whee . i slept less than 1o hours in two days , counted as never sleep also can . hahas . well , but when im at home ehs , i don feel tired le , unless i lie on bed nors . hmmms . yup yup . don intend to really sleep tonight also lar . lols . kaes kaes . anyway oh , let's see what happen todae . wentt to school , nearly late becos i doze of at 6am while talking on fone . whakakas . woke up at 7 , how i hope i don have to go to school . i knew that i wil just go school and sleep . lols . message baby , den never reply . got that feeling he never come sch liao . roar . buuuuu ~~ den go school also never see him . even after reading period and everything . aiya , noe he never come le lar . roar . so pek chek seh . todae mei you kan dao ta . lalas .. den after tat jiu ehs .. sleep in class nors . todae very suey huhs ? i think so lar . hahas . cos today i got work mar , so after school jiu go home ler . [ tsk , i nearly forget i got work lar ] . who want yang me ? tired of working ehs . hmmms . den after tat sleep awhile nors den quickly wake up and prepare le . oh ya ehs . baby 2 something message me sae he just wake up . roar . so shuang seh , can sleep til so late . after tat he jiu go kick soccer le . hmmms . den i go work nors . so tong ku lar . hahas . drop a quesidilla on the floor todae when there's crowd in . my manager nearly went crazy becos of me . hahas . but she say's im beeter in black hair . finally i saw her true smile to me again . lols . den todae very busy ehs . so now yao suan bei tong . hahas . den after tat 1o something , papa come fetch me nors . den come home . [ currently its 12.1o am , papa's not at home , becos he went fer urgent work . damn . ] . dunno what kind of work lar . so late le lors . at cuppage there de . fark seh . den i waiting for papa come home , dan xin fer him ehs . hmmms . i stil care for him , although i do hate him alot sometimes =) . after tat now i at home nors . todae nothing special lar . just te bie de busy and hmmms . tired ? in another way ? not sleeping de tired , just some other things . ya bahs , hmmms . like tat nors . now forcing baby say something lar . den he keep find reasons run away . roar . [ UE BETTER TELL ME UR YA MEANS WHAT ARHS . HMMMS . I'LL HAUNT UE TIL UE TELL ME THE TRUTH . LOLS . ] . he nawh . keep ask me update blog asap . so i ting ta de hua quickly update nors . hmmms . so ke lian ehs . whaakas . tats all for todae bahs . hmmms .
do you wanna really know why i'am treating ue so cold . ? especially todae ? why ask judy ? why not just come right to me and ask ? i really dunch know how you could once tell me all ur probs . tell me eberything like last time . til now , i cant figure out why ue could just ask me find someone better than ue to talk with ? so what ? so what if i found one ? i have cynthia , i have ethel , i have zean , i have baby , so many . but its ue , till todae , no one can take over ur place lar . as a fren ? a baobeix ? anything .. i know u're glad im good with her now . but so what ? even if we plan to go out together . wil ue wil ue ?! u're not the only one tired , i am too . think of me wil ue ? think how wil i feel when ue said those things wil you ? you prefer to run away from things when ue cant do it . especially in love and friends . ue rather run away or hide .. i was once like tat ,, but i realise i'll stil have to face it in the end . so why not face it earlier ? i dunch wanna talk to ue todae , i never even looked at ue , i don even wana care . but do ue noe how i felt deep inside ? becos i was thinking , even if i talk to ue , what kind of reaction and attitude would ue give me . i'll receive a kind of attitude and reaction tats not ue . i'll receive ur reply like im a stranger to ue . so why hurt myself . im waiting for ue to talk to me , waiting for ue fone . im getting use to u calling . ue always run away , for example , ue cant go out with me on monday becos your mother was off that day and ue was the one who ask me not to work on monday to go out together . i waited for the whole night for ue phone . i called ue , no answers or engage or u're not there . avoiding ? even the next day , i was stil waiting . what i got in the end ? nothing .. everytime sae becos ur mother free and ue cant go out . but at least tell me . wil ue like if i sae go out and ue purposely never work and everything and suddenly i never even contact ue . ? do ue think i love smiling and laughin like todae in recess time . do ue think i smile with no worries and everything ??!! when ue walked away with patricia , did anyone tell me ? ue asked me to ask patricia , why not ue tell me yourself ? you see , now you can tell patricia and not me . why ? its not i dun understand ue , its really too bad too bad . everything is just getting further apart and its like flyin away to a faraway place .
i really need your shoulder and hugs at this moment . but how am i going to do that . i need ue to lean on . i need ue to tell me things to let me understand . i need ue to hug me to tell me even if the world falls apart and leaves , you'll always be by my side .
how wil tmr be ? i stil have loads of things to do . i wanna sleep and not wake up . not wake up ...................................... becos no one i need is here for me . i jus want someone i want and not people i dunch wan by side .. everything is going the wrong way . its all turning upside down ..
darling gerl ` those silent tears in heart , keeps quiet . she hugs her pillow and tell herself she goota be strong becos if she breaks down now , not only things wil turn upside down , everything wil be jjust like hell and she has to start from the beginning again . she dosen't wants to restart everything again , she really wanna continue . wil history repeat itself or wil future be here for her ? she wonders if she breaks down anytime starting from now , what wil happen and who wil be there ...
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
you looked happy w/o me =) . i hope you are =) .
how should i say bout todae ? hmmms . should i smile to everything tat is happening instead of frowning and hurting myself ? a simple day todae . i didn't slept ytd , whole night . cant sleep . i dunch know why . baby afraid i was goiing to be tired the next morning when im in sch . the kay kiang me was thinking i wun . lols . blame me ohh . im sick now lar . coughin . abit abit of flu . ya . baby stil say wil care for me de , also mei yoi . hmmms . roar . buuuu ~ den i went to school early today . jiaxin and judy waited for me at the stairs there . was talking and a soccer ball jus suddenly came down . damn . it nearly hurt me lar . i'll kill tat person if the ball hit on my face . =) . den went to hall and it was like so quiet . no not quiet is less people . hahas . den i say " wa biang , if anyone see me so early come sure si bei surprise de lors , must be thinking i eat wrong med " . lols . cos im always late or last min de lar . den now i so early . hahas . i reached school about 7.1o ? early ehs .. dots . i was sitting there talking to jiaxin and waiting for baby . because he lar , sitl thot he wil very fast . den the end also last min . buuuuu ~~ must early okays ? hmmms . den i was borrowing newspapers lar . and everyone was doing the same thing lors . tmr i also wan get one of my own le . cannot tahan borrowing here and there . den after tat when everything calm down le , tat means starting to sing song and whatever shit de nawh . i was so jing zhang lar . becos my skirt so short and no one catch me mar . den i stand up de shi hou , feel like alot teachers looking seh . so kong bu . i dunch wan get caught oh . hahas . den after tat jiu quickly sit down . went back to class and my eyes were closing . message baby so many times like message wall . roar . but is understandable . lols . becos he say got teacher keep looking at him ehs . den jiu nvm lors . den recess and everythin . well . i jus feel so tired lar . todae's like a dream to me =) . i walked around with my eyes halfed close . imagine how ugly it is . omg . den after school actually baby got wait for me de . say is outside class . den my last period is art . den go art room den baby say outside school . guess what , i walking down wanna go meet him de shi hou , i saw him at 4th or 3rd floor i think . i nearly vomit blood lar . roar . den the end i go first le . never even talk to him . buuuu ~~ so hurting . den jiu go home with ethel and zean . cos they outside mar . hmmms . on they way out , saw her . nahs . i thot she would " HIII !! " or something like tat but hmmms . i dunch know . everythin seems so cold . i just don wanna care , don wanna stand beside her , don wanna stand behind of her , don wanna stay around her . all i could do was walked as fast to precious . hmmms . i dunch wan end up quarreling outside school like idiot . [ well , im sneezing like hell . wil i die . i hope i wil . ] . oh ya , damn my fren , was playin with my penknife today and anyhow say i want wad play back history . roar . no lar . i was just playin lors . dots . after tat i just sat in the car and go . i dun even wanna sae bye . so can anyone feel the distance between us and everythin ? came home and was so damn tired . was talkin n talking and scolding and suaning precious about somethings . CHAN WAN XIN . ! how can ue have the same surname as me . ahem . hahas . den dunno what happen and i just slept nors . never reply baby , showiie oh . now ue also at lan shop mar . so free ehs . hehes . sae go home jiu sleep . buuuu ~ den ue neever pei me . roar . jiu shi like tat bahs . den was waken up by precious . lols . omg . they took a picture of me when im sleeping . buuu ~ i was threaten tat tat pic was going to be put up on friendster and msn dp . omg . nooo ~ this thing i wil really fan lian seh . hmmms . after tat precious going to get her cheque ehs . at habourfront . but decided not to go [ a sorry can never mend a broken heart , im glad ue noe it was hurting . =) . ] all i could do was only sae nvm with a smile . * tats why i never go with precious . hmmms . sorry oh . now they already go le . den i alone at home . jiu shi zhe yang arhs . still tired ehs . but dunno tonight sleeping again mar . =) . unable to have a peaceful sleep . tats why i rather not sleep . haas . tats fer todae . i dunch know what wil happen later in the late night . but i might blog later again . =) . take care peeps *
im tired , im tired of telling you how weak is our friendship is . im tired of telling you how close it is dropping from the cliff . how i wish i would just die in front of you to tell ue how important our friendship is to me . i tried to smile and laugh without ue here . i tried to forget about ur presence . try to tell myself everything just repeating itself . how would ue believe if i told ue all the smiles and laughter were mostly all fake fer the pass few days ? would ue believe ? you always say i dunch tell ue things . but how am i able to tell you without you here ? ue mean i should talk to ur picture or the wall ? maybe if ethel , zean and baby wasn't here this few days , i would jus break down in front of ue cryin . you know me , i will . i gave up my pride and talk to her , plannin sometings for ue . but im thinkin now if ue would even appear . tell me if ue wanna end this friendship . tell me everything . let me know fast rather than running away from me . keeping everything by urself .
i hate myself for being like tat , why cant i just continue my life happily ? the one n only day we was in kbox . ue , me , precious , zzean . rmb how we laughed ? i thot it would never end but i never thot tat things would become like tat . i wan my smiles back .
i'll slap tat chicken's butt for talking so much . chicken , u're talking too much . so ue think should i kill ue mar ? i hope i can lar . lols . nvm . i shouldn't be like this , i shouldn't care . lols .
cynthia dear , congratulations okays ? =) . i told ue this would happen but ue always say no . i know u're thinking tat u're the happiest person in world now right ? well , im sorry for not contacting ue this few days , hope ue understand . seeing ue so happy already very happy le . dunch wan my probs to bother ue . so ue take kare okays ? call me if anything . ue know i'll always be there . we'll meet up for dinner soon okays ? i miss steamboat =) . hahas . smoochies .
darling gerl ` WO YAO BAO BAO !! WO YAO BAO BAO !! MAYBE I'LL JUST NEED SOMEONE'S SHOULDER TO LEAN ON NOW . SOMEONE TO HUG . I NEED TAT SHOULDER TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO NEXT , TO LET ME CONTINUE WITH EVERYTHING . I NEED A QUIET PLACE NOW . I MISS ESPLANADE . HUGS ... WO YAO .. HMMMS . =) . * fark school * .
what's more can i do with life ? i need peace .. i need somewhere nice , i need someone nice . right now . =) . nahs nahs . im sure i'll live happily without some people in my life ? im sure i can get over things . confidence is what i need , maybe .
