] .. one dae .. jus one dae ue wil realize those tears fer him dosen't worth .. hmms .. although i noe myself also like tat .. but im jus tellin ue bahs .. hmmms .. mine worst den urs na .. happen more things .. so ue got nothin to regret about kaes .. hmms .. dun think so much arhx .. i wil be there fer ue .. gerl .. frens fervea kaes .. hmmms .




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vionn ]]- _ im stil thinkin of ue .. n onli ue .. _

a dae ? same normal life ? i dunno .. without ue ; i jus wanna be al0ne ; 22o2o6 -

let me see what happen todae .. im sorri cos i got short term .. so i ferget liao . hahas . ermhx .. i go to sch norrs . sians .. n tat miss chin never come . she ask me come do CA den she never come .. freak . den i cannot do .. den tmr must mian qiang go sch again .. whahahas . hmms . todae g0rt health check . sians .. I WAS MOLESTED MANS !!! . hahas . no la .. check back bone nia .. YEAH ..!! i got good back bones .. hahas . equal to perfect back bones .. hahas . im so satisfied man .. hehes . den bla bla bla na .. same norrs .. same sch .. den after tat after sch actualli decided pei xiin darliink they all go see netball match de .. den moi papa la .. sae liao i also blur . dun sae .. but the end . rachel n judy go nia . mi n xin never go .. whakakas . we wait fer papa . den go tiong walk walk n eat .. idiot man .. hahas . we todae also pig again . in sch eat .. drink .. den go to auntie shop . den eat ice cream .. maggie mee .. chocolate .. den after tat go tiong eat steamboat .. hahas . fat le la .. die .. lalas . anione stil wan me if i reali grow fat ? kekes . den after tat nehs .. eh .. we talk norr .. todae me n xin like talk xin shi like tat .. also dunno how to sae la .. den saw wee tiong n rabbit .. i nearli tore wee tiong's shirt n i pull ear til red red de .. kekes . den ltr me n xin wait fer papa . den take car go home .. she come moi house .. now i writin this blog she also beside me typin sms .. hahas . hmmms .. siians nehs .. den after writin this blog i wan go bathe liao .. hahas .. moi ah pa down there niam niam niam liao .. sians horrs .. everidae hear him down there niam .. hey people .. btw .. what if i sae i wanna turn into a bung .. what reaction would ue all give ? dunno nehs .. im stil thinkin .. wheeee .. aiya .. dunno na .. hahas . tmr also dunno go where . should i go to sch tmr ?? hahas . no i should not .. * devil * .. yes i should * angel * .. diaos .. retard me .. kaes la .. i wan go bathe liao .. he reali down there niam niam niam liao .. whahaas .. miish me kaes .. buais buais ..




DaRLiin ` BEBE ; babybytche - vion ]]- _ i miss ue ; would anione be outside moi sch .. waitin fer me tmr .. givin me a true hug .. telling me true things about he's / her feeling fer me .. n lent me a shoulder ? ilu . _ im stil a ger who has her feelings but dun make her go crazii ..