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
lalas . im bored .
p.s . : i accidenly view someone's profile . i was looking around in freindster . im sorry but with really no offence . if i was the one who saw the testi you wrote for her and im currently with you , i think i would jus kill myself and die . ya . i cant imagine ue would like this ehs . hais .
well . it was said that it is not my prob , so don care about it too much . but after i saw the testi and the look of tat bitch . i really cant take it . omg . i've never been like this befer =) .
darling gerl ` why do people change so much . even if ue only give them days ? i feel so damn dots now . =) .
well . it was said that it is not my prob , so don care about it too much . but after i saw the testi and the look of tat bitch . i really cant take it . omg . i've never been like this befer =) .
darling gerl ` why do people change so much . even if ue only give them days ? i feel so damn dots now . =) .
horoscopes . o4o7o6 .
ARIES .
Don't push anyone to go outside of their comfort zone yet. Be patient with them.You're a leader among your friends and coworkers in a lot of ways -- how often have you been thanked for exposing them to something cool, anyway? But sometimes, if you don't pay attention to the boundaries of others, you'll end up being seen more as a blowhard than a trailblazer. Listen to people more often, and you'll get a better idea of the size of their comfort zone -- it's probably a lot smaller than yours. Respect the boundaries people have, and don't push too hard.
SCORPIO .
Spend part of your day contemplating your future -- big decisions are coming up.With all the joys you've been experiencing lately, it's understandable that you may be a bit preoccupied with your new happiness and contentment. But amid all your laughter and celebration, try not to forget the plans you had for the future. It may seem like a good idea to listen to your heart and go off on a whim, but it's not. Set time aside today for planning, and make progress on some of your goals. Just one or two hours will suffice. Don't worry: The fun will still be there when you're done.
TAURUS .
Finishing a task will take more energy than starting a new one, so persevere!It might feel as if you're walking against the wind right about now -- it seems that someone in your life isn't making things easy for you at the moment. Either their rushed energy or their testy attitude is rubbing you the wrong way. So segregate yourself from the rest of the world and just keep focused on what you want to do today. Tie up some loose ends ... reconnect with a person who makes you smile. It's time to lighten the mood and reenergize.
VIRGO .
Remember patience, because things may not come together as quickly as you'd like.You're making progress, and that's rewarding -- but waiting for hopeful changes to take more permanent shape might frustrate you a little today. It's easy to avoid getting stressed out or feeling impatient if you just attempt to live in the moment. Accept things for what they're right now -- don't get caught up in the past or distracted by what may be coming in the future. Things will come together when they're meant to -- not when you want them to.
PISCES .
If your suspicions are proven accurate, resist taking any drastic actions right now.For a while now, you've suspected something of someone. Today you find specific evidence that proves it's true. This may be a minor secret, or it could be an earth-shattering revelation. Be very cautious either way, because today is not good for confrontations (which aren't exactly your favorite way to pass the time anyway). Hold onto what you've discovered and wait for a time when you can discuss things with this other person in a quiet, calm setting.
if you wan me put ur horoscop
must tell me okays . because this
i anyhow put de . taurus mine =) .
Don't push anyone to go outside of their comfort zone yet. Be patient with them.You're a leader among your friends and coworkers in a lot of ways -- how often have you been thanked for exposing them to something cool, anyway? But sometimes, if you don't pay attention to the boundaries of others, you'll end up being seen more as a blowhard than a trailblazer. Listen to people more often, and you'll get a better idea of the size of their comfort zone -- it's probably a lot smaller than yours. Respect the boundaries people have, and don't push too hard.
SCORPIO .
Spend part of your day contemplating your future -- big decisions are coming up.With all the joys you've been experiencing lately, it's understandable that you may be a bit preoccupied with your new happiness and contentment. But amid all your laughter and celebration, try not to forget the plans you had for the future. It may seem like a good idea to listen to your heart and go off on a whim, but it's not. Set time aside today for planning, and make progress on some of your goals. Just one or two hours will suffice. Don't worry: The fun will still be there when you're done.
TAURUS .
Finishing a task will take more energy than starting a new one, so persevere!It might feel as if you're walking against the wind right about now -- it seems that someone in your life isn't making things easy for you at the moment. Either their rushed energy or their testy attitude is rubbing you the wrong way. So segregate yourself from the rest of the world and just keep focused on what you want to do today. Tie up some loose ends ... reconnect with a person who makes you smile. It's time to lighten the mood and reenergize.
VIRGO .
Remember patience, because things may not come together as quickly as you'd like.You're making progress, and that's rewarding -- but waiting for hopeful changes to take more permanent shape might frustrate you a little today. It's easy to avoid getting stressed out or feeling impatient if you just attempt to live in the moment. Accept things for what they're right now -- don't get caught up in the past or distracted by what may be coming in the future. Things will come together when they're meant to -- not when you want them to.
PISCES .
If your suspicions are proven accurate, resist taking any drastic actions right now.For a while now, you've suspected something of someone. Today you find specific evidence that proves it's true. This may be a minor secret, or it could be an earth-shattering revelation. Be very cautious either way, because today is not good for confrontations (which aren't exactly your favorite way to pass the time anyway). Hold onto what you've discovered and wait for a time when you can discuss things with this other person in a quiet, calm setting.
if you wan me put ur horoscop
must tell me okays . because this
i anyhow put de . taurus mine =) .
drop my memories down .
should i be happy about what is happening or should i get sad and angry bout myself ? went to town todae becos IN THE END , UE NEVER CALL ME so i went with precious and zean . thinking it was going tu be a very depressing n boring day so i decided tu ask baby come meet me . hmmms . den baby say see first so i not sure lar . after tat at cartell eat till half , i decided to reply her* message . [ after one n a half day ] . and then i got reply den some things happen . [ not goonna say ] . after awhile , baby call me say they at cine ler , den say with toot toot . so when i wanted to get up n go find them at long john , i saw ??? . ?????? . ya . i dunch know how to react but i look at precious and i was blured . hmms . wanted just to walked pass but hmms . i dunch know why i open my mouth and talk . after tat told them to wait awhile and then i went up with precious to find them [ actually was suppose to go alone , but in the end common sense make precious pei me go up fer some reasons too ] . and den i came down alone to talk to them . dunch really know how to talk . dunch know how to react . dun noe what attitude i should give . dunch know what to do . i only looked at zhu because i don wanna nothing . so i just talk to her . zhu ask her to get to dunno which side and we talk bahs . like tat ? hmmms . ya . den befer we finish talking . she came back den we went up to smoke . [ not me ! =) ] den talked ehs . hmmms . how should i say ? hais . finally got a chance to say sorry with a hug . yups . told zhu i wish to forget everything bahs . so that i wun get into any more unhappy memories with them . den after tat i went down and they dunno go where oh . hmms . den suddenly saw them again becos precious said they were outside cartell or someting like tat . went out and they say they saw HER upstairs . i was not really that surprise but somehow i get disappointed . i just dunch know what reaction i should give at that moment . wasn't sure she was with who but i dunch know why something stop me , telling me not to go find her . becos it says if i zhao dao ta , maybe heaven would just become hell . and hell wil be the worst thing in life people cant take it . lols . abit kua zhang lar . but dunch know how tu sae nawh . den i just say , if see her again , just ask her call me bahs =) . hmms . tats the only thing i could do ? bu zhi dao . hmmms . den after went back to cartell with not really a good mood . really really pek chek at tat moment . [ this few days keep pek chek , also dunno why ] . den aftter tat manage to laugh n smile after baby and precious "quarrel and argue" . lols . they two so funny ehs . hees . den after tat we walked one round in cine , jus trying our luck if we can find her . but i saw nothing . my mind started flowing with her sis name . so i called her sis hp . and realise she was there . talked coldly , i wonder why . and then she said her mother had off todae . ask her why never at least call me tell me or something like tat , she told me tat " because i never call ue lors " [ somehow was disappointed why it became like tat and why would ue talk like tat but i just swollow down my throat ? ] ya . after tat i said BYE BYE AND PUT DOWN . [ i wonder ue got ting dao mar . later ue wu hui i kup again ] hais . btw i saw danbai at cine too , with her char bo bahs . dunno lar . dunno why i cant smile and give fan ying when i saw her char bo face . so pek chek . lols . i mean i pek chek lar . give those kind of face seh . shhhhh . lols . so i just walk away ? anyway i don think ue also wanna see me =) . thinking back , so many things happen ehs . lols . den after tat jiu go heeren walk walk . guess who i saw now ? damn . sophia and guan hong . fark lar . todae like my day like tat . * ps , i also saw zzhi yang * . hahas . den after tat guan hong don even dare talk to me lar . lols . she there ehs . den keep looking , i also dunno see what oh . jiu don care ler . den after tat at heeren , zean sae she tired wanna go home . den jiu go home . she todae whole day mood so bad so bad . i also dunno why . den after tat me , precious . baby and toot toot go plaza sing . hmmms . go arcade there , den they spent dunno how much go play tat dunno what game lors . just to win a hp . hehes . so toot hors ? lols . den play til so excited lar . shout here n there . hahas . but too bad , we won nothing . hahas . [ i stil got see who arhs . i think no one le . dunno , but i got a feeling stil got somebody ehs , cannot think of who isit . nvm . ] like tat nors . hmmms . den papa call jiu go down le . baby and toot toot go chinatown point . precious go home . lols . baby got one damn joke so funny nors . cannot tahan him . hahas . like tat bahs . todae precious also never chat with me on msn , keep sae i wanna snatch with her . diaos . buuuu ~ i wil not , dunch worry . not interested lar . ue know me interested in who ue stil so dots . roar . ya . like tat bahs . tats all for todae . hmmms .
todae alot things happen . hais . other than laugh like hell when wanna go home , jiu never really smile or laugh alot todae ler . hmms . all the way jus abit cold jokes here n there . smile and laugh fakely or just lian hei hei bahs . buuu ~~ still got crying part de . jiu shi zhe yang . =) . nvm . i'll accept what fate's giving me . i have no choices to choose now so i'll just continue with life . hmmms . tmr got school , siians . maybe not meeting precious le . don have the mood bahs . baobeix shaowei lar , say wan come sch outside wait for me den sae what if he come i dunch dare come out . damn . den he sae he don wan come liao . lols . but dunno wanna see who outside sch tmr . ? anyone wanna pei ? lols . buuuu ~~~~~ .
[ not quarrel or what bahs . maybe between the both of us we needa talk . ] WAIT . I RMB WHOSE THE OTHER PERSON LE . NG CHI WEN . YA , SAW HER WHEN ON THE WAY WALKING TO PS . HMMMS . GUESS WHAT ? WE TALK , WE SMILE . WE LAUGH TOGETHER ! . DOTS . SHE SAID " ONE DAY WE GO OUT OAYS ? =) " DIAOS . DEN SAY AGAIN " THE FIVE OF US ARHS . MUST REMEMBER " . DIAOS . LIKE TAT BAHS . DEN I THOT UE GOT CONTACT HER , SO I ASKED HER BOUT UE . BUT SHE ALSO SAY DON HAVE . DEN WE SAID BYE BYE , SEE YOU AND LEFT . dots . like tat bahs . okays . back to you . hmms . the worst thing bout ue is when ue suddenly got something on or what , ue wun call and sae bahs . and when u're too close with someone , you cant open ur mouth and tell her ur xin shi . tats what happen to wen n currently me bahs . now ue haf a new fren " ?? " dunno call what name . jiu shi zhe yang arhs . hmmms . now its a him . im glad ue can share ur probs with him but i dunch know what can he help ue in bahs . but if anything gets well , wil ue pls at least give me a call or leave me a nice message to tell me tat ue cant meet me or something . i've learnt to accept the fact ue everytime cannot meet me but i stil can accept the fact ue not telling me . you ask me to think about giving ue up and find others who're better than ue . so why tat time we quarrel , ue ask me not to ? few months ago bahs . why ? and now u're just giving up . i can change so why not ue ? is financial so important at this time ? isit really so important til ue can forget bout me or maybe givin our friendship up ? i dunch know about you . at least let me know you hate me or something like tat . so i'll not bother anything about our friendship anymore . anyway , just be happy with ur life if ue think without me is better . going out dosent need money , dosent need nice clothes . just a shirt and a short pants wil do . we can go anywhere we want . we don have to think of so much . its all depending on u now . hais .
precious , i feel we're getting further n further becos of her . i dunch know why but ue think so much . i can feel the gap between us . treat me beeter wil ue ?! . hmmms . i rather i have those serious talk with ue den playin . but really , im not going to fall for her . even if i wil , i stil think its impossible lar ! . well , ue think hao hao kays . ue don think so much bout other things le . stop hurting urself befer i hurt myself . i wil be much more worst den ue =) . start eating befer i complain ue to someone . understand ?! take care okays ? i miss you . =) .
school???!!! buuuu ~~ i dunch wan ... hmmms .
gerl , i not sure whether wil i be there tat day , thinking of that . i feel its abit extra for me to go and .. hmmms . i dunch know . some of my own reasons bahs . i'll try my best kaes ? =) . stop hurting urself too . not good . hmmms . =p .
darling gerl ` MAYBE THE FACT IS , SOME THINGS SHOULDN'T BE WRITEN HERE SO IT WUN HURT ANYONE OR MAKE THINGS MORE COMPLICATED . MAYBE WHAT I DID WAS WRONG . BUT I CAN FEEL I CHANGED ALOT , I WONDER IF MY FRIENDS THINK SO ? HMMMS . =) . i miss you =) . * siians face * .
town town town .
i'll be at town with zean and precious . =) . i'll either be walking alone , or peiing them revise their work at cine the 2nd or third floor that restaurant . =) . goiing prepare now le . hmmms .
ue said we'll go out today , where are you ? hais . our friendship just getting further . why wouldn't ue call me ? i call you , but there's always no response . you asked me not to work . so that we can go out today . but there's no you . i waited for you call one whole night . =( .
darling gerl ` will i see you in town ? i dun think i will . i give up hope in seeing you there . hmmms .
ue said we'll go out today , where are you ? hais . our friendship just getting further . why wouldn't ue call me ? i call you , but there's always no response . you asked me not to work . so that we can go out today . but there's no you . i waited for you call one whole night . =( .
darling gerl ` will i see you in town ? i dun think i will . i give up hope in seeing you there . hmmms .
Monday, July 03, 2006
horoscopes . well , i find its very true . so i'll just maybe put it up at least five everyday ? maybe ...
CANCER :
Hesitation is still a threat to you now, so don't let yourself overthink things!A recent unexpected shift in one of your relationships may have you feeling a bit shell-shocked right now, but that's something you can snap out of easily. All you need to do is look for the signs. Turn off your brain and stop thinking so hard, and the answers will come to you. Once you see the signal you need, don't waste time -- just move! Forget any requirements or minimums. You don't need them, and if you wait too long, you could miss a big chance.
TAURUS :
In whatever you do now, be thorough. Vital details may fall through the cracks.You'll be very particular in the things you do today, and this persnickety attitude will be a very fortunate thing to happen to you right now. It will prevent any sort of problems or mistakes from popping up. It might not be your usual routine to check, double-check and then triple-check things, but you'll get solid enjoyment out of it today. So just go with it! Tiny details will represent opportunities for you to master a situation and make order out of chaos.
ARIES
Stop thinking and start feeling. Just experience things as they are for a while.Stop thinking and start feeling. Today try to let your guard down and share more of your inner self with people who are relatively new in your life. Too much logic isn't a good thing -- your mind needs to connect with someone else's in a way that no science can quantify or describe. Leading with your heart could get you into awkward, but genuine, situations. And those don't come around too often, do they? Make the most of an unexpected opportunity.
LIBRA
There's an excitement you'll feel early on that will build as the day continues.As soon as you open your eyes this morning, you'll sense a prickling of energy and possibility. You might not be able to identify it -- which means you might not know what to do with it. Just carry on as usual, and this energy will snowball into something more identifiable as the day continues. Keep your eyes open for things that spark your interest -- there may be an invitation extended to you that offers a chance to channel yourself in a new direction.
GEMINI
No one will give you the control you need to get things done, so you must take it.It's admirable that you're so willing to work with others to get things done -- your teamwork ethic is to be applauded. However, today you realize that if you want something, you might need to elbow your way to the front of the line to get it. It's not about putting yourself ahead of others -- it's about knowing when to grab control and make things happen. No one is going to seek you out and hand things to you on a silver platter (even though you deserve it). Work for what you want.
Hesitation is still a threat to you now, so don't let yourself overthink things!A recent unexpected shift in one of your relationships may have you feeling a bit shell-shocked right now, but that's something you can snap out of easily. All you need to do is look for the signs. Turn off your brain and stop thinking so hard, and the answers will come to you. Once you see the signal you need, don't waste time -- just move! Forget any requirements or minimums. You don't need them, and if you wait too long, you could miss a big chance.
TAURUS :
In whatever you do now, be thorough. Vital details may fall through the cracks.You'll be very particular in the things you do today, and this persnickety attitude will be a very fortunate thing to happen to you right now. It will prevent any sort of problems or mistakes from popping up. It might not be your usual routine to check, double-check and then triple-check things, but you'll get solid enjoyment out of it today. So just go with it! Tiny details will represent opportunities for you to master a situation and make order out of chaos.
ARIES
Stop thinking and start feeling. Just experience things as they are for a while.Stop thinking and start feeling. Today try to let your guard down and share more of your inner self with people who are relatively new in your life. Too much logic isn't a good thing -- your mind needs to connect with someone else's in a way that no science can quantify or describe. Leading with your heart could get you into awkward, but genuine, situations. And those don't come around too often, do they? Make the most of an unexpected opportunity.
LIBRA
There's an excitement you'll feel early on that will build as the day continues.As soon as you open your eyes this morning, you'll sense a prickling of energy and possibility. You might not be able to identify it -- which means you might not know what to do with it. Just carry on as usual, and this energy will snowball into something more identifiable as the day continues. Keep your eyes open for things that spark your interest -- there may be an invitation extended to you that offers a chance to channel yourself in a new direction.
GEMINI
No one will give you the control you need to get things done, so you must take it.It's admirable that you're so willing to work with others to get things done -- your teamwork ethic is to be applauded. However, today you realize that if you want something, you might need to elbow your way to the front of the line to get it. It's not about putting yourself ahead of others -- it's about knowing when to grab control and make things happen. No one is going to seek you out and hand things to you on a silver platter (even though you deserve it). Work for what you want.
but i dunch know why it hurts =( .
maybe if ue didn't message me . i wouldn't end up like tat ? lols . i dunch know . i thought for a long tiime whether to reply . i was surprise when i saw ur number . i never thought ue would message me so i got so awake when i receive ur message . hmmms . i decide not to reply and because of just a decision i made ytd . made me end up like tat todae . hmmms . i'am happy =) to see ur message [ a simple smile ] but im sorry tat i never replied . because i dunch noe how to face if there're upcoming conversations we're going tu start . i dunch noe how to reply ue . ZEAN told me tu say my life's GREAT ! but i wasn't able to do tat . i dunch noe why . hmms . saw your blog and i realise something's bothering ue n her . i dunch know how to help and i cant . i cant message ue , cant call and everything . so i jus tell ue bahs , don think too much . settle things calmly , hmmms . i'll be there when ue really really have no one . [ with no offence ] . hmms . like tat bahs . i hope no one wil give any comment about this passage i wrote or anything . i swear i dunch have any intentions and i dun have tu give any clues . hmmms . well . jus hao hao take kare , and hao hao take care her bahs . hmmms .
* with really really no offence , and maybe only precious wil know how i feel and think truely * hmmms . i got down when i rmbed ue message me and i didn't reply . i really cant make myself reply . i dunch noe why . damn depress today and was telling zean loads of things at marina mac today , hmms . dunch noe lar , but everything just spitted out . hmmms . bu zhi dao how i feel now also . must use eraser erase of those from young de memories liao . lols . * i wished for three things bout ue , will it come true ? i never do anything with those wishes , i just wish like tat . hmmms .
baobeix , very long never see ue lee . ue bu xiang wo mar ? eu sae tmr go out de but also never call me . i got a feeling ue tmr work again . siians . can don work le mar ? sick of ue keep working and net ball lei . hais . bu zhi dao what wil happen tmr nawh . hmmms . quick call me kaes . ue also very very long never call me le . ue xin qing bu hao i also cannot do anything . ask ue ue also dunch wan ans me . i really confuse bout what ue thinking and feel bahs . ue use to tell me alot of things . but isit because we know and too close le , so you wil not want tu say . tat time wen also like tat oh . hmmms . the reason we became so close was becos ue thot ue can share everything with me . and ue told me befer ue cannot share with wen and only can listen to her probs . im afraid we would and up like ue and her . i dunch noe .
cyn , the worst thhing i hate bout ue is not beliving me . i told ue he would ask fer patch sooner or later but why ue keep say no lei . roar . see now what happen ehs . btw . till now , i dunch noe what ur ans lei . hmmms . i calling ue now le . think ue haven sleep bahs . don sleep hors . hmmms . wait for me talk finish first . roar .
precious ! take kare take kare take kare pls !! next time cannot so pek chek me le hors . todae in marina stil thot ue wan alone den we leave ue alone for too long . den ue pek chek me . see see , my fault . roar . cannot nawh . ue must take care kaes . u're just carrying two heavy bags now and climbing a mountain . u must let go of one to get up to the top okays ? don be like be oh , do things le den regret . cannot have it back le . zhi dao mar ? its not greed for ue nawh kaes . its normal . don think so much . hmms . i miss you arhs . next time den give ue more surprise . =) . i know you like my macdonal surprise =) . whahahas .
darling gerl ` i dunch know why . but it breaks my heart when seeing ue two like tat . especially ue . i dunch wan any comments on my taag . cos its my blog =) . i was suppose to write alot in my blog but i've already kept alot in heart . wil some people of you just let my bllog go ? hmmms . =) .
i dunch wan history to happen ` i want to see what happens in future . maybe miracle ?
wo hao fan ohh . hao fan hao fan .. =) . but the smile on my face have tu stay . i know = ) . my heart broke too =) . * shudup my mouth * .
darling gerl ` what happen . i wish tu know . but i know it'll be mistaken again as a fake caring =) . nvm . you take care jiu ke yi le . hmmms .
my nose is dropping , my throat is popping out =) .
omg ! i didn't went out todae =) . see , i must be very guai . lols . i was suppose tu go out lar . but then hais . my father stayed whole day at home today and i was meeting precious quite late lar . around 6 somethin . den he at there kbkb lar , den i this few days very pek chek . abit abit jiu wil pek chek , so i jiu don wan go out le . den ask if precious can come my house mar nors . hmmms . den after awhile , i go down fetch her . she jiu come le . hmmms . den we go buy things . hmmms . after tat we jiu stay . den my poor precious early morning with tat jackson arhs ? go eat , den eat wrong thing . no , its not eat wrong thinng , is she lar . go put ice into her noodles . see , tootpid . [ she must be tsk here n there now after reading this ] lols . after tat my papa buy the medicine . eat le jiu ok le . but now nehs . come back again . roar . hahas . kaes nawh . ue must take kare ohh . =) .
awww . damn . i n zean take so many pics lar . den above one is the worst one is the most i like de . lols . so kong bu seh . so ugly . dunno how much we going tu take somemore seh . lols . precious lar . everytime say don wan take with me . wil spoil pic or somethin like tat , omg . im cute . how can ue say . lols . kidding nawh . but we have our pics . dunno when she going tu put in . hahas .
tmr dunno going where ehs . precious sae her fren b'dae ohh . hmmms . sae what go paris eat arhs ? lols . dunno what hotel or restaurant lar . hahas . den no money . den dunno what nawh . tmr think going bugis bahs . go mam mam swensen . so i'll be at swensen around 2 to 4 something ? lols . so siians ehs . no money le stil must go so ex de eat . lols . so ke lian myself . now also no clothes to wear le . must save then go shopping liao . shop for clothes . i don care accesories lar . but clothes first . lols . i so tong ku ehs . who want pei me go shopping one dae n everything ue pay ? lols .
okays ! my new friend is WAN XIN OKAYS . actually ue told me not tu sae out de hors . is ue at my house sae why i cannot put name hors . so put big big de like ZEAN last time kaes . omg . zean agrees she/he's jealous becos i put ' lalas " pic . ahahas . so funny .
darling gerl ` roar . precious is forcing me to say why i took her house address . buuu ~~ ue don have tu know why . =) . lols . hahas . my flu is so worst . throat coughin like hell . n everytime at night den happen . lols . how seh ? slash me dead . lols . stranglle me .. =) . so tong ku ahhh !!!! roar roar roar .
i hate blog lar
maybe if ue didn't message me . i wouldn't end up like tat ? lols . i dunch know . i thought for a long tiime whether to reply . i was surprise when i saw ur number . i never thought ue would message me so i got so awake when i receive ur message . hmmms . i decide not to reply and because of just a decision i made ytd . made me end up like tat todae . hmmms . i'am happy =) to see ur message [ a simple smile ] but im sorry tat i never replied . because i dunch noe how to face if there're upcoming conversations we're going tu start . i dunch noe how to reply ue . ZEAN told me tu say my life's GREAT ! but i wasn't able to do tat . i dunch noe why . hmms . saw your blog and i realise something's bothering ue n her . i dunch know how to help and i cant . i cant message ue , cant call and everything . so i jus tell ue bahs , don think too much . settle things calmly , hmmms . i'll be there when ue really really have no one . [ with no offence ] . hmms . like tat bahs . i hope no one wil give any comment about this passage i wrote or anything . i swear i dunch have any intentions and i dun have tu give any clues . hmmms . well . jus hao hao take kare , and hao hao take care her bahs . hmmms . * with really really no offence , and maybe only precious wil know how i feel and think truely * hmmms . i got down when i rmbed ue message me and i didn't reply . i really cant make myself reply . i dunch noe why . damn depress today and was telling zean loads of things at marina mac today , hmms . dunch noe lar , but everything just spitted out . hmmms . bu zhi dao how i feel now also . must use eraser erase of those from young de memories liao . lols . * i wished for three things bout ue , will it come true ? i never do anything with those wishes , i just wish like tat . hmmms . baobeix , very long never see ue lee . ue bu xiang wo mar ? eu sae tmr go out de but also never call me . i got a feeling ue tmr work again . siians . can don work le mar ? sick of ue keep working and net ball lei . hais . bu zhi dao what wil happen tmr nawh . hmmms . quick call me kaes . ue also very very long never call me le . ue xin qing bu hao i also cannot do anything . ask ue ue also dunch wan ans me . i really confuse bout what ue thinking and feel bahs . ue use to tell me alot of things . but isit because we know and too close le , so you wil not want tu say . tat time wen also like tat oh . hmmms . the reason we became so close was becos ue thot ue can share everything with me . and ue told me befer ue cannot share with wen and only can listen to her probs . im afraid we would and up like ue and her . i dunch noe . cyn , the worst thhing i hate bout ue is not beliving me . i told ue he would ask fer patch sooner or later but why ue keep say no lei . roar . see now what happen ehs . btw . till now , i dunch noe what ur ans lei . hmmms . i calling ue now le . think ue haven sleep bahs . don sleep hors . hmmms . wait for me talk finish first . roar .precious ! take kare take kare take kare pls !! next time cannot so pek chek me le hors . todae in marina stil thot ue wan alone den we leave ue alone for too long . den ue pek chek me . see see , my fault . roar . cannot nawh . ue must take care kaes . u're just carrying two heavy bags now and climbing a mountain . u must let go of one to get up to the top okays ? don be like be oh , do things le den regret . cannot have it back le . zhi dao mar ? its not greed for ue nawh kaes . its normal . don think so much . hmms . i miss you arhs . next time den give ue more surprise . =) . i know you like my macdonal surprise =) . whahahas .darling gerl ` i dunch know why . but it breaks my heart when seeing ue two like tat . especially ue . i dunch wan any comments on my taag . cos its my blog =) . i was suppose to write alot in my blog but i've already kept alot in heart . wil some people of you just let my bllog go ? hmmms . =) .
Sunday, July 02, 2006
=D . babbie frens , precious , he's ours . not urs =) . hahas .
ytd ? hmmms . what happen arhs ? aiya . nothing nors . go walk walk . go work . den ask papa bluff mdm sae family got prob must rush home . =) . lols . den do one over hour nia jiu go home le . no , not home . is go walk walk . lols . well , same bahs . i've know a new fren , well . HII =) . like tat bahs . so hmmms . come home jiu sleep le . too tired . ytd got school lei . haas . so whole dae kana siao like tat . wil tired de =) . todae also not sure got go where mar . because precious haven wake up bahs . wake up wake up . i thot sae todae got meet de ! roar . ! baobeix ner ? hmmms . baobeix todae got work . siians . everydae got work . veri long never hao hao de go out with her le . hmmms . when can ner ? mondae ??! mondae we no school . den we go shopping . =) . ue lar , not me . i no money shopping ler . hahas . okays ? hmmms . see ue soon . i miss ya okays , ? hahas . X) .
why this few days the movies all nc16 or m18 de ? everything also cannot watch . hmmmms . few ghost movie coming up also cannot watch . roar . hahas . got one is BOO ! . annother one is ehs ... RECYCLE . another one is about vampire de . but dunno da title . stil got what ehs ? ohh . SILENT HILL . hmmms . and SCARY MOVIE 4 . all cannot watch seh . i wan go find movie watch liao . go buy . hahas . see see , i must buy de . not go theatre watch . aiseh .. hmmms . ytd precious they all go watch scary movie 4 . sae veri siians . lols . awhile nia . cos i working they go watch mar . den after tat meet them . lols . see them go in around awhile nia lar . den come out liao . hahas . precious . next time KFC must think what ue want befer come kaes . so no need think . hees . i mean not drinks lar. free de lei . see i so good . hahas . so next time i go somewhere ue work de , wil i get anything free =) . ? hahas . okays nawh . like tat nors . hmmms . who wan pei me watch movie seh ? cause precious keep sae i watch de is childish de . roar roar . its cute okays . hahas . =P .
btw ehs , blog is spoilt . or is mine de . hmms . everytime when i type long long de . den one paragraph or everything wil be gone . so sometimes if ue all see only got title . means whole thing gone le . or only left few paragraph , means no more le . i wil try rmb den put up again de . most of my blog wil got pics de . so hmmms . yup . peeps wil noe bahs =) .
baobeix , why so angry ? what happen ? ur father ? hmmms . bu yao guan ta nawh . hao hao take kare urself can le . told ue everyone patience got limit le but everytime act ur patience veri good . =) . hehes . aiyo . meet up soon lar . ue sae mondae de ehs . so i mondae never work ehs . money twice nehs , da money . hahas . see , my xi shen so big again . got gan dong mar ? hmmms . bu yao sad sad and shen qi le kaes ? im here !! =) .
maybe some things should be kept quiet and not wrote on blog =) . don't worry . i'll just keep . its already mine character . what can i more change bout it . its not i want people tu pity me , why till now , ue stil think so ? its not tat i want people tu fall fer me , its not my business . to tell ue . maybe till todae , friends are more important . tats why i didn't spent much time with *her* . so it makes some people thinks its my fault and everything . well , i shall not write any thing more bout what missing thing bout her * . stay happy with ya life =) . maybe its not ue who tag my blog . but im just telling the tagger who tag til like this . its my blog . i have my freedom tu write what i want , you don have tu give comments til like tat . =) . maybe just a little passby comment wil do and not critisise or anything . ue wil not noe da feeling when someone drop by ur blog and tag til like this . im not saying im guitly fer anything , jus saying =) . take kare =) .
darling gerl ` everything just keeps me quiet . da mistakes i've made , people stil thinks its fake . i know if im reading someone's blog n i see's anything like this or i have any bad memories with tat person . i might give this type of comments too . but i've learnt not to . =) . for some reasons becos im not giving such comments like someone's fake becos we have our own feelings =) . and no one would be able to understand no matter how close they are to ue . =) . scold me more if ue want , to let me understand more =) .
Saturday, July 01, 2006
love's not mine .
sunday ~
was stayiing at home tryiing to get people to accompany me go out , but hmmms . no one . really ~~ .. woke up in the afternoon around 1 something and was sitting there wondeering what wil happen in the evening or later ? thinking that todae was gonna be a very bad day , with a very depress mood and everything .. so down .. everything was just not right , and not what i wished for .. around 3 something , just got the mood to go out , but i stil cant find anyone .. joke ehs ? hmmms . feel like shopping and going esplanade so decide to go marina square shopping which is around esplanade , and i can sit at any of the view which can see esplanade .. so i can do many things at one time . =D .. hmmms . was slacking around at home , cant bear to go and bathe .. lols . stil thinking should i go out alone .. den i didn't care anymore cos staying at home wil kill my emotions and me becos i had just finish crying for unvalid reasons .. slack til 4 something .. force myself to bathe and prepare . . calling my father to get 1oo bucks to 2 .. but his fone was like hangiin . and no one can get through him .. was pek chek enuf becos it was late already and i even told myself to get out of the house by 5.3o or 5 .. sat there and was doing my make up .. after 45 mins of calling , i finally get through . my father answered .. becos he was at woodlands and sometimes the damn reception wun get through .. ROAR .. * tsk , singapore is so shi bai * .. lols . so i asked for a 1oo bucks and he was like " omg , what the hell ue need it for " .. i said , " shopping " . he said " with who , where ? [ normal questions , he always asked ] * i replied " alone . alone . hmmms . [ my tears was wondering around my eyes , damn ] .. " .. he don believe but i say , no , just alone . why ? and he had nothing to say , so diam diam .. whee . was actually going to meet him at mq but he said he was coming to fetch me and asked me to stay at home !! so i was like , omg , omg , i need lighter , later in car how to buy ?! .. den he said he was coming in 2o mins time , so i went down when time was nearly 2o mins .. was so excited nawh , going out alone nehs , shopping somemore .. lols . so went down and bought a menthol grape sweet !! lols . and a cute pink lighter .. lols .. den thinking my father was going to reach , i called him . he said damn 1o mins more . and i was like so lonely downstairr .. sobx ..so after waiting for 1o mins , it was already 6 ! .. i was like , omg ... den he came after 5 mins , he was late for 15 mins . hmmms . when went up to car , he gave me the money and fetch me there . yup . reach there around 6.3o .. so walked alone . den zhu zhu call me oh . find that idert .. but he not with me oh , whakakas . so start my shopping around .. all the way listening to my mp3 .. hehes . first shop i went was the shop which was quite big nawh , dunno what name . was looking at the duan ku .. whee , quite nice oh .. so thinking if i should buy .. den the auntie came .. so kind oh . hehes . talking so good . den i go in try . den she keep take clothes in . hehes . but in the end i only buy one duan ku . hehes . got offer oh . dunno 2o% or 1o% arhs . hehes . so happy . oh ya , that day i go shopping , alot last day offer nehs . hehes . so heng oh . den went to second shop .. ice lemon tea .. wa , buy one get one free oh , if not is offer til si bei kua zhang lar .. hehes . den jiu go see shirt .. whee . see two i like de but very ex ehs . she bu de ~~ whakakas . den buy another de , den the other free de i took the one i always wanted to have .. hehes . want to buy skirt de . but very very damn short , hmms . scared wear le very throw face .. hehes . den walk around .. saw the nice .. damn .. 6 for 2 buck only lar . so pek chek , tsk .. den the acessories , also 6 for $1o .. den i buy . dice i never buy nawh . so many . hang where den waste my $2 .. whakakas . so buy le jiu go out oh .. den walk around jiu walk til one shop .. went in , den all the shirts hang high high de . damn .. jeans all waiwai de . lols .. den saw 2 i like . one black one white . den go try .. hehes . prefer the black de , den buy nor . also got offer oh . 2o% i think . forget le .. whakakas . den buy le jiu go walk walk .. go in few shop but nothing .. den saw one shop de skirt , but very long and short de not really nice ,. the cutting so shucks !! jiu never buy le .. den no where to go le .. hehes . oh ya , nearly buy the press water de , at the cute cute shop .. think is that time that idert say de .. but see le , jiu don wan . so din te .. no where to put in my room . lols .. soon nawh , maybe wil buy .. whakakas . den after that jiu walk walk , go more than words . so big so siians .. hahas . wanna buy the voodo doll de . go pierce die that sylvester lo .. but hao xin de me stil never buy .. hmmms .. fang guo ta .. den i jiu go outdoor .. go smoke ~~ shhh ~~ den that idert say he coming le . den i ask him come fetch me .. very lazy .. cos i wanna go suntec .. hahas . den befer go down taxi stand . walk pass one shop .. 5o% arhs !! den kan zhong one shirt . green shirt . nice nors .. $14.5o nia .. lols . wanted to buy de .. but think think got a feelin that idert wan come le . so never buy . roar . so hou hui . hmmms . all that idert fault .. den rush down cos he call le .. den go suntec nors . hmms . walk walk den saw one necklance . since never buy dao necklance so i buy nors .. hehes . princess de .. so kawaii . lalas . den we walk walk , so siian at suntec .. den we go toy'r's .. whee . go play .. lols . den i go the baby de department .. den got one uncle walk .. den i suddenly thought of something " ehs , why am i walking there arhs ? lols " .. den walk away . whakakas . so obsence nors . lalas . den go arcade .. den very very fast jiu papa come le .. so dui bu qi tat idert .. come le awhile den must go . lols . den i say , " wil bu chang de " .. hehes . den go home .. den papa so surprise i buy so less tings . say why 12o [ 2o is mine ] .. den buy so less things . den i say " uncle arhs . singapore things not cheap arhs . got offer very good le hors .. " lols . den take out the shirt give him see ... rmb the black shirt i last bought ? is the lastest design and the newest design in the shop larhs . !! and he say can buy in thailand easily .. tsk .den i pek chek ask him buy tickets , tmr straight away go thailand .. lols . say i buy hundred of shirts and ku zi give him see . lols . qian ma nawh . .lols .. den reach home aiya . forget what happen le .. hahas . oh ya .try clothes , take photo but i cant upload on blog . tsk .. hehes . i'll try kaes .. den quite early jiu orh orh le .. cos tired .. yawn .. that ends for my nice sunday . i'll hang out every week or when i feel like going out myself le .. no one shall pei me unless people jio me out .. whakakas. some nawh .. some i don wan go out with de , i wun go out de , rather be alone . whhee .. hehes ..
monday ~
omg , todae's a bad day + a okay day .. hees . same arhs , went to sch early morning .. sing song and everything . home econ lessons and then recess , was messaging with my danbai nearly the whole day . den got music , eng and then science .. so tong ku seh .. hehes . todae whole day didn't even sleep in class , only slept 1o mins in home econ lessons . cos we was at the lab . whaakakas . so shuang , but vvery cold nawh . damn .. so cold so cold ~~ grrrr ~~ .. everything was alright til after sch nawh .. cos patrick they all say wan watch movie , but after that all got daiji , dunno what fight de shit .. i don care . ~~ den all lost .. den i and joey go out find them .. one bunch of guys , so kong bu sitting there and standing nawh . all talking . like no prob nehs . den keep ask patrick he keep give loads of quest . den my papa there le . den tuo quite long den force joey go first .. den we go down great world walk walk .. den they come .. hmms . so pek chek nawh . buy tix le never call us .. den me and joey got to buy ourselves .. den they went in without saying or what . kaos . go in le . cannot find them . cal them , no one ans .. den find find find . den sit down watch .. watch the show what nacho libre or dunno what de nawh .. den after that finish le we go toilet .. fark . patrick stand there scare us . but i never tio scare lar , cos i already saw him standing there . but he scare dao meverick . den meverick jump up . den fan ying so kua zhang lar. he ji tao punch patrick lors . den i xia dao . stand beside shao lun see them fight . so pai seh lar . den cannot tahan , actually don wanna care de .. den shout at meverick at the cinema there , but we stil inside there nawh . den shout like hell den walk away .. so tong ku .. hais . den quarrel til very loud .. now all never talk .. haiis . another reason also i throw my temper on him nawh .. haiis . hmmms . kaes nawh . don talk about this after noon le . talk bout now , hehes . me , gerl [ babymint ; huishan ] , tianlong and sylvester lo jiao jiao .. lols . chao hao xiao nors .. gerl come in jiu talk den take them as invisible .. actually very noisy de , but now all cold le .. den syl wan go down buy cigg but scared , lols .. gerl and me left 4 sticks .. syl no more le .. lols . tianlong dunno lar . pek chek him .. lols .. okays nawh . going to concentrate on talking to them liao . hehes . go do other things le .. bye bye arhs .. whakakas .. gerl so kai xin guo . so LIAN ARHS !! hahas .. hao nawh . see ya arhs .. byeiies .
darling gerl ` i don wanna be her , it hurts .. she hurts people and they hurt her too .. why . she don understand what has she done wrong .. let me goo .. hmmms .. sick and tired of life .
was stayiing at home tryiing to get people to accompany me go out , but hmmms . no one . really ~~ .. woke up in the afternoon around 1 something and was sitting there wondeering what wil happen in the evening or later ? thinking that todae was gonna be a very bad day , with a very depress mood and everything .. so down .. everything was just not right , and not what i wished for .. around 3 something , just got the mood to go out , but i stil cant find anyone .. joke ehs ? hmmms . feel like shopping and going esplanade so decide to go marina square shopping which is around esplanade , and i can sit at any of the view which can see esplanade .. so i can do many things at one time . =D .. hmmms . was slacking around at home , cant bear to go and bathe .. lols . stil thinking should i go out alone .. den i didn't care anymore cos staying at home wil kill my emotions and me becos i had just finish crying for unvalid reasons .. slack til 4 something .. force myself to bathe and prepare . . calling my father to get 1oo bucks to 2 .. but his fone was like hangiin . and no one can get through him .. was pek chek enuf becos it was late already and i even told myself to get out of the house by 5.3o or 5 .. sat there and was doing my make up .. after 45 mins of calling , i finally get through . my father answered .. becos he was at woodlands and sometimes the damn reception wun get through .. ROAR .. * tsk , singapore is so shi bai * .. lols . so i asked for a 1oo bucks and he was like " omg , what the hell ue need it for " .. i said , " shopping " . he said " with who , where ? [ normal questions , he always asked ] * i replied " alone . alone . hmmms . [ my tears was wondering around my eyes , damn ] .. " .. he don believe but i say , no , just alone . why ? and he had nothing to say , so diam diam .. whee . was actually going to meet him at mq but he said he was coming to fetch me and asked me to stay at home !! so i was like , omg , omg , i need lighter , later in car how to buy ?! .. den he said he was coming in 2o mins time , so i went down when time was nearly 2o mins .. was so excited nawh , going out alone nehs , shopping somemore .. lols . so went down and bought a menthol grape sweet !! lols . and a cute pink lighter .. lols .. den thinking my father was going to reach , i called him . he said damn 1o mins more . and i was like so lonely downstairr .. sobx ..so after waiting for 1o mins , it was already 6 ! .. i was like , omg ... den he came after 5 mins , he was late for 15 mins . hmmms . when went up to car , he gave me the money and fetch me there . yup . reach there around 6.3o .. so walked alone . den zhu zhu call me oh . find that idert .. but he not with me oh , whakakas . so start my shopping around .. all the way listening to my mp3 .. hehes . first shop i went was the shop which was quite big nawh , dunno what name . was looking at the duan ku .. whee , quite nice oh .. so thinking if i should buy .. den the auntie came .. so kind oh . hehes . talking so good . den i go in try . den she keep take clothes in . hehes . but in the end i only buy one duan ku . hehes . got offer oh . dunno 2o% or 1o% arhs . hehes . so happy . oh ya , that day i go shopping , alot last day offer nehs . hehes . so heng oh . den went to second shop .. ice lemon tea .. wa , buy one get one free oh , if not is offer til si bei kua zhang lar .. hehes . den jiu go see shirt .. whee . see two i like de but very ex ehs . she bu de ~~ whakakas . den buy another de , den the other free de i took the one i always wanted to have .. hehes . want to buy skirt de . but very very damn short , hmms . scared wear le very throw face .. hehes . den walk around .. saw the nice .. damn .. 6 for 2 buck only lar . so pek chek , tsk .. den the acessories , also 6 for $1o .. den i buy . dice i never buy nawh . so many . hang where den waste my $2 .. whakakas . so buy le jiu go out oh .. den walk around jiu walk til one shop .. went in , den all the shirts hang high high de . damn .. jeans all waiwai de . lols .. den saw 2 i like . one black one white . den go try .. hehes . prefer the black de , den buy nor . also got offer oh . 2o% i think . forget le .. whakakas . den buy le jiu go walk walk .. go in few shop but nothing .. den saw one shop de skirt , but very long and short de not really nice ,. the cutting so shucks !! jiu never buy le .. den no where to go le .. hehes . oh ya , nearly buy the press water de , at the cute cute shop .. think is that time that idert say de .. but see le , jiu don wan . so din te .. no where to put in my room . lols .. soon nawh , maybe wil buy .. whakakas . den after that jiu walk walk , go more than words . so big so siians .. hahas . wanna buy the voodo doll de . go pierce die that sylvester lo .. but hao xin de me stil never buy .. hmmms .. fang guo ta .. den i jiu go outdoor .. go smoke ~~ shhh ~~ den that idert say he coming le . den i ask him come fetch me .. very lazy .. cos i wanna go suntec .. hahas . den befer go down taxi stand . walk pass one shop .. 5o% arhs !! den kan zhong one shirt . green shirt . nice nors .. $14.5o nia .. lols . wanted to buy de .. but think think got a feelin that idert wan come le . so never buy . roar . so hou hui . hmmms . all that idert fault .. den rush down cos he call le .. den go suntec nors . hmms . walk walk den saw one necklance . since never buy dao necklance so i buy nors .. hehes . princess de .. so kawaii . lalas . den we walk walk , so siian at suntec .. den we go toy'r's .. whee . go play .. lols . den i go the baby de department .. den got one uncle walk .. den i suddenly thought of something " ehs , why am i walking there arhs ? lols " .. den walk away . whakakas . so obsence nors . lalas . den go arcade .. den very very fast jiu papa come le .. so dui bu qi tat idert .. come le awhile den must go . lols . den i say , " wil bu chang de " .. hehes . den go home .. den papa so surprise i buy so less tings . say why 12o [ 2o is mine ] .. den buy so less things . den i say " uncle arhs . singapore things not cheap arhs . got offer very good le hors .. " lols . den take out the shirt give him see ... rmb the black shirt i last bought ? is the lastest design and the newest design in the shop larhs . !! and he say can buy in thailand easily .. tsk .den i pek chek ask him buy tickets , tmr straight away go thailand .. lols . say i buy hundred of shirts and ku zi give him see . lols . qian ma nawh . .lols .. den reach home aiya . forget what happen le .. hahas . oh ya .try clothes , take photo but i cant upload on blog . tsk .. hehes . i'll try kaes .. den quite early jiu orh orh le .. cos tired .. yawn .. that ends for my nice sunday . i'll hang out every week or when i feel like going out myself le .. no one shall pei me unless people jio me out .. whakakas. some nawh .. some i don wan go out with de , i wun go out de , rather be alone . whhee .. hehes ..
monday ~
omg , todae's a bad day + a okay day .. hees . same arhs , went to sch early morning .. sing song and everything . home econ lessons and then recess , was messaging with my danbai nearly the whole day . den got music , eng and then science .. so tong ku seh .. hehes . todae whole day didn't even sleep in class , only slept 1o mins in home econ lessons . cos we was at the lab . whaakakas . so shuang , but vvery cold nawh . damn .. so cold so cold ~~ grrrr ~~ .. everything was alright til after sch nawh .. cos patrick they all say wan watch movie , but after that all got daiji , dunno what fight de shit .. i don care . ~~ den all lost .. den i and joey go out find them .. one bunch of guys , so kong bu sitting there and standing nawh . all talking . like no prob nehs . den keep ask patrick he keep give loads of quest . den my papa there le . den tuo quite long den force joey go first .. den we go down great world walk walk .. den they come .. hmms . so pek chek nawh . buy tix le never call us .. den me and joey got to buy ourselves .. den they went in without saying or what . kaos . go in le . cannot find them . cal them , no one ans .. den find find find . den sit down watch .. watch the show what nacho libre or dunno what de nawh .. den after that finish le we go toilet .. fark . patrick stand there scare us . but i never tio scare lar , cos i already saw him standing there . but he scare dao meverick . den meverick jump up . den fan ying so kua zhang lar. he ji tao punch patrick lors . den i xia dao . stand beside shao lun see them fight . so pai seh lar . den cannot tahan , actually don wanna care de .. den shout at meverick at the cinema there , but we stil inside there nawh . den shout like hell den walk away .. so tong ku .. hais . den quarrel til very loud .. now all never talk .. haiis . another reason also i throw my temper on him nawh .. haiis . hmmms . kaes nawh . don talk about this after noon le . talk bout now , hehes . me , gerl [ babymint ; huishan ] , tianlong and sylvester lo jiao jiao .. lols . chao hao xiao nors .. gerl come in jiu talk den take them as invisible .. actually very noisy de , but now all cold le .. den syl wan go down buy cigg but scared , lols .. gerl and me left 4 sticks .. syl no more le .. lols . tianlong dunno lar . pek chek him .. lols .. okays nawh . going to concentrate on talking to them liao . hehes . go do other things le .. bye bye arhs .. whakakas .. gerl so kai xin guo . so LIAN ARHS !! hahas .. hao nawh . see ya arhs .. byeiies .
darling gerl ` i don wanna be her , it hurts .. she hurts people and they hurt her too .. why . she don understand what has she done wrong .. let me goo .. hmmms .. sick and tired of life .
Friday, June 30, 2006
roar . stupid blog .
alah . omg lar . freak . hahas . go cut hair seh . now like a mushroom with short frinch and loads of layers . no spyke . roar . hahas . how am i going to go to school tmr with this kind of look . hahas . sure tio laugh de . sobs . hahas . but aiyo . hope my hair quickly grow nors . lols . if not like tat i really cannot tahan ehs . boy don look like boy . gerl don look like gerl . kana the alien like tat seh . lols . die lar . nvm . bu yao guan liao . hahas .
omg ! im ending up like baobeix lar . damn . this few days do de things or go de place always got connection with her memories , while baobeix is _ _ .. ya . some peeps should know who lar . hmmms . like tat nors . so wil blur blur de . make me feelings so confuse . judy also wanna die of confusion le . hahas . she kana worst than me seh . hahas . doncare her . lols . care myself first den settle hers . lols . aiya . jiu shi like tat lar . go see my friendster de new pic . got one is like above this pic de . i mean is the same lar . den the captions so meaningful . wo xi huan . another pic also . hmmms . this few days keep go town with precious . everytime go somewhere wil lookout . especially at somewhere bahs . but i see nothing =) . isit becos you've seen me n you'll hide urself . or jus walk away ? =) . well , i don blame if ue walk or hide yourself because you once said something . haas . well , this is just a sudden thought nors . hmmms . cannot run away from it de . so just let me be bahs . hahas .
wake my heart up . =) . cant get feelings the right way . so i jus wanna slap it awake . tat's all . shake my soul up too . so i can get things right . hahas . i don wanna think think think anymore . whahahas . =) .
what i stil wan write arhs . i all forget le lei . hahas . aiya . rmb le den sae bahs . bye . now busy chatting . so many people seh . tao yan . hahas . joking nawh . byes .
darling gerl ` i miss you [ as a memory or i really miss ue ] . why are my feelings so confuse . hmmms . i dunch noe . take kare . i rmb tat chicken guy . =) . i miss the way you said i look cute in my uniform and i miss those hugs =) . tats all i noe fer true i miss .
omg ! im ending up like baobeix lar . damn . this few days do de things or go de place always got connection with her memories , while baobeix is _ _ .. ya . some peeps should know who lar . hmmms . like tat nors . so wil blur blur de . make me feelings so confuse . judy also wanna die of confusion le . hahas . she kana worst than me seh . hahas . doncare her . lols . care myself first den settle hers . lols . aiya . jiu shi like tat lar . go see my friendster de new pic . got one is like above this pic de . i mean is the same lar . den the captions so meaningful . wo xi huan . another pic also . hmmms . this few days keep go town with precious . everytime go somewhere wil lookout . especially at somewhere bahs . but i see nothing =) . isit becos you've seen me n you'll hide urself . or jus walk away ? =) . well , i don blame if ue walk or hide yourself because you once said something . haas . well , this is just a sudden thought nors . hmmms . cannot run away from it de . so just let me be bahs . hahas .
wake my heart up . =) . cant get feelings the right way . so i jus wanna slap it awake . tat's all . shake my soul up too . so i can get things right . hahas . i don wanna think think think anymore . whahahas . =) .
what i stil wan write arhs . i all forget le lei . hahas . aiya . rmb le den sae bahs . bye . now busy chatting . so many people seh . tao yan . hahas . joking nawh . byes .
darling gerl ` i miss you [ as a memory or i really miss ue ] . why are my feelings so confuse . hmmms . i dunch noe . take kare . i rmb tat chicken guy . =) . i miss the way you said i look cute in my uniform and i miss those hugs =) . tats all i noe fer true i miss .
Thursday, June 29, 2006
sudden photos .
i dunch noe myself =)
roar . todae so kai xin n angry seh . half half lar . lols . never go school ~ whakakas . whhee . den never take mc . tmr sure die . sure tio gan . siians nehs . so poor thing . hais . den this morning lar . dunno whether tat father of mine is going to wake me up mar . den don listen to baobeix n judy fone becos thot going to sch . den the end 8 somethin my father come say late liao . no need go liao . lols . happy is no need go lar . bek chek is never ans fone and bla bla bla nawh . lols . so ke lian . den 3 like tat wake up go prepare , go meet precious and zean [ ZEAN , SEE SEE , UR NAME . AND UR PIC ABOVE . ! AREN'T I SO GOOD .. DAMN . LOLS . ] . den they wait so long seh . den go cartell eat , yum .. so long never go le . my last time at cartell was with roy i think or either cyn . lols. den i go meet them le den we eat . eat le go take neos !! whee . so cute . im the cutest lar . lols . den take le go heeren . go see precious de eye lash . see have mar . den don have . lols . poor thing ehs . tat time go with her also don have . hmmms . den i nearly buy the hand cream thingi .. so cheap seh . but dunno good mar . den abit smelly . the end also never buy . lols . den they sent me to workiie . hahas . so ke lian . late fer work . den todae so less people work . den customers got alot . roar . so busy . never even rest dao lors . hmmms . so tired seh . den some customers give me attitude . fark seh . i never give they give . nearly roar at them . lols . den after tat mdm put me and weiqin til 1o.15 . tat means got extra abit pay . lols . also shuang lar . lols . den after tat i go home .. hmmms . so tired . now chatting with ZEAN n precious ohh . hmmms . and judy lar . hahas . like tat bahs . hmmms .
chop all my feelings away lar . lols . so tao yan de . hmmms . dunno . i also dunno what i thinking . hais . bu zhi dao . bu yao xiang ye bu xiang zhi dao . hmmms .
i'll write bout tmr . kaes ? going soon . or maybe write later nawh . write abit more if i think of anything nors . hmmms . bye byes , =) .
darling gerl ` i hate school lar . damn . fark sch . hmmms . i don like nawh . sobs .
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
angry . i've never been like this for so long .
buuuu ~~ suddenly no mood ehs . wo bu xi huan . hao jiu mei zhe yang le . also dunno why ehs . hmmmms . i wanna shout , shout shout out loud now .. but what can i do ? think is because of school bahs . think of it jiu wil fed up , jiu wil veri fan ehs . hmmmms . damn it . shouldn't have the holidays . so i wun bu xiang go school le . use to holidays and those freedom le . wo bu yao du shu ! . don ask me to continue study . buu . wo bu yao . no use no use . ahhhhhhhh !! . its so tiring getting up early in the morning n sleeping late at night . i dunch wanna see the face of teachers and keep the school rules well . no no no . i dunch wan to get use to go to school anymore cos it sux . buuuuu ~ . im use to going out n working and i love the life like this . i don wanna change it . i dun wanna go school ! . buuuuu ~ . damn it . i was late fer school since monday and now i have tu reach sch sharp at 7.25 . damn it . its all that shawal's fault . i don think i wil reach at that time lar . i don care le . bu yao , wo bu yao . i wan my own dreams and everything , and peeps , don tell me study le den can have my dreams or whatever shit . don tell me any logic because i don wanna noe and i jus wanna listen to myself bahs . see darling liyong no need go sch , can go out because she sick ehs . stil have a dyed hair . roar . roar roar . i wan that and not like a guai kia in school . buuuuu . ~ im stil guai lar . i mean i dunch wanna go sch nors . jus wanna my own life . ITS MINE ITS MINE ! . how to tell my father ? my damn farking father . hmmmms . how tu say ner ? how tu quit ? the worst thing is i'am in a broken family lar . so i noe if i wanna quit and if i have the worst quarrel with my father . he sure say ask the damn mother of mine lar . can my mother die faster mar ? den can my father jus hack care me mar ? i rather like tat zhi dao mar ? hais . tmr don wish tu go sch , but how to pon ner ? itchy mouth of mine go ask my damn father and he say NO . fark lar . i mean why cant he talk properly lar . feel like slapping him and say i need manners too . hais . how ? wo bu yao nawh . hmmmms . siians . how am i gonna pon tmr ? so sick of sch . damn . quit quit quit . quit quit quit . roar . buuuu buuuuu buuuuu . miss lorna , can help mar ? if you stil reading my blog , and ue see this , call me ? i need ue ....... to help . hmmms .
suspecting my feelings , i wonder why . told judy somethings today . hmmms . i'am turning so not straight . roar roar roar . nonono . bu ke yi !!!!!!! but hais . bu zhi dao nawh . don wanna get into a relationship now bahs . just wait til someone i can zhen de confirm my feelings on tat person de . hmmmms . roar . its so not straight lar . damn damn damn . must wash my brain and heart and soul le . must wash clean liao . hmmms .
dots , today saw ah boy and darling . den know why she never come sch . ke lian . sick sick .fever so high . must take kare hao hao kaes ? i miss you =) . ah boy nehs ? just now talk to him on fone ehs . say what hmmms . he also sick le . alot people sick ehs . me also ohhh . hmmms . boyy lar , find him so bai chi . lols . so long never hang out with him n ronald le . those times , so stupid . lols . well well , by the way . todae after sch actually got meet kai de . but ps him . baby , sorry ohh . bu xiao xin de . i also dunno papa wan come . heng i call your fren seh . ask him ling yang ue back . lols . so funny ehs . sorry ohh . but at least you say nvm lar . and never angry . sae kan dao wo jiu ke yi le . hahas . so sweet seh . but too bad , cos i don wish to get into a relationship now . if not tat day ue ask , maybe got ans le . lols . buuuu nawh . den after kai go le , me baobeix , and judy go eat same thing . den walk walk . den they come my house . whahahas . so long never like tat le . den baobeix first time don wan go work . aiya . because sick mar . also not because of me . roar . nvm lar . got pei me can le . den wait so long fer my ethel precious de message but don have . den i buey tahan le , jiu send her . lols . den we two realise is waiting for each other de message ehs ? shi mar shi mar ? can i say like tat ? hahas . like tat bahs . den they go home le jiu call ah boy nors . den jiu start veri veri no mood le . hmmms . what wil happen tmr ehs ? wil i have the damn courage to pon in front of my damn farking father ? ;p . dunno nawh . btw , i'am ah boy's new photographer . lols . he take photo so ugly . real life he shuai shuai cute cute de . take photo like road side no one wanna care de . lols . so i must help seh . hahas . he say what must wait him sick ok ler den can take . NEHS ! i pian pian meet you when you sick . lols . like tat bahs . end for todae le .
you know what peeps ? i eventually spent $1oo over dollars on make ups and those have tu got tu do with my face . and fark it . when i have the mood for my face thing . IM GETTING FAT . AND ALOT PEOPLE SAYING LAR . AGAIN LAR . WO BU XI HUAN LAR . AH BOY LAR . COMPARE ME N JIAXIN . ROAR . DEN THAT JIA XIN TODAE AT SWIMMING POOL THERE TOUCH HAND HERE N THERE , LOLS . DEN SAY I FAT LE .buuuuuu ~~~ !!! . cannnot . i don like lar . everytime when face start good den i fat . den slim down abit face jiu kanasai . roar roar .. how how ? hmmmms . must jian fei . i wan jian fei !! i wan go sentosa !! judy say wan go de . one day okays . must asap . i wanna burn my fats off . lols . i wan go back matrix le . go jian fei . hahas . i miss the auntie there . so good to be seh . but too bad nawh . she tui shiu le . hmmms . after my last day she also last day . hmmms . i wan do alot of exercise !!! . i dunch care nawh . by one month i must slim down !!!! roar / i make sure those idiots say me de wil die of getting a fright . roar . IM FAT LAR FAT FAT FAT . why char bo got so much fats de ? so xian mu those thin thin de . like baobeix pat nawh . kana pole . lols . can wear anything seh . hmmms . hao nawh . like tat nors . just don like people say i fat also don like people trying tu bluff me tu tell me im not fat lar . roar . i suddenly feel like going kbox sing song ehs . wan go wan go ? who wan go ?? whahahas . damn , it just happen . listen . judy said i should be sent to the zoo becos of my roaring and the reason for another is because i don wanna study . * nehs * i rather go in wood bridge . hahas . kaes nawh . bu zhi dao le . wanna go le . go pom pom . do face . jiu call that idiot bahs . maybe nia nawh . hmmmms . BYES =) .
darling gerl ` no no . i don wan sch . i hope tmr outram wil collaspe . i dunno how tu spell that word lar . like tat nors . lols . i wanna quit quit quit . roar . ALAN PEY . !! I DON LIKE PEPOLE BLUFF ME LAR . UE BLUFF SAY GOT COME BACK . NOW SAY QUARREL WITH FATHER WHAT BLA BLA BLA DE . I DON LIKE DON LIKE DON LIKE !!!!! i noe its all a lie from the beginning . eevrything you told me was all a lie . including those days we hang around at chinatown .
Monday, June 26, 2006
Friday, June 23, 2006
well . todae ? fun . real fun . stupid us . hahas . i wan to have more days like today even when sch starts . i don care . hahahas . no comments . im damn tired . going tu sleep . take kare people . =) . i'll update more asap . hmmms .
don't say you love me if you don't even know me . =) .
hmmms . i'am sick and tired of rejecting people . lols . no lar . kidding . but i really don't wish to drop into a not serious relationship now . i need time to know that person so don't rush . well . i just want a serious and not a playing or what de bahs . hmmms . =) . i told myself something just now , hmmms . lols . what ever decision i make and whatever consequenses there is , i'll try to change it or leave it and not regret =) .
darling gerl ` i love myself . i love MISS.CHOCOLATE . i love MISS.ETHEL . =) . i love those peeps who accompany me this few days de . whakakas . smoochies . =) .
don't say you love me if you don't even know me . =) .
hmmms . i'am sick and tired of rejecting people . lols . no lar . kidding . but i really don't wish to drop into a not serious relationship now . i need time to know that person so don't rush . well . i just want a serious and not a playing or what de bahs . hmmms . =) . i told myself something just now , hmmms . lols . what ever decision i make and whatever consequenses there is , i'll try to change it or leave it and not regret =) .
darling gerl ` i love myself . i love MISS.CHOCOLATE . i love MISS.ETHEL . =) . i love those peeps who accompany me this few days de . whakakas . smoochies . =) .
Thursday, June 22, 2006
blog is spoilt ..
arhs . boring . my ulcer pain . wan go rest liao . shhhh . pain seh . pain pain . sobs .
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Sunday, June 18, 2006
no comments . nothing .
why should i continue to say something when you has said things till like that . i agree its my attitude . well . like what you said . i dunch like what i see . since things has stop . i don wanna say anything anymore .
i hate that sentence of urs . especiiaally when ue dunch noe what is happening .
let past be past . don ask me any questions anymore .
darling gerl ` my life's so worthless . let the people hate me .
Friday, June 16, 2006
fark . i wrote long long de . den dunno what happen tu damn blog lar . fark . don wan write le . jus simple lar . todae go east coast . cycle . play with myy new fren . a doggy named larry . and ehs . like tat lar . eat . finish . damn . farking shit .
hmmms . don cry fer me cos its worthless . don cry . really . hais . i just don like to comfort the person who is crying fer me . i don like it . damn . fark . i gort no one tu take over me tmr fer work . die lar . bbq how ? shit ehs . fark . so du lan now lar . damn . no mood nawh .
i don wan people tu love me . i don wan people tu cry or get sad fer me . just don love me . don . its cruel fer both of us . i cant have him . i think no one wil have me then . hmmms . hais . i dunno . i'am just so afraid i'll give up soon becos .. hais . see how he treat me . i'am like playin the game by myself . and im tired ehs . hmmms . no one wil have me til one day someone show me that there's something called true love and its to me =) . hmmms . damn . i don think i'll have it . hmmms .
darling gerl ` i dunch even noe how long i have tu stil wait and ya . i thought of her when i was at east coast todae . well well , her ? memories ehs . so sweet . when i was cycling ehs . those memories jus pass by . hmms . now also no contact le . she hate me . she hate me . well . all i can do is diam diam =) . hmmms . im always doing the wrong things lar . n suey things always on me lar . hmms . dunno . dunno . im tired ehs . really de . hais .
P.S. this sundae going put tattoo again ehs . gonna put something similar with xiao shan ehs . den we compare . see where good den go where next time . hehes . love her ehs . smoochies . =) .
hmmms . don cry fer me cos its worthless . don cry . really . hais . i just don like to comfort the person who is crying fer me . i don like it . damn . fark . i gort no one tu take over me tmr fer work . die lar . bbq how ? shit ehs . fark . so du lan now lar . damn . no mood nawh .
i don wan people tu love me . i don wan people tu cry or get sad fer me . just don love me . don . its cruel fer both of us . i cant have him . i think no one wil have me then . hmmms . hais . i dunno . i'am just so afraid i'll give up soon becos .. hais . see how he treat me . i'am like playin the game by myself . and im tired ehs . hmmms . no one wil have me til one day someone show me that there's something called true love and its to me =) . hmmms . damn . i don think i'll have it . hmmms .
darling gerl ` i dunch even noe how long i have tu stil wait and ya . i thought of her when i was at east coast todae . well well , her ? memories ehs . so sweet . when i was cycling ehs . those memories jus pass by . hmms . now also no contact le . she hate me . she hate me . well . all i can do is diam diam =) . hmmms . im always doing the wrong things lar . n suey things always on me lar . hmms . dunno . dunno . im tired ehs . really de . hais .
P.S. this sundae going put tattoo again ehs . gonna put something similar with xiao shan ehs . den we compare . see where good den go where next time . hehes . love her ehs . smoochies . =) .
stil crying . stil ..
i miss bian bian . i miss champion . i miss him . why cant my father let me see him ? why say til he dosen't want me tu get involve with champion . i really miss him ehs . sobs . i don wan tu be back in the room where no one's waiting fer me . i don wan tu be back home where there's nobody sniffing around . i don wan coming back home , opening the door , and there's no one ehs . i miss bian bian . i want see him ohh . sobs . where is he wors ? how is he doing now nehs ? gort remember me mar ? gort miss me like i miss him mar ? sobs . im tired nehs . tired of crying everyday , fer the different things i do that got tu do with bian bian . im tired .. even a tear or two , its stil tired . those feelings ehs . bian bian , i need ue more than him ehs ... sobs .. why stay so far ehs . stil stay at bukit panjang ehs . a place with no memories but she stay there nehs . bian bian ......
Thursday, June 15, 2006
yor're tired , i'am even more tired than ue .
sometimes ehs . i really dunch noe what im doing . hmmms . do damn farking tired lars . and btw huhs . those people who read myye blog . save ur comments . shudup .
i dunno lar . waiting fer him ? haas . sick n tired le . no contacts . nothing . fark the hell .
boyy , i also gort nothing say tu ue . why fall for me ? tu me , its a kind of sueyness lors . im nort what happy or shit is suey lar . i dun wan people tu fall fer me or what de nawh . i don like . so i should put it like tat , kaes . when im with ue , i don think of him . i thought i've forgotten him . but whenever ue're nort around , its all him . i don like people calling me times n times , over n over again . bombing myye fone like nothing . u're somehow perfeect , but sometimes there are some things ue shouldn't do bahs . or maybe i should say ehs . u're too blur . hmmms . dunno lar . dunno how tu sae nors . hmmms . those things ? haas . i also dunno nawh . dunno ler . this myye ans . stop asking . im tired .
ya lar . that's the prob . i don seem tu have any friends lar . no lar . i don mean nort no friends . hmmms . dunno nawh . why am i always the one who wil be there 24 hours like that nawh . and especiaally when i just needed someone tu wake up at 11 just tu pei me go panjang and then east coast its like asking tu go hell like that lar . i mean i ask myself why i always gort tu give in after some ue noe ? dunno lar . like tat lar . whatever shit lar . dunno le dunno le . damn it . fark life i have . friends ? haas .
no mood no mood . don talk don talk . shhhh . i've no mood . damn no mood . work work work . hais . where's myye damn pay ? haven come . shit the damn toilet bowl . fark . no mood lar . roar roar roar roar . what wen what thingi lar . dunno le dunno le . hais . bo liao . stil siding her ehs ? no no . shouldn't blame . btw , im nort blaming . just disappointed with ur reply ytd . thats all .
darling gerl ` i miss bian bian . only him can make me smile like no one has seen befor . only him . no one can make me smile n laugh like he does . i miss him . i miss those sniffing n barking . i miss .. * sobbing * .
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
IM TIRED !
ok . let see what's happening todae ? well . ytd night at 2 something . i let bian bian go ler . n im missing him damn like hell . im tired . i woke up early in da morning , cant see him . nearli called myye father tu ask him where is bian bian n rmb tu buy his food but den realise he was gone . like a idiot cryin alone in the house early in the afternoon . i wonder why . well . alone in the room again when some idiots can even say im jus acting . fark them . sometimes how i wish i could give them a few slaps and ask them tu kill themselves but cutting their wrist . hmmms . dunno . so met cynthia n when tu eat steamboat at plaza . and then went tu taka . tat idiot cynthia manage tu get a damn model agency thing . but too bad . need tu go for course every sunday n pay 550 bucks fer the make-ups . lols . dunno her nawh . stil thinking . haas . den we went tu cine tu sing song . den can drink so we order . drink til i nearly die of alcohol . i llook like a monkey . hmmms . every cup feels like chivas . so sux . stil gort what tequilla arhs . and dunno what lar . we drink different types . tats why i nearly die . lols . den after tat mmeet alan n kok kit at chinatown . so entertaining . i went there and i just die on the table . den after tat alan play with cyn the 15 questions game . and it was so funny . only me n baobeix n cyn n wee tiong n alan noe da game . so people . i warn ue . don play it . cos u'll regret . lols . like how cynthia regret . den suddenly everything stop . and i started myye talk with cyn . talk talk talk til cry . fark . and then alan peh eventually only ask why ue cry in a cold way . grrrrrrrrrr .. den papa jiu come . den went up . den hmmms . he noe we went drinking . den somehow like tio gan . den in car cry lar . farking idiot . how i wish there was an accident jus now and we would jus perish lar . fark . den meet myye cousin they all fer dinner . den come home . the end . he also diam diam . hais . den came into myye room . natrually i just slam the door n sit on bed n cry . i dunno why , but anything which got tu do with bian bian de . wil cry . like just now . i was writing mye blog til half . i rmb he would always jump tu myye chair n ue noe . jump here n there . or bark . den i started myye nonsesnse . hmmms . damn it . den probs start coming . dunnno what mp3 shit . what chi wen . what winnie lar . dunno lar . aiya , damn shit .
boyy . no one can stand mye damn attitude . pls . don give me urs . if one day . someone can stand mye damn attitude without anything . farking damn shit . i really pei fu tat person kaes . pls . stop ur nonsense . i dunno . stop asking me questions and adding probs tu everything . im tired . pls .
darling gerl ` sometimes , i wish i would have the courage tu ask if u would stil love me ? just becos of ue . i cant continue with life . im really tired .
Monday, June 12, 2006
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
i'am tired of life without you , and it really feels like hell .
fark everyone nawh . i don give a damn lar . don wanna care , anything or shit nawh . one alan . one the farking family of mine . one friends . work . what ue all stil want . my life isit . take la . i also dun wan le . what kind of shit is this ? life ? shudup lar . i don like i don like lar . slap me awake pls . slap me awake and tell me im dead . dead dead . i hate everyone ... just everyone . im really tired of loving him . im really sick of eveerything .. i wanna just tu close mye eyes and sleep and never wake up again .. im tired ..really tired .
i need ue ` i wanna see ue . but where are ue ? ue don seem tu need me . ue don seem tu even love me anymore . where is the ue i noe ? where is the me when i was with ue ? im tired of loving ue alone when ue don seem tu even care . but i cant give up . i cant . its been nearly three months i've been waiting . stil waiting .. silently . i miss yew .. i wanna see ue now , right now but where are ue . im tired . i miss ue miss ue . i realise so much things after she left , after myye girl cried and talk . its all you .
cynthia , xin hui and me openning a blog and friendster tu sell things . hmmms . it will be open after a dae or maybe later . so go see kaes . must buy arhs .. all things are selling at cheap prices . see ya people kaes . hmms .
darling gerl ` alan peh hwee yew . hmmms .
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Friday, June 02, 2006
ALAN PEH HWEE YEW .
CAN UE JUST DO ME A FAVOUR ?
CAN UE JUS TELL NI HAI AI WO MAR . ?
UE NOE I LIKE TAT CONTINUE VERI TONG KU MAR ?
I'VE DONE MYE BEST TU HAVE UE BACK .
I'VE THROW MYYE FACE TU SENT UE THOSE MESSAGES .
I'VE DONE MYYE BEST FER EVERYTHING .
BUT THERE'S ALWAES NO REPLY FROM UE .
CAN UE JUS PLEASE , TELL ME . !
HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE I REJECTED FER DA SAKE OF UE ?
AND MAKING THEM ENDING UP LYK IDIOTS .
I NOE DA FEELING OF WAITING N BEING HURT .
I'VE GONE THROUGH THE TIMES WAITING FER UE ,
YET UE HURTING ME .
SO TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW WIL UE ?
LOOKING AT UE AS A FREN IS DA WORST THING BUT ALSO DA BEST OF ALL .
BUT I DON WANNA CRY AGAIN .
CAN UE JUS TELL ME WHY . WHAT IN UE MADE ME CANT LEAVE ?
I HAD ENOUGH YET I CANT GIVE UP .
IM TIRED ..
DANBAI , IM SORRY . SORRY .
DARLING GERL ` HAVE UE EVER SEE A SHAMELESS BITCH ., WELL .. HERE'S ONE . HAIS .
Thursday, June 01, 2006
dan bai n dan huang = two egg . lols .
dan bai is da worst egg i've ever seen .
dan bai looks like a bung .
dan bai de drawing make myye tattoo look ugly .
dan bai is da iidiot i love .
dan bai saes im dan huang .
dan bai is a hongster i hate , but an egg i love .
dan bai is a flirt i wanna bite .
dan bai sux . but i stil love dan bai .
dan bai so kanasai .
504 here n there . dan bai looks like shit .
dai bai so small size .
dan bai ehs , nothing le la . hahas .
die . if dan bai read myye blog i jiu die . later he use da frying pan come n smash me . hehes . grrr . bite him . don ferget ue owe me myye hug kaes . lols .
darling gerl ` im going workie soon . dan bai is already off tu his work . so i am soon . hees .
alan peh hwee yew .
